I heard a knock on my door and i had an instinct of who it was... they were right, it was Jesse.

"Hey Becky, its me Luke" He said in a deep man voice as he winked at me.

"Yeah come in"

"Jesse or Luke?" He laughed.

"Jesse, no Luke in here"

He walked in and sat on my bed. I was a little nervous but everytime i let that thought in, Lukes came into my head, god he annoys me.

"So this is my new mix, i just find songs that are the same cord progession, see this is the new base line and its bringing in down beats" I passed him my earphones and he listened to my voice sing. He smiled as he bobbed his head, listening intently.

"That it amazing bec" I smiled.

"So i bought this over so i could watch you watch the end of this movie, then i can die a hero" He grabbed The Breakfast Club out of his bag.

"You know how to make yourself at home"

"Yeah" He patted the spot next to him. I hesitiated but gave in.

"And an althete, and a basket case, a princess and a criminal, does that answer your question..." Jesse was mouthing the words,l just watched him, taking in his features.

"You're missing it"

"Sorry" I looked back at the movie for about half a second and back to Jesse. He looked at me and came closer to my face. I doubted everything in that second and pulled away.

Shit..

I clicked the spacebar which paused it.

"That was great...Im sure the beginning was just as exciting" We at that time, Kimmie Jin walked in with her friends.

"The white girls back" I looked down as if i was ashamed, in whiched i had nothing to be ashamed of.

"Thats me, always a pleasure Kimmie Jin and..." He looked at me and said nothing just "..yeah" as he walked out... great.

This was not turning out well..

I havent seen Jesse for two days, or he was avoiding me, one or the other.

I went over to his dorm and knocked on his door. Benji answered.

"Hey Beca"

"Hey Benji, have you seen Jesse?'

"This morning"

"Do you know where he is?"

"Im not sure,... hey bec, can i ask you a question?"

"Yeah"

"Why didnt you want me to tell Jesse about that night?"

"I didnt, still dont know where we are. I dont let many people in... i push them away. Its easier and i dont know Jesse's feelings... he was drunk and vulnerable. I dont even know my own feelings and im not sure i want to know his feelings. ive been independant since i can remember and i dont need someone to lean on, because then ill crumble i guess"

"I understand,I used to have a girlfriend, but she cheated on me with my best friend at the time. I was crushed and thats how i turned into this quiet, some say wierd, covered person"

"People must underestimate you. They judge you before they know you, its easy to do it but its hard to accept. You really are a good friend Benji"

"Thank you, and from what ive heard from Jesse, so are you"

"what?"

"Yeah, he says how much you are friends and good you are to him" He just made up my mind for me. it was time to forget our little stupid moments and his cute moments because we are just friends.