A/N: ayeee, so sorry for the late update and I'm really glad that you guys are enjoying this story.
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Disclaimer: this should have been done in the first chapter but I forgot hehe, well anyway if some of you suspect that own DBZ then you're wrong...
'I hate you, I fucking hate you'
Those words have been playing in his mind like a broken record, his wife's crying face and his son's disappointed and angry expressions were all he sees now. In this solitude he was graciously given, he had the chance to wallow in self-loathing. He kept himself in the little cottage they gave him in Uub's village, every now and then someone would come around and bring him food, he would only leave his cottage if he had to. Everyone else seemed to understand his need to be left alone, he appreciated that.
One question though, was it worth Losing his family? Chichi now hates him, his son, Gohan the one he never expected would come a day when he bore ill feelings for is angry with him. Goten no doubt about it hates him even more, he's never been around for his youngest and he's even a bigger of a mama's boy than Gohan ever was.
It wasn't in his intentions, God only knows it wasn't, he never meant to hurt his family and especially his wife. Some part of him even reasoned that it was best for her, that Chichi can now stop worrying about him and stop waiting and move on to a better life.
He sighed, the idea of Chichi hating him is becoming unbearable. And what about his sons and grandchildren? He's never going to be welcomed in their presence again, is he?
There was a nock on the door followed by a squeak, his eyes were directed towards the door. She walked in looking slightly nervous. he was grateful, that in the past days she understood his need for solitude. Her short hair was let down and somehow it reminded him of his own wife and immediately his stomach did a backflip as guilt came gnawing at his soul.
She tucked a strand of raven hair behind her ear avoiding eye contact with him. Maybe she was more nervous than he thought?
''I know you don't want the company? But I had to see you " he kept silent thinking her words over, she finally looked him in the eyes, he could see worry, sadness and hope, maybe she thought she was losing him? Maybe she was right?
''can I sit beside you? '' he nodded and she did what she intended. She sighed and gently whispered ''I missed you''
He didn't know what to say, he couldn't say that he honestly missed her too, not with all the guilt, regret and sorrow that have been eating him from the inside. He ran a frustrated hand through his raven locks. He didn't want those feelings for her if it meant losing his family but it wasn't something he could help. She came crashing into his life, literally. She was adventurous, strong willed and kind and he slowly started to develop those feelings for her.
He turned his head towards her, looking intently into her glistening green eyes, placing her delicate hand on his rough one "what's going to happen to us ?''
''I don't know'' he answered bluntly and honestly he really didn't know.
''I want us to be together'' she looked into his eyes. he could tell she was desperate for him, slowly she inched her face closer, close enough to feel her hot breath on his lips.
Her soft lips brushed against his waiting for a response, maybe even a rejection but there was none and then she kissed him and he instinctively kissed back. The kiss was desperate and passionate, wrapping her arms around his neck, deepening the kiss they're sharing, her hands running through his hair as she traced his lower lip with her tongue begging for entrance which was granted, their tongues exploring each others wet caverns.
Goku wrapped his arms around her waist and brought her into his lap, straddling his hips. He wanted this, he needed the comfort.
They never done anything more than kissing before, not that he didn't want to, it just never felt right.
She moaned into their kiss. One hand left his hair and gently rubbed his hard pectorals, grazing her nails on his hard yet smooth skin. He moaned and she can feel his hands exploring her body before it settled on her breast, gently mending the soft flesh. Another moan into their kiss before she pulled away from his lips in a desperate need for air. her lips soon found its next target as her hands fumbled with the sash around his waist. She traced kisses along his chiselled jaw and down his neck suckling his skin.
Goku closed his eyes as his body responded to the touches of the women in his arms, he let out a contended sigh trying desperately to block everything else and surrender completely to the pleasure his body was receiving, but then, all of a sudden it happened again..
The image popped up in his mind, even now, even when he tried his hardest to block it.
The crying image of the aging yet still beautiful face of his wife popped up again, she looked so hurt. Almost as if she was dying.
And then there was the rest of his family, and he knew he already made his decision.
Gently he grasped her arms, prying her off him. He met her confused expression, his face portrayed a mixture of emotions, remorse, regret, sorrow and mostly guilt. He saw her panicking a little and he drifted his gaze away from her, he felt like she was a victim to this too.
''I can't '' his voice came out as a whisper but she heard him
''wh-what do you mean? '' she stammered on her own words already sensing the inevitable. He returned his gaze to her ''this shouldn't have happened, Exie. I need to get back to my family''
she clung to him as he tried to get up, tears already welling in her eyes ''you can't do this, Goku. We waited for this for so long''
He sighed ''I don't want to lose my family, I don't want them to hate me forever''
''they're not going to'' she stroked his cheeks gently and continued ''they'll eventually forgive you, they can't stay mad at you forever, they love you and they'll come to understand what's between us'' she looked at him pleadingly, trying her best to hold off the tears ''please, Goku. Don't break us... We love each other... You love me, don't you? ''
He looked at her for a while, part of him wanted to yield to her words. He stated calmly ''it doesn't matter what my feelings are. What if they won't ever forgive me? I can't take that risk''
She looked down and he pried her off him. He stood up and tied his sash again and made his way towards the door until he heard her voice ''they won't accept you back you know. She'll never accept you back, it's not as simple as you make it out to be. You've already walked out on her... On them''
He didn't turn to face her but he knew she was already crying, he can smell the salty tears ''I know .. But I'm going to do whatever it takes to get them back'' he stated and continued his stride towards the door, his hand already reaching out for the door knob.
''what about us, Goku? Our happiness?'' she softly asked, her voice was shaky and she was already sobbing ''what about me? ''
He turned his head this time. Her tears stricken face was hard for him to bare but he knew he couldn't stay.
''I'm sorry! '' that was all he was able to say and he meant it with all his heart. He knew it wouldn't be enough but he had a family to get back to. With much determination, he walked out of the room. He knew Chichi wouldn't be welcoming him with open arms but he's going to do whatever it takes to make her forgive him again, even if it meant getting down on his knees and beg for forgiveness ..
Being a professor, he should be paying more attention to his students. Gohan usually catches anyone that even tries to cheat during the test, thanks to his Saiyan senses but today though, Gohan wouldn't even notice if notes started flying across the classroom. His mind wasn't even in this classroom.
His mother, he couldn't even sense her and it was starting to get unsettling.
He was surprised at first when she wanted to go away, he didn't think Bulma could actually convince his mother on going on 'a vacation' and part of him was glad that she was making an effort to get bettter. The other part of him though warned him that it was all too suspicious, their mother hardly given them any information on where she was going or for how long but the thing that really flourished his suspicions was his mother's last statement
''if you can't sense me then don't worry about it, I'm fine''
Why wouldn't she want them to sense her? He figured Bulma had a hand in this because he knew his mother had no idea how to mask her Ki. He had had asked his mother that question though, and god forbid, Goten wouldn't. Their mother though merely shrugged saying that she didn't want them following her and she wanted to be alone on this 'vacation' still it didn't make sense to him, they wouldn't bother her if she asked them to, maybe it was to keep away their father? If he ever decided to come back that is.
besides what if something actually happened to her? This way they wouldn't be able to sense her if something was to happen. his mother who seemed to have a ready answer for everything told them that she can take care of herself. In the end Gohan had relented to her wishes shrugging off the uneasy feeling in the pit of his stomach. He was worried, of course but if that trip would make his mother feel better, then he wasn't about to complain.
Suddenly there were several gasps in the classroom, all of his students seemed to be fixated on something though he didn't need to see it himself, he already knew who it was. He glared at his father from the corner of his eyes behind his thick eyeglasses, Goku, apparantly decided to pop up out of no where in his class and startle his students. Gohan kept his cool, trying his best not to make a scene in front of his students.
''I can't sense your mother'' Goku stated seemingly on the verge of panicking and Gohan knew why. He narrowed his eyes, maybe he'd let his father suffer for awhile.
''would you mind waiting outside, please? We're in the middle of an exam here '' he asked in the most formal way. He noticed his father stiffen at his cold tone before that determined expression plastered on his face.
''No! I want to know what happened to Chichi'' he should have known his father would be persistent ''I can't leave class now, so would you please wait outside for 15 minutes ?'' from the looks of things, though obviously angry his father complied as he stepped outside the classroom but stood firmly outside the door watching and waiting until Gohan came out.
During those 15 minutes, Gohan tried not to look at Goku. The students one by one handed their test sheets and left. By the time Gohan stepped outside the door, his father was waiting for him though he passed his father and headed towards his office, he didn't want to 'talk' in the hallway, this should be done in private.
Goku hastily chased after his son while Gohan ignored him until he reached his office, he left the door open so his father would come in. As soon as he was inside he shut the door and stood in front of the man who was the source of his problems, their problems. He crossed his arms and looked at his father waiting for him to speak.
''di-did something happen to your mother? ''
''Geeze, dad. You look worried '' he mocked receiving a glare from Goku ''just answer me''
''why do you care all of a sudden? You didn't care when you left for five years training some kid you don't even know, and you didn't care when you came back asking for a divorce just because you met some whore along the way'' he stated bitterly.
''she's not a whore and I do care'' Goku yelled ''just tell me what happened to your mother''
''she's fine!" Gohan yelled back ''so you can go back now and not worry about feeling guilty ''
''I need to talk to her I searched our house and yours and I couldn't find her'' Goku said, his eyes almost pleadingly.
Gohan stared back ''let me guess, you still want divorce? Well don't worry about that, you've already died TWICE so basically your vows have been broken a very long time ago''
''it's not about the divorce ... Gohan, I know you're mad at me and I'm really sorry for what I've done but I have to talk to your mother, I need to fix things...'' he looked at his eyes pleadingly ''please, Gohan''
Gohan sighed, slowly he's feeling all his walls are crashing down he's still angry but he just couldn't refuse when his father was like that ''she left on vacation, she didn't tell us where she went''
''but why can't I sense her? Did you teach her how to mask her Ki'' Goku asked.
''No... You can ask Bulma she's the one who arranged this vacation''
Goku nodded and gave a sad smile ''thank you, son'' he put two fingers on his forehead but he was halted by his son
''before you go dad'' Gohan spoke in the same cold demeanor he sported since he saw his father ''if anything happened to my mother this time, you better be prepared to face the consequence''
He saw his father's sad expression as he nodded again and disappeared in the blink of an eye. He sighed, no matter how hard he tried he couldn't bring himself to refuse his father's request, maybe it was selfish of him but he really wanted his parents to fix their problems and get back to the way they used to be.
He found himself in a place he hasn't been to in a very long time, Capsul Corps. He was standing in their kitchen. Vegeta sat on the table eating with his dauhter, Bra which Goku thought was Bulma at first, the girl stopped eating and gawked at him, and Vegeta just simply continued eating, watching him from the corner of his eyes. For now he wanted to ignore those two as his eyes searched for the older blue haired women, no sooner than he started he found her, standing there cooking at the stove, before he called for her though, he heard vegeta's voice.
''Kakarot, what brings you here?" he questioned as Goku turned his attention to him. He wasn't smirking like he thought he would be, though he raised his eyebrow in amusement maybe? Goku wasn't sure.
''I came to see B-'' he couldn't finish as Bulma's palm connected with his face, obviously she knew. He glanced towards Vegeta just to find that he was now smirking while his daughter kept her dumfounded expression.
''how could you do that to Chichi? '' she yelled. He sighed as he saw the disappointed look on her beautiful face.
''I'm sorry, but I need to know where she is'' he mumbled, he couldn't help it he was starting get used to this kind of treatment, yet that didn't feel any less uncomfortable.
''why should I tell you? Don't you think you've done enough? '' she spat.
''I don't have time for this'' he groaned '' I just want to talk to her, Bulma. So please tell me where she went'' he pleaded calmly, his voice full of shame.
''No. Goku, just leave her alone, you've hurt her enough'' she retaliated angrily and he was already getting frustrated.
''what do you want from her this time, huh Goku? Another plea for divorce? '' she inquired folding her arms under breasts.
''No!" he huffed, this was even harder than dealing with his own son, and he couldn't really shake that feeling that something really bad would happen if he couldn't find her soon.
''then what? You leave for five years, you don't even call or visit and then all of sudden you come back and the first thing you do is break your wife's heart all over again... You know she waited for you, Chichi always waited for you ... Every time you left or died...If I were her, I would have left your sorry ass a very long time'' the blue haired genius berated as he listened, he wasn't sure how to argue with that, everything she said was true and it only added more to the guilt he was feeling. He kept his head down, it was the only thing he can do at the moment.
''women, just tell him'' Vegeta grunted. He knew what the younger Saiyan was feeling. his initial reaction on the whole fiasco was shock of course, he couldn't believe that Kakarot was actually having an affair let alone want's a divorce, he didn't think he had the mentality for it, and judging by how he was looking at this given moment, it seems he was partially right. though Vegeta never cared about the third class Saiyan's marital life, he had questioned how they functioned togather with her continuous screeching and Kakarot's ever lasting childish behavior, he had to admit though, he held a slight respect for her, she had more Saiyan qualities than her own husband but maybe that was the problem?
effectively receiving a glare from his wife who scoffed ''stay out of this, Vegeta. This doesn't concern you''
''I'm tired of you whining to me about wether she's okay or not, so yes it does concern me'' he retaliated. Goku was immediately alerted, concern replacing his earlier emotion ''why wouldn't she be okay? '' he inquired, eyebrows furrowed, desperately waiting for an answer.
Bulma opened her mouth to utter another snide remark before she was cut off by her husband ''she took the radar''
''dammit, Vegeta'' Bulma screeched ''I'm never telling you anything again'' Vegeta rolled his eyes.
''Bulma, what did you do to Chichi's Ki? '' Goku demanded, something's wrong, he just knew it.
''none of your busine-''
''women, just tell him about the damn device you made'' Vegeta interrupted once again. Bulma growled, she promised Chichi not to tell them anything, especially not Goku, but then again she was worried about her friend, remembering her last conversation with the raven haired female.
...
Turning her torso towards her friend, Chichi spoke '' well first, I need the dragon radar''
Bulma's face lit up ''so you are going dragon ball hunting, it'll be great Chichi, you and I are going to have so much fun''
Chichi shook her head ''No, Bulma. I'm doing this alone'' Bulma's face immediately fell ''but Chichi, It's not that easy to collect the dragon ball, you need someone with you in case something happened '' she argued, she wasn't sure why Chichi wanted to do this alone or what she'll be wishing for.
''I want to do this alone'' Chichi calmly stated and continued ''and... I want you to do something so that no one can trace my energy ''
''what? '' Bulma shrieked ''what for, Chichi?"
''I just don't want anyone following me'' she answered apprehensively.
''but what if something happened to you? No one will know about it this way'' Bulma tried to sound rational
''nothing will happened to me, I can take care of myself ''Chichi countered haughtily.
Bulma sucked in her lips, she really wanted to disagree but she knew how stubborn her friend was ''I don't know, Chichi. It's too dangerous for you to leave alone and no one can sense you''
Chichi groaned, turning her head to the side and Bulma continued '' can you at lease tell me what you're planning on wishing? '' she asked hoping it wouldn't be something crazy.
''just something to make me feel better'' Chichi vaguely answered looking into her friend's worried eyes, Chichi pleaded again ''please, Bulma. You promised you'd do this for me ''
Bulma looked at her friends already regretting the promise she made, knowing Chichi wasn't exactly in her best mental state, letting her go dragon ball hunting alone could lead to something disastrous but then she couldn't refuse her friend's plea. She sighed and reluctantly nodded.
...
The last she saw of her friend was yesterday's morning where Bulma handed her the Ki suppressor, a device she has made a long time go for whatever reason, she couldn't really remember, it was just one of those inventions she made just 'in case'. After she handed Chichi everything she needed for her trip, Bulma told her not to do anything crazy, in hopes that she wouldn't though Chichi merely snickered and left making Bulma all the more worried than she was before. She huffed again, debating wether to tell him or not.
''Bulma! '' Goku exclaimed impatiently, his eyes showing a mixture of anger and dread. Running a hand through her blue hair, Bulm exhaled "I gave her a pair of earrings, something I invented along time ago, they're supposed to make the person who's wearing them undetectable by those who can sense Ki'' she explained rather hesitantly
''did she tell you what she wanted to wish for? ''
Bulma fidgeted with her shirt ''n-no... She said it was something that would make her feel better '' she replied nervously ''I think she maybe wants to wish herself younger or something''
Vegeta snorted ''I'm pretty sure that's exactly what that emotionally unstable women is wishing... That's why she didn't tell anyone and made you give her those devices '' he stated sarcastically. Goku was more alarmed then ever and Bulma had a guilty expression.
''I need to find her ... Now '' he stated in a state of panic, he looked at the Saiyan prince that was still sitting on the kitchen table ''I need your help, Vegeta''
Usually the Saiyan prince would most likely refuse to be dragged in other people's mess, let alone the third class Saiyan's mess, though he would never admit it he was woried too
Bra watched as her father and his rival took off, her mother gloomily sat down with her hands rubbing her face, she has watched the entire interaction between her parents and their friend and she was more confused than ever ''what the hell just happened''
He circled the earth numerous time by now and he couldn't find a trace of his wife. The sun was setting and he knew without her Ki, it was like looking for a needle in a haystack. It was futile.
Nothing was going as he wanted to, why did it come to this? He was supposed to sit down with his wife and beg for forgiveness.
Why couldn't he shake the horrible feeling inside him?
It wasn't long before he felt that distinct energy, the sky filled with dark clouds, Chichi has summoned the dragon.
Finally he had a lead, without a second passed, Goku flared his Ki flying to where that energy is as fast as he could, he was in a race with time, he had to get to her before she made her wish, that much he knew he should do.
Goku was too engrossed in his own thoughts to notice the two figures following. Vegeta having sensed the eternal dragon's energy he followed it. Piccolo on the other hand wasn't exactly invited to their little search party but he has took it upon himself to assist his younger kinsman in guarding this planet. Feeling the dragons energy, Piccolo knew better not check things out, the dragonballs have been used numerous times by the hands of evil before, he certainly was not going to let another Frieza fiasco repeat itself.
Piccolo wasn't sure why both Vegeta and Goku were ahead of him, but from the looks of things they knew something, he didn't. He hasn't seen his friend since he got back, he would have loved to say hello but judging from how distressed Goku's energy was, the Namekian warrior knew it was not a time for greeting and that things were probably worse than he thought. Turning towards his second option, Vegeta looked to be in a better state than Goku ''Hey, Vegeta. What's happening''he asked. The Saiyan Prince answered with a disgruntled look. In all truth though, Vegeta wasnt sure how to answer the Namekian, hell maybe that women wasn't as crazy as he thinks she is, maybe she is just wishing for something ridiculous as making herself young again? Still they couldn't take that risk, if anything is certain, the dragonballs are dangerous.
He could see it now, glorious in structure and from the looks of things he wasn't too late. He can see her now, so far and looking so small, her figure getting bigger as he got closer, illuminated by the glow from the eternal dragon, her small body slumped down on her knees and her hands moved. His eyes focusing on her every movement.
He was close now, close enough to see her face. She was crying, tears streaming down her cheeks. And eyes clutched shut. He called out her name but she didn't seem to hear him.
Time seemed to pass by so slowly in those seconds her mouthed opened to form a set of words, his mind registered and he wished it wasn't what he thought it was.
'no!'
Suddenly she seemed so far and he had to get to her, he had to reach her now, because he knew that if he didn't, he'd lose her.
'wait..'
Light engulfed her and it pulsed, it happened so slow... So slow.
'don't leave'
Finally he was there, one foot touched the solid ground and arms frantically wrapped around her.
'I got you'
But there was nothing ... He fell on the rocks only for his arms to support him.
Chichi was already gone.
''your wish has been granted" he heards the word, he wished he didn't and he stared back in horror as lightning struck the balls and then they were lifted and scattered .. Gone, just like his wife.
Two pairs of feet stepped down behind him. Vegeta looked confused, eyes locked on the back of the warrior before him, what happened? The younger Saiyan suddenly transformed to a super Saiyan and charged towards his wife as a ball of light surrounded her and just like that she disappeared. He looked at the Namekian beside him, eyes widened and beads of sweat rolling down his face and the prince could have sworn that his usually green skin looked a shade paler.
Vegeta looked back at his long time rival and he abruptly turned towards them, face drained of all color and the look on his face was one he's never seen before on the usually optimistic Saiyan, a mixture of horror and despair
''sh-she's gone.. I-I thought I had her but...'' Vegeta stared in shock as his younger kinsman stammered on his own words, his body was trembling and so did the ground beneath them as his energy rabidly increased due to his emotional turmoil.
''calm down, Goku. We can still use the Namekian dragon balls to bring her back'' came Piccolo's frantic voice. Immediately Goku's expression turned to a more hopeful one
''right!"
Something's is wrong, that was his current thought as he stood outside his house, eyes staring into the distance. Everything happened so fast, one minute he could sense Shenron then he sensed Goku, Vegeta and Piccolo followed by the slight tremor of earth due Goku's escalating energy. Then all of a sudden, all three energies disappeared shortly after Shenron.
Something's definitely wrong.
Is it a new enemy? But that can't be because he couldn't sense any unfamiliar Ki out there unless they were androids like 18 and most importantly, who summoned the eternal dragon?
He hoped it wasn't something serious, not with his mother out there and he couldn't sense her-
''but I wanna go with you, dad'' he heard his 9 year olds niece's voice from his brother's house next door
''pan, just stay with your mother and don't argue'' his brother said firmly.
''But-''
''just what do it, Pan'' he saw Gohan moving away from his now scoffing daughter as she turned and walked inside her house.
His brother reached him and he asked ''did you sense it too? ''
''Yeah!" Gohan answered with a concerned look
''what do you think is happening? ''
''I don't know ... I'm going to see Dende'' the professor levitated off the ground, ready to take off towards the Lookout.
''I'm coming with you'' Goten followed
During their flight, the two brothers haven't uttered a word to each other. Every now and then Goten would glance at his sibling, he knew his brother well enough to know that something is bothering him ''is there something you're not telling me? '' he questioned
Gohan sighed ''dad came to see me today'' and at the mention of his father, Goten scowled ''what does that bastard want now ''
Gohan immediately shot him a disapproving look, it didn't matter how wrong his father was, he's still their father ''Goten!'' he reprimanded. Goten merely ignored it ''well?"
Another sigh escaped Gohan's lungs ''he wanted to know where mom was''
The younger of the two Demi-Saiyans growled ''what does he want from her now!? ''
''he said he wanted to fix things'' Gohan explained though it seemed to only increase his brother's agitation ''Fix things? Exactly how is he planning on doing that after the mess he's done" he asked incredulously. Gohan shrugged, he wasn't sure what his father was planning to do or if his mother would ever find it in her heart to forgive him despite the small hope he had in his heart.
''wait... You don't think what we sensed earlier has something to do with mom, do you? " Goten asked with a worried tone. Gohan wasn't sure how to answer that but he had his assumption and he hoped he was wrong ''we're already here, let's just go see Dende! "
Disaster
It was a plain and utter disaster, he wasn't sure why that foolish women decided to make that wish but now she's gone, permanently.
It was horrible, not even Porunga can bring her back, the dragon has stated that Chichi does not 'exist' in the living realm nor the other realm anymore, she had vanished, literally, just like she wished for.
Piccolo sighed, as if things weren't bad enough, now he had to be the bearer of bad news considering that the husband isn't about to say anything anytime soon, standing there with his head held down and his bangs covering his eyes, he felt pity for the younger Saiyan, Goku seemed to be devastated, he hasn't uttered a word ever sense they heard Porunga's answer, he knew that this whole ordeal had something to do with him, what he didn't know is what drove her to make such a wish, he never thought that she had any suicidal tendencies, hell he saw her survive her husband's death and much worse, that women was strong, so what made her make that wish?
And now he wasn't sure what to tell her two sons that demanded answers. He knew that despite Chichi being an overbearing mother, her children held her in high place, especially Goten and in all honesty, he was saddened by all this too.
''what's going on here, why are you all so silent? " Gohan inquired, suspicion evident in his voice. Piccolo wondered if it was best to not tell them the truth until they found a way to bring Chichi back, but then again not even Porunga could do so what chances do they have? None.
With much difficulty, Piccolo decided that Gohan and Goten deserved to hear the truth ''Gohan...''
Gohan faced him, eyebrows lowered and waiting patiently for his answer ''your mother summoned Shenron'' he paused not knowing how to continue "so it was her'' he heard Goten say and he only nodded.
Ignoring his younger brother Gohan needed more answers, obviously they saw his mother and from the glum look on their faces his suspicion might not be far off the bat and he was getting more anxious by the second ''well? You obviously seen her so where is she? What did she wish for?''
Piccolo exhaled and grimly stated ''you're not going to like this, Gohan but your mother ... made a suicidal wish''
A gasp escaped Goten's lips, and his heart beat ferociously ''you- you mean she wished herself dead!?"
''No, She wished herself to vanish from this world'' Piccolo answered and watched as the younger demi-Saiyan's face displayed horror, his eyes widened and mouth ajar, and his body started to tremble, it seemed all his nightmares suddenly came true.
Gohan was trying to keep his composure and his mind struggling to keep a rational thought ''this is fixable, right? We can still ask Shenron to reverse the wish! '' he stated hopefully.
Piccolo bit his lips ''I'm not sure Gohan'' he tightened his jaw ''we've already asked Porunga...'' he looked down unable to deliver the knews to his friend..
''and?" Gohan inquired impatiently, still lingering onto some hope and he needed a confirmation. Piccolo opened his mouth only to be thankfully interrupted by the Saiyan prince ''your mother doesn't exist anymore, not in this realm nor the other realm... She has literally disappeared off the face of the entire universe''
''what are you saying? That she disinterested into thin air, body and soul? '' he argued, his mind just couldn't accept what he was just told.
''that's exactly what we're saying, brat''
Gohan frantically ran a hand through his hair ''this isn't possible...''
''this is all your fault'' Goten stated in an eerily calm voice. Everyone turned their attention to the distraught young man, tears streaming down his face, teeth bared and hands clenched tight, he was drawing blood, his angry gaze directed at his father who kept his head down, readily accepting whatever thrown at him.
''you killed her... You killed my mother''he yelled, his voice shakey, It took Goten less than a second for his hair to drastically change color and lunged at his father, no one had the time to react as his fist connected with Goku's jaw. The father stammered backwards not even bothering defending himself as another fist punched him in the stomach. Goten grabbed Goku by the collar, lifting him up though the instant his eyes settled on Goku's face, he froze at the sight... His father was crying.
His eyes slightly widened in recognition, in his entire life, Goten not once did he see his father cry, not even when they thought Gohan was dead, the most Goku can give was a sad expression. He came to firmly believe that Goku was just unable to cry, so what's making him cry now?
Their eyes met for a split second before Goku averted his gaze and then it hit him... It was guilt. He stared at the pitiful man before him suddenly lacking the will to destroy him. He pushed him and this time Goku fell, silent tears still streaming down his face ''You didn't deserve her..'' he mumbled
''My mother was too good for you! '' this time he shouted, unable to stay in the same presence as the man who he used to call 'father', Goten flew away with only the thought that he just lost his mother.
The other spectator have watched silently, not daring to say a word, the tension clung heavy in the air as Gohan watched his sibling's departure before his eyes landed on the broken man sitting on the white ground before him. Any other day, he would have been kneeling next to him and trying his best to comfort him, right now though, he couldn't find a shred of sympathy for the man he once hero-worshiped.
On the outside, Gohan was the perfect image of tranquility, on the inside was a completely different story, trying desperately to keep the violent hurricane of emotion at bay.
''you know... I always favored you over mom'' his voice was calm, cold and unemotional it sent chills down everyone's spine ''but mom was always there for me when I needed her, something you were never able to do... And now she's gone'' his eyes widened and a mixture of emotion displayed on his face as he just realized ''I'm never going to see her again aren't I?" he asked solemnly ''not even when I'm dead''
''Gohan I-'' Goku started only to be interrupted by his son harshly.
''don't ... Just don't" his energy spiked dangerously, he didn't want to hear his excuses, he just lost his mother and there's no consolation for that. Ignoring the other's flinch, Gohan exercised self control as he clenched his fists and unclenched. Took a deep breath and exhaled as he brought his hands to his glasses shifting it lightly to rub his eyes ''mom asked us not to see you again, And I'm intending to honor her wishes'' he stated though it was mostly for himself ''I don't want you anywhere near me or my family again and from the looks of things neither does Goten... So there ... You're free... You don't have a wife to nag you about staying nor a family that cherishes your presence. Go train or do whatever the fuck you want'' he gestured with his hands for emphasis ''I don't care anymore! '' he stated the words bitterly as he walked away and followed his brother.
The lookout grew dreary with each passing minute. shortly after Gohan left, Vegeta followed suit, those who were still there basked in a gloomy silence. His tears had dried but his spirit was still broken, wallowing in the fact that he was miserable.
He didn't even notice as the younger Namekian approached him ''I'm sorry for your loss, Goku'' Goku looked at him with a blank expression before he wobbly stood up, making his way towards the edge of the lookout, he turned only to say few brief words ''tell everyone not to look for me''
Piccolo, Dende and Mr. Popo watched as earth's hero's body disappeared knowing that this would be the last they see of him for a very long time...
The end...
Just kidding XD anywho, I tried to keep the characters in character, I firmly believe that Goku wouldn't handle the guilt, and I always thought that Gohan was the more calm and collective type anyways hope you liked the chapter.
Dbgochi: yeah me too, Chichi is the angry type I doubt she'd be begging Goku to stay, after all she was a princess, she has her pride though I do believe she would be vindictive ... I'm sorry for the slow update but I'm kinda working on a bunch of stories right now and I'm using a tablet which isn't easy to use for writing when the app keeps crashing down on you and deletes most of the work lol but i will try to be faster.
Tevinssj7: yeah poor Chichi
Sailor-juju: lmao if I was Chichi I would most likely wish Goku dickless but it wouldn't serve the plot. I do agree with you on Goten but I wrote that scene kinda to show that Chichi wasn't exactly mentally there besides she knew how tough Saiyans can be ... And I'm so sorry foe updating even later than I told you, it's just I wasn't entirely pleased with the chapter and doing a few changes or not... Thank you for being a lovely reader and I'm so glad you like this fic, I hope I dont disappoint
Foxqueen: well... I was about to make her a crazy bitch hehe. I think being loyal doesn't mean you can't fall for someone, it just happens like I explained in this chapter.
Rinfantasy: yesss exactly but like you said I had to use that for the plot.
Busi sibiko1: for some strange reason your name gets erased and only 1 remains every time I write it to answer your review, weird huh? Anyway Shenron can't make him weaker, even if he can he'd still be strong after all he is a super Saiyan blue. I'm glad you liked and I do agree with you on the whole GoChi thing, I just love those two
Chichiken: muhahaha ... Yes now I feel accomplished. And honestly I'm sick of all the Chichi bashing fics out there. I hate how they make her out to be a monster
Lovelive: I'm planning to ;)
LVR4trunks-n-Vegeta: IKR? And that's exactly what happened to him, thanks for reviewing :)
Guest : I'm glad you guys liked it