We traveled for a whil, until we found a town with some weird problems, so we decided to check it out.
I intended to train with Sam, but he wasn't cooperating. We stayed in a motel, kinda in the middle of nowhere, and like always, we took only one room, with two beds. It was gonna be kinda strange maybe sleeping with Dean tonight, but, whatever. I had others things to take care first.
-C'mon! Just do it, ok?- I was yelling at Sam while swinging a pencil in my hand. I had a tiny wish to throw it at him, but I resisted.
-I don't want to, Ella!- he was behaving like a kid.
-Ugh…!- I growled and slammed the pencil on the table
-You're being an idiot! We have to train, Sam!- I told him. He didn't answer. I growled again and turned to Dean.
-Little help here?- I asked him. He smiled and shook his head.
-No-oh, he's all yours-
-Fuck you- I responded. He laughed, fucking idiot. It wasn't funny.
-Okay- I took a breath, trying to calm down- Sam, please, can we do this?-
-No Ella, not now, ok?-
-What's your problem, man?-. Again, he didn't answer. My temper got the best of me and I threw him the remote from the TV. Without lifting a finger, might I add. I missed his head by an inch, on purpose, of course.
-Hey!- he complained
-Train, and you'll do it yourself- I replied and went to the bathroom.
-Bitch- Sam murmured
-I heard you!- I called from inside. Dean laughed. He was very, happy, today. Damn him.
I brushed my teeth, and threw some water in my face. It felt good. So I decided to take a shower. But, oh yes, I didn't have my clothes or a towel.
-Dean?- I called, he opened the door and poked his head inside.
-Yeah?-
-Could you bring me my bag, please? I'm gonna take a shower-
-Sure, no problem- he said and left. He came back in less than a minute.
-Here- he handed me the bag.
-Thanks- I said, smiling at him. He was ready to sleep, ergo, he was shirtless. A very distraction sight, believe me. An idea popped in my head, I was sure I was gonna regret it later, but, who cares?
-Come here- I said, closing the door. I pushed him against it and got really close to him, our faces inches apart.
-Thank you- I murmured against his lips. He grabbed my hip and pulled me closer still. I moaned in his mouth, he felt soooo good. We broke apart to catch our breath; his lips never left my skin. He kissed my jaw, my neck, while his hands teased my sides slowly. I closed my eyes and lost myself in his touch. So much for going slow, I thought. Again, didn't care. My hands went down and grabbed the waistband of his pants. He took off my shirt and threw it somewhere. He had one hand in my breast now, and the other at my neck, holding me there. Not that I wanted to leave, but, yeah. He continued to kiss me, his fingers moving to my back to take care of my bra. When he was about to undo it, we heard a knock. We froze, our lips still together.
-Hey, everything okay? - Sam asked from the door. Talk about bad timing. I broke apart from him and answered
-Yeah, everything's fine- my voice was shaky.
-Okay- he seemed suspicious, but left anyway. I sighed.
-That was close- I murmured. I didn't know if I meant Sam catching us or us, per se.
-Yeah- Dean nodded, his lips were swollen, and they looked so kissable. I grinned.
-You okay?- I asked him, putting some distance between our bodies, just in case.
-Yeah- he muttered. He was kinda flushed and I couldn't resist him. I got close to him again. I looked into his eyes and he shivered when my hand brushed his boner.
-I'm going to shower now, Dean- I whispered in his ear- but if you wait me in bed like a good boy, I'll make it up to you- I was so going to hell for this. I smiled and moved away from him. But he caught my arm, turned me around and kissed me. It was a short, hot kiss that left me gasping. And he went out then. Damn it. I kept looking at the door for like a minute, and then shook my head, trying to clear my mind from the lust-induced state I was in.
I took off the rest of my clothes and turned on the water. It was kinda cold, but my skin felt over heated. I got in the shower and relaxed as much as I could.
When I was done, I put on my regular sleep wear. My Zeppelin T-shirt and my pajama's shorts. I got out. Sam was already sleeping and Dean was sitting in the bed, with my laptop.
-I hope you're not watching porn- I repeated my joke, because it was so good. He chuckled.
-Nah..- he answered, I'm actually looking for the address of this farm, when the things are happening-
-Oh.. Found anything?-
-Kinda. I know where it is, I already told Sammy. We'll go tomorrow morning and take a look-
-Okay, sounds good- I said, getting into bed. It was warm, and I yawned.
-God, I'm tired- I murmured, closing my eyes and stretching. Dean smiled.
-Yeah, me too- he said. I took the laptop from him and closed it.
-Come here- I repeat my words from earlier. I put a hand on his face and kissed him lightly. He entangled his fingers in my hair, pulling my closer. I curled up on his side and kept kissing him for what seemed like ages. But nothing else happened. He must've been cooled off, because he was really calm and in control. It was relaxing kissing him like this; I could enjoy every aspect of every feeling. My tongue brushed his lower lip and he opened his mouth to me. He massaged my tongue with his own, making me moan. I slid my hands over his chest, then his stomach, I kept them there for support and climbed on top of him. I could feel him against me, hard. It was arousing actually. I wanted to relieve him, but I remember that Sam was in the bed next no ours and I stopped.
-Sam's gonna have a heart attack if he wakes up and see this- I murmured against his lips.
-Yeah- he said unwilling- You're right-
-'Kay- I said while getting off him- Night- I made myself comfortable next to him.
-Night Ella- he whispered and put an arm around me. I used his chest as a pillow and could feel his heartbeat. It was steady and soft. I sighed in contentment and closed my eyes, falling asleep.
-Ella- I heard someone called- Ella? C'mon-. I opened my eyes and saw Dean leaning over me.
-What?- I murmured, rubbing my eyes.
-We gotta go- he said simply. Oh, the job! Shit.
-Okay, okay, I'm up- I sat up on the bed and yawned.
-Hi Ella- Sam smiled
-Hi there Sammy- I replied. Dean brought me a coffee and I drank it, thankful.
-You found anything else?- I asked Dean
-Yep, I found the address, so, as soon as you're ready we're leavin'-
-Okay, give me five minutes and we can go- I said, getting up.
-We'll wait outside- Sam told me.
-And take your bag, okay? We should be coming back here- Dean added.
-Will do- I answered and they left the room.
I changed and walked outside. I got in the backseat and we drove off to the said farm.
When we got there, it looked kinda abandoned. We parked the car close by, and got our guns. We went inside. There was no one in the house, but it felt off to me. Maybe some kind of spirit or, creature.
-Hey, check this out- Dean said, Sam and I went to where he was.
-What?- I asked, not seeing anything unusual
-There's rest of brain here-Sam answered.
-Ugh… Gross- I murmured- What's that suppose to mean?-
-We're dealing with a rawhead- Dean said
-What the hell is that?- I've never heard of something like that before.
-It's like a zombie-
-Oh, well, how do we kill him, and more important, where is it now?
-It's probably hunting now- I didn't like that one bit- But we know how to kill him-
-How?-
-Electricity- Dean said
-Oh, okay- It was kinda weird, but, what wasn't?
-So, we wait here, or what?
-We're gonna come back tonight, it sure will be here then-
-Okay- I agreed and we left.
We went by a diner to get some lunch, and then we went to a field near the farm to prepare the electric guns to use against this thing. Time passed pretty quickly, but I wasn't complaining. The faster we finish this the better.
It was around eleven when we got to the farm again. Dean opened the Impala's trunk, Sam asked
-How long does the gun reaches?-
- A thousand volts- Dean answered
-Damn- Sam and I said in unison.
-Yeah, I want this rawhead extra crispy. And remember, you have only one shot with this, okay? Make it count-
-Yes sir- I nodded. We got in and looked for the thing. We walked through a hall that ended in a door. I wasn't feeling anything weird there, but there was something. We looked at each other then Dean said
-On three-. I readied my power while they counted
-One, two, three!- I threw the door open. Someone screamed. It sounded like a little girl. And it was. There were a boy and a girl hidden in there.
-Is it still here?- Sam whispered, the kids nodded.
-Okay, take your sister's hand, let's get you out of here- Dean told them while helping them up. The kids got out and we kept vigilance on the thing while Sam took them outside.
They were running up the stairs when something grabbed Sam's leg and he fell. The room was filled with screams.
-Sam!- Dean shouted. He shot the thing and Sam got up.
-Sam get 'em outta here!- I yelled at him, then I went to help Dean.
-C'mon, get up- I told him, Sam was already gone with the kids. We walked into a creepy looking room, where I felt the creature.
-Dean, careful- I whispered, gun in hand. And suddenly, Dean was falling backwards because the fucking thing had hit him.
-Fuck!- I yelled. I still had my gun, and Dean had Sam's, but I couldn't see anything. So I didn't know where exactly it was. Damn it! Dean was crawling to get his gun back and he got into a little pool of water on the floor.
It was too late when I realized that water and electricity don't mix.
-Dean!- I screamed running towards him. But it was too late. Dean was shooting the creature and as he did this, he got shocked too. I stood there, watching him twist in agony and I couldn't do anything. I felt like crying or something, but I was in shock.
C'mon Ella, move! I told myself and obeyed. I ran to Dean and tried to help him, but he was unconscious.
-Sam!- I screamed with everything I had. He came running to us.
-What happened?- he asked
-He shot the thing but he was standing in the water- I explained
-Oh, shit- Sam murmured and got close to Dean
-Dean, Dean? Hey, c'mon!- he shouted uselessly.
-We've gotta take him out of here, to a hospital, fast- I said. I was surprisingly focused now. I had to save Dean.
So we took him outside and got him in the backseat with me. Sam drove. We got to the ER and explained what had happened. He took them in and told us to wait in the waiting room. We didn't argue. It was useless, they had to work on him and we were just gonna intrude.
"Fuck" I thought to myself when I was sat in the waiting room with Sam." Fuck, fuck, fuck! This wasn't happening. Dean was gonna wake up and everything will be fine", I lied to myself. "Oh, God, I hope Dean wakes up". I was a mess, and I knew it, but I couldn't worry for that now.
Two police officers entered the room and Sam talked to them. I didn't know what they wanted, but I was glad they weren't asking me. I could only think in saving Dean.
I saw Dean's doctor and ran to him
-Doctor- I asked- how is he?- I had introduced myself as his cousin, so he had to answer
-He's resting- the doctor said
-And?- Sam was there beside me in a second
-And the electrocution produced a heart attack- he answered- a pretty massive one. I'm sorry to say but his heart is damaged-
How damaged?-
-We did all we could- he said sadly- we can try to keep him comfortable, but I give him a couple of weeks, maybe a month-
-No, no, there's gotta be something you can do, some kind of treatment- Sam said desperately.
-We can work miracles- the doctor answered- I really am sorry- And right then I ran to Dean's room. I was in total denial, but I needed to see him well and alive.
-Dean!- I shouted as I entered. He was surfing through channels on the TV. I smiled when he looked at me. He looked like hell. I felt tears in my eyes and thanks God Sam entered just then, otherwise I could've fallen apart in front of Dean.
-You ever actually watched noon TV?- Dean asked- It's terrible-. I smiled, Sam sighed.
-I talked to your doctor- he told him, I sat besides Dean and took his hand.
-Yeah- Dean said- looks like you're gonna leave town without me-
-What? What you're talking about? We're not gonna leave you here- I said, incapable of keeping my mouth shut. Dean ignored me. He looked at Sam.
-If you don't take care of that car- he threaten- I swear I'll hunt your ass-
-I don't think that's funny- Sam said
-It's a little funny- Dean murmured. I was barely controlling the tears. There was silence for a minute and then Dean said
-Look, Sammy, what can I say? I'm a dangerous guy; I had bad luck, end of the story-
-Don't talk like that alright?- Sam told him- We still have options- seemed Sam was in denial too.
-What options?- Dean asked –Burry me or cremate me? I know it's not easy, but I'm gonna die- he paused- and you can't stop it-
-Don't you ever say that again Dean!- I shouted him, startling him a little- Nobody's dying here, okay? We'll find a way to stop it, damn it!-
Dean didn't answer, he seemed…resigned. And I fucking hate it. We left the room to let him rest and got to the motel again, because apparently, we were staying in town a couple of days.
As soon as we got in, I took my laptop, Sam took his, and we started research. We just weren't giving up. We spent like this at least three days. I needed something to do, because I couldn't take off my mind the fact that I was with him when this happened and I couldn't stop it. I could've thrown him across the room; I could've hit the monster myself. I could have done something!
-I'm gonna call Dad- Sam told me. I nodded and kept researching. I felt so fucking bad right then. I wanted to be with Dean, but then I didn't, because he couldn't see mw like this. I hated my fucking life. Everything bad happens for a reason? What the hell was I thinking? God, I wanted to disappear and take Dean with me. I wanted to be free from worries for one fucking time.
Sam came back and he looked pissed.
-He didn't answer, did he?- I asked without taking my eyes off the screen.
-No- Sam said. And right there, even if I did love John like a uncle, I was so angry at him that I saw him I was gonna kill him for not answering the fucking phone when his fucking son was fucking dying!
Instead of that, I called him myself.
-Hey, John- I tried to say calmed- I don't know if you got Sam's message, but Dean's dying. We need you here, please, John. We don't know what to do and Dean's dying! Please, come here and fix this. We really need you. Bye- I hung up and went back to research. I was getting good at avoiding my feeling, and reality, because even if I said Dean was dying, I didn't feel like it. So, I was focused on one only goal: Save Dean.
After a few minutes, we heard a knock. We looked at each other, and Sam got the door. It was Dean. I jumped from the bed and ran to him. He still looked like hell.
-What the hell are you doing here?- Sam asked. He took the words out of my mouth. I helped Dean in anyway, god only knew how stubborn he could get if he didn't get his way.
-I let myself out- Dean answered
-Are you crazy?-
-Nah, I'm not gonna die in a hospital where nurses aren't even hot-. I felt like crying again. Of all the stupid things he could have said, that top the list. I got Dean into bed and Sam said
-You know? This all "I laugh in the face of death" thing is bullshit- I nodded wholeheartedly – I can see right through you-
-Yeah, whatever you say- Dean ignored him- Did you guys sleep? You look worse than me-
-It's not the time to be worried about sleeping Dean- I snapped at him. He just looked at me, not comprehending. Stupid selfless Dean.
-We were researching, looking for ways to save you- I explained
-I called all of Dad's contacts, this guy Joshua, he called me back. He know this guy in Nebraska, a specialist-
-You're not gonna let me die in peace, are you?
-Nobody's dying Dean; get over it- I told him. I was actually pissed now; his whole I don't care if I die attitude was getting on my nerves.
-We're going to Nebraska, since you're already here, make yourself useful. C'mon- Sam said and I started packing our things as he got Dean to the car.
Few hours later, we got to this place in Nebraska where Joshua met this specialist. Whatever that means. Dean complained all the way, but we just ignored him. He was in the back seat with me, so I could keep an eye on him.
The whole ride I tried to get him to relax. I massage his neck first, he let me, but he didn't relax. Damn his stubbornness. So I went for less orthodox ways. I got him in a more comfortable position and sat next to him, facing him. I looked into his eyes, trying to make him understand that I loved him. I didn't care if it was romantically, or just, not, but I did love him. I have for all my life. Without breaking eye contact I kissed him. Sam didn't seem to notice, or maybe he understood what I was trying to do. I bet on the second.
I kissed him and I could feel the resistance in him. I wasn't having any of that. I wanted him to know I cared, and how much I cared. So I kept going. I kissed his lips, his jaw; I made a circuit between both a few times. He was still tensed, but he seemed better. I was soft with him because I didn't want to hurt him. I stopped kissing him and began caressing his face, his neck. Finally, he fell asleep, his head on my chest. I adjusted my body so he could be more comfortable.
-Thanks- Sam murmured from the driver's seat. I smiled.
-Anytime-.
When we got to Nebraska, I had to wake Dean up. He looked so peaceful asleep, I didn't wanna wake him. But I had to anyway.
Sam parked in a field with a big tent farther back. I didn't like it for some reason. I tried to help Dean out of the car, but he dismissed me and Sam.
-I got it!- he said, annoyed. I sighed. The weather was awful, it was raining and this place was full of sick people. It looked like this commercials with guys who will save your life or make you walk again. I repeat, I didn't like it. And Dean either.
-You're a lying bastard- he accused Sam- you told me we were going to see a doctor-
-I believe I said "specialist"- Sam defended. I shut up- Look, Dean, this guy's supposed to be the real deal, okay?
-A guy in a tent, Sam? Really? Couldn't get anything better?- I asked. We were goin to put Dean's life in the hands of, a faith healer? Shit.
-I can't believe you brought me to a guy who heals people in a tent- Dean said as we walked to said tent.
-Revered Le Grange is a great man- a woman said earsdropping our conversation.
-Yeah, that's nice- Dean replied sarcastically. We heard another man saying
-I have the right to protest, this man is a fraud-
-Guess he isn't into all this, uh?- I asked
-Sometimes when people see something they don't understand they shut out- Sam answered
-But a faith healer, Sam? Really?-
-Maybe it's time for you to have a little faith Dean-
-You know what I've got faith in? Reality- Dean told him. They kept arguing until we came across a blond woman
-Maybe god works in mysterious ways- she told us. Dean looked at her.
-Maybe- he agreed. I rolled my eyes. Typical Dean.
-If you're not a believer, then what are you doing here?- the woman asked
-Apparently, my brother believes for the three of us- he answered. Then another woman appeared
-C'mon Leila- she said, leading the younger woman to the tent- It's about to start-
-Okay- she smiled kindly- Bye- she said to us. We got in, even after all of Dean's complains.
"Ladies and gentlemen" a voice said "please take a sit, it's about to start"
-Awesome- Dean muttered. I sighed. We were about to sit when Sam stopped us.
-What?- I asked
-We're sitting on front-
-What? No!- Dean complained
-Yes, c'mon!-. We took a seat behind the two women we saw outside.
-Perfect- Dean murmured, annoyed.
-Shh…be patient- I said. We tried to be patient, I swear to God. But it was too much. After a while, even I started to mock the "faith healer". He said a speech about good and evil and people getting punish and God watching that sounded fake. I looked around the tent. There were crosses on an altar near the reverend, who I discovered was blind. The guy prepared a beginning lecture that got me tired in a second. I sighed loudly.
-I told you so- Dean murmured. He reverend said something else, then Dean made a comment about wallets, I wasn't listening really, and the guy heard him. That got my attention.
-That's really what you think, young man?- the reverend asked.
-Sorry- Dean apologized
-Don't be- the man told him- but watch what you say around blind people, we've got really great hearing- Everybody in the room chuckled. A polite chuckle, like to not embarrass the man.
-What's your name son?- he asked Dean.
-Dean- he answered
-Dean- the man repeated- I want you to come up here with me- he said. Dean looked at me and Sam pushed him to go. Everybody cheered like he was Elvis or something. Dean finally got up and Sam smiled. I felt unsure. I watched every move Dean made in case something happened.
Dean got to the stage and the reverend asked
-You're ready?-
-Mmmm, with all your respect, I'm not exactly a believer- Dean said
-You will be, son, you will be- the man told him and he began chanting
-Pray with me friend!- and he moved his hands strangely. Sam and I didn't miss a beat. Dean was looking suspiciously at him.
He touched Dean's face and I jumped from my seat but Sam held me back.
-Alright now- the reverend said and repeated again. Dean started to fall down he seemed about to faint. He fell to his knees and I got free from Sam and walked there anyway. And then Dean fainted. Just like that. He fell to the floor and I ran to him. People around us kept screaming things like: Hallelujah, God bless you, and shit like that. I tried to wake up Dean, Sam was right beside me.
-Dean?- I called him, touching his face. He came back then, scaring the hell out of me.
-Oh, thanks God!- I murmured. I didn't care if that was hypocrite. He was fine and I was just happy.
-Dean- I whispered hugging him, he didn't hug me back.
-Dean, say something!- Sam yelled. He seemed freaked for some reason.
-Dean? What's happening?- I asked, but then I felt a presence there. I didn't know what it was, but it was powerful, and came from near the reverend. I looked at him, Dean did too.
-Let's get out of here. Sam, help me- I said trying to get Dean up. We left ignoring the cheers and everything.
-We're gonna take you to the hospital, see if you're really cured- Sam told Dean.
He nodded, but didn't speak. He looked catatonic. I grabbed him by the waist and got him inside the car. And Sam took off to the nearest hospital.
-Well, according to your tests here, there's nothing wrong with your heart- the doctor said. I looked at Dean.
-It's strange, but these things happen, there shouldn't be anything wrong with your heart, but sometimes, I don't know. Just last night, a man like you, 27, athletic, died of a heart attack. I just, don't know- the doctor said.
-Thanks Doc- Dean replied, and we left. As we were walking Dean said
-That's odd-
-Maybe it's a coincidence- Sam ventured- people suffer heart attacks all the time-
-No they don't- Dean answered
-Look Dean, we can't just be glad that the guy saved your life and move on?-
-No, because I can't just shake this feeling- Dean said
-What feeling?-
-When I was being healed, I just felt, wrong. I felt cold for a second. I saw someone, this old man. I'm telling you Sam, it was a spirit-
-If there was something there, I think I would have seen it too- Sam said, I shook my head
-No, I didn't see it- I told them- But I felt it. There was something there, just don't know what-
-Fine- Sam sighed- What you wanna do?-
-Why don't you go check the heart attack guy? I'm gonna visit the reverend- Dean said.
-I'm coming with you- I told him, and took his hand. I was just happy he was okay, but I couldn't shake that feeling either. Damn things that keep happening to us.
So we went to visit the reverend.
-Are you okay?- I asked Dean as we were walking to the door. He glared
-I'm serious, if you answer me, I won't ask you again- I told him. He sighed
-I'm fine, really-
-Okay then- I murmured and knocked on the door. The reverend wife, Sue, something, opened the door, she let us in smiling. Nice lady, I thought, and distrust her immediately.
-I feel great- Dean said after a few minutes of chat- I'm just, trying to make sense to everything that happened-. The nice lady was serving us ice tea, and it brought me up bad memories. No drink in strangers houses, rule number, whatever. I was sitting next to Dean, smiling politely.
-A miracle's what happened- Sue- something said- Miracles happen around Roy frequently. Dean looked suspicious.
-When did they star? The miracles- he asked Roy
-I woke up one morning stone blind- Roy said- Doctors told me I had cancer, gave me a month. So, we prayed for a miracle. I was weak but I told Sue Ann to keep praying- Sue Ann was the name of the wife, awesome. Very, southern.
The reverend kept going- I went into a coma, doctors said I wouldn't wake up, but I did, and the cancer was gone-
-And suddenly you could heal people?- I asked as politely as I could.
-I discovered that afterwards, yeah- Roy answered- God blessed me in many ways-
Hmm-hmm- I nodded. Dean looked serious.
-Can I ask you one last question?-
-Of course you can
-Why?- he asked- Why me?- I looked at him and waited for the man's answer. I was curious too.
-The Lord guided me. I looked into your heart and you stood up from everyone else-
-What' you use in my heart?- Dean asked
-A young man with a great purpose, a job to do- Roy answered. I was shocked. How did he know? That wasn't making any sense, really. Dean looked lost, so I got up, took his hand and said good bye.
As we were walking out, Sue Ann with us, we ran into Leila, and her mother.
-Hi- I said smiling.
-Hi- Leila smiled back. Sue Ann seemed kinda uncomfortable.
-How you're feeling?- Leila asked Dean
-I feel good, cured I guess. What you're doing here?-
-We're here to see the reverend- Leila's mother said.
-I'm sorry, but Roy is resting, he won't see anybody else today-
-Sue Ann please!- the woman said- This is our sixth time, he has to see us-
-Roy is well aware of Leila's situation, and he'll help her, as soon as the Lord allows. Have faith Mrs. Roke- Sue Ann said, and she went inside, leaving us four on the porch.
Leila seemed on the edge of tears. I wondered what was wrong with her. Leila's mother looked at Dean with resentment in her eyes, I was ready to shut her up.
-Why are you even here?- she asked with venom in her voice- You've got what you wanted-
-Mom..- Leila said-Stop-. She was a nice person. He mother stared at her.
-No, Leila this is too much. We've been to every single service, if Roy could just stop choosing strangers over you. Strangers who don't even believe- she seemed broken now- I just can't pray any harder-
-Leila what's wrong?- I asked
-I have this thing- she answered vaguely.
-It's a brain tumor- her mother interrupted- Is inoperable, the doctors gave her six month-. Oh, poor woman. No wonder she was this desperate.
-I'm sorry- Dean said honestly.
-It's okay- Leila smiled, even if she had every right to be depressed, she was still fighting.
-No, it isn't- her mother said. Then she looked at Dean, I braced myself to what she was gonna say.
-Why do you deserve to live and my daughter not?- she asked, her voice full of wonder. I was so angry at her. I wasn't gonna tolerate any person talking like that to Dean, or Sam, or me for that matter.
-Hey, easy, we didn't do anything to you- I told her.
-I know- Leila said- I'm sorry-she smiled sadly and they left. We were both kinda shaken. Specially Dean. And I'd bet anything I owned that he was asking himself that question: Why did he deserve to live? I knew why. Because he was good and he helped people, even if it kills him, or threats to do it.
I took Dean's hand again and led him to the car. I wanted to hug him and tell him he was the best person I've ever known. I wanted to kiss his pain away. But, everything at its time.
-Okay, what now?- I asked him, once in the car.
-We've got to talk to Sam, see what he finds out-
-Alright, let's head back to the motel then-. We rented a room because we didn't know how long we were gonna stay.
Dean drove in silence; I could almost see the thoughts going through his mind. I wanted to say something, anything, to make him feel better, but he had to deal with it himself. I hated passivity. I really did.
We got to the motel and Sam was already there. I took off my jacket and closed the door.
-What did you find out?- Dean asked, going straight to business. Sam looked bad. I started to get worried.
-I'm sorry- he said. Oh, no, what the hell?
-Sorry about what?-
-Marshall Hall died at 4:17-. Dean did a pause.
-Exact time I was healed- he finally said. Oh shit! I thought, this was going to be bad.
-Yeah. So I put together on a list everyone Roy's healed. Six people in the past year, and I crossed check with the local obituaries. Every time someone was healed, another person died. And each time the person died of the same cause Le Grange was healing at the time-
-So, someone is healed of cancer, someone else dies of cancer?- Dean asked. I was still standing there, not knowing what to make of it.
-Somehow- Sam answered- Le Grange is trading a life for another-
-Wait, wait, wait, wait, so, Marshall Hall died to save me?- I knew where this was going, and I didn't like it a bit.
-Dean..- I put a hand on his shoulder but he shook it off. Well, that stung.
-Dean…- Sam repeated- the guy had probably died anyway, and another person would have been heal-
-You never should've brought me here- Dean said. And I was angry, because he didn't want us to save him. Well, fuck him then. I was gonna do anything to save him even if he didn't want. Yes, another guy's life was a high price, I won't deny it, but, it wasn't our fault, we just wanted Dean alive.
-Dean, I was just trying to save your life- Sam said
-But Sam some guy is dead now because of me!- I really wanted to relieve his pain right now, but, I wasn't gonna, he could scream it off alright.
-I didn't know- Sam defended. I felt sorry for him. So I interrupted.
-What I don't understand is how is Roy doing it? How is trading a life for another?-
-He's not doing it- Dean said-Something else is doing it for him-
-What you mean?-
-The old man I saw on stage. I didn't wanna believe it, but deep down I knew it-
-You knew what? What you're talking about?-
-There's only one thing that can take and give life like this- Dean explained
-What?-
-A reaper-
-A what? A reaper? As in "Don't fear the reaper" song?- I asked
-Kinda, it's actually more serious than that- Dean answered- You might not fear the reaper, but you'll have to run like hell if you wanna escape-
-You can escape?- I was skeptic
-Not really, you can buy some time, that's all. The reaper will always get you at the end-
-Well, that's just awesome- I said, sitting in the bed.
-Are you sure it "the" reaper, as in the angel of death?-Sam asked
-No, not "the" reaper, just "a" reaper, there's a reaper in almost every culture in the world, they have like hundreds different names, this must be one of those-
-But you said you saw a guy in a suit- I was having a hard time accepting this.
-So? You think it's gonna work on the whole black rope thing?-
-You said it Sam, the clock stopped, right?- Dean took a piece of paper and showed it to us- Reapers stop time. And you only see them when they coming at you, that's why I could see it-
-Yeah, but I felt it- I said
-You felt everything- Dean answered- this just means it's a supernatural thing, which explains the whole reaper thing. There's no other way-
-Okay, oaky, but, again, how is Roy controlling it?-
-That cross- Sam murmured.
-The cross!- Yes, I remembered it, that made sense, kinda.
-What?-
-There was this cross in the stage when Roy did his "healing"- I told him as Sam was looking for something
-I was sure I've seen that before- he muttered- Here- he took out a…
-Tarot card?- Dean asked arching his eyebrows
-It makes sense, right? The tarot dated from the christian era, it makes sense that some Christians still use it, the symbols at least-
-Yeah, back then some priest practiced magic- I said
-And some of them revered the dark stuff- Sam added- Necromancy and how to push Death away, or how to cause it-
-So Roy is using black magic to control the reaper?- Dean asked
-Yes, and it's dangerous. It's like putting a leash on a wild animal-
-Okay, we've got to stop Roy-
-How?- I was thinking with everything I had, but couldn't come up with a solution.
-You know how-
-What? We can't kill Roy Dean-
-Ella, that guy is playing God! He's deciding who lives and who dies, he's a monster in my book-
-No, we're not gonna kill a human being, Dean- Thanks Sam for backing me up
-If we do that we're not better than he is-
-Okay, so we can't kill Roy, and we can't kill Death, any bright ideas college geeks?-
-Don't mock me Dean, you know I'm right- I told him. He was gonna hear me when this is over.
-We've got to find the spell he's using and stop it- Sam said. Ha! There you have it Dean. He knew we were right, so he just glared, but kept his mouth shot.
We went to the reverent house. A service was about to start.
-C'mon, if Roy's using a spell, there's gotta be a spell book, see if you can find it- Dean told Sam –we're gonna see if we can delay Roy-
-Okay- he nodded.
-Le Grange is a fraud- the man from earlier said; he was giving away some pamphlets.
-Amen brother- Dean said
-You're doing a great job- Sam congratulated him. Then he took off to Roy's house and we went to the service.
Like five minutes later, Dean's cell rang.
-What you've got?- he asked. I was curious, but there were people all around us, so we had to keep a low profile. After a minute, he hang up.
-What?- I murmured.
-We can't let him heal anyone, okay?- Dean said
-Okay- I nodded. We took our seats and kept an eye on everyone there.
And then, Roy called Leila to the stage. Oh fuck! I thought. Why, oh why did he have to call her now!
-We've got to stop him Dean- I told him, he sighed. Leila hugged her mother and then went to the stage. I stood up and got close to her.
-Leila, listen to me- I whispered- You can't go up there-. She looked at me like I was crazy.
-Why not? We've waited for month- she said. And, she was so right. But, we couldn't let her.
-You can't let Roy heal you-
-I don't understand, Roy healed Dean, didn't he? Why you couldn't let him even try?-
-Because if he heals you something bad will happen. I can't explain it, but I need you to trust me, please-. Dean was at my side, we were intended to keep Leila away from Roy. Leila seemed unsure. She looked at Sue Ann extended hand, and then at her mother.
-I'm sorry- she said
-Leila!- both Dean and me whisper-shouted. Damn. She got up stage and Roy began his speech and his little act again. He touched Leila's head and then Dean screamed
-Fire! The tent's on fire!- I didn't understand. Then I thought, Sam. He must have told him something.
No!- Leila's mother yelled- please don't stop! Please reverend, please!- It was breaking my heart seeing her like that, but, it had to be done.
Dean took his cell and I guess he called Sam
-I did it, I stopped Roy- he said. Then he just freaked out.
-Then who the hell is?- He shouted. And I was looking at Sue Ann who was standing in front of the cross. I pointed at her. Dean saw her and said
-Sue Ann- and he hang up. I ran to her and turned her to face me. She looked surprised. She had a cross between her hands, a cross exactly like the one in the stage, only smaller. She looked at us and started screaming
-Help! Help me!- And a man came and took Dean away, making me follow. Damn woman! We got out and Sue Ann said
-I just don't understand, after everything we've done for you- I glared at her, but kept my mouth shut, there were people around. Dean looked at her.
-I'm very disappointed Dean- she had the nerve to say that. Witch bitch!
-You can let them go, I won't present charges, the Lord we'll give them what they deserve- Sue Ann said and they let us go. But that didn't sound right. If she was implying what I thought she was implying, then Dean was screw.
Sue Ann left.
-If we see you again here we'll gonna take care of you, okay?- the officer said to Dean. Since I was a woman, I wasn't worth the reprimand. Idiots.
We saw Leila and she came to us
-Why did you do that?- she asked us
-I'm sorry Leila, but Roy's not the answer- Dean told her
-He healed you, right?-. Dean sighed.
-I know it's not fair, and I wish I could explain, but I can't-
-Good bye Dean- she said and, just like that, she left. Not that I didn't understand her, we've just ruined her life.
We went back to the motel after we found Sam. Now we were sitting there, discussing evidence.
-So Roy really believes- Sam said
-Yeah, I don't think he has any idea what his wife is doing- Dean answered
-Well, I found this- Sam took an old looking book- It's ancient, written by a priest who went to the dark side. There's a binding spell in here, to catch the reaper-
-Must be hell of a spell- I said
-Yeah- Sam nodded- You've gotta build a black altar, with seriously dark stuff. Bones, human blood. To cross a line like that, a preacher0s wife- Sam shook his head. I agree with him. I got what was like to feel you were losing someone you loved, believe me, I did. But that, that was just plain wrong.
-She was desperate- Dean said- Her husband was dying, she used a binding spell to keep the reaper away from Roy.
-Dean, I get it, okay?- I told him, sitting next to him- but that's not how things work. You can do the impossible to save someone you love, I'd do it. But this? This is too much. She's murdering people, Dean-
-She cheated Death, literally- Sam said- but now she's what? Using the reaper to help people she believes is worth it-
-We've gotta break that binding spell- I stated the obvious. Dean looked at the book for a while.
-You know? Sue Ann had a cross like this, when she dropped it the reaper left- he said
-So you think we gotta find the cross or destroy the altar?- Sam asked
-Maybe both?- I told him, unsure.
-Yeah, we've gotta try both- Dean agreed.
-Okay, we'll have to do it soon, Roy's healing Leila tonight-.
We took off (again) to Roy's house. This was getting routine pretty fast. We parked outside and I saw a familiar car
-That's Leila's car- I said
-Yeah- Dean muttered.
-Dean…- Sam
-You know, if Roy had picked up Leila instead of me, she'd be healed by now-
-Dean, don't do this- I begged, he kept going anyway
-And if she's not healed tonight, she's gonna die in a couple of month-. I had enough of self pity and self hated and all that "Why me" crap.
-Dean- I called, he turned and I took his face in my hands, looking straight into his eyes- What happened to her is horrible, but what are you gonna do? Let someone else die to save her? You can't control this things, nobody should. And those who do should be stopped- I told him firmly. He looked at me for a long time, and his eyes harden. I let him go, and decided it was not the time to do this, as long as he understood he couldn't save her, we were gonna be kinda good. He got out of the car and we followed after.
We peeked through the tent and there was everybody there, including Leila.
-Where's Sue Ann?- Dean asked. She was nowhere to be seen. Damn it!
-The house- Sam answered and we took off.
-Go find Sue Ann- Dean told us
-What are you gonna do?- I asked him. And then I saw the two officers from earlier. They chased Dean off and we looked for a sign of the altar. We rounded the house, and Sam caught a basement door. He opened it, I was behind him the whole time, and we got in. I was already feeling guilty for not watching out for Dean, I wasn't gonna make the same mistake twice.
The basement looked like it came out of a horror movie. It looked really creepy. We found the altar and the black magic in it gave me chills. It wasn't as strong as the reaper, but it was similar in intensity. I saw a photo of Dean with a cross over his head and I lost it.
-What are we gonna do?- I asked Sam, getting desperate. But before he could answer me Sue Ann showed up. Great, now the party was complete.
-I gave your brother life and I can take it away- she told Sam. Arrogant bitch! Sam looked at her in a "oh yeah?" kinda way and grabbed the table with the altar on it and threw it. And I didn't know how, but Sue Ann was already gone, and she had locked us up in the basement. I wasn't the one to get nervous over nothing, but being held in a basement against my will was giving me back some bad memories from not so long ago.
-Can't you see it?- Sue Ann shouted from outside- The Lord chose me to reward the just and punish the wicked. And your brother is wicked-
-Dean's not fucking wicked you bitch!- I yelled, unable to repress my anger. Apparently, she ignored me, 'cause she kept going
-And he deserves to die just as much as Leila deserves to live- She was a nutcase. Who the hell did she think she was? Meanwhile, Sam had taken a piece of wood and was breaking a little window to get us out. I just loved him so much right now! We got out, fortunately and ran to find Sue Ann. She was in front of a different altar, holding the cross and chanting, something. I threw the cross away without even touch it. That should teach her who was more powerful. She looked frightened but she knelt in front of the altar and the broken cross and began murmuring
-Oh God! What have you done?-
-What have I done? You play God and I have done something wrong? You psycho bitch- I told her. I felt something right then. It was the reaper. I took Sam's hand and moved away from Sue Ann.
-Sam- I whispered, squeezing his hand- it's the reaper- Did that mean Dean was safe? Shit! Where was he?
Sue Ann tried to run but stopped mid step. Something was touching her, I could feel it. She fell down, and was dead before his head hit the floor. The image of her eyes staring at me after dead was going to be branded to my mind forever. I was in shock, but I felt Sam moving me and I got out of it.
-Dean!- I whispered. And, again, we took off running looking for Dean. We found him next to the Impala. I ran directly towards his arms.
Are you okay?- Sam asked him, I just hugged him, and was glad when he hugged me back. At least he was passed the stage of no touching me thing.
-A little tired- he answered. I reached up to kiss him and everything else disappeared. It was just us there, no Sam, no nothing. I wanted him to feel alive, and it was the only way to show him that.
We broke apart too soon and got in the car. Back in the motel Dean looked kinda down again.
-What's up?- I asked, kneeling in front of him
-Nothing-
Dean, c'mon- I pushed
-We did the right thing, didn't we?- he asked me. He looked lost
-Of course we did- Sam answered before I could
-I don't feel like it- Dean whispered. I pulled his face up and kiss him. But then we heard a knock and Sam saying
-I get it-. I t was Leila
-Leila, come in- Sam invited her. She got in, Dean got up.
-Hi- she said
-Hi- I smiled at her and got up too
-How did you know we were here?- Dean asked her
-Sam called, told me you wanted to say good bye- She answered. I smiled at Sam thankful
-Okay, we're gonna go grab some sodas, c'mon Sammy- I said taking his hand and dragging him out. Dean needed to get it out of his system, otherwise he'd be stuck. Psychology one-o-one-. We walked to the soda machine and I asked
-You think he'll be fine?-
-Yeah, I do-
-Good- I leaned against the wall and looked at my soda like all the answers were there. I wish.
-Hey- Sam touched my arm, making me jump- Are you okay?-
-Yeah- I lied, and then sighed. He knew me better than that
-I'm just worried, that's all-
-What you're worried about?- he leaned next to me
-Everything. How things get more complicated every fucking day. How I haven't talk to my brother in ages. How I'm falling for Dean-
-You're falling for Dean?- Sam asked
-I think so- I murmured- I don't know, I just, sometimes it's all too much, you know? And he's always been my friend, he was always there. You were too, but, it's different, you're like a brother to me. I see him in other way, I realize that now, I'm not stupid-
-But…?-. I took a breath and sighed at the same time
-I don't know. I guess I'm scared-
-Of what?-
-Losing him- I said, my voice breaking
-Why you say that?-
-Because that's how things works Sam. I always loose the people I love, and if I don't I can't have them with me. Except for you two right now-
-Hey, listen to me- Sam's tone made me looked up- We're not going anywhere, okay? All those years we missed, that's nothing, things hadn't changed one bit. You're still my best friend and Dean's too. I know it's not the same, I get it. And I'm fine with it. Really, in fact, I'm glad for you. Well, more for him, you could do better- I smiled- but I'm serious, I know it looks kinda bad right now, but it will pass, like everything else-. I was so glad he had told me that. I needed to hear it. I hugged him
-Thank you- I said, my arms going around his waist, and I felt like laughing, because he was just huge.
-Anytime- he repeated my phrase.
-Okay, emotive moment over- I said- let's get back inside, I think Leila already left-
-Okay, let's go-
When we got in, I saw Dean sitting in the bed, looking at nothing. I felt bad, but strong. He needed me and I was there. I walked to him, and gestured to Sam to leave us a minute. He went to the bathroom. I sat next to him and took his hand. The touch seemed to have brought him to reality.
-Hi- I smiled at him. He didn't answer. I moved slowly, proving his mood, and kissed him. He was still for a second, and then all the walls fell down. He grabbed my hair and brought me closer. My hands went to his neck in a death grip. This was what we both needed. He lay down and I got on top of him. He broke the kiss and I gasped for air. Then, he smiled. Thank God! He was kinda himself again. We kept kissing, I grabbed my shirt and took it off, along with his. He undid my pants and I his. The shoes were gone as well. We were only on our underwear, and we got under the covers, in case Sam got out.
I sighed. I was tired, and I bet he was too. I kept kissing him until he stopped me. That was weird.
-What's wrong?- I asked, alarmed
-Nothing's wrong- he murmured- I just thought we couldn't do it here, so, we might as well go to sleep. It's been a long day-. I smiled at him. He wasn't rejecting me. Good.
-Okay- I said, I curled up next to him and put my head on this chest. The sound of his heart never meant so much to me.
-Night Ella- he whispered, kissing my head, an arm still around me.
-Night- I murmured and fall asleep so fast I didn't even know when Sam got out of the bathroom.