Our Solemn Hour
A/N: My new story about Edward & Bella. Nothing about this has anything to do with religion even though some songs are from Christian bands. This is just about real world problems and realistic situations. There is though, a lot of Angst but a lot of Fluff & humor.
Chapter Four: Familiar taste of poison
BPOV
I stretched and looked around the room. I was in a pair of little grey shorts and a blue tank top. The room was familiar but I couldn't put my finger on where I was. I looked down next to me and saw a soft mound of copper hair. Events from last night rushed back to me and I smiled down and pealed back the blankets to see Edward clinging to me.
I scooted over trying to get out of his arms but that only made him cling tighter to me in his sleep. I started to get up to peel him off but instead he pulled me back down and let out a strangled cry. I quickly wrapped my arms around him. He broke out into a sweat. He cried and clung to me.
"Edward" I begged trying to get him to awake. I pulled his face up from my stomach and he was clenching his eyes shut like something was hurting him. I couldn't bear the thought of something hurting him.
"Edward" I said and started to shake him slightly. I wanted this nightmare he had to end soon. I leaned down and started peppering his face with kisses. He seemed to have come too because I felt his lips move against mine. I opened my eyes to see his sparkling green one's staring back at me.
"Bella?" he asked sitting it up. I sat up on my knees so that we could be face to face. I grabbed onto him and hugged him.
"Are you alright" I panicked and looked him over to see if he was okay. He was okay physically but I could still see the beads of sweat gathering on his forehead. I looked up at him but he was quiet.
"Edward please, tell me you're alright" I begged and started rubbing his shoulders. He looked around for a moment.
"Yeah, I'm alright. It was just a nightmare" He said and got up swinging out of bed. I quickly scrambled to get out of bed. I followed him out into the living room and he looked around like he was looking for something. He walked in to the bathroom and opened Alice's medicine cabinet.
"What are you looking for?" I asked but he didn't answer me till he popped open a small pill bottle and took out a pill and popped it into his mouth.
"My medication…I had frequent night terrors but they recently started coming back. This one was the best though so far. I didn't feel the pain of the fire" he looked away and but kept his hands firm on the sink in front of him. Fire? He was in a fire.
"Edward can we go back to your place and maybe talk. Air out all of our pasts, I don't want to keep anything from you" I take his hand in mine and squeeze. He just looks down at me and smiles and nods his head. I take him back to the guest room and write a note for Alice and Jasper. I get into my pants and throw on my jacket.
"I'm just going to leave this for them" I tell him and put it on the counter. He grabs all of his stuff and we head out taking the elevator down. Thank god my foot feels much better.
He wraps his arm around me when we get outside and we walk to a bus stop. I feel Edward tense when some guy stares at me but I just lean into him and kiss his shoulder. He's possessive and I don't mind that because I don't want someone else. I don't want someone else even looking at me the way Jacob used to.
"Um my place is rather big…" Edward started to say and I looked up at him to see him look a bit hesitant to even go to his place. I put my finger to his lip.
"You could live in a box and I would still want to come and see you" I tell him seriously. Okay well not a box because then I would force him to live with me. I stayed snuggled into his side for the remainder of the ride.
"I'm well off though. I don't want you intimidated I guess or think less of me…" he said trailing off. I never wanted him thinking I would ever think less of him. I snuggled and massaged his chest.
"Never" I whispered and kissed his chest nuzzling. He kissed the top of my head and I smiled against his shirt. I wanted to remain like this forever and freeze time but I knew that was impossible. I licked my lips unconsciously and looked up to see Edward staring at my lips. I leaned up and kissed his chin then his jaw. His stubble tickled my lips and I giggled slightly.
"So you kiss me and giggle?" He teases and brings me into his lap. Thank god there weren't a lot of people on the bus or I would be bright red with embarrassment.
"It tickles" I whisper against his cheek.
"Oh really?" he rubs his stubble against my cheek and neck and I giggle loudly to my embarrassment but Edward just chuckles. I push him away from me and he gets up. We must be close to where he lives. I look outside and see that we are in the more expensive part of time.
We walk until we get to a rather old building. We walk upstairs and I'm in awe. It's all older renaissance beauty. It's vintage things too. He opens his door and I walk in. My mouth drops open. His home is large, like maybe three times the size of my small apartment. I blush and feel embarrassed thinking about my little dinky shack compared to this.
"Wow" is all I can say. Edward looks shy and walks over towards his living room but instead of following him I walk over to a hallway and open the door at the end. It's his bedroom. He has posters up of bands and so many books here. It has to be his room. I walk in and my hand brushes over some of his furniture. He has some child hood photos. He looks adorable as a little kid.
"You just go straight to the source don't you?" he jokes and I lift up a picture of him as a baby in the arms of two beautiful people. I hold it up to him.
"My birth parents" that answer is satisfying for now.
"You look like them. Your mother is so beautiful" I trace his mom with my fingers. She looks gorgeous, probably the best looking woman I've ever seen. I place the picture down softly against the wood and walk over to his bed shimmying out of my jeans. I jump on his bed and lay on my stomach staring at him.
"You better get comfy. We have a lot to talk about" I tell him and He takes off his jeans and walks over to his drawer and gets out some pajama pants then hops on the bed. I sit Indian style on the bed facing him while he lay down.
"Do you want to go first?" he shakes his head no and I nod.
"Well I was born in forks. Mom and dad split then she remarried and screwed me over by forgetting about me. I moved in with Charlie and because I didn't really have a parent I was stupid and did drugs. I got my diploma because of Alice though and I was basically a slave to that pig black until I got clean." I told him. He nodded and rubbed my knee. It was comforting.
"I was so addicted that I once almost did whatever Jacob wanted meaning have relationships with other men. I was like a 'crack whore' I guess you could call it. I did anything to get that fix. I'm clean thank god but I was so afraid that I was going to catch something. I wasn't me at all. I don't remember ever being in control of my actions until I almost committed suicide and I ran to my father." I told him and me somehow we got to the point where I was in his arms. He was rubbing my back slowly and I was burrowing myself into his chest.
"I got clean and went and became a tattoo artist. I go to meetings when I really need to or when I just want to support someone but that's about it. I haven't felt the urge to use in a long while. It's probably been a little more than a year since I've wanted to but two years since I have" I touched my arms and they didn't even hurt this time. I looked up to see Edward resting his eyes. He looked peaceful. I kissed his lips and snuggled. He looked so tired.
"Edward go to sleep and well talk later" I told him but he kept his hold on me. He fell asleep easily as I stroked his forehead and played with his hair. He looked so peaceful sleeping now.
"You're an angel…you deserve the better" I whispered into his hair and I fell asleep shortly.
EMPOV (Edward Masen Point of View)
I fell asleep with Bella in my arms but this bliss wouldn't last. I would have to tell her everything and then she would run away screaming. I would have to tell her about the nightmares and the fire that consumed my entire being.
I closed my eyes and buried my face in her soft stomach. She was by far the best pillow that I've ever had. I didn't want to stop cuddling with her but she would want to get far away from me when I was done with this sad disturbing story. She would know why I had some of my tattoos and Esme and Carlisle. She would know what happened to my real parents.
I stroked her stomach and made small patterns on her stomach.
Ring
Ring
I really didn't want to answer any phone right now. It was probably Esme and Carlisle reminding me about the whole charity dance coming up for the hospital. I hit the end button so that it would go straight to the machine.
"Edward its mom, I just wanted to let you know that we have your tuxedo already for the charity dance. Do we put you down as plus one or are you coming alone? Alice called saying you met a lovely young lady…I want to meet her right away son so please bring her around. Before the whole charity dance would be nice! How about tomorrow for dinner? Any way sweetie call me back." End of messages.
I groaned. I was going to call Alice and tell her to stop feeding my hungry mother information about my life. If I wanted to bring Bella around I would but it's been not even a day. If she was even mine after this…I got off of her and walked into my kitchen making some coffee. She liked her coffee just like mine so it wasn't that much trouble to remember.
I grabbed two of my rather large coffee mugs which just happened to be Christmas themed and poured the coffee along with our sugar and creamer. I padded back into my bedroom with the two mugs and set one down on her side...her side? I went over to my side and sat up against the head board. Like a magnet she attached herself to my legs and her head lay on my thigh. It was sexy and all but it was adorable at the same time. I played with her head and it seemed like she was purring like a cat.
"Bella" I whispered but she didn't stir. I looked over at the clock to see that it's only one o'clock. We slept for a good four hours. I touched her shoulder slightly and shook her. Tonight was a match and she had tickets. This was not at all complicated…note the sarcasm.
"Baby" I whispered and she stirred finally and her eye lids fluttered open. She looked up at me and smiled then stretched like a cat. I laughed at her and she got on her knees and blinked a few times.
"Morning" she said in the sleepiest voice I've ever heard.
"Morning baby, I made some coffee" her eyes lit up like a child on Christmas. She looked for it but I just pointed to her side and she picked it up smelling it.
"French Vanilla?" she asked taking a sip.
"Yeah, why do you not like it?" I asked panicked. I just assumed that she liked it since I had French vanilla when she gave me coffee.
"It's my favorite" she said content. We both sat against the headboard side by side and it made me think of an older married couple just sitting there. She scooted closer to me and rested her head on my shoulder while she was still sipping coffee.
"Do you want to talk now?" I ask and she nods slowly.
"Well I was adopted by Esme and Carlisle when I was six years old. They aren't my real parents but they are my parents now. My biological parents died in a fire when I was five years old. I was in the foster care system for one year before Carlisle and Esme found me." She reached over and put her coffee down next to me. She wrapped her arms around my waist and laid her head on my chest.
"I was in the fire. It was started from a match my father had lit for his cigarette. He thought it would die out but I hit the table and it went onto the carpet. It was a giant accident. The whole house was up in flames within a matter of seconds. I remember seeing my father on fire. His skin was melting off and I ran into the kitchen for my mother. She took me outside and the neighbors called 911 but she ran inside after him. I didn't know what was going on so I ran back inside when she didn't come out after a few moments." I felt tears on my chest and she hugged herself closer to me. My voice was shaking.
"I had burns on my arms from trying to drag my mother's lifeless body outside. I didn't know she was dead. I tried pulling her out but the flames licked at my skin and that's why I have tattoos up and down my arms. It covers some of the burns that I got during the fire" I told her and she got up and straddled my lap. She kissed me and I kissed her back. Her tongue ring touched mine and she bite my lips slightly making me purr.
"You're so strong baby." She kissed my chin and neck and then down on my shoulders and arms. It felt nice that she wasn't disgusted by the fact I had some burn marks under my tattoos.
"I met my parents a year later and I wasn't exactly social. I was a bit of a rebel I guess. They wanted whatever was best for me but I wasn't having any of that. I resented them a bit when I was a teenager that they were here and my parents weren't. I grew up though a lot when I was eighteen and realized it wasn't their fault. We've all been close since but I moved here to Chicago and I started into some bad things. I'm a…" she finished the sentence for me.
"…Underground Fighter. I Know, I remember going to your matches when Jacob would bet. I just don't realize how I didn't remember you at first. You were always good; Lizzie is getting tickets for tonight. Are you fighting tonight?" she asked. There was no disappointment in her eyes. I didn't feel wrong exposing my whole story to her but I felt relief that she now knew that I was messed up.
"Yes, I have a match tonight. I get seven grand if I win and three if I lose the match" I tell her and she looks like she's pondering something.
"Why do you get money if you lose?"
"Well no one would want to fight if you only got money if you won. I haven't lost many fights only a few" I felt the need to put that in there. It was either to impress her or to reassure her I would be okay, or a bit of both.
"You better not lose this one Edward or I'll kick your ass myself. I think Jacob is going to have you do a match with one of his guys" She said sternly like a mother. I laughed.
"I won't lose. I swear to you that I won't" I tell her seriously.
"Good. I would hate to have to beat you" she stuck her tongue out at me. I put my coffee down and picked her up putting her on the bed and I hovered over her.
"You beat me up?" I tease.
"Yes and I'll enjoy it. Now let me get up you oaf, I have to go pee" she pleaded and I tickled her a bit then let her get up to go to the bathroom. She swayed her hips when she walked into the bathroom and I groaned flopping back onto the bed. Such a little vixen she was.
"Bella" I called.
"Yes?" she answered and I heard the water turn on. I get out of bed and walk over towards the bathroom and leaned against the door. She was washing her hands.
"Will you come with me by any chance to my parent's charity dance/barbeque thing?" I ask and she scrunches up her face.
"Your parents?" she asks shyly.
"I understand if you don't want to meet them…" I trail off.
"No it's just I don't want to embarrass myself or you. I've never met anyone's parents. It's sort of new for me" she said quickly. She was just nervous.
"Well they want me to bring you over for dinner. They live right outside Chicago so it isn't that far away. My mom's excited to meet you though, Alice told her that we were seeing each other" I told her and scratched my head. It was kind of strange telling someone I wanted in my life that Alice had told my mom first about her.
"Oh. Yeah, that would be nice" she said wrapping her eyes around my waist pulling me to her.
"I'll call her before the match and let her know. We should go to lunch and then Alice will probably want to take you shopping for the match." I tell her and she giggles kissing my chest.
"I hate shopping though" she whines like a little kid.
"You don't have to wear anything uncomfortable just some jeans and a tee shirt" I tell her. I guess I shouldn't tell her after we usually go out celebrating with some of the money.
"I know what I'll wear then" she lets go of me and heads for one of my drawers. How she knew I had a tee shirt with my name on the back I will never know but she knew. She picked it up and held it out to me. I held it while she took off her shirt and bra then walked into the shower.
"Hold that for me while I shower" she grabbed her bag and put it on the counter in the bathroom then started up my shower. I stood there for about two minutes just staring at her. She opened up the door to the shower and then shut it after stepping in but she didn't shut the bathroom door.
Should I join her? She was humming Halestorm's familiar taste of poison. I took my shirt off and ran towards the bathroom almost falling taking my shorts off and opened up the shower door. Thank god it was a large shower. I threw them somewhere in the bathroom and stepped in behind her. She was washing her hair with my axe. I grabbed onto her hips and massaged them.
"I'll do it" I took over for her and shampooed and conditioned her hair. She turned around and smirked leaning up to kiss me. There wasn't anything sexual but it was all sweet, tender, and loving. She washed my hair only I had to kneel in order for her to do it. We washed each other. I paid close attention to her breasts, I am a guy after all, but I washed her tummy and memorized each of her curves. She was the perfect woman.
I washed her arms and rinsed them off gently.
"You hands feel warm" she cooed and I wrapped my arms around her pulling her to me. She had her arms around my neck. We made out in the shower for what seemed like hours but it was only for a few minutes. We walked out of the shower and I grabbed a fluffy towel drying her off.
"Thank you" she mumbled. I wrapped the towel around my waist and left her in the bathroom to get ready while I grabbed some clothes out of my drawers. I pulled on some loose fitting jeans and wife beater but put a button up shirt over it.
"I'm so glad that I learned from Alice and packed a mini over night kit in my purse" Bella said and I laughed. Alice always had everything but the kitchens sink her in her bag. She was the most prepared out of all of us. Bella let the towel go and took a fresh pair of panties, a thong, and pulled it up her legs. She put on her jeans and then a new bra. I helped her into my tee shirt and she tied it in to a knot so that it fit her better.
She looked sexy in my shirt. I spun her around and brushed her hair for her. It had been a day and I was whipped. I was falling hard for her and I was scared out of my mind.
"I guess you can tell Alice you don't have to go shopping now. All we have to do is go eat and then well head to the match. All of you girls can hang out with we make dinner" I tell her.
"You cook?" she asked surprised.
"The guys cook dinner. Usually steak or something for lunch then I go fight and we go out for dinner." I tell her and she nods and starts to blow dry her hair with a mini blow-dryer. She really has everything but her apartment in that bag and it's tiny. The female purse is a mystery to us.
"When's your birthday?" I ask randomly.
"September 13th" she says quietly. September was next month; I smile and kiss her ear flicking my tongue ring against the shell of her ear. She shivers slightly and I smile.
"What do you want for your birthday? Anything you want" I tell her seriously. I could afford anything she wants.
"Nothing, I hate my birthday. It's stupid" she says seriously.
"It was the day you were brought into the world. It is not stupid, it's the best day ever so far" I tell her and she smirks a little. She puts on some makeup even though I'd rather her go without it. She puts her hair up displaying the Masen on her back.
"I'm serious now, what do you want" I ask her turning her so she looks at me.
"Nothing please, Edward I hate when people spend money on me" she whines slightly and it sounds adorable. She's like an angry kitten. A Kitten!
"Whatever you say but you will get something" I warn her. We walk out of my apartment but I tell her to leave her stuff her since I wasn't letting her out of my site for a long while. We walk down stairs towards the car lot and I take out my keys.
"Which is yours?"
"I have two spots. The one for that Volvo there and the one next to it, the Aston martin." I tell her and she stops.
"You have an Aston Martin? How rich are you" she asks. Here comes the money bit.
"I'm well off Bella because of the fighting but that's it. Please don't make a big deal about it" I plead and she bites her lip.
"It just makes me feel inferior. You have so much more than me, I won't be able to buy you expensive gifts or take you to big places…"
"You won't ever because I'll be paying. I have all this money and nothing to spend it on but now that you're here I'll have something I want to spend it on. I want to buy you nice things. I will buy you nice things and you're just going to have to deal with it" I tease at the end.
"You're not inferior. If anything you're far superior to me" I tell her and open the door. We leave and head over to Alice's place which has seem to become head quarters to everyone ever since they bought it. You would think since mine was the largest that mine would be 'head quarters' but theirs is a lot homier. We drove for a bit and I weaved in an out of traffic.
"So how long have you been doing this?" she asked.
"Around five years or so, I'm one year older then you so I've been doing this a year before you even got involved with that rat." I tell her and she nods. I find her hand and I hold it all the way too Alice's house. There is a comfortable silence between us and we listen to Halestorm. We both had the same taste in music so I didn't have to educate her musical pallet.
We took the elevator up since I would need all my energy for the fight tonight. I was going to win no matter what. Bella was good motivation but I wanted to make black lose all his money because of what he did. Too bad I couldn't get him in the ring because that would just be heaven.
"You guys are finally here!" Alice squealed.
"Yes and you talked to my mother" she looked away like she didn't hear me. We walked in and we started up the grill. The girls went into Alice's room to talk about girly stuff. We stayed out on the balcony flipping steaks and making other things.
"So you and Bella?" Jasper asked
"Yep me and Bella" was all I said and they both nodded smiling. I couldn't help smile myself…
BPOV
We were going to one of Edward's fights tonight. I hope he doesn't lose. He cant lose or get hurt. I don't know what to do if he got hurt….
Lyrics
Drink the wine my darling, you said
Take your time and consume all of it
But the roses were only to drain my inspiration
The promises were spoiled before they left your lips and
I breathe you in again
Just to feel you underneath my skin
Holding onto the sweet escape
Is always laced with a familiar taste of poison
I tell myself that you're are no good for me
I wish you well but desire never leaves
I could fight this to the end
[ From : . ]
But maybe I don't wanna win
I breathe you in again
Just to feel you underneath my skin
Holding onto the sweet escape
Is always laced with a familiar taste of poison
I don't wanna be saved, I don't wanna be sober
I want you on my mind, in my dreams
Behind these eyes that I wanna wake up
No, not this time
I breathe you in again
Just to feel you underneath my skin
Holding onto the sweet escape
Is always laced with a familiar taste of poison
A familiar taste of poison, a familiar taste of poison
A/N: Okay so first I would love to say thanks to the following People:
TheVampyricAssasin
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They both suggested songs!
Also VampyricAssasin asked when I was going to have some Bella kick ass action…well maybe in the next chapter ;D Girl if it's there it's for you! Which it will be xD I used a song suggested by VampyricAssasin which is Familiar taste of poison by Halestrom. Everyone check them out because they rock. I totally have a girl crush on Lizzie cuz she's amazing.
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