LeiaLeFey06
Title: The Secret Life of Lily Evans
Rating: MA
Genre: Romance/Drama/General
Summary: Lily Evans wasn't as perfect as everyone thought she was nor was she faithful to James. She had a secret affair with another and he just happened to be James's best friend. This is her secret life. These are Lily's secrets shared with another. Who was Lily's lover? You'll have to read to find out.
Disclaimer: I do not own any of J.K. Rowling's characters. The general plot of this story and any new original characters are mine but only in a sense because I cannot own anything that is a part of Harry Potter. This is just a story I created that is called fanfiction.
Chapter 4: Return to Hogwarts
The week Lily had spent with Remus had been the best of her life. She still wondered whether or not she should regret giving up her virginity to him or not. The rest of the summer couldn't compare to the time spent with her new found love and happiness. Remus too had been feeling down the past couple of weeks. The separation from Lily was killing him. It was like he needed her to survive. She had almost revived him with her kindness and now with her love. What would he do without her in his life? What would Lily do without Remus around? They needed each other they truly did.
Lily stepped through the barrier of Platfrom 9 ¾ on September 1 as always. She spotted Remus with the rest of the Marauders as usual. She hoped this year that James Potter and Sirius Black wouldn't be as obscene in their pranks as they were the previous year. The other Marauder was Peter Pettigrew. Of course he wasn't like the other three he only really followed them around. Lily believed that Remus, James, and Sirius were just taking pity on the poor boy. Lily strode over to them hoping to have at least a civil word with James Potter and Sirius Black for once so she could speak to Remus. If she despised anyone in the world more than she despised Severus Snape and Lucuis Malfoy it was James Potter. She may not have cared too much for Sirius Black but at least he was somewhat tolerable.
"Hello, Remus," Lily said as she walked over to the four boys who with the exception of Pettigrew had all grown into handsome young men.
"Hi, Lily," Remus replied.
"Are you not going to speak to us, too?" James Potter asked.
"Why would I, Potter?" Lily asked, "I have nothing civil to say to you."
James didn't respond. It seemed that either he had nothing civil to say to her either or he was somewhat taken aback by her response.
"Evans does have a point, James," Sirius Black said.
"Glad to notice you have some intelligence, Black, besides sticking it all into those crazy pranks," Lily responded.
"Lily, I believe you have rendered them both speechless," Remus put in.
"It's nice to know. You know boys I could have said worse but for some reason I feel like being really nice to you today. I'll see you in the Prefects meeting, Remus."
With her last response Lily walked off and boarded the train. Remus Lupin could not help but notice that Lily was looking undeniably pale. She appeared to be sick. He had saw her just a couple of days ago and nothing was wrong with her but today she was the palest her pale skin had ever been. There was something obviously wrong with her and it has just come over her all of a sudden. It made Remus worry. Could he have harmed her that night they spent together making love? He hoped he had not. He hoped nothing had resulted from that but he couldn't help but thinking that something had. James and Sirius's speaking of Lily snapped him back to reality.
"Is it just me, Padfoot, or did Evans look sick?" James asked.
"She definetely looks like there is something wrong with her that's most likely health wise, Prongs. Why are you so worried?" Sirius answered.
"You know why."
"Oh yeah. You're still madly in love with her."
"Padfoot, since when did you become an expert on health?" Remus asked.
"Moony, how long have we been hanging out with you? I know a sick person when I see one."
"Padfoot has a point, Moony," James put in.
"You're right, Prongs. He does have a point. Lily looks like she's sick," Remus said.
"I forget, Moony. Why are you the only one of us on first name basis with her?"
"Because she's actually friends with me."
"And she doesn't hate his guts, Prongs, like she hates yours," Sirius added.
"And yours, too, Padfoot," James retorted.
"At least I'm not the one that's madly in love with a woman I can't have."
"Since when. Does the name Arabella Figg ring a bell to you?"
"Will the two of you stop that! You're giving me a headache and we need to get on the train and find a compartment before they're all gone," Remus said.
"And have to share with Snivelly," James added.
"Sorry about that, Moony," Sirius put in apologizing as the three of them followed by Peter Pettigrew headed towards the train.
Lily had entered the train and got into her usual compartment which she shared with Arabella Figg. Arabella was already on board and waiting on Lily when she got there. Arabella, in their past few years at Hogwarts, turned out to be a Squib but magical talent or not she continued to study so to have an ample knowledge of all things magical. None of the teachers seemed to mind that she was a squib. It seemed that the only people that gave Arabella grief were the Slytherins. Still through it all her best friends were Lily Evans and Remus Lupin and like Lily she absolutely despised James Potter and Sirius Black. If James Potter were in love with a woman he couldn't have in Lily it proved that Sirius was just like him. He was madly in love with Arabella who refused to give him the time of day.
"Good morning, Ari," Lily said entering the compartment calling Arabella her usual endearment of 'Ari.'
"'Morning, Lils," Arabella replied as Lily took the seat across from her noticing that Lily didn't look well, "Are you ok?"
"What do you mean?"
"You don't look well."
"If you count not being able to hold down any food then I don't feel that way either, but for some odd reason I'm so hungry I can't stand it. Wonder when the trolley will get here? I've got a strange craving for licorice wands."
"Lils, you hate licorice!"
"You're right I do."
"Then why on earth would you want some off the trolley?"
"No clue."
"Lily, I hate to ask this but you know that I've been studying muggle diseases and symptoms of just about everything in muggle studies and have you and anyone…"
Arabella was then rudely interrupted by the entrance of James Potter and Sirius Black into their compartment, so much for girl time.
"Hi Evans, Figgy, we were wondering if the two of you could use some company," Sirius said as he burst in with James on his tail.
"Not from the two of you we're afraid, Black, and don't call me Figgy again!" Arabella replied.
"But, Figg, everyone else is full with the exception of scattering us out among the Slytherins. You wouldn't do that to us would you?"
"I would. What do you think, Lily?"
"Are we stuck with just the two of you or all four?" Lily asked.
"All four," Remus said pushing himself into the compartment from in between James and Sirius, "You don't mind being stuck with us do you, Lily, Arabella?"
"As long as you can keep the rest of them in line, Remus, Ari and I don't mind at all. We would hate to see them stuck as Malfoy and Snape's bitches for the duration of the train ride."
"Nice to know you have some sympathy for me, Evans," James said sitting down on the opposite end of the seat Lily was sitting on.
"I don't. I only have a heart and hatred for all things Slytherin."
"I don't think they would want to be without some private fun with us this year. What do you say, Figg?" Sirius asked as he sat down beside Arabella.
"I say you need to get rid of your delusions of grandeur before I remove them for you," Arabella answered.
"Whatever can she mean?"
"That I'll remove your family jewels without magic if you don't quit hitting on me, Black."
With that the entire compartment erupted into laughter as Remus sat down in between James and Lily and Peter took the empty seat on the other side of Sirius. Sirius was highly offended by Arabella's comment about removing his equipment without magic if he didn't stop hitting on her. Arabella had nerve to talk to him the way she did, but Sirius didn't mind it because he knew that one day he would find a way to coax her into his bed. James found the way Arabella and Sirius treated each other to be hilarious. In a way it reminded him of his relationship with Lily. He was madly in love with her but she shot him down every time he tried to ask her out. It was as if a relationship between himself and Lily Evans was never going to happen. He knew just knew that one day his opportunity would come. He only wondered as to when.
The laughing and conversation continued for a while longer until Arabella finally interrupted, "Don't two people in this compartment have a Prefect's meeting to attend?"
"Oh…I almost forgot!" Lily exclaimed.
"You're not the only one," Remus added.
"Ari, if the trolley comes before we get back get me three pumpkin pasties…"
"As usual," Arabella put in interrupting Lily's orders.
"I'm very hungry, Ari. I, also, want three licorice wands…"
"You've got to be kidding!" Remus interrupted in exclamation
"Oh shove it, Remus, I want licorice."
"But you hate the stuff."
"I'm agreeing with Remus here, Evans. I have never seen you eat the stuff in six years," James put in.
"Neither have I," Sirius added.
"All of you can forget what I ate over the past six years. Ari, I want three bloody licorice wands!" Lily exclaimed.
"Anything else?" Arabella asked.
"Two boxes of Bertie Botts."
"That's one more than your usual."
"Oh do shut up," Lily said tossing Arabella a bag of money, "Here's my money. I'll be back when the meeting's over."
Lily stormed out of the compartment with Remus trailing her. It was pretty obvious that everyone that just hit a nerve and Remus was trying to figure out which one. Lily was pale and eating very oddly. It seemed so strange for her to be acting the way she was. If only he could figure out what was wrong with her.
Back inside the compartment Arabella was cursing herself for being a Squib. Sirius Black was driving her mad as usual and there was no Lily nor Remus there to stop him. James Potter was only good for one thing and that was encouragement of Sirius. Peter Pettigrew was just acting as if he didn't exist.
"Come on, Figg. What's so wrong with me?" Sirius asked.
"You're a pompous ass," Arabella answered.
"I wonder what's wrong with, Lily," James said out of the blue.
"What are you talking about, Potter?"
"She's very pale. She's the absolute moodiest she's ever been. And, on top of that she's eating a food she's never liked. Does it add up to anything to you, Figg?"
"Not right off," Arabella lied because she had a very good idea of what happened to be wrong with Lily but she wasn't about to share it with James Potter and Sirius Black.
"I'm worried about her."
"I know you are."
"Evans would never believe that he was," Sirius put it.
"I know that, Black. Lily has never believed Potter's feelings for her to be sincere."
"Oh so now you tell me this, Figg!" James exclaimed.
"Calm down, Potter. The Slytherin crowd is only a few compartments down. You wouldn't want to excite them and get them in here before we even get to school would you?"
"Point taken."
"Nice to know that you unlike Black listen to me."
"I do, too, listen to you!" Sirius said with a slight shock.
"No you don't."
Lily and Remus were heading towards the Head's compartment when Remus grabbed Lily and pushed her up against a wall. His lips collided with hers passionately. After a just one week without her he had realized just how much he loved her, just how much he needed her. Lily melded herself into Remus drowning in his kiss. She needed him just as much as he needed her. Remus was slowly deepening the kiss but quickly pulled away and separated from Lily when he heard footsteps headed towards them. He looked over at Lily with a look of deep passion in his eyes and stepped towards her offering her his hand. She took it and smiled at him looking back to noticed Lucius Malfoy and Narcissa Black, the two Slytherin prefects walking towards them.
"Well if it isn't Lupin and his little mudblood," Lucius said maliciously.
"Sod off, Malfoy," Remus replied as he turned and led Lily towards the Head's compartment trying to ignore Lucius.
"It looks like the little lovers don't want to be disturbed, Lucius," Narcissa said with a drawl.
Lily stopped dead in her tracks letting go of Remus's hand and turning to face Narcissa.
"At least I, unlike you, am not the whore of my house, Black. I have the decency to be a one man woman and not flip flop around between how many is it now…six…eight…ten….twenty? Next time you have something to say about me, Narcissa Black, say it to me not to your pig headed man whore of a boyfriend, don't accuse me, oh and don't go starting fights with someone who can knock you one your ass before you can get to your wand," Lily ranted hoping that any who heard would get the picture that she wasn't a witch to be reckoned with.
"Was that a threat, you little mudblood?" Narcissa asked.
"I don't do threats. I meant what I said. Try to start something with me again and I will hex you into next week. I'll let you off this time because I have a prefects meeting but next time I won't let you off so easy."
"You're weak minded and week blooded."
"Fuck the meeting; I've had it!"
"Lily, no!" Remus yelled grabbing her back from Narcissa before she could grab her wand, "She's not worth it."
"You're right Remus," Lily replied not struggle at all against Remus's grip on her, "She isn't. Try this again Narcissa and even Remus won't be able to stop me from giving you what you deserve."
"So you think, mudblood, so you think," Narcissa said walking off with Lucius.
When Narcissa and Lucius were gone, Remus released Lily from his grip. Lily turned around and faced him. There was no real anger in her eyes. She was thankful she had him there.
"If I didn't…" Lily started to say.
"If you didn't what, Lily?" Remus asked.
"If I didn't love you I wouldn't have allowed you to stop me."
"You love me?"
"I do."
"I love you, too, Lily Evans."
"I've been hoping you felt the same way."
"Same here."
Their hands connected as their lips did once more. All they could do was smile knowing that they both felt the same.
"We have a meeting to go to," Remus said offering Lilly his hand.
Lily took as she smiled and said, "Lead the way."