I've watched you so long
screamed your name
I don't know what else
I can say
But I'll leave my window open
Cause I'm too tired tonight
for all these games
Just know I'm right here hoping
You'll come in with the rain

"Why can't you, why Ellie?" Asked Jay, as he caught up with her, Putting his hands on her shoulders, he stared at he thinking Even in the rain with black stuff pouring down her face she's beautiful.

"Because I cant, Jay you don't love me, you pity me there's a big difference" She stated ripping her self from his grasp. "Just please, leave me, I am not you're community service project".

"How can you say that?" He demanded, stepping back "How can you think that I'm, pitying you after everything we have been through, why would I pity you," he asked sounding lost.

"Why else would you say you love me, why?" She screamed at no one in particular. The rain felt like ice to her cream colored skin. "Sean 'loved' me to, after he found I was a cutter…"

"I'm NOT Sean" he interrupted angrily, "I will not hurt you like he, did, never, and I would never violate you like Ryan did that night". HE finished sensing more than seeing her look warning him not go there, the rain was coming harder now but he didn't care he need to say this and she needed to hear this. "I love you, I love everything about you, the way you laugh, the way you think or how you always give your change to the homeless man outside of the dot. I love you and I want love you, so why wont you let me?" He asked as he gently turned her face to meet his gaze.

"Because I'm a victim and an orphan and a cutter and you deserve better Jay." She admitted barley above a whisper. "Even if you didn't how, could I believe you wouldn't hurt me how? After everything, why should I believe you are different?"

"Because I' am Jay Hogart, and before I knew you I was a professional asshole and then Sean left and Ryan… well, you know and first time in my life someone needed me and me and wanted help from me. You told me I could be better you weren't afraid of didn't think of me as any of things I have done, and now I' am here selflessly for you in the rain fighting for you fighting for better things, you are the only one whose ever believed in me so don't stop now, please believe in me cause I believe in you."

She didn't know what to say, so she kissed him like she's never kissed anyone before, giving him everything she had and as the rain soaked through her close and down her hair she kissed him. Her hands running through his hair as his hungry hand made their way down to her hips staying their, knowing he had to be respectful, it was hard especially when her tongue shyly licked his lips begging for entrance that he gladly granted. They kissed as they if they were the last people left at he end of the world with nothing left to loose.

She pulled away catching her breath. She reached for his hands holding them in her own, if he wanted a chance with her if he would stand here in the rain and fight for her… then she was his.

"I can't give you everything you deserve those things were broken along time ago" she whispered looking at the ground, "But I am willing to try." She finished meeting his eyes.

He smiled at her leaning down to kiss her gently before grabbing her hands and leading her out of the rain and into his car. As he opened the door for her like he had many times before, he looked in her eyes and saw something has never seen before, trust. He closed the door and went to his side of the car, he got in and started it up, he turned to her wanting desperately to say the things he knew still haven't said, but he knew that they have both come far tonight and all other worries would have to wait. Tonight he with her and that's all that mattered. He drove away as they headed back to her house, knowing full well that there was more to come, it wouldn't be this easy.