Hi...Sorry for the long wait, my computer was down for a while. This chapter is about the physical training in Four's initiation(Ex. hand to hand combat, shooting, stuff like that.) Without further ado, enjoy!

Sometimes I feel like the world is in front of me, that I'm the only one who sees the other side. It's like one way glass, you can see them, but they can't see you.

Coming to Dauntless only made it harder.

That night, after the shooting lesson, I decided to explore a bit. I walk to the pit. Surprisingly, there aren't many people there, like they all went to bed early. They again, it was midnight. I stop by the railing over the river. It is this thin metal strip that couldn't protect anybody. Zeke told me earlier that the they sometimes hang people over for punishment.

Slowly, keeping my footsteps as silent as possible, I walk to the other side, the one with no railing. Although dangerous, the natural stone is beautiful. Plus, there are stalagmites along the edge, so people know to keep away. As I venture further into the caves, I see an opening. Small and indistinct. If I wasn't looking for anything I probably would've missed it.

I walk towards the cave and duck into it. The opening is about 2 by 3 feet, way too small for my 6'3 frame.

I slightly gasp at the scene. There are black obsidian walls with stone floors that seem to reflect light. It gives the place an eerie look, like the home of a Greek god. Eerie, but beautiful.

I sit along the back wall-away from the water-and think. Think about what I've done, what I didn't do. I didn't forgive my father for hurting me, I still can't forgive my mother for dying. But I've spent my whole life helping others. That's gotta count for something? Finally, I go back to my transfer. What would it be like if I stayed in Abnegation, what would it be like. Marrying an Abnegation women, maybe one of my neighbors, becoming part a government leader, forgetting myself forever. I can't say that sounds good. I think about my aptitude results. Divergent. My administer told me it meant I had aptitude for more than one Faction, but how is that a bad thing? I look up into the ceiling. There are white and gold crystal fragments hanging from copper cords. Someone's been here before.

"Beautiful, isn't it?" Slightly startled, I jump up and turn around. Amar.

"Sorry, didn't mean to intrude." I don't know, this place is public, but I feel like it belongs to him.

"I don't own the place. I just like to come here sometimes, to clear my thoughts."

"Same here."

"What is it, girl problems, family problems, training, or just some noble reflection time?"

"Reflection."

"Ditto."

"You know, this is one of the few unmonitored spots in the Dauntless compound." Amar looks up at me. I realize he's only a few years older than me. 21 at most.

"Is that so." I'm avoiding the question. He somehow knows my secret, not just Marcus, but Divergent.

"I sometimes wonder why we put down other Factions, they're all connected one way for the other. Honesty and selflessness don't work without courage. Knowledge doesn't come until you admit you don't know anything. You'll never get anywhere in life without kindness. If only everyone knew that."

If only so. He already knows I'm divergent, but is waiting for me to say it.

"You should get some sleep know, you got a whole lotta training tomorrow. Remember: Look with both eyes."

Look with both eyes. What's that supposed to mean? I'm about to ask him, but I see he's already gone.

Sighing, I get up and walk back to the transfer dorm.

" No, the world wouldn't be able to get along without chocolate cake."

"and why is that?"

"It makes you happy, makes your sex drive kick into overdrive..."

Shauna and Zeke are having some stupid argument about cake. Apparently it makes you horny. Shauna and I continue to exchange glances. Shauna might have a thing for Zeke. Eric is nowhere to be seen.

Demetri, the Candor transfer, woke everyone up with his screams. He had a flash back to the fear landscape. I don't think anyone slept after that.

"OK everyone. Yesterday you learned how to shoot a gun, now we're going to learn hand to hand combat. First we're going to talk about strengths and weaknesses. The larger initiates have an advantage in strength, but the smaller do in speed. Now, that's not always true. Take Eric and Four for example. While Eric is shorter, he's stronger, and while Four's taller, he's faster." Eric is standing off from the group. He has dark circles under his eyes and a few of his knuckles are split. Wonder how he'll hit the bag...

"I'll demonstrate a some basic punches and kicks." Amar goes up to a beat-up looking bag and slowly demonstrates. I watch him demonstrate a straight punch, the side kick, then the uppercut.

"Each of you go to your bags." We all look around nervously at each other, like the first day. "NOW!" Again we trip over each other trying to get to our places.

I punch and kick the bag like Amar showed us, but I feel like I'm missing something, like if I actually got in a fight, I would lose because of this.

"Bring your arms up. You aren't protecting your face. One punch to the jaw and you're done." Anthony, the other trainer, looks at me critically.

"Thanks." I say.

By lunch, my arms are sore and my hands twitching. Shauna and Lauren said they were going to go shopping or something, so it was just me and Zeke. He seems distracted.

"Hey man, are you ok?" I ask. I'm not really sure what to say, I've never really had friends.

"Um, yeah. I have a question."

"shoot."

" If I asked Shauna out, do you think she'd say yes?" I can feel the smile forming on my lips.

"You like Shauna?"

"Yes." He answers.

"She likes you too. Go for it."

"Thanks for the advice."

"No problem."

By then we've reached the cafeteria. My eyes scan the room and I see Eric sitting with a group of Dauntless born who are known to do drugs, terrorize others, and just to cause chaos.

"What's gotten into him?" I ask Zeke.

"No idea. One day he's with us, now he's with them."

We sit down with our lunches. Today it's roasted beef sandwiches with carrots and french fries. Fabulous.

"Well, time to get back." I think Annelise said that. She's the Erudite transfer.

We all walk back to the training room. I guess I don't have any transfer friends anymore, now that Eric ditched. Oh, well.

"Now you are going to continue practicing. tomorrow you'll fight for real. At the end of the day I'll pair you up. Remember: If you're high ranked and you lose to a high rank, your rank won't falter. But if you're a high rank and you lose to a low rank, you're rank will be lowered. Resume to your practice."

We all go back to our bags and kick and punch them for all it's worth. I see Shauna in the corner struggling. When she punches the bag hardly moves. Her form is awful, too. I'll have to get her on that later.

"You guys wanna get drunk tonight?" Zeke asks. It's about 8 and Zeke, Shauna, Lauren, and I are hanging out at the Chasm.

"Is that allowed?" I ask. In Abnegation alcohol isn't allowed because it's self indulgent. They all start laughing.

"Careful Four, your inner stiffiness is showing." Lauren says.

"Ok, I'll get the beer."

We all sit around a table outside the Dauntless born dorm. Shauna is holding 2 12 packs of beers, 4 ping pong balls, and 14 plastic cups.

"Ok Four, we're going to play beer pong. The object of the game is to shoot a ping pong ball into your opponents cups. If you make it into the cup, they have to drink it. When all the cups on your opponents side is gone, you've win. You're with Lauren and I'm with Zeke."

Shauna fills all the cup slightly more than half way with beer and puts a shot of liquor in each and we begin.

About half way through the game, my head gets foggy and I can't see straight. So this is what it feels like to be Dauntless.

That is my last thought before I black out.

Wow, that took forever! I didn't know how to end it so it's kind of weak. Thanks for reading and please review!

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