Date : 10.05.2008
Title : And Baby Makes…Four?
Author : ElaineDex
Chapter : 4 of ?
Rating : M
Pairings : Major Evan Lorne/Dr. Ellie Harrison
Warnings : Some Sexual Content, Romance, Strong Language.
Spoilers : This story is the Sequel to Worlds Apart and it has nothing to do with either of my other two series' which I will be continuing with shortly.
Feedback : Yes please, always welcome whatever it may be.
Disclaimer : Dr. Ellie Harrison is mine. Stargate Atlantis and all of its characters, unfortunately, have nothing to do with me.
Summary : AU : Ellie wants marriage and babies…but can Lorne get over his fear that history might repeat itself before it's too late to convince Ellie that it's what he wants too?
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THREE MONTHS LATER
"I love you", Ellie said as Lorne moved away from her after their recent love-making.
She waited for him to return her statement but she frowned as she saw that he was obviously distracted by something under the bed sheets.
"Evan?", she prompted then jumped as he suddenly sat up quickly.
"Damn…Ellie, I think the protection split", he said and her eyes widened as he got out of the bed and moved to the bathroom.
A few more choice colourful words confirmed to her that his suspicions had been correct.
As he emerged from the bathroom again, he looked at her, a worried expression upon his face.
"You should see Doc. Keller tomorrow…see about the morning after pill", he said and Ellie sat up in bed, pulling the sheet around her.
"Evan…would it really be that bad if I were to get pregnant?", she asked and Lorne sat on the edge of the bed, his back to her.
She moved up behind him and kissed his shoulder.
"Just see Keller tomorrow okay?", he replied and Ellie tried not to let the hurt steal into her heart at his answer.
"If I can get there yeah…I'm off world with SGA-4...", she murmured and Lorne nodded and got back into bed.
He pulled her to him and she rested her head on his chest, an uneasy feeling settling in her stomach. He had seemed over cautious about pregnancy ever since they had arrived at the hotel back in Washington, but lately his obsession with being careful seemed to be getting worse.
It was as though the longer they were together, the more hell-bent on stopping her getting pregnant he became. She understood that they hadn't discussed having children and that they had only been a couple for around five months now, but she loved him and to her, if pregnancy occurred, it would be like the most natural thing in the world and nothing to worry about.
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The next day Ellie went to see Jennifer Keller who smiled kindly at her as she handed over the box containing the morning after pill.
"I need to re-stock on those things…you'd be surprised at how quickly they go around here!", the Doctor laughed and Ellie forced a smile.
"Our protection split last night and…", she trailed off as Keller waved her hands.
"You don't have to explain to me…", Keller said just as her ear-piece buzzed and she was informed that SGA-3 was coming back in with injuries that required immediate medical attention.
"I'm sorry Ellie but I have to get ready for incoming", she said standing and Ellie nodded and began to move away.
"Of course…and thanks for these", she replied, waving the box at Keller as she turned to leave.
Just as Ellie disappeared through the doors, Keller slapped a hand to her forehead as she remembered that she hadn't explained to her how to take the pills.
'Still', she thought, 'Ellie is an intelligent woman, I'm sure she'll read the instructions', and with that she continued to ready the infirmary for the imminent emergency.
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Later that evening, Lorne returned from his security rounds and entered their quarters to find Ellie in the bathroom, being sick.
Emma was sat quietly on the sofa, her bear in her arms and her eyes huge and Lorne quickly kissed her before heading into the bathroom.
"Hey honey, are you okay?", he asked, stroking her back as Ellie rinsed her mouth and stood looking pale.
"It's the morning after pill…sometimes the first dose can make you sick, cause its so strong", she informed him and Lorne instantly felt guilty.
He pulled her to him.
"I'm sorry", he said and she sighed and rested her head against his chest.
"It's not your fault", she murmured but Lorne thought differently.
"Do you have to take another dose yet then?", he asked and Ellie nodded.
"But not for hours yet".
The hours ticked by and Ellie was called to the lab to assist McKay and it wasn't until way, way past the time she should have taken the second dose that Ellie remembered it.
As she clapped her hand over her mouth and gasped, McKay eyed her suspiciously.
"What? What have you done?", he asked sounding panicky as he moved to her side to check what was on her laptop screen.
"I…oh my God, Evan is going to kill me", she said looking at him with a face full of panic and McKay scowled at her.
"So it has nothing to do with this experiment?", he asked and Ellie shook her head.
"Then I don't care about anything else", he said and Ellie frowned at him as he walked away.
"Your concern overwhelms me sometimes Rodney", she said but he merely shrugged and continued working.
Ellie considered her options. She could just keep quiet and hope that the pill she had taken earlier was enough, she could go back to Keller and tell her what had happened or she could tell Lorne what had happened.
Chewing her pen, she was still pondering when an explosion from the lab next door tore through the air and she suddenly found herself lying face down on the other side of hers and Rodney's lab, surrounded by debris and glass.
As alarms began to sound all around her, she lifted her head cautiously.
"Rodney?", she whispered, trying to look around but she could see nothing of McKay.
She pushed herself up onto her knees as marines from the surrounding areas descended upon the labs.
"Are you alright Doc?", Sergeant Stackhouse asked as he grasped her arm and helped her up.
"Yes…I think so….but Dr McKay is in here too…somewhere", she said looking around frantically.
Just then Sheppard and Ronon arrived.
"What happened…are you alright?", Sheppard asked as Keller and a medical team also showed up.
"I think so…I…don't know what happened…one minute we were working and then next…boom", Ellie replied grabbing Sheppard's arm.
"John, Rodney is in here and Radek was working next door", she said and he looked at her.
"We'll get them out", he said then tapped his ear-piece. "Major Lorne respond please".
Lorne's voice came back straight away.
"Yes Sir?", he asked.
"There's been an explosion on the lab level, I need you to get together all available man-power and get them up here, McKay and Zelenka are trapped", Sheppard replied.
"Ellie…?", Lorne said, his voice full of concern and Sheppard glanced back at Ellie as he replied,
"She's okay, a little shook up…but okay".
"I'm on my way", Lorne said.
After getting Cadman to come sit with Emma, Lorne quickly gathered more men and made his way to the lab level, his eyes searching out Ellie.
He found her just as a medic was leaving her after cleaning up her cuts and grazes.
He fought his way through the chaos and grabbed her around the waist.
"Thank God you're alright", he said, nuzzling his face against her dusty hair as she wrapped her arms around his neck.
"I hope Rodney and Radek are okay too…", Ellie said.
"I need to help out…you go and rest okay?", Lorne said, kissing her cheek gently and she nodded and moved away, looking over her shoulder in time to see Rodney being pulled out from under the debris…and she knew then that seeing Keller tonight was not an option anymore as the Doctor would be way too busy. As she headed for hers and Lorne's quarters she hoped the pill that she had taken earlier that day had worked...
ONE MONTH ON
"I don't think I could ever get married again", Lorne was saying to Sheppard as they returned their P-90's to the armoury after getting back from their latest joint team mission.
Ellie who had been about to enter the room, stopped in her tracks as she heard his words.
Her heart froze and her jaw dropped in shock.
"Why not? You and Ellie seem to be really well suited", she heard Sheppard ask and she waited nervously for Lorne's reply.
"We are…I just don't know if I could go through what I went through with Brianna again", he said and Ellie scooted closer as she heard Sheppard say,
"Well surely that's more to do with having another kid isn't it? I mean there's no risk in marriage…is there?".
She heard Lorne sigh.
"I just don't think I can do the whole marriage and baby thing again", he said and she could stay silent no longer.
She stepped around the corner of the doorway and hands on hips said,
"And when exactly were you planning on informing me of this 'ever so slightly important' information?".
Lorne and Sheppard exchanged a glance that clearly said 'oh crap' and Sheppard slapped Lorne's shoulder as a good luck gesture as he left the Major and Ellie alone.
"Ellie…", Lorne began but she shook her head at him.
"I cant believe that you never told me that this was how you felt. You really don't want to get married or have any more babies? I wondered why you have been so obsessed with us taking precautions when we make love ", she said and he could see how pale she had gone.
"I…I just…you have to understand how hard it was for me when Brianna…", Lorne stumbled over his explanation, trailing off as Ellie continued to glare at him.
"I do understand that Evan…but…but I…", Ellie's voice faltered as she thought about never becoming Lorne's wife…nor having any of his children.
Lorne stepped closer to her and he touched her arm, frowning when she stepped back out of his reach.
"You still haven't said that you love me", she said suddenly as the thought occurred to her and Lorne angled his head.
"I've been waiting for the right time", he said.
"If there has never been a right time over the last few months then I'd say we have a slight problem. Evan, I thought everything was perfect between us", Ellie replied, cursing herself as tears suddenly threatened.
She didn't usually cry easily but for some reason she felt like bawling her eyes out right then.
"Everything is perfect, Ellie come on…don't blow this out of proportion", Lorne said stepping toward her, but again she took a step back.
"I am not blowing this out of proportion. I just found out that the man I want to settle down with and whom I thought wanted to settle down with me too, actually never wants to marry me or have any children with me", she said and Lorne frowned.
"Well, when you put it like that I guess it does sound bad but…", he trailed off as Ellie laughed mirthlessly.
"You 'guess' it sounds bad? You guess?!", she said, hearing her own voice rising slightly and she tried to calm down.
"Are we having our first row?", Lorne asked, trying to smooth things out.
He knew that they needed to talk this through as obviously it was a serious issue between them but he also knew that the armoury was not the right place.
"No, we're not having our first row Evan…we're having our first break-up. If you're not serious about me then…then…we're over", Ellie ranted and turning on her heel she left Lorne staring open-mouthed after her.
When he got to their quarters following his briefing with Carter and his and Sheppard's teams, he found Ellie had put Emma to bed and was waiting for him with a rucksack in her hands.
"What's that for?", he asked as she swung it onto her shoulder.
"I'll be back in the morning before Emma wakes up but I am not sleeping here tonight", she informed him and Lorne swallowed hard.
They hadn't spent a night apart since he had gone to the U.K. and found her and he refused to believe that she would want to spoil that.
"Ellie we need to talk about this…", he said but she glared at him.
"You haven't been honest with me…you should have told me from the beginning that you wouldn't want to marry me or have babies with me. Didn't you think that those things would matter to me?", she asked and Lorne looked away guiltily.
"I…I don't know…", he replied and Ellie bit back tears.
"Why follow me half-way across the world if you didn't want a serious relationship with me?", she said, her voice breaking and Lorne held his hands out.
"I thought we were having a serious relationship", he replied, "We live together like man and wife, we have Emma…", he stopped as Ellie swiped at her tears.
"But we're not man and wife and Emma isn't mine is she. She's yours and Brianna's".
"She's as good as yours", Lorne retorted and Ellie shook her head.
"I love Emma…but I wanted us to have a baby in the future too", she said, then watched as Lorne's face turned to stone.
His expression told her everything that she needed to know.
Biting back a sob she moved to the doorway.
"I'll see you in the morning", she said quietly as she left.
When she'd gone, Lorne sat on the sofa, his head resting in his hands. He cursed at himself for not telling her the truth.
Why was it so hard to just tell her that he didn't want to get her pregnant because he was scared to death of losing her the same way that he had lost Brianna? If he had just said the words then she wouldn't have left...they could have worked things out.
In his mind Brianna's death had been his fault, he had gotten her pregnant so therefore she had died because of him.
He couldn't do that to Ellie. He wouldn't.
End of Chapter 4