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Apparently the Edelstein family has disappeared from the very surface of the earth. Gilbert couldn't get in touch with them no matter how hard he tried. He tried asking around but the answers he got back are all the same. None were helpful, there was no leads as to where the Edelstein family could have gone to.

He was slowly losing his sanity. He wrecked his brain for any leaked information from Roderich before that fateful night. Any hints that might have entailed in them leaving the country. All he got was nothing.

There was never a period in his life where he had been separated from Roderich for more than 2 weeks and that itself, is eating his insides. He stopped attending school, he skipped his meals and even neglected his other friends. His job was the only thing that gets him out of the house for he knew that they needed the money and that he still has a brother to take care of. He was a mess.

Ludwig worries about his brother. Being the younger sibling, usually it is the job of the elder to worry and care for the younger however in this case, it is the other way around. He can see that his brother is steadily losing weight. Whenever he caught a glimpse of his brother whenever they were at home at the same time, it was clear as daylight that his brother was merely a hollow husk of the man he once knew. Gilbert wasn't the same exuberant person that he was before. He knows that Gilbert had stop attending school and is working full time now. For once, he is glad and thankful that his brother is still sane enough to prioritise about their living expenses but again, he can't help but worry.

He tried talking to him whenever he caught him at their house but every attempt was to no avail. He tried every possible way to get Gilbert to open up to him, but Gilbert just brush him away, as if he was just a big blond pest. The younger Beilshmidt had a hunch that the reason why his older brother is behaving this way is because of a specific Austrian brunette. He never really wanted to ponder on it too much because if he does so, he will no doubt have a negative feeling towards Roderich, who have been like another brother to him. He could never bring himself to hate Roderich or his parents, especially not after what they have done for and given them.

But sometimes, Ludwig can't help it. Whenever he found his thoughts drifting, the same words kept going through his mind; 'if only he didn't evaporate to nothingness, none of this would have happen'. He tried reasoning with himself, thinking of multiple reasons as to why not only Roderich but the whole family fled the country and leaving his brother in such a pathetic state. The longer he lingered on such thoughts, the angrier he got.

His one and only brother, his only family. Gilbert's life is breaching the end of no return and he can't even do anything about it.

"Bruder, come out and have lunch. Now." Ludwig commanded between the thick piece of wood that was apparently Gilbert's door. Frowning when there was no sign of movement heard, Ludwig knocked harder. "Bruder, open the door." Again, he was met with silence. Giving up, he let out a sigh from his nostril and made his way to the kitchen. 'He will come out, eventually'.

Opposite the door, Gilbert heard the knock, he heard his baby brother's words but yet, he chose to ignore it altogether. He hasn't been in contact with Roderich for over 2 months and he hated every second of it.

What angers him the most is that why would they leave without saying goodbye? How could the people that he had considered to be his family, just left him and his brother here? Granted, he wanted the freedom and he wanted to be independent. But this wasn't not what he had in mind. Even when him and his brother was staying elsewhere, they put in time and effort to visit the Edelsteins when they can. So how could they just left without saying anything to either of them?

Thinking back, Roderich never acted differently around Gilbert, so there wasn't any reason for him to be suspicious. Their one night of passion happened because Gilbert was curious about same-sex intercourse. Had been curious for a long time and since Roderich is playing for the other team, he thought that there wasn't anyone better to educate him about it. What he didn't expect was for Roderich to suggest that they give it a shot. When they had sex that particular night, he had noticed just how beautiful Roderich actually is.

From his point of view, he couldn't really see the brunette's face but he did manage to catch a glimpse of his face. His soft hair was all over the place, a portion of his fringe was matted with sweat, plastered to his forehead. His captivating violet eyes were half lidded as he was in ecstasy. His beautiful thin lips were slightly agape as he let out soft hushed moans and whimpers. He was just simply breathtaking.

He might not have admitted it to anyone but he has always been taken by Roderich's beauty. He knew that what he felt for Roderich was special. Before, he has never thought about being remotely sexual with another male but for him Roderich is different. He never liked the guys that Roderich found "attractive" he always ruled it out as being protective but he knows deep inside that he was jealous of the other males Roderich had eyes for.

He considers himself lucky to be able to see Roderich in such a way, proud even. He thought about asking Roderich out, seeing that they were having sex. Wanted to bring up the question the next morning.

But all is too late as the guy that he has feelings for is nowhere to be found.

Rewritten to make it longer. Added a little bit more detail on their backstory, i guess