There is a trigger warning for this chapter, I don't want to give the chapter away but i also don't want anyone out there getting triggered so if you have had trouble with suicide and depression please skip this chapter!
Thank you guys for keeping with this story. I have 16 chapters written out and i think its going to be about 17 maybe 18 depends how much i have left which isn't much ill try to post 2 chapters a day if I can't I'm sorry but don't worry they will get up there :) I really wish i owned glee if I did Brittana would be living together and everything and it be the Brittana show :)
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Britt's Pov.The next time I'm at school I'm expecting what always happens when I walk in the front doors, but today there's no one there to taunt me and for once in along while im happy. Maybe today will be a good day after all.
"Hey loser" but then again maybe I spoke to soon. I turn around and see Riley standing there yep, I spoke to soon.
"What do you want Riley" I ask her with an annoyed tone but I guess she didn't like that, She looks pissed that I talked back.
"What did you say you Stupid loser!" Shes up in my face now, but im not going to back down I can't I've been taking this for too long for once im going to speak for myself.
"I said what the hell do you want, maybe im not the only Stupid loser here." I regret those words as soon as they leave my mouth. Riley shoves me against the row of lockers as hard as she can.
"No im not you, you're the stupid bitch in this school, you think people are really your friends? Where are they now, not here to protect you, oh yeah that's right because they don't care your nothing, your worthless, your own girlfriend didn't want you, You may as well not even be here, no one will notice!" She yells right in my face and im terrified
I'm crying harder than I ever have before and im shaking. I don't even respond I can't, I use everything I have to push-off the lockers and past Riley, I run out of the school I cant take it anymore.
For the second time this week I don't remember getting home, I'm just to upset to even care. I feel so defeated and anger, I can't go on like this everyday its only just going to get worse for me. I just cant do it not if its going to be like this.
Sugars pov.
I send a text to Britt during first period, I'm worried about her she wasn't in school yesterday and she hasn't shown up today yet. Maybe she's just sick or something I tell myself I try and focus on what the teachers saying for the rest of the class.
After first period I hear some girls talking about a fight, im a little intrigued at first but then I hear Britt's name and my stomach drops.
"Brittany Really got it this morning"
That's Really not good, I walk up to the girls and ask them what happened.
"Riley really ripped Brittany to shreds this morning, I've never seen someone take so much verbal abuse," One girl says.
"What did Riley say?" I rush my words out worrying about what might have happened.
"She told Brittany she was stupid, and worthless and no one cared about her" SHIT! is all I can think in this moment, I race out of the school and towards my car worried about Brittany.
Britt's pov.
I feel numb, I don't want to be here anymore maybe Riley's right, Maybe I am worthless why should I live if no one cares? I go to my computer, I need to find out the best way to do this, I don't want to be in pain anymore. Tears are freely flowing down my face now, I don't think they ever stopped. After looking everything up I find three ways to do this
1. Cutting, I do have that glass or a sharp knife would work but I don't want a mess and I don't think I could do that one.
2. Hanging, I don't have a rope or anywhere to do this one really.
3. overdose/pills, this one I can do my mom has a whole bunch in the washroom.
I walk in to the main washroom and grab my moms sleeping pills and return to my room. Soon enough I wont be in pain anymore. I pace around my room for a little bit this is becoming more real ever second. I notice I have a text from sugar asking where I am and that class is boring without me. To bad she doesn't know how boring it really is going to be.
I sit on my bed with the bottle in my hand. I open up the bottle and look at the pills they look chalky and small, Its amazing such little things can kill you. An idea crosses my mind, when I heard about this kind of this they always wrote letters to their loved ones maybe I should too.
I get up from my bed and grab a binder with paper in it, I write a letter to my mom and dad, I tell them this isn't their fault and that I love them.
I write one to the glee club thanking them and telling them I love them but I can't go on with this pain of feeling alone and being bullied. I have two more to write one to sugar and one to San,
I write sugars, Telling her I love and she has been a great friend and that there was nothing she could do.
My last one, to Santana this one takes me while to write, I tell her I love her and how my life would have been nothing without her there in the first place, I thank her for putting up with my silliness and everything that came with me, I tell her I love her and that's it.
When im done I put them beside my bed on a desk so someone can find them. I take my pills and toss back as many as I can take it might be about eight but I don't care. I hear my phone ring but I don't pick it up, why would I im about to be set free from all this.
Sugars pov.
I try calling Britt, im about two minutes away from her house, I get no answer. There's an uneasy feeling in my stomach I just no somethings wrong.
I finally reach her place I see her car in the drive way and I don't bother knocking. I run into the house and up the stairs to Britts room.
I burst through the door and see Britt on her bed with an empty pill bottle beside her and some letters, I call out to her and shake her she's not responding. I pull out my phone and call 911, and I let out a sob, she can't die she's my friend.
"911 whats your emergency?"
"My..My friend took a lot of pills and she's not moving or anything I need help!"
"Okay i need you to stay calm helps on its way."
"I need to make another call" I hang up the phone after giving the address.
I call Britt's parents telling them everything and to meet me at the hospital.
After that I make one more call a call I should have made a while ago, I call Santana.
Thanks for reading guys! sorry for any mistakes it's about 3 in the morning here but I thought I should get this out there.