After that...emotional... moment, Clary seemed to clear her head then become all business. I don't know if I liked her that way or not. Jace seemed to think that it was "sexy," though. Pervert.

We continued our journey to Alec's boyfriend's house, Magnus, I think his name was. Did I mention he's a warlock? Well, he is. I tried not to judge because I, personally, love gay guys, but a warlock? This guy better be gorgeous. Anyways, when we got to his house, Magnus made a portal that went straight to Idris. The Clave must've given him special permission. Impressive.

Like every other warlock, Magnus had one feature that made him look different. He had cat eyes, dangerous, but gorgeous. Alec and Magnus shared a chaste kiss and then Magnus made the portal, in which we stepped through with ease.

On the other side of swirling blackness was Idris, my home. I grew up here. I knew every street and every house and every person. I looked at where we had landed and saw that it was just on the outskirts of the city. I looked around, breathing in the familiar, yet foreign, air.

We stepped through the gates of Idris and I looked around, seeing the cobblestone sidewalks and the newly-carved benches. I looked at a slightly older bench outside the bookstore where Jace and I met and my heart swelled.

"Sebstian!" I whispered, peeping around the corner, nervous about getting caught for being out so late.

"You rang?" he breathed onto my neck behind me, causing me to shiver involuntarily. I remembered other things that he had done with that mouth, that oh so perfect mouth... I quickly blinked, moving onto other thoughts before I got caught up in it.

I closed my eyes for a moment then turned around to look at him. "Are you happy? I'm here. After what you did to me, I don't know why I even bothered," I said icily, referring to me finding Sebastian kissing my best friend at our spot just days before, "So what do you want? Here to gloat?" I had said it harsh, but on the inside I was breaking, crushed and hurt.

He looked down at me, his eyes unreadable and dark, dangerous. He reached his right hand out, caressing my face for a moment before I quickly flinched away from him as if stung with a thousand volts of electricity. "Don't touch me," I practically growled at him. "Jess..," he said slowly, "it was nothing. She was nothing. We aren't even dating! You told me you wanted to see other people!" I shook my head. I had said that, but I hadn't meant that. He had been boasting, once again, about how fun it was to kill people and I snapped and said something that I didn't mean. And he knew it.

"Is that what you wanted to tell me? Because you know what, Sebastian? I'm hurt. I'm just plain done with what you keep doing to me over and over. I had hoped that maybe you would try to apologize or something, but I guess not. So, this is goodbye forever," I said, pulling out a seraph blade and, before Sebastian could do anything, I plunged it into my stomach, falling to the ground.

I was brought back to reality by Jace waving his hand in my face. "Jess?" he said, "Where is the mansion?" I held my hands to my stomach, feeling sick, and waited until it passed."Oh, um, this way," I answered, taking them through the trail that I had made in the woods leading to the mansion where I had spent a week crying until Sebastian had found me. I shook the memory away as we arrived.

"Welcome to Casa de Shadowhunter."

Simon snorted and I rolled my eyes, leading the way in. Everyone looked around, fascinated. Except Jace, of course, he had to keep up the arrogant act that he had worked so hard on.

"Make yourselves comfortable. If you're a, uh, couple then you can share a room. Just...keep it down," I mumbled quietly, but loud enough where everyone could hear me. Clary blushed and Jace smirked down at her. While they were obviously undecided, Isabelle immediately grabbed Simon's arm and dragged him up the stairs. I'm pretty sure I heard her say, "...let's see how fast you can really move..." I fought down the urge to throw up. Meanwhile, Alec and Magnus had pretty much the same reaction as Clary and Jace. Alec blushed and Magnus smirked at him.

When everyone got settled in their rooms, I walked outside, pulling my jacket closer to me in the cold. I sat down on the log, thinking about Sebastian and what lies ahead for us.

After staying out there for awhile, I heard Clary and Jace fighting. I sighed. Young love, I thought to myself. I heard a door slam and a huff. That was Clary. I'm pretty sure she went in the basement to cool off. Twenty minutes after that, I saw Jace at the door. He looked around and saw me, running up to me in relief.

"Oh God," he said, running up to me and pulling me into a hug. I realized that he thought I was Clary and I tried to say, "Jace-" He shook his head, cutting me off and saying, "I'm so sorry that I pushed you and yelled at you. I shouldn't have." He leaned down swiftly and kissed me passionately. I froze with his lips still on mine. I pushed him away, holding my hand to my lips. "Jace, I'm Jess!" I yelled, completely flustered and confused. There was a moment where he just looked at me in confusion and then realized what had just happened.

"Oh, no. Oh no, oh no, oh no," he muttered to himself, pacing back and forth and running his hand through his perfectly blonde hair, "I've gotta go tell her. I didn't mean to! I just, I thought you were her and I just had to..."

I quickly shook my head. "No. You can't tell her. What she doesn't know won't kill her," I said, looking up at his gorgeous face. He slowly nodded and then walked back inside, glancing back at me.

I walked a little ways away from the house and then took the note out of my pocket that Sebastian had secretly slipped into my pocket. I opened it and it read:

You know I love you. Come to the cave and I'll show you that you won't forget it.

-Sebastian

I paused for a moment, unsure what he had in store, but pushed it aside and started walking to the cave. Everyone deserves a second chance.