"I'm sorry. What!?" Erin exclaimed, her brows furrowed even more. Jay was taken aback, speechless.
"You see if you don't believe me. It states right here in your blood work.." Will pointed out. "By the looks of it, I'd say you're about four weeks along."
Jay bent down, his hands resting on his thighs. "There's no way. Erin's on the pill. Plus we used a condom." He stated.
"You can disagree with me all you like but it stated right there on that page. You're definitely pregnant."
Erin tired to find the words to explain how she felt in that moment. Terrified. Excited. Scared. Fearful. Somewhat over joyed.
Jay was speechless. He had barely said ten words. "I'll give you two a minute." Will said.
The second Will left the room, Erin burst into tears. Her emotions were running wild. She had tried all her might to hold in the tears.
Jay immediately pulled her into his chest. Neither of them said a word, they sat there in silence, in each other's arms.
Erin took a deep breath. "Please tell me how you feel about all this? I don't know how I feel or what to feel."
"To be honest. I feel the same way. I'm terrified. But I'm happy. This doesn't change us, okay? I love you Er." Jay smiled, cupping her face in his hands.
Erin pulled away, moving his hands to her lap instead. "Jay. How am I supposed to be a mother? Only six months ago, I was on drugs again, out all night. Sleeping all day. I threw everything away."
"Hey. I know you can do this. We can do this. Look at how well you looked after Nadia. You helped her turn her life around." Jay reassured.
Erin looked up at Jay, squeezing his hand. She knew he was right. As much as she struggled to admit it, she knew she had done a good job with Nadia. "I know. You're right. It's just, I guess I never really thought about having kids. It didn't worry me whether I did or not. But, somehow knowing that this is our baby. Changes everything." Erin smiled, leaning her forehead against his.
The next few weeks after Erin had been discharged was like a whirlwind.
She had returned to the 21st, with nothing but a cast and yellowish bruises. She felt like her old self again, minus the morning sickness. And her and Jay's inability to keep their hands off each other. That was the hardest thing about being back at work. They tried to keep it professional, although everyone already knew they were a couple.
The day Erin was discharged. Will had organised an ultrasound for the his brother and Erin. Seeing their baby on the screen made all of this seem even more real. That little white flicker on the screen, was theirs.
Erin had never been the one to be overly emotional and expressive with her emotions. Neither had Jay for that matter. But that white flicker on the screen brought tears to their eyes.
Erin and Jay had come to an agreement during the past week that it would be best to move in together, considering that they were starting family.
The two young detectives stood in the basement of their apartment awaiting the removalist truck to deliver the rest of Jays things.
The day beforehand, the rest of the squad had helped to move the bigger things like tables and couches.
Erin had insisted on helping him bring his couch upstairs. The one they had spent endless nights on after she had returned to Intelligence from the Task Force.
He had pulled Erin into his side, his hand resting on her flat stomach. "Don't you even think about it Lindsay." He whispered into her ear through her hair. Erin wasn't going to protest, she knew he was right, she didn't want to risk doing herself or the baby any harm. Plus, it was too early for the rest of the team to know yet.
But today, was just the rest of Jays boxes of clothes, shoes and smaller objects.
"I can't believe this is happening." Erin smiled, her hands on her back.
"What's happening?" Jay turned to her.
"Us. Moving in together. I can't tell you how many times I've thought about falling asleep next to you and waking up in the morning, with you still here." Erin replied, wrapping her arm around Jays side.
"Me too baby. Me too."
After five hours of moving and unpacking the rest of Jays things, the two collapsed onto their "function and form" couch.
They had unpacked all of Jays clothes into his chest of drawers, his toiletries, kitchen utensils and everything in between.
Erin snuggled into Jays side, his arm wrapped around her. They sat in silence for a while. Exhausted. It had been a long day of constantly moving and shifting stuff and having many disagreements as to what should go where within their apartment.
Jay glanced at the clock.
5:34pm. He thought about making dinner as his stomach growled. Erin would be hungry too. He decided to make them some dinner. He carefully manoeuvres himself off the couch, and from underneath Erin, careful not to wake her. He placed a cushion under her head where he had been sitting and the slate grey comforter over her. He bent down and kissed her forehead. "I love you. And our little family to so much Lindsay."
A/N: Please let me know what you all think. What I could improve on and what you would like to see. I have heaps of ideas for this story but am happy to take on anymore. Thanks :)
