Figured You Out
- 4 -
"You don't want to be alone right?"
Yu had glanced to gold eyes that were staring a hole through him.
"Stay with me. You don't need people who will eventually just end up leaving you." Yu looked at his shadow-self, already sending a look as if to say that would never happen. "And even if they never leave you, you're going to have to leave them soon."
Those words made him breathe in uneasily.
"Yu don't listen to it!" Yosuke was already becoming frantic as he started to charge inside but a hand on his shoulder stopped him.
Kanji held him back. Everyone else was caught staring at the scene, more so being cautious as to what the shadow might do since he was so close to Yu.
"He's trying to make you leave me." The shadow looked over at Yosuke, staring at him intensely again as he continued. "He's probably the one person who could make you leave me."
Yosuke looked confused, feeling his heart suddenly stop as he watched the shadow let its hands wonder down over the grey t-shirt that was covering the captive's body. The way its fingers were moving, they were almost clinging to the fabric every so often, stopping at his hips as he let his golden eyes stare back at grey ones now.
"Don't-"
"Do you know why he's the only person who could make you leave me?"
Yu went to open his mouth, words not forming as the shadow kept spilling more things that he had kept hidden.
"It's because he's the only one who makes me feel like I'll never be alone because he's with me. He's the only one who makes me happy and scared at the same time."
The shadow flashed away from Yu so quickly only to reappear by Yosuke's side and have its hands roaming over him almost desperately. "You're the only one who makes me scared of death, the only one who makes me scared of losing someone again."
"I just want to scream out-don't ever leave me." The cold hands were clinging onto Yosuke's forearm, dragging him close to his chest. The kunai's he had been holding were dropped in the sudden action, his body too shocked to move at all.
"That's not true."
Yu was slowly starting to lean up from the floor, his body leaning on his knees as he held looked up to see his shadow holding Yosuke close to him.
The rest of the group was stunned, not sure of what to do yet again as another member of their group was now caught up in the embrace of the shadow. The tactic of possibly going for a surprise attack to at least get Yosuke away from it seemed like a bad idea since the shadow could just evaporate back to Yu again in response.
"But it is. He's what I've always wanted and needed." A cold hand clung onto his hip, keeping him close as the other hand ran down his cheek. Yosuke was at a loss, not sure why he was being so drawn to the words being said all about him.
Yu glared, starting to move up from his knees to a standing position as golden eyes looked over to him, about to speak words that he knew were just a provocation for him.
"It's because I lov-"
"No!"
The harsh yell made even the shadow stop in its words. All eyes were on Yu.
"I'm not going to deny you, but I am going to deny the words that you're saying because they're only coming from one part of me."
"One part of you?"
The shadow did a 180 in terms of its attitude, the seemingly fragile and desperate shadow turning into a maniacal and hungry-looking fabrication of the truth.
"The part of you that is darker, the part that wishes for things that are selfish and cruel? That's essentially what a 'shadow self' is, isn't it? Let me broadcast the even darker side to your thoughts or in better words-of yourself."
Yu clenched his fist; seeing the shadow's eyes become wide, a smirk forming on its lips as it gripped tighter onto the body in is grasp.
"If I could, I would kill off anyone or anything that stood between me and keeping him for myself."
Yosuke was beyond shocked, his body stuck under the gaze of golden eyes, cold touches, and words that were darkening every second.
"I would sacrifice anything to keep what I want, and I would extract revenge of anyone tried to take anything I wanted away from me."
The clutching was extreme, digging into his skinny sides as he felt his breath catch in his throat. The shadow leered in, staring deeply at brown eyes. "I know I have power. It drives me to become even more powerful, to stay on top, to keep you all in your place. I want to stay this way, so he'll always want to have my attention on him, because that's what he told me he wanted."
Yu took a step forward, stopping mid-step as his arm reached out as if to silently wish for all the madness to cease. He wanted to yell, to scream, to completely destroy the part of him that was holding so direly onto what he didn't want in harm's way. But the remembrance that this was a part of him made him stop, unsure of what to do or say, and unsure of just how he was even going to begin to rectify any of this.
"I'm more than happy to give him all of my attention, in so many ways.."
The shadow began to lean in more, its eyes holding a terrifying gaze as its intent was even worse. Hands raked over Yosuke's body, running at his back, going lower still, his lips mere inches away just as another yell broke through the small area. Yu completely broke what composure he had, starting to run over to break them apart. Kanji lost his patience in the same instant. His persona appearing and moving to knock away the shadow which only made it disappear to another corner of the room.
Yu practically tackled Yosuke, hovering over him as they stared at one another in a distressed gaze.
"Is that true?"
Yosuke whispered the words, not even processing them accurately as Yu could only close his eyes, his face falling somewhat in shame. He tried to keep himself calm, to find a hold on the situation but kept coming up with nothing. If he denied himself it would get him nowhere, but he felt like he if he didn't then the tension would keep growing, the taunts growing worse, the words becoming more twisted, and the danger to do something extreme rising to the highest possible level.
With shame in his tone, he uttered the words that he never thought he would speak.
"No, because that's not me."