The Journal Chapter 4, a twilight fanfic

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Note: Hey guys! So in the last chapter Edward begins to notice things and for those who have been wondering he is going to begin reading the journal soon and things will get very dramatic. In this chapter we see their relationship progresses. Hope you enjoy it.

Bella

Bella stared at her phone for a long moment before sighing softly and texting.

It's late Edward.

Rolling over gently so she wouldn't hurt her shoulder she closed her eyes only to open them again when she heard her phone go off again.

Bella, I need to talk to you. Please?

Letting out a sigh she texted him back saying explaining she'd talk to him tomorrow before school or during lunch but that she really needed sleep. He quickly texted back and she could tell he was hurt and she closed her eyes for a long moment before texting him to meet her and quickly getting up and getting dressed. Pausing by her door to grab her jacket and phone she listened to see if her father was asleep. After making sure he was she tiptoed as quietly as she could slipping her keys into her pocket before walking out of the house. Knowing her truck was to loud and that Jake still had her bike she swore softly before remembering how late it was and realizing the major trouble she could get in. When she saw Edward's car she waved him off and he leaned his head out of the car confused. Texting him quickly she waited until he'd followed her instructions and then pressed her finger to her lips when he reached her.

Opening the door she led him upstairs and into her bedroom before closing the door softly. Sitting on the bed she motioned for him to sit. They sat in silence for a while until Edward pulled her into him and rested his head on her uninjured shoulder. She sat unmoving and heard him sigh.

"What did you want to talk about?"

It was a stupid question and she knew it. They both knew what was wrong and why he wanted to talk to her. He didn't reply for a long moment, but finally pulled away and said.

"What the hell is going on Bella?"

She remained silent and shook her head which only made him angrier and turned her gently surprising her with the mood he was in and cupped her chin and made her look at him. She tried not to but found herself looking into his eyes and immediately wished she hadn't because all she wanted to do was tell him everything and have him hold her. Two things she knew were not going to happen. Her silence was angering him and she knew it but she was not going to be the reason he and Tanya broke up and she knew that this would make them because Edward wouldn't stand for this. Hearing him swear she instantly clapped her hand over his mouth and looked to the door. She felt Edward still and looked to see him staring at her. Furrowing her eyes in confusion she removed her hand which was now hot from his breath, and asked softly.

"What is it?"

He shook his head and apologized softly for swearing and almost waking up her father. She grinned before nodding and reminded him of the sleepovers she used to have with Alice and how he would sneak in and keep them all night giggling and talking. They kept talking about the past for a while and Edward's mood had considerably brightened and Bella was hoping silently that Edward had forgotten his reason for coming. He hadn't. When the whispers and giggles stopped Edward became serious again.

"Bella, please. If you won't let me in, and won't tell me what's going on, can I at least see it?"

A wave of guilt ran through her at his words. She thought she was being helpful by keeping him in the dark. She was trying to be a good friend and show how much she cared. She loved Edward so much that she was willing to put up with the queen of all bitches. That should count for something. Meeting his eyes she saw how utterly hurt he was and she understood. She knew what he was thinking at that moment. Letting out a small sigh she began to take off her jacket to show that she trusted him and was willing to show him but he stopped her taking it off gently himself. She was wearing a t shirt now though which she instantly realized would pose a problem. Thinking a moment she motioned for him to turn around and when he couldn't see her she rummaged through her drawers until she found a spaghetti strap and put that on instead. Sitting back down she took a breath before gently sliding the straps covering her injured shoulder down and then reached her hand back to tap him. He didn't turn but instead stood up and turned on the light. Instantly she closed her eyes waiting for what she knew would come. She felt the bed dip and tensed a little when she felt his cool fingers against her skin. She felt his fingers moving over her shoulder inspecting for the more tender areas and she bit her lip to stay silent but finally let out a small cry of pain unable to help it.

His fingers instantly retracted and although she didn't mean to she let out a small sigh of relief. He was completely silent and when she turned she let out a small gasp against her will. He looked almost feral in his anger. His pupils were darker than she'd ever seen, his fists where clenched and his muscles were twitching. She knew it was completely wrong and she couldn't explain why she suddenly felt this way but she felt her breathing begin to quicken and it wasn't because she was scared it was because as angry as he was, he looked good. When she realized where her thoughts had taken her she was confused until she realized why she was feeling this way. He was angry for looked like he wanted to beat the living daylights out of someone for her. Offering him a tiny smile she hugged him and instantly felt him stiffen again before wrapping his arms around her and holding her to him.

"You should see my father."

Instantly Bella pulled back shaking her head whispering frantically.

"No!"

"Bella you need to get this looked at. It could get infected."

She shook her head again.

"Edward he'll tell Charlie. He's got enough to worry about right now please."

He opened his mouth to protest but she covered his mouth and began speaking again.

"Edward please. This has to stay between us. Please."

He was silent and she removed his hand before saying softly.

"For me."

She saw him warring internally with himself but finally his eyes were resigned and he nodded. She sighed in relief only to look up again at his next words.

"But you have to let me help you with it and I want you to tell me what's going on." He paused for a second before raising a hand to brush her hair back and she had to fight closing her eyes and leaning into his hand. "When your ready."

She nodded and he pressed a finger to his lips before going out of the door. He returned moments later with his arms full and she stood up to help him bring the supplies to her bed. She cocked her head toward the door and she shut it softly and assured her her father was still asleep. Sitting behind her he gently began wiping down her shoulder before applying the needed ointment and bandages. She had managed to remain still the entire time he was doing it but felt a stray tear fall at his kindness. She was utterly touched that he cared enough to help her and keep her secret. She felt him still and knew his was finished. Turning she saw him putting things in the trash before turning back to her to lean in for another hug. When they pulled apart she opened her mouth to thank him but was cut off by the sound of his cell phone vibrating. Edward glanced down at it and instantly frowned before opening it and looking at Bella apologetically.

"I have to go. Alice says my parents are wondering where I am. She covered for me but I need to get back."

Bella nodded understandingly.

"Thank you." She looked up at him silently conveying how much it meant to her and finally spoke again. "You being here..."

Edward pressed a finger to her lips before smiling her favorite crooked grin.

"I know. I'll always be here for you. You know that."

Turning silently he walked out of the door and she heard him moving quietly through the house and out the front door. Shutting her door she climbed into her bed and felt exhaustion take over.

Edward

It's late Edward.

He assumed she would've said something like that but he wasn't going to drop it. Someone was hurting Bella and he couldn't believe she hadn't told him. They told each other everything. Trying again he texted.

Bella, I need to talk to you. Please?

He waited for about five minutes and finally heard his phone vibrate again. When he looked at the text he was hurt that she was blowing him off. It was evident that she wanted to be left alone.

I'll talk to you before school or during lunch but right now I really do need to get some sleep ok?

Texting back and then taking off his shirt he settled into bed only to look at his phone in surprise when he saw her next text.

Meet me at my house in ten.

Grinning at his phone he quickly put his shirt back on and grabbed his keys before going to his sisters room and going in without knocking. Alice raised an eyebrow before saying.

"Hello brother. Please come into my room without knocking when I could be doing something important or having a private conversation. Please invade my privacy."

He let out a silent laugh rolling his eyes.

"You done?"

She scrunched her nose a second thinking while he crossed his arms amused.

"Yeah I'm done. What do you want?"

"I have something I have to take care of and I need you to cover for me with mom and dad if they ask where I am."

She looked at him for a long moment before grinning mischievously.

"Where are you going?"

He shook his head indicating he wasn't going to tell her. It was her turn to cross her arms.

"Me covering for you depends on where your going. If your going to do a late night with Tanya queen of the skanks, then no."

Edward glared at her silently but disregarded her remark.

"I'm going to go see if Bella's ok."

She regarded him silently before nodding. Giving her a nod of his own he walked silently past his parents room and through the rest of his house before getting in his car to drive to Bella's. When he got there he saw her waving him off. He leaned his head out held up his hands to show his confusion. He saw her pull out her phone and type quickly and not a minute later he heard his phone go off.

Charlie is asleep and my truck will wake him up. Your car is quieter but I don't want to chance it. Plus Jake has my bike and that's to loud to. Can you do me a favor and park down the street and then come here?

Edward shook his head before smiling at the caution routine. When he reached her she put a finger to her lips before taking his hand and leading him inside and upstairs to her room. She sat on the bed and motioned for him to sit so he took the spot behind her and they sat in silence. His emotions were running through him so quickly he wasn't sure what he was feeling but he knew he needed Bella. Pulling her gently into him he rested his head on her uninjured shoulder and instantly felt at peace. He smiled to himself and they both sat unmoving. He kept his head still simply enjoying feeling her against him. He could smell the light smell of strawberries from her shampoo and the light freesia smell of her perfume. He could feel his heart pounding against his chest and had no idea why. Finally he sighed and a moment later he heard her speak.

"What did you want to talk about?"

He almost pulled away at the stupidity of her question. They both knew why he was there. They knew what was wrong and they both knew exactly why he wanted to talk to her. He couldn't believe she'd asked him that. Fighting his frustration he pulled away from her and said.

"What the hell is going on Bella?"

She remained silent not answering him and shook her head. He tried not to get angry but he couldn't help it. He was so frustrated at her. She always told him everything and now she wouldn't talk to him. Turning her gently and feeling amused at her surprise and gently cupped her chin to make her look at him. He wanted to see her eyes. When he did he felt his stomach drop and his heart begging to pound again. Instantly he wondered what was going on. He hadn't felt this way in a long time. In fact if he had to think about it he hadn't felt this way since he first fell in love with Bella all those years ago. Instantly pushing that aside he reminded himself they were friends and would always be friends. Nothing more. After meeting her gaze again and her silence still stretching on he swore loudly and she instantly clapped her hand over his mouth making his eyes momentarily close at her touch. He watched her check the door then look back at him but even if her hand hadn't been covering his mouth he wouldn't have been able to answer her. He felt her hand warming against his mouth and was going to move it himself but she beat him to it then asked softly.

"What is it?"

He shook his head. He couldn't tell her what he was thinking.

"Nothing. I'm sorry for swearing and almost waking up Charlie. I'll be quiet. I don't want to get you into trouble."

She grinned before speaking softly of sleepovers they'd had in the past where he would sneak in and keep them up all night giggling and talking. They kept this conversation going for a long time and Edward knew she was using this as a distraction for why he had wanted to come. He wouldn't be deterred however and when the talk and giggles had stopped he became serious again and thought of a way to get her to talk about it.

"Bella, please. If you won't let me in, and won't tell me what's going on, can I at least see it?"

He saw her instantly look guilty at his words but couldn't bring himself to say anything. They'd been best friends forever, grown up together and she didn't trust him. That cut him to the core and he knew when she looked up at him she saw the hurt in his eyes. He couldn't mask it. He heard her sigh and begin to take of the jacket and he felt tenderness washing over him and he stopped her and began to do it himself. He could see she was trying to show him that she was able to trust him and that she did actually trust him. He realized that she was wearing a shirt preventing him from seeing it and she did to so she motioned for him to turn and he did understanding what she was doing. He heard rummaging and after waiting for a few minutes he felt her sit back down and felt her tap him. Standing silently he walked to the light switch and flicked it before sitting back down and looking. Instantly he felt anger like he never had before but tramped it don and as gently as he could he began examining her shoulder. He felt her tensing in certain areas and finally she let out a cry of pain and he retracted his fingers instantly as if she'd burned him.

He heard her sigh in relief and instantly the anger came back. Her shoulder was so hurt she couldn't even bear to have anyone touch her. Feeling his fists clench and his anger rising even more he felt her turn to look at him and gasp. Instantly he tried to calm down but he couldn't. He felt his muscles twitch and heard her breathing quicken but noticed that it wasn't fear in her eyes, it was something else. He was trying to analyze this further but she hugged him and he stiffened for a second before his anger left him momentarily and he held wrapped his arms around her and held her to him. As he did he realized he was fighting a new set of emotions and was feeling confusion as well. Shaking himself out of it he said.

"You should see my father."

Instantly Bella pulled back shaking her head whispering frantically.

"No!"

"Bella you need to get this looked at. It could get infected."

He couldn't believe she'd said no. This was serious her shoulder was a complete mess he was shocked it wasn't infected already.

She shook her head again.

"Edward he'll tell Charlie. He's got enough to worry about right now please."

He opened his mouth to protest but she covered his mouth and began speaking again.

"Edward please. This has to stay between us. Please."

He was silent and she removed his hand before saying softly.

"For me."

He fought himself internally for a long moment. He wanted her to go to his father but when she said that he knew he couldn't refuse. Not when she asked him that. Resigning himself and silently swearing he nodded and watched her sigh in relief looking up when he spoke again.

She nodded and he pressed a finger to his lips before going out of the door. He returned moments later with his arms full of supplies he'd gotten from the bathroom and she stood up to help him bring the supplies to her bed. She cocked her head toward the door and he shut it softly before assuring her her father was still asleep. Sitting behind her he gently began wiping down her shoulder before applying the needed ointment and bandages. He kept his anger in check and tried to be as clinical as possible. She had managed to remain still the entire time he was doing it and he was relieved she wasn't in pain. He never wanted to hurt her. Finally he finished and began throwing things away and he felt her turn and give him another hug. This one felt different though. This time he didn't want to let go. Eventually they pulled apart and he fought pulling her back. He saw her open her mouth to speak but was cut off by the sound of his phone glancing at it he saw a text from Alice.

Get back here right now. I covered for you but you need to get back like right now. Not kidding.

Looking at Bella apologetically he said.

"I have to go. Alice says my parents are wondering where I am. She covered for me but I need to get back."

Bella nodded understandingly.

"Thank you." She looked up at him silently conveying how much it meant to her and he was surprised at the level of emotion.

"You being here..."

Edward pressed a finger to her lips before smiling his crooked grin. Choosing his words carefully he finally said.

"I know. I'll always be here for you. You know that."

Turning silently he walked out of the door and moved quietly through the house and out the front door. Getting into his car he silently wondered.

What the hell had he been feeling tonight?

And that's it for now I hope you liked this and please review!