A/N: All info located in chapter "Over" posting.
Disclaimer: Everything belongs to Stephenie Meyer, the creator of Twilight.
Bella stared at the television screen in front of her. She wasn't paying attention, her thoughts were elsewhere. Edward was on the phone, pacing a few feet away behind the couch she was sitting on.
He was talking to Emmett about the coming Hoffman deal.
Bella kept replaying everything in her head. Alice had been pissed! She hadn't spoken a word to Bella the rest of the afternoon. And when she pulled into the driveway to drop Bella off, she didn't respond to Bella's meek "Thank you for everything. I'm really sorry, Alice," and then backed into the street and sped off. She hadn't spoken to Alice in two days, the longest she'd ever gone without talking to her sister-in-law since she married Edward.
Bella's heart sank. She missed her friend.
But she couldn't regret it. She wouldn't. That had been hands down the absolute best sex of her life! No one had ever fucked her the way Jacob Black had that day.
And then her thought track changed and she began to think of him. She hadn't seen him since that day, either. But she had talked to him.
He would text her at random points in the day, hinting at all the lewd things he wanted to do to her. That day in the park left a no-holds-barred policy for them. He now knew she was willing to do anything and that smugness emanated from his texts.
These texts would always catch her off guard each time she read them, making her blush furiously which then turned into a heated flush when she imagined him doing said things to her.
And then he would surprise her completely by calling her, whispering huskily of just how their plans would play out, making her breath hitch so much that if anyone was listening would have thought she had a breathing problem.
Bella closed her eyes.
One more day.
Her phone vibrated on the table.
Her eyes flipped open and she glanced back to see Edward still on the phone, obviously engaged and completely focused on the conversation he was in.
She bit her lip and reached forward to grab her phone.
She flipped it open.
Call me.
Bella frowned. She couldn't right now and he knew that. Edward was always home after seven.
She glanced up at the green numbers on the cable box.
8:37
She looked back at Edward one more time and satisfied that he hadn't changed course in his trek, she replied.
I cant. Hes home. Ill tty tw.
She sighed. She didn't really want to wait that long but she didn't have a choice.
Her phone buzzed again.
She looked at the screen once more.
So? Call me rite now or ill call u.
She huffed in frustration. Why did he seem to enjoy pushing her this way? That was the one thing she couldn't stand about him. He seemed to relish the fact that he could threaten her and force her into action. It was completely ballsy.
She was just about to send him an angry text when her phone vibrated and the screen lit up with a new message.
home.
Bella's eyes widened.
That bastard!
She snuck a peek back at Edward. He was still preoccupied.
She texted Jacob before thrusting the phone into the pocket of her hoodie and standing up, sighing in frustration.
Gimme a minute.
She made her way over to her husband. "Edward, honey, I'm sorry but...just a second?"
Edward looked confused and held up a finger. "Yeah, yeah, okay Em. Listen...yeah, i know, listen...h-hol...hold on a sec, okay?"
He removed the phone from his ear, holding it against his shoulder.
He gave her her smile.
"What's up, love?"
Bella swallowed guiltily but she forced a smile onto her face anyway.
"I forgot I need to run to CVS quick to grab something before we leave tomorrow."
Edward tilted his head in confusion.
"What's that, love?"
Bella's brain sped through everything she could think of.
"Sunscreen."
Edward looked puzzled. "Don't we have some upstairs in the cabinet?"
Bella swallowed again. "Yeah but not nearly strong enough. You know, for me." She rolled her eyes and laughed. She prayed he would just go with the flow.
When the puzzled expression didn't go away, she piped up again.
"And...tampons. I'm out of tampons."
Edward's brows furrowed further.
"Well, I can go with you, love. Let me just get off with Emmett here and we can go together."
Bella acted fast. "No!" Edward looked shocked at her outburst. So was she.
"I mean...no. Don't bother with it. You're busy with Emmett and I'll just run and be right back. No problem. I'll be back before you know it."
Edward stared at her. "Are you sure, sweetheart?"
Bella nodded. He sighed and put his hand on her arm, pulling her into him. He kissed her sweetly on the lips and then a trail leading to her ear. "I'm sorry, honey. I know I've been busy lately. I promise, soon we'll have more time together."
Bella nodded, shivering as she felt his cool breath in her ear.
It didn't feel right.
And she wanted to smack herself for letting that traitorous thought enter her head.
"That's okay. I know you've been busy."
Edward nuzzled her cheek. "Mmmmm, I love you, honey. So much."
Bella wanted to cry when she heard that, when she felt his nose on her cheek. It was wrong. All wrong. How could she be wishing her husband was someone else when he was telling her he loved her? And she loved him? She felt the lump rising again in her throat.
"I-I love you, too."
She pulled away gently, forcing a smile onto her face again. "I'll be right back."
Edward smiled and pecked her on the lips once more. "Okay, love. I'll be here waiting for you." His eyes were bright, the latent desire in them pooling to the emerald surface.
She knew what he meant.
She'd have to figure out a way to get out of it later.
She smiled wider and nodded. She grabbed her keys off the counter as she heard Edward resume his conversation. "Yeah, Emmett. Sorry. Listen I've been thinking about what you said and-oh, hold on, someone's trying to beep in."
Bella was just making her way into the foyer when her heart stopped, making her freeze. She gulped and turned around slowly.
"Hello?...May I ask who's calling?" Edward glanced up at her, an expression on his face she couldn't read.
She gulped again.
Edward looked annoyed. "No, I'm sorry, she's not in. Can I take a message?" He then held the phone away from him, staring at it in disgust. He scoffed and then turned the phone off, placing it on the counter.
Bella's palms were starting to sweat. She tried to make her voice calm and even, casual. "Who was that?"
He glanced up at her and his eyes softened a bit. "Solicitor. Nothing to worry about, love."
Bella nodded and shrugged. Then she smiled. She could tell he was watching her intently so she did her best to remain at ease. "So they hung up on you, huh?"
Edward rolled his eyes. "Yes. Talk about rude." He gave her his crooked smile. And she smiled wider in return.
"Yeah. I wish they'd stop calling altogether."
Edward's smile dimmed a little and he looked at her. "Me, too."
Bella swallowed again. What did that mean? But she wouldn't let herself get too far on the panicky thoughts inside her head.
He looked somewhat...sadly at her. "I love you, Bella."
Bella smiled again. "I love you, too, Edward."
It seemed almost an eternity of silence passed until the phone started ringing again. Edward sighed and picked it up. "Hello? Emmett! I'm so sorry, man. I didn't mean to hang up on you like that."
At that moment, Bella felt her phone vibrate in her pocket. She looked at Edward again. She gestured with her finger while mouthing 'I'm gonna go' to him. He nodded and waved, once again getting sucked into the conversation he was having.
The vibration hadn't stopped so Bella knew he was calling her. She went into the foyer, threw her shoes on and left the house.
Once inside her car, she turned the ignition on and pulled her phone out to glance at the screen.
3 missed calls.
And all from him.
She only felt the vibration once, though.
She shook her head and put the car into reverse and looked behind her so she could back out.
She drove quickly to CVS and parked in the parking lot. She whipped out her phone and was about to call him when her phone buzzed again. He was calling her.
She flipped the phone open and held it to her ear. "Hello?"
"Bells, what the fuck? You told me you were gonna call me fifteen minutes ago. What the hell happened?"
She frowned.
"I told you he was home and I couldn't call you. I had to come up with something quick."
She heard Jacob let out a quick breath. "Oh. Right."
She held the phone away from her ear and turned her frown on it, her eyebrows mashed together.
She brought it back to her ear. "So...what did you need to talk to me about?"
She heard him let out another breath but he didn't answer. He sounded like his breathing was ragged.
Instead, he whispered to her huskily. "That day. In the park. I can't stop thinking about it. About how good you felt. How loud you screamed my name. It never sounded so good to me. It makes me want to make you scream it again."
Bella's breath hitched as she could feel her body temperature rise and herself getting wet.
"I don't think I've ever been that hard. And then the way you took me into your mouth and sucked me off, making me come so fucking hard...damn, Bells."
Bella felt her chest beginning to heave quickly. In and out. In and out. She needed to have that same rhythm elsewhere right now.
"I-I want to be inside you so fucking badly, Bells. I wish I could come see you right-ugh-now." His breaths were shorter and faster.
Bella felt her arousal dampen her panties. Wait, was he...?
"Jake, are you..." She quickly glanced around. She forced herself into her seat further and then whispered to him. "...are you...touching yourself?"
Jake laughed. "Baby, I've been jacking off since you picked up the phone. Your voice alone gets me hard as a rock."
Bella's mouth hung open in shock. She quickly recovered and moaned into the phone. "Oh Jake, that's not fair."
She glanced around quickly and dug herself even further into the seat, quickly fumbling with the button on her jeans and then her zipper, sliding her fingers past them both and the band of her panties, slipping two of them inside her. She gasped as she began to move them back and forth.
He was breathing heavier now. "Not fair, huh? What are you, five?"
Bella whined petulantly. She wanted to be touching him. She wanted him touching her. They shouldn't be separated like this.
"Mmmmmm. I love it when you make sounds like that. Maybe I should spank you then. Get that sweet-ugh-ass-nice and red for me."
Bella's own breaths accelerated and she was panting heavily into the phone herself.
"J-Jake-I wish you could-ahh-be here."
She exhaled into the phone and let her eyes close slowly.
"With me."
His breathing stopped.
Bella opened her eyes and her fingers froze. She waited for him to say something. What? What had she done wrong?
"Bella,"
There was no huskiness now. Bella gulped.
She cleared her throat. "Yes?"
"Are you..."
Bella gulped again. What? What, he was allowed to and she wasn't?
Didn't he realize how hot he made her? And for him to be jerking off while she was on the phone and not expect her to react was just cruel in her book.
She frowned. "What?"
"Are you...touching yourself?"
She began to remove her wet fingers from inside her panties, wiping them on the side of the fabric.
She didn't answer only swallowed hard.
"Bells?"
She sighed heavily. "Yes."
Silence.
Nothing.
Then, a minute later, she heard his zipper.
She wanted to cry and scream and yell and pull her hair out. Why was that so wrong?
She began to mumble rapidly. "Well, you were. I thought that was the whole idea. What? My voice can turn you on but yours can't do the same-"
"Bells. Where are you?"
Bella's frown deepened. "CVS, why?"
"The one by your house?"
"Yes. Why?"
"I'm on my way."
Bella was horrified. "What?! No! No! You can't! You said you couldn't meet up tonight. You said she was making dinner for you tonight. You said-"
"Fuck what I said, Bells. I'm coming to you right now. DO NOT leave, got it?"
Bella's breaths were coming faster again but this time in straight panic. Edward knew where she was. Jake couldn't see her before because Ness had wanted to spend some time with him. It was a public parking lot that was driven into and out of all the time. It was near her house...the list went on.
"Jake! Absolutely not! Are you insane? We can't! I'm leaving!"
She turned the key in the ignition.
"Bells! Don't you fucking dare! If you do, I'll just go straight to your house and fuck you right in front of him this time!"
Bella's mouth hung open.
"What the fuck, Jacob?! What the fuck is your problem?!"
She knew she was roaring but she was pissed. He laughed, making her even more so.
"You are, honey. My cock wants to be inside of you. So do I. And what we want, we get." His voice was getting huskier. "Don't we, Bella?"
Bella shivered. She thrust her fingers back into her panties and then herself. She moaned into the phone.
She breathed one word.
"Hurry."
~~~~~~~~~SWM~~~~~~~~~~~~~SWM~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~SWM~~~~~~~~~
Bella turned her key in the lock, checking her reflection quickly one last time in the glass partitions on the side, and then opened the door.
She pulled her key out and turned to close the door softly.
She heard people talking on the television so she slowly made her way into the living room.
Edward was sitting on the couch, a drink in his hand.
She smiled. "Hey."
Edward turned around, smiling in response. "Hey."
She then heard moans coming from the television.
She chuckled. "What are you watching?"
He laughed. "Ah, this stupid movie. That Naomi Watts girl is in it. Something about these two married couples cheating on each other, blah, blah, blah. You know, I just like to see her topless." He gave her a wink.
Inwardly, Bella cringed when he had mentioned the movie's plot.
Outwardly, Bella patted his head and moved into the kitchen. "Aww, you love Naomi Watts."
She placed the CVS bag on the counter and then opened the refrigerator door.
Edward walked into the kitchen, too.
"So, did you get what you needed?"
Bella didn't look back at him. She simply nodded. "Um-hmm."
Oh yeah, she had definitely gotten what she had needed.
He moved closer.
"So what took you so long then?"
Bella kept her head still but let her eyes flicker to the numbers on the microwave next to her.
10:04
Shit!
She bit her lip nervously as she continued her search for water.
It was right in front of her but she needed to buy some time.
"You'll never believe it."
Edward was now at her back. He whispered into her ear.
"Try me."
Bella shivered.
She pulled the bottle of water off the shelf and turned around to be faced with a very dark-eyed Edward. He was leaning in, only stopping inches from her face.
She could smell it on his breath. He had been drinking quite a bit since she left.
"I ran into Jessica Stanley. Remember her?"
Edward raised his hand and began to caress her face.
"Your crazy roommate from college?"
Bella chuckled. "Yeah, that would be the one."
He kissed her cheek. Then her forehead, moving up to her hairline.
Bella closed her eyes. She didn't know how to put it into words but she just didn't feel right.
She let out a breath and continued.
"Yeah, um, well I was in the store looking for the sunscreen and I bumped into her and you know once she starts talking she never STOPS!"
Edward had trailed a hand down her shirt, down her jeans and began rubbing her mound, applying pressure.
Oh God. This was wrong, so wrong. She shouldn't be letting him do this. Not after everything...
He began to rub just a little faster.
"You like that, Bella?"
Bella's eyes were open as the sensations began to flood her body. She was still stimulated from the night's earlier events but it hit home that this man was not the same one who had been inside her just forty minutes ago. She tried to push him out of her mind but she couldn't.
She felt so dirty.
Her breathing picked up as did his ministrations. She could only whisper in his ear.
"Edward, maybe we shouldn't-"
She was cut off by Edward's lips crushing hers, working to gain access into her mouth.
When she refused, staying stock still as he tried and tried again, he pulled away and rubbed her harder, staring at her intently.
"Bella, I want you."
Bella was gasping for breath. She could feel the all too familiar coil tightening in her stomach without her consent. She closed her eyes, willing herself to stop this.
She heard his voice closer.
"I need you."
She didn't open her eyes. He had moved his hand into her pants now, his fingers searching until they found what they were looking for. She gasped sharply when he thrust a digit into her while manipulating her clit with his thumb. Oh God, this was wrong...
She heard him moan. He was even closer to her now.
"I love you." He whispered it to her lips.
She arched her back, unable to stop herself from responding to his touch as he worked her core faster.
"Don't you love me?"
Bella's eyes were half closed with lust. This was her husband. This was the man she had married. This was the man who was going to be the father of her children someday. This is who she loved.
Not him.
She forced her eyes open and looked at him. He looked sadder by the second the more time she went without answering him.
"Y-Yes Edward. I d-do love...you."
Edward looked at her with so much love and adoration it nearly crushed her. She didn't deserve it.
He kissed her hard and removed his hand from her. She pulled away with a questioning expression.
"Let's go upstairs. Right now."
He grabbed her hand and moved so fast up the stairs, Bella felt like she was practically flying.
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Bella stared up at the dark ceiling.
She heard Edward's rhythmic breathing next to her.
It had been...a decent amount of time.
Not too slow, not too fast.
She only came once and that had been after he had brought her into the room, stripping her of her jeans and panties and then finger fucked her for a good two minutes.
She was still so wet and turned on from her little escapade with Jake that it hadn't been hard to reach orgasm quickly.
She groaned softly and covered her eyes with her hands.
Jake...
She hadn't meant to but the whole time Edward had been pushing himself into her, huffing with the effort into her ear, moaning continually, her brain kept wandering back to Jake.
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He had pulled into the parking lot quickly, parking a few spaces away from her. He had shut off the engine, opened the door and was bounding to her car within seconds, a huge shit-eating grin on his face. He threw the passenger side door open, jumped in, closed the door and grabbed her face, pulling her to him in a swift rough kiss. He had grabbed her hand and placed it on his jean-clad erection. She gave it a tight squeeze and he had moaned into her mouth.
"Shit, baby, I want to be inside you so bad. I can't wait anymore. Let me get us out of here."
She had pulled away breathless. "Wait, what? Jake, we can't-"
He had placed a finger to her lips and shook his head, staring evenly at her.
"I want you, Bella. Badly. I need to be inside of you. This weekend's not gonna be easy and I'll be damned if my cock's gonna go that long without having you on it. Without hearing you scream my name and coming all over me. Got it?"
Bella moaned and nodded her head. He smiled and then pecked her on the lips. He jumped out of the car and she scooted over into the passenger seat while he jogged around the car and got into the driver's side. He turned the ignition on and peeled out of the parking lot.
While he was driving, he was muttering about where they could go and not get caught. A motel was out of the question. They didn't have the time, it was too risky, and Bella would never tolerate it. Jacob knew that. Both of their houses were occupied. The car would have to be it. And that was going to be a bitch. Jacob was a big man and it was never an easy fit which was why they avoided it most of the time. But it looked like the backseat would have to suffice for tonight.
While he looked for a place they could pull into, Bella began losing her patience. She reclined her seat and laid back, not caring that Jacob was watching her along with the road. Her jeans were already unbuttoned from her previous activities so she pulled the zipper down and skimmed her fingers past her panties and into her heated core. She moaned and turned towards Jacob who was staring at her wide-eyed. She chuckled.
"Eyes on the road, buddy. If we crash, you won't be fucking much of anything."
Jake gulped and turned his attention back to driving.
She began to move her fingers back and forth.
"Mmmmmm. How much longer, Jake?"
He glanced at her quickly. "Not much longer, baby. I'm looking for a place to pull over right now."
He turned his eyes back to the road and Bella continued her movements. She lifted her left hand and slipped it underneath her hoodie and shirt, pulling the cup of her bra down and began to squeeze her nipple, teasing it between her fingertips. She moaned louder. Her breaths were getting heavier and her fingers' thrusts faster.
Jake groaned. "Shit, Bells. I'm about to fucking come just from watching you."
Bella smiled to herself, closing her eyes as she increased the pace of her fingers.
She moaned again.
"Oh Jake, I need you inside me. I'm so wet."
Jake groaned again.
"You don't play fair, Bells."
Her smile grew wider and she placed both feet onto the dashboard in front of her, lifting her ass a bit in the air and thrust her fingers deeper.
"Mmmmmmm. Jake I want you so bad, I wish my fingers were you, pounding into me, making me scream your name." She squeezed her breast hard and she moaned once more.
She didn't hear a response so she opened her eyes.
He wasn't looking at her, just the road, and he looked like he was in pain.
She pushed her fingers to the hilt and gasped. His head jerked at the sound and he turned, his eyes meeting hers, blacker than she'd ever seen them.
"Hurry."
His jaw was clenched but he turned back to the road. She felt the car speed up and then the car made a sharp turn.
She felt the car come to a stop and within the blink of an eye, Jake had the car parked and the ignition turned off. He jumped out of the driver's side and opened her door. He roughly pulled her hand out of her pants and growled at her. "Pants. Off. Now."
He didn't let go of her hand which made it a little more challenging but she pulled her pants and panties off amidst a lot of squirming and wriggling. She went to pull her hand back so she could finish undressing but he held it fast. He smirked, stared at her and then took the three soaked fingers into his mouth.
Bella moaned and with her other hand began to paw at him. He moved out of her reach but kept lapping at her fingers with his tongue. Bella shuddered. That tongue...
"Mmmm-mmmm." He had that amused glint in his eyes and Bella shivered as the sounds vibrated against her fingers.
He pulled her fingers out with a pop. "Two can play at that game, Bells."
Bella whimpered and rubbed her thighs together. She looked up at him, pleading.
"Don't give me that look. I'm not the one who decided to be a little cock tease just a few seconds ago."
Bella pouted. "Jake, please. It-hurts."
Jake's eyes widened.
"What does?"
Bella whimpered again. "Not having you in me. Please."
Jake's mouth dropped. He just stared at her.
Bella begin to shift uncomfortably. Had she gone too far again? Maybe she shouldn't have told him that. Her core throbbed harder at the thought she might have just solidified the need for her fingers alone tonight. How could she have been so fucking stupid?
She averted her eyes and retracted her hand as he had dropped it.
She began to blush crimson in her embarrassment at the declaration of her body's obsession with his.
He still hadn't said anything.
She began to mumble fast in her nervousness.
"Sorry, Jake I shouldn't have said that. It's just-"
She was interrupted by him grabbing her face and crashing his lips to her roughly.
He thrust his tongue into her mouth eagerly, sucking hers into his own mouth.
She grabbed his face, too and kissed him back with an equal amount of force.
While their tongues battled for dominance, Jake gently grasped her by the shoulders and helped her stand up outside of the car. Once she was up, he broke the kiss, making her confused.
"Don't worry, Bells. I'm gonna take the pain away. I promise."
He then moved her around so he could sit down in the car. He sat the seat up, pushed it as far back as he could, and then reclined it again. He held his hand out to her and she took it.
He laid back, allowing her to climb in on top of him slowly and then shutting the door. She positioned herself so that she was straddling him. She wanted to rub up against him but he stopped her. His hand flew down to his button which he popped expertly and then pulled his zipper down. He lifted his hips slightly with her on top of him and pulled his jeans and boxers down a bit. She saw his erection break free, standing at painful attention, waiting for action.
She grasped it in her hands and she heard him draw a sharp breath and then hissing.
She began to stroke it up and down, making sure to drag her thumb gently over the opening of the head where pre-cum had started to spill. She smeared the juices all around the head and she felt him buck underneath her.
His hand snaked out and gripped her wrist.
"I'm not gonna last much longer if you keep that up."
Bella nodded and moved further up onto his crotch. He placed his russet hands on her hips, guiding her movements. She grabbed him again, earning another hiss, and led his dick to her sopping entrance.
In one swift motion, she thrust down onto him, his shaft completely filling her. They both cried out at the feeling.
She began to slowly move her hips when his hands dug in and stopped her. She looked down at him disappointedly. He sat up, touching his forehead with hers, their breathing heavier than before. "Just-one-second, o-okay? Don't-move. I-I want thi-is to last."
Bella nodded against him. He kissed her lips sweetly before whispering to them.
"Feel any better?"
Bella nodded again. "Much."
He chuckled. "Good."
The fingers of his right hand lifted to tangle themselves in her hair, twirling the strands.
He kissed her again.
"Baby, take this off."
Bella snapped to attention. She had completely forgotten that she still had on her hoodie.
She leaned back slowly and lifted both shirts off of her head in one swoop, leaving her in her bra. She threw the shirts in the back and brought her hands to rest on his shoulders. He smiled warmly at her.
"That's better."
Bella leaned forward and kissed his lips. She began to trail her hands down his chest when the feeling of fabric underneath her fingertips registered in her brain. He still had his shirt and his jacket on. She pulled away, breaking the kiss.
"What about you?"
His right hand trailed up to her shoulder as his eyes watched its movements. His fingers lifted the bra strap and moved it down her arm. "Don't worry about me."
He placed a gentle open-mouthed kiss to her shoulder and then pulled back to look at her. His right hand traveled back into her hair.
Bella's mind was reeling. What was going on here?
He never took his time, not like this.
With Jacob these past five weeks, it had always been a quick Wham! Bam! Thank You, Ma'am!
But tonight, he was...hesitant?
And...tender...to a certain extent?
He was stroking her hair softly, smiling at her, not saying a word.
What the fuck was going on?
"Jake?"
He stared at her. "Hmmm?"
"Are...are you okay to move?"
His hand dropped in between them and just sat there. He stared at her, a bit of frustration and was that...hurt...in his dark eyes.
But as quickly as they had been there, they were gone.
He leaned forward and kissed her swiftly, then pulled away.
He looked at her and then as if the uncomfortable feeling from before never happened, his devilish smirk reappeared.
That light in his eyes was back.
And then he thrust up into her, hard.
They had set a frantic pace, him thrusting up into her, she riding him and bouncing just as forcefully. They approached their orgasms pretty quickly, him his first, hers her fourth. Each time she came, screaming his name to the world, Jake would groan.
"God, Bella. You feel so fucking gooood. You're getting even tighter around my cock, shit."
She would be straining, writhing against him and his hands would dig into her hips, trying to keep her as still as possible. And each time, she would groan in frustration, broken by pants. And each time, he would smirk as he would rub her clit trying to prolong her orgasm.
"Sorry, Bells. But I'm not done just yet."
She would glare at him.
"I know."
He would roll his eyes and his smirk would grow wider.
After the third time, she'd decided she'd had enough teasing.
She immediately snaked her hand behind and grabbed his sac making him grunt. She began to knead them as she gyrated on him.
"Bells! Goddammit, don't! I'm trying not to blow as it is. Fuck!" His eyes shut in pain.
This time, the smirk was plastered on her face.
"It's not so nice to tease, is it, Mr. Black?"
His eyes opened and he stared up at her, his lips parted with his heavy breathing.
Before Bella could say anything more, Jake somehow miraculously and quickly sat up and flipped them over without hitting their heads or knocking into anything. Bella was now flat on her back and he was pounding into her, holding her right leg up over his shoulder. The man was agile...
Within seconds, Bella was crying out anything that came to her mush of a brain. Jake was grunting wildly and pounding into her like a goddamn animal.
"Yeah, you like it when I fuck you like this, Bella?"
"Yes!"
"You like taking it like the naughty girl you are?"
"Uh huh."
"You want me to fuck you harder?"
"Please, Jacob. Please."
And with that, he forced his mouth to hers and pushed into her even harder and faster.
Bella was screaming against his mouth. He tore away, looking down at her as he fucked her like this.
"You coming, baby?"
Bella nodded quickly. "Yeeeaah. Oh fuck, don't stop!"
Bella could feel her body tightening. She was right there.
Jake ducked his head and kissed her neck, panting in her ear. "Oh fuck baby, I'm-I'm-ungh-gonna come!"
Bella's eyes snapped forward. Had he really just said that?
"Ohhhh-Belllls."
She turned and kissed the side of his face, ignoring the edge she was about to fall off of. Difficult but she managed it. Her sick little obsession with him overpowered her need for her own release.
"Baby, do it. Come."
His head jerked up, his eyes meeting hers, his pace never slowing.
She cupped his cheek with her right hand. "Please?"
Sweat was dripping from the spiky ends of his hair and onto her. His stare never faltered.
Then without warning, he slowed a little, stuck his hands underneath her to lift her hips, and then slapped her ass agonizingly hard. She yelped and she tightened around him which threw her over the edge.
He groaned and while Bella thrashed around in ecstasy, screaming his name, she felt him pull out of her. Before she could protest, he stroked his dick furiously for two seconds before she felt him spurt his hot white fluid all over her abdomen.
He moaned and groaned, his eyes clenching shut, and even more fluid shot out onto her. She panted heavily as she watched him come down from his high. She sighed in frustration. She should have known he wouldn't give her what she wanted. He wouldn't ever it seemed. So why had she thought he would give in this one time?
He opened his eyes slowly and looked down at her. He brought his left hand to her cheek and stroked it softly. "Sorry."
Bella didn't respond to his whisper. She just looked at him.
And what she saw there shocked her. A mix of emotions played out on his face all at once. Remorse, sadness, desire, worry, and...love? No, she must have imagined that last one. Definitely.
He hadn't broken his gaze nor stopped his gentle ministrations. Bella cleared her throat and looked away, towards her glove compartment.
"Can you get me the box of tissues out of there, please?"
Jake stayed still for a second, his eyes never leaving her until she glanced back up at him.
He nodded and leaned back, opening the compartment from some weird angle and pulled out the box, handing it to her.
She grabbed the box and began to pull out a few tissues. "Thanks."
She began to clean up the sticky mess he had left on her when his hand gently grabbed her wrist, forcing it to still its movements.
She looked up at him questioningly.
"Let me do that."
He took the tissues from her and began to wipe her off. Once those tissues were used, he grabbed a few more and repeated the action, cleaning himself off in the process. Bella watched him all confused. What was going on here? He was acting kind of weird tonight.
Maybe it had to do with their upcoming trip tomorrow...yeah. That must be it.
When he was satisfied that Bella was as clean as she was going to get, he stuck the tissues into the small plastic bag Bella kept on the floor of the passenger side for garbage and then lowered himself onto her, taking care not to penetrate her. He leaned down and kissed her softly.
When they both broke away, he placed his forehead against hers, looking into her eyes.
"This weekend's gonna suck."
She frowned.
"Yeah."
He sighed and then smiled.
"But at least I'll get to see you every day."
Bella nodded. He had a point. At least she would get to see him even if they couldn't sneak away together.
She began to feel sad at the same time, though. How were they supposed to be within the same vicinity of each other for two days and not give in to the heat between them at least once?
Jake must've read her thoughts like he always did.
He began to stroke her face tenderly again.
"I know it's not gonna be easy, but just think. We leave Sunday and then she leaves Tuesday."
She looked up at him with worried eyes.
He shook his head and kissed her again.
"Don't worry so much, Bells. You'll get a headache." He smirked at her and she knew he was trying to make her feel better.
She didn't know why she did it. Honestly, she wasn't thinking. Well, she was, but not entirely.
She was just feeling depressed at the thought of going so long without being touched by him. Emmett and his girlfriend Rose were joining them on the trip tomorrow. And from what Edward had said, Ness' father, Carlisle, was due to make an appearance with his wife, Esme, at some point in the weekend. So any bouts of physical intimacy were out. They would both be watched too closely.
She lifted her hand and intertwined her fingers in his on her cheek. She gave him a small smile.
She saw the smirk wipe off his face, his expression hard as stone. She couldn't read him. Had she pissed him off with the gesture? She hadn't meant to. Not at all.
But instead, he leaned again and kissed her, passionately, not as much as before but with more tenderness this time.
He licked her lower lip, asking for entrance and she gladly gave it to him. She removed her fingers from his and threaded both hands in his hair, softly tugging and pulling him into her more.
Their lips moved together in a perfect rhythm. His tongue slipped into her mouth, exploring, tasting, touching everything.
She could feel herself getting wet again. She moaned into his mouth. He pulled away and pecked her on the lips. He chuckled when he saw her pout.
"Don't start that again, Bells. We need to get back."
He leaned back and pulled his pants and boxers up, zipping them closed. Bella sat herself up on her left elbow and reached in the back for her shirt and hoodie. She grabbed them and threw them in the driver's seat. She sat up, now that Jake was leaning back on his knees it was much easier, and felt in the back for her duffel. It was her gym bag but she always kept sanitizer and fresh wipes in there. She pulled out a few from the bin in the bag and began to wipe down her stomach, Jake watching her all the while. She then leaned forward, against Jake and threw them in the plastic bag, too.
She leaned back and proceeded to fix her straps and put her t-shirt on that she had on before under the hoodie. When she went to throw on the hoodie, Jake stopped her.
She looked at him expectantly.
"Will you come see me at the shop tomorrow?"
Bella's mouth hung open in shock. Was he serious? Not that she hadn't been there before. Not that they hadn't had any fantastic fucks there, but they were leaving tomorrow. All of them were leaving around 1:00 or so. That wouldn't leave them much time to make excuses and meet.
When she didn't answer he looked down and began to mumble.
"You don't have to. I just figured, before we left, maybe-"
She didn't know why but this side of Jake that she had never seen before pulled at her heart strings. He was asking her and not telling her to meet him? No threats of blowing the whistle? Where had that Jake gone? Now he was like a young boy asking his crush out for the first time. At least, that's what he reminded her of as he talked to her like this. She felt bad and wanted to just hold him and soothe him, reassure him, comfort him. And that's what she did.
She reached her left hand up and gripped his chin, forcing him to look at her. She smiled.
"What time?"
His eyes lit up and he grinned.
"I was thinking, in the morning maybe? Say, eleven or so?"
Bella went over it in her head. It was a good thing she took off from work. Edward would be at work until 12. Okay, this could work.
She nodded. "Okay."
His grin got wider and he kissed her again.
"Great, Bells. I'll make sure the guys have plenty of work to keep them occupied."
Bella shivered at the words.
He laughed and pecked her lips once more.
He opened the door and stepped out. Bella sat up, bringing the seat with her and only then did she notice how fogged up the windows were. Damn.
It had felt like it was difficult to breathe but she attributed that to the activity at hand. She had been both right and wrong.
"Wow."
Jake laughed again and helped her out of the car. He leaned down and retrieved her jeans and underwear, handing them to her. "Yeah."
Bella stepped into her underwear, falling against Jake who caught her just in time because her legs felt so weak and she couldn't be trusted to yet stand on her own. He helped her step into her jeans and kissed her thighs softly as he helped to bring them up, making her groan.
"Not fair."
He smirked and stood up, wrapping one hand behind her neck, pulling her to him.
"Oh no. I'd say it's more than fair. After the way you teased me in the car earlier, nearly making me explode in my pants...uh-uh, not nice, Bells."
She looked up at him and feigned innocence.
"Who? Me? I would never tease you, Mr. Black."
Jake smiled and nodded. "Um-hmm. Sure, you wouldn't."
And then he parted her lips with his own and kissed her deeply, slowly and sensually, leaving her gasping for breath when he finally pulled away and pressed his forehead to hers.
"Tomorrow. Eleven. The shop. Don't forget."
Bella nodded and leaned in to kiss him again. He put a finger to her lips. "We've gotta go."
Bella pouted and he rolled his eyes. "Let's go, my little demanding princess."
Bella sat back into the passenger seat and he closed the door. He made his way to the driver's side and got in. He started the car and put the defoggers on full blast and then pulled out of the parking lot. Bella looked back. She just realized she never knew where he had stopped, marveling yet again that they hadn't been caught by the occasional wayward cop. As Jake pulled farther down the road, she saw the building and gasped.
"Did you just fuck me in the parking lot of a church, Jacob Black?"
He grinned wickedly. "Maybe."
She smacked his arm.
"Hey, hey. I'm driving here."
Her mouth was open in shock as she gaped at him.
"Jacob Black, how could you?"
He looked at her wide-eyed with innocence.
"What? It wasn't my fault that you were teasing me on that seat, moaning sexily, finger fucking yourself. It wasn't my fault that you were making yourself almost come right in front of me, torturing me. Come on."
Bella shut her mouth and glared.
His impish grin grew.
"What? Just be happy that I didn't stop the car and fuck you in the street. 'Cause that's what I was about to do until I saw that lot."
He turned his grin on her.
"Divine Providence."
Bella laughed and he turned back to the road, the smile even bigger now.
Divine Providence. Yeah, well, she had enough sins on her plate without having to add defiling holy ground onto it. But apparently, Jake didn't see it that way. That bastard.
She laughed again and looked out the window.
"Divine Providence."
"Yep."
"Uh huh."
Then she felt him take her hand and bring it up to his lips kissing it. She turned to see him smile warmly at her. He intertwined their fingers and held both hands down near the driving shift. He then focused his eyes on the road ahead.
Bella glanced at their joined hands. She felt a flicker of apprehension. What the hell was going on here? Was he getting ready to break it off with her? Is that why he wanted her to meet him at the shop tomorrow? Is that why he saw her tonight when he swore up and down before that he couldn't? Is that why he had been kissing her that way, almost as if it were the last time? Then why did he make plans to see her on Tuesday?
Oh God. Oh God. She could feel herself panicking but she tried to keep it together. You're a married woman. You've had your fun. Whether it ends tomorrow or later on, you knew it was going to end regardless. You're married. He's married. He loves her. You love Edward. Time to suck it up.
She took a deep breath, praying Jake hadn't noticed her apprehension. He didn't. He seemed to be deep in thought as he turned the car into the CVS parking lot, parking a few spots away from his car. He let go of her hand and put the car in park. She glanced around and noticed the lot was mostly empty except for a few cars that probably belonged to the employees inside. She brought her head back to find Jake staring at her.
She felt her heart start to race. Was this it? Did he decide to skip the shop meeting altogether?
"Bells,"
She held her breath.
He lifted his hand and cupped her chin gently. "You'll be there tomorrow, no bullshit?"
Bella's eyes narrowed and her pulse pounded in her ears. She didn't know what she felt more. Anger at him doubting her after she said she would be there or pure terror because he was making it very clear tomorrow would be important. Her brain only allowed her to say two words.
"Of course."
He smiled softly. "Okay. I'll see you then."
He let go of her chin only to cup her face in both hands and pull her to him.
He kissed her slowly, languidly, just moving his tongue against hers.
He pulled away gently, resting his forehead on hers and then kissing her nose.
"See you tomorrow."
He opened the door and stepped out. Bella scooted back over into the driver's seat. He closed the door and then tapped on her window. She lowered it just enough for him to stick his head in.
"Hey. Text me when you get home. Let me know you made it back okay."
Bella was stunned. Who was this Jacob and where had the one she fell in lust with at first sight go? She nodded her head slowly.
He smiled and then leaned in and kissed her on the lips. "Okay."
He stood up and he was gone. He jogged back over to his car and got in. Bella backed out of the lot and headed home. As she pulled out, she found his car pulling out in the other direction at the second exit, heading the opposite way.
Bella was in shock.
So needless to say, her emotions were all screwy and she was already feeling conflicted when she got home. She checked her reflection in her rearview mirror and smoothed down what she could, fixing what needed to be fixed. She made sure to text Jake quick before she got out of the car.
Home.
She didn't expect a response and she didn't get one.
And that's when she noticed, she had completely forgotten what she originally "went to the store" for.
She jumped back into her car and quickly drove back to the store. She hoped Edward hadn't heard the car.
She rushed into the store and grabbed some bottle of sunscreen that looked feasible enough and then a box of the tampons she usually bought for herself and then rushed up to the counter, thrusting both items at the bored looking cashier.
As she made her way to the door, a trilling voice stopped her.
"Bella!"
She turned quickly at the sound of her name and came face to face with no one other than Ness and Jake.
She tried not to show her surprise and more importantly, her panic. "Ness!"
Ness laughed and moved forward, air kissing Bella who returned it less enthusiastically. "Fancy meeting you here."
Bella laughed, although, it was not with real mirth. "Yeah, yeah. Just picking up some last minute things. You?"
She only let her eyes flicker to Jake's once so as not to flag their standoffish behavior towards each other. They had always agreed to make small attempts at conversation and politeness whenever they were around their spouses so nothing would ever seem suspicious.
But Jake's eyes didn't meet hers. He looked around almost as if she weren't there.
Ness smiled. "Um yeah, us, too. So you excited for tomorrow?"
Bella gave a smile in return. "You bet."
"Oh good. It's gonna be so much fun. Especially, now that Emmett and Rose decided to join us."
Jake looked back at them but wouldn't meet Bella's eyes still.
"Babe, I've gotta go grab something in Aisle 7. I'll be right back, okay?"
She looked at him, smiling warmly and pecked him on the lips. "Okay. Hurry back."
He smiled at her just as warmly and nodded. Then he took off, leaving Bella fuming.
What the fuck was going on with him?
Once he was out of earshot, Ness turned back to Bella and leaned in, whispering.
"Bella, can you keep a secret?"
Ness seemed excited so Bella smiled. "Sure."
Ness beamed. "I think I might be pregnant."
Bella's heart sank to her stomach and the world came crashing down. She struggled to pull in air.
Bella left the building but Bella's brain took over for her, forcing her muscles to move, stretching her smile, almost like a puppet on strings.
"Wow. Really?"
Ness nodded. "Yeah. We're actually here to buy a few tests but don't say anything to Edward because it's not confirmed yet. Jake would be upset if I mentioned it to anyone without going to the doctor first."
Bella's brain spoke again. "Of course."
Ness quietly squealed. "Oh Bella, I've been hoping I would get pregnant but I wasn't sure it was going to happen. I mean, I've been so busy lately and Jake's been so distant..."
Bella resisted the urge to bite down on her lip.
"Oh, Ness, I'm so happy for you. I really hope you are."
She forced a fake smile onto her face again and gave the girl in front of her a hug.
Ness sighed. "Thanks, Bella."
Bella pulled away and smiled wider. "Of course. I don't mean to cut you short but I told Edward I'd be right back so I'm gonna run. You go find Jacob, okay? And good luck." She was able to force a wink.
Ness grinned at her. She looked like she was practically glowing. "Thanks. We'll see you tomorrow."
Bella began to walk away. "Okay, see you then." She gave a small wave which Ness happily returned.
Bella walked through the exit doors, out into the parking lot, to her car and got in. She didn't allow herself a second to think. She put the keys in the ignition, turned it and started the car. She checked her mirrors, put it into reverse and got the hell out of there.
She felt numb.
And she hated herself for feeling that way.
He wasn't hers to have!
He never was!
This was going to happen sooner or later.
Whether they ended it now or later.
Now it was abundantly clear to her why he had asked to meet with her tomorrow.
Well, she would give him what he wanted. In fact, she would do him one better.
She wouldn't talk to him. She wouldn't call him or text him anymore. She'd let it go.
And this weekend would be difficult.
But as difficult as it would be, it was doable.
She had a charming, handsome, adoring husband whom she loved dearly. And he would be at her side all weekend.
Yes, it was doable.
~~~~~~~~~SWM~~~~~~~~~~~~~SWM~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~SWM~~~~~~~~~
She stared up blankly at the ceiling.
Why would Jake not have told her?
If Ness wanted to spend time with him tonight, making him dinner, then that could only mean one thing. She had news for him. So it's not like he didn't know.
Why wait until tomorrow to end it?
Why not do it before he fucked her?
Again?
She now saw all his tender actions as a parting gift, a form of goodbye.
He had known.
The bastard had known and didn't tell her!
And on top of that, he denied her again what she wanted so desperately from him!
Although, now she was kind of relieved he hadn't given it to her.
Well, half of her was relieved.
Her body still craved his, yearned for his touch, to feel him.
That much was obvious from tonight's lovemaking session with Edward.
She felt dirtier because she had slept with another man only a short time before coming home and making love to her husband. She didn't even have the chance to shower first. If she never felt like a whore before, she certainly did now.
She glanced over at the sleeping form of Edward, snoring softly.
She quietly and slowly got out of bed, trying her best not to wake him.
Once she succeeded, she tiptoed out of their bedroom, down the hall to the guest bathroom. She locked the door and started the shower. She took off the robe she had quickly grabbed off the edge of the bed and stepped into the warm water.
She turned the temperature all the way up. She knew she would be red and raw but she couldn't find it in herself to care. She scrubbed up as best she could, washing her hair.
When she was done, she sat down on the shower mat, bringing her knees to her chest, letting the water beat down on the expanse of her back that was exposed.
She let everything she had felt tonight come to the surface.
Tears blurred her vision as sobs wracked her body.
Why had he done this to her?
Why had she?
Why hadn't she just told him no the first time he fucked her?
Why?
Why had all this happened?
And why was it ending like this?
Why hadn't she been strong enough to stop it before? On her own terms? Before her body started to crave his in an unnatural and unhealthy way?
Why had she not done the right thing?
Why, when her husband touched her, did she envision his face, his touch instead just so she could stay aroused?
Why?
Why?
Why?
Bella let all the scenes replay out in her head, seeing Jake's smile, seeing how he had looked at her earlier, how he refused to look at her after that. How he had smiled at Ness, his hand on the small of her back lovingly before walking away.
Why?
Divine Providence?
Divine Providence, my ass.