Thanks everyone for continuing to read my little story and for your comments. Keep the comments coming... I think it's getting to the crunch time now. It's a sad day today now that it's official that the character Jen is leaving Hollyoaks for good. It's a shame the producers didn't decided to give Jen and Tilly a happier ending. Oh well, we always have fanfiction :)

TILLY

Tilly had rushed home. Threw some clothes into a bag, grabbed her purse and then picked up her parents car keys and a road atlas. As Tilly set off she realised how bad the weather had got and that driving up to the Lakes in the snow maybe wasn't the most sensible decision she had ever made, but once she had realised she needed to see Jen, not going wasn't an option. Tilly had one small doubt in her mind as she thought back to the words in Jen's letter. Yes she had said that she loved Tilly, but she also said that she was planning on leaving and making a fresh start. Maybe Jen had already decided once and for all that the relationship with Tilly was just too hard. There had after all been so much heartache… for both of them.

Being the practical one, Tilly pulled over to the side of the road and grabbed her phone. She didn't want to make the journey only to be turned away by Jen so decided to send a text to Jen to let her know she was coming to see her. Tilly held her phone in her hand and looked at the previous message from Jen in which she had asked to see her. Tilly had ignored this request. She hoped it wasn't too late. She started typing the message Jen I'm coming to find you. T x Tilly pressed send and put her phone away, feeling better that she had at least warned Jen. If she didn't want to see Tilly then she would text back and Tilly would turn the car around and head back home.

After driving in heavy snow for an hour or so, Tilly stopped at a garage for some supplies. It was taking a lot longer than she had thought and she didn't think she would get there until at least 9pm. Tilly ran into the garage and grabbed some water, a can of Red Bull and a packet of Rolo's. She remembered the saying.. 'Do you love anyone enough to give them your last Rolo?' Would she be giving Jen her last one after they had talked? She didn't know, but she couldn't wait to find out.

She was in the car in total for 4 hours! The heater was on full blast, but she was still pretty cold. As she got nearer to the village where the cottage was, the snow got heavier and she could feel the temperature drop. Tilly had taken it slowly on the country roads and judging by the road atlas she was now just a few miles for the cottage. A few miles from Jen. She felt her throat tighten at the thought of seeing Jen. She had been working out what she would say to Jen on the drive up, changing her mind a dozen times. Jen had never texted her back, which Tilly took to mean that she wanted Tilly to come. Still wanted to see and talk to her. No news was good news after all right?

After a couple of wrong turns she finally found the road where the cottage was and saw Jen's jeep parked outside. Tilly observed the cottage through car window and thought how perfect it looked in the snow. The curtains were closed, but she could see a light was on in the living room and she saw a small line of white smoke coming from the chimney which indicated a fire. Tilly shivered as the car had quickly cooled down once the engine had been switched off. She took a deep breath and composed herself before opening the car door and walking towards the cottage.

JEN

Knock, Knock. Jen opened her eyes with a startle at the sound of the knocking. She was confused forgetting where she was before she realised she must have fallen asleep in front of the fire. She hadn't been sleeping well since the whole Esther thing and tiredness had clearly caught up with her. Jen looked at the dying fire in the fireplace and the untouched cheese and glass of wine. She must have been tired! Not like her to leave cheese and wine she thought to herself. She was lying there rubbing her neck which was a bit stiff from the position she had fallen asleep in, when the noise came again KNOCK, KNOCK. Oh god, Jen realised there was someone at the door and the noise had woken her up. She quickly jumped up, pulling her hair up into a ponytail as she walked towards the front door. She looked at her watch 9.20pm. Who on earth could it be? The house was detached and the nearest other house was a good 10 minutes away. The owner had met Jen at the house when she had arrived and given her a tour of the property and the key. The owner explained that she was going away herself that evening so Jen knew it was her.

Jen smoothed down her clothes and then opened the door and saw Tilly standing there shivering in the snow. Jen's mouth dropped open as she took in the sight in front of her. How? What? Oh my god! She stood there in silence trying to absorb the fact that Tilly was standing in front of her. Was she still dreaming? But then Tilly spoke….

" Hi". Jen remained silent, still in shock. Tilly spoke again " Ummm … Jen, any chance I could come in? It's bloody freezing out here!" Tilly rubbed her arms and jogged on the spot. Jen finally broke out of her dumb state and finally spoke "Oh god, yes. yes of course Tilly ….. umm god I'm sorry …..come in…come in quick, you must be frozen." Jen stepped out of the way and ushered Tilly into the cottage and closed the door behind her.

Jen watched Tilly as she stepped into the hallway and kicked her shoes together to get the snow off them. It was pretty deep out there and was still coming down. Jen took Tilly's coat with saying anything and moved to put it on a hook next to hers. The sight of Tilly's coat next to hers made her smile. Tilly was really here. WOW!

Jen turned back to Tilly who was standing in the hallway still shivering. Jen moved towards her and rubbed her hands up and down Tilly's arms in order to warm her up. "You're absolutely frozen" Jen said, deliberately not looking into Tilly's eyes as she said it. "Come into the living room and sit in front of the fire. It's just gone out, but I'll have it up and roaring in no time." Jen watched as Tilly smiled. Those lips! Those perfect, plump lips.

Jen started walking into the living room in order to regain her composure with Tilly following behind, the warm of the room was noticeable and Jen walked straight over to the log basket and busied herself in getting the fire up and going again. There were still some glowing embers from the previous fire and as Jen blew on them and added some kindling her mind started working overtime. How did Tilly find her? How had she got here? What did she want? What did it all mean? Questions, questions, questions. Jen turned around and looked at Tilly sitting on the sofa and felt her stomach flip just looking at her. Jen felt the sensation of desire wash over her. That heavy aching feeling you get when you want something…someone… so much that it hurts.