Ch.4-hostility

It wasn't until Renesmee fell asleep that I understood the sun had declined. I was so busy watching Bella changing. She was becoming more beautiful than she was. Was it possible?

She was taking my breath away. She was so beautiful, when she was sleeping. I understood that it was the last time that I would be able to see her unconscious. That was one of the disadvantages of having her as a vampire.

I started making a list of advantages and disadvantages of having her as a vampire while I was watching her.

Advantages. First of all I would have her forever. She would be with me forever. I would love her forever. That was the most important thing. Second, I wouldn't be afraid to touch her, her smell wouldn't be able to appeal to me. Third I would be able to give her a soft and warm hug when she needed it without worrying about my hard, cold hands.

Disadvantages. As I said I wouldn't see her sleep again. I wouldn't see her deep, brown eyes ever again (I'm glad that Renesmee had this beautiful eyes). I wouldn't hear her pulse increase when I touched her or see her deep red scarlet.

But the disadvantages was nothing compared to the advantages. If I had her forever then I wouldn't care for the disadvantages-no.

I heard footsteps from the stairs. Oh-what did that stupid puppy want from me again? Did he have suicidal tendencies?

Can I talk to you for a while, you can admire what your wife had become later. You have eternities to admire what you have done at her! He thought.

"What do you want fuzzy?" I growled.

"I just wanted, when, you know ,she wake up…" he tried to tell.

I just wanted not to tell her about the imprint thing. I would like to explain myself.

"Jacob, I promise to tell nothing to her but I would really appreciate if you tried to stay away from my daughter. I've heard how difficult it is for you but don't come close to her" I said. I sat up from the table and turned to face him.

"You know I can't. You can't do it to me. You did it with Bella. You succeed to take her away from me. Don't do it with her too. She is the reason that I stay alive, you know that. Please, please don't do that to me! I want her to be safe. I don't know if she would be with all that vampires around." He begged with a tone that I'd never expected from him. It was…friendly?

I swallowed back a growl. How could he believe that my daughter wasn't safe here? First of all she had a terrible smell, on the contrary with her mother.

"Jacob I understand it and I will do whatever I can to pretend that I understand ok? It's not only my choice and you know that. Bella is her mother. I am always surprised by her actions. She never does what I expect."I said in the same friendly tone.

You know that Bella would like me to stay here too. Her feelings for me would change but maybe she would want me here as a friend. He thought.

"That's what I expect but as I said she never does what I expect." I said, giving a look at my Bella.

I sighed.

"You love her" he mumbled.

"She's my only reason that I exist."I murmured.

Maybe he loves Bella more than I thought, even more than I did.

"Of course I do." I said-my friendly tone disappeared.

That's how I feel for Nessie, too.

I growled."You named her after the Loch Ness monster?"I hissed.

"Well, yeah. She is one of kind so…"he trailed of when I growled again.

"Just because you love her it doesn't mean that you own her, stupid. She already has a name. We don't need a dog godmother!" I growled, frustrated.

He growled too and left the room swiftly.

"Coward!" I mumbled.