No Getting Over You

Chapter 4

Disclaimer: I only own Jamie and, sadly, no one else.

A/N: Thanks for all the reviews. I'm home sick from work today, so I spent so much time napping and writing more of this fic. So, there's lots of fun to come :o) Anyways, everyone wants to know what Jeff did...so you're about to find out! Hope you enjoy it! It's a bit melodramatic...but that's how I roll ;o)

Lauren was laying next to Jamie, in Jamie's bed, while she cried. She gently combed her fingers through her friend's long brown hair. "Shhh, sweetheart. It's gonna be okay, she softly comforted.

"I'm sorry you had to witness that whole thing," Jamie managed to apologize between sobs.

"You don't have to apologize, hunnie."

"He just...he hurt me...so badly, Lau. It's like I can't control how I feel whenever he's around."

"What the hell did that asshole do to you?"

Jamie sat up, wiping the tears from her cheeks. She took a deep breath and tried to calm down. "I've never told anyone everything."

"You don't have to tell me, if you're not comfortable."

"No, I definitely have to."

"No, you don't, sweetie. You don't have to. I have your back anyway. I don't need to know."

"Yeah, but I need to talk about it for me. I haven't gotten it out ever, and I really need to hear it come out of my mouth."

"Okay," Lauren agreed. "I won't say a word to anyone."

Jamie wiped the rest of the tears off of her cheeks again. After they had gotten back to their hotel room after the hallway incident, Lauren had managed to take off her make up and change her into pajamas. Lauren grabbed the box of tissues and put them in between herself and Jamie, in anticipation of what was to come.

Taking a deep breath, Jamie tried to mentally prepare herself for what was about to happen. "Okay. I met Jeff when I was 18. Him, his brother Matt, Shane Helms and Shannon. They were all best friends, and they brought me into their circle. We were all really close and hung out whenever we could. They were in the WWE at that point so I didn't get to see them all of the time, but I'd visit, which I could easily get away with because of Uncle Paul and Aunt Stephanie, and to be honest, Vince and Linda love me, so I visited a lot. Besides, as much as I love Lynn like she's my own mother...and let's be fair, she's really the only mother I can ever remember having, I was always really, really close with Uncle Paul and Aunt Stephanie, so they'd bring me out for visits all of the time. But anyway, the guys and I were all really close. When I was 20, and Jeff was 28, something...well, I thought something changed. One night, we were hanging out, just the two of us, which wasn't really unusual. I liked him. A lot. I thought it was just some stupid little crush, but as it turned out, he felt the same way towards me. We kissed that night, and things just progressed from there. He just refused to be my boyfriend. But we did everything together. Everyone knew we were together. So, I dealt with it...like an idiot." She took a deep breath. "Lau, I was so stupid. I fell in love with him, you know? And he strung me along like a toy. At the time, though, I thought everything was peachy. He wasn't extremely romantic and didn't really make me feel like I was his girlfriend, but sometimes he did really sweet things. He's do little things like he'd fly over for a night just to see me. Stuff like that. So, I really thought everything was good between us, regardless of our problems. I was just stupid about it," she said, shaking her head.

"Being in love makes us stupid," Lauren tried to defend her firend. She could see Jamie was mentally beating herself up.

"Yeah, but what I did was beyond stupid. I stayed with him, even when he was sleeping around on me with whoever was willing. He couldn't keep it in his pants if he was paid to. Stupid me," she scoffed at herself and shook her head. "I was 22. I figured he was away. It got lonely. I couldn't visit a lot because I had a hectic schedule, between college and training. I made excuses for him. It hurt, though. A lot. I felt awful. I blamed myself for everything that went wrong between us, but things just kept getting worse." She paused, trying to maintain control of her emotions. "He was mean to me and confrontational, the majority of the time. Don't get me wrong, we did have some good times. He would still visit to surprise me once in a while, and we'd watch a movie and joke around...like we were a real couple. But for the most part...he treated me like...like...I..." She closed her eyes tightly, feeling herself start to lose the ability to hold back the tears that were threatening to fall out. "I felt like I was his whore. He used me for sex 90% of the time. But I was so in love that I didn't care. I didn't think it mattered. I figured we would be fine." Lauren could see the tears slowly escape Jamie's eyes.

"Sweetie..." she sympathetically whispered

"Then, I found out that I was pregnant. I was so excited, Lau. I've always wanted to be a mom. You know, my parents died when I was 3, and it just meant a lot to me to be able to have my own baby and make them proud and raise my own child. I was so happy. But Jeff wasn't. When I told him, he...flipped out on me. He told me he never wanted to have babies with me. He never wanted to be with me. He didn't love me and never would. He went on and on saying all of these cruel things to me. He made me feel like I was just a piece of trash. It just...it broke my heart. We ended up not speaking for a week. Then..." Jamie bit her bottom lip, which was quivering uncontrollably. "Then, he came to my hotel room. We were both on tour with the WWE at the time...well, I was visiting, he was working. He apologized for flipping out and saying the things he said. Then, he told me to get rid of...the baby." Lauren could see her entire body was trembling. She took her friend's hand into her own, gently squeezing it for moral support. "I...I refused. He begged me, and he said he couldn't start a life with me like this. He convinced me...and stupidly...I believed him. He said if I did it, we could start all over, get married and have a real life together," she said, her voice was cracking. "I didn't want to, but he convinced me that it was something we had to do. I really believed that he was changing and that we'd have a baby on our own, under better circumstances. So, I did it. And it destroyed me. It was the worst thing I ever did. I mean, I don't judge anyone who would do it, but it wasn't the right decision for me. I couldn't handle it. And on top of that...as if my heart wasn't broken enough from...getting rid of the baby...Jeff told me he would never be with me and never wanted to see me again."

Lauren stared in shock. "Oh my God."

"That was the last time I visited the WWE. I ended up moving in with Aunt Stephanie and Uncle Paul because Lynn told them something was wrong with me. Aunt Steph is the kind of person who I don't have to say anything to, but I know she's there if I want to talk. She'll just blindly support me. She knew it had something to do with Jeff, but she didn't know what happened. I couldn't bring myself to tell her or anyone. So, I kind of disappeared from the whole scene, while I just lived with her and Uncle Paul and their kids. I just focused on training, so I wouldn't have to think about it," Jamie explained, as the tears were falling out of her eyes in full force. Lauren pulled Jamie back into her arms, while she cried into her chest.

"Sweetheart, I'm so sorry that you've gone through all of this," she said, her heart breaking for the pain her friend was still suffering from.

There was a knock on the hotel room door. Lauren got up and opened it, revealing Shannon and Jesse.

"Oh no," Shannon reacted upon seeing and hearing Jamie. He ran over to her and pulled her into his arms, cradling her.

"Is she okay?" Jesse asked Lauren, obviously concerned.

She shook her head. "She's a wreck. I feel terrible that she's going through all of this right now."

"Because of the Jeff stuff?" She nodded. "I know Shannon feels guilty for not getting involved and taking care of her when Jeff was treating her like shit and not doing anything about him cheating on her."

"The only person to blame for what Jeff did is Jeff. He's the one who did everything he could to break her. And he won. He succeeded."

Jesse shook his head. "I feel bad for her."

"Me, too. She's had it rough, and I don't know if she's ever going to be able to get over it."

They looked over to Shannon, who was still cradling Jamie in his arms, while she cried into his shoulder. He looked as if he was feeling everything she was feeling.

The next morning, Jamie woke up with an arm around her. She turned around and saw Shannon. She loved him. He was like a big brother to her. She knew that he felt guilty for the things Jeff had done to her. He didn't know about the abortion, but he always blamed himself for not looking out for her as well as he felt he should have. She didn't blame Shannon at all, though. She blamed herself and Jeff for what happened.

Jamie was still heartbroken. She loved Jeff and wanted nothing more than to be with him. She hated herself for letting Jeff convince her to end her pregnancy. She hated herself for letting everything go on for as long as it did.

"Good morning, beautiful," Shannon greeted her with a smile.

Jamie gave him a smile. "Hi," she softly spoke.

"How are you feeling?"

"Eh."

"Aw hunnie. You know what will help you feel better?"

"What?"
"Maybe having a nice, grueling workout together," he said, playfully.

"I like that idea."

"Good. Let's do it," he said.

"Okay," she agreed.

"I'll run to my room and change. We'll meet in the hallway and go down to the gym."

"Sounds like a plan."

Barely fifteen minutes later, Jamie and Shannon met up in the hall. "Jame, you look great. Like you've always had a great body, but...you definitely upped the ante with what you're working with now."

"Aw. Thanks. I spent nine months living with Uncle Paul. Trust me, when he sees someone who was as despressed as I was, he makes sure he kicks your ass in the gym," she said with a laugh. "He'd constantly say 'Jamie, the endorphins will do you good. Let's go,' " she fondly remembered with a smile.

"Well, he's a smart man," Shannon said, throwing an arm over her shoulders, as the two friends walked toward the elevators.

"I love Uncle Paul and Aunt Stephanie."

"And I love you," Shannon said, pressing the down button. Jamie turned and wrapped her arms around him.

"And I love you, Shan. I missed you so much," she said, sincerely.

"I missed you, too. And I'm sorry I didn't stand up for you when Jeff was treating you like shit," he apologized.

"It's not yor fault."

"I should've done something."

"It wasn't your responsibility to do something."

"Yes, it was." He kissed the top of her head.

"Well, you're probably going to continue blaming yourself, regardless of what I say. So, even though I truly do not place any of the blame on you, I accept your apology," she said, pulling back.

Shannon smiled. "Thank you."

"Now, we can go back to causing chaos everywhere we go," she said, as the elevator doors opened and they stepped inside.

"We've pissed so many people off. I can't wait to bring on more mayhem," he said pressing the ground floor button, where the hotel's gym was located.