Disclaimer: Not mine as always.

Pairing: First part Jack/Angelo; second part Jack/Ianto

Summary: I hope you enjoy it.

Lust & Love…

They both have four letters but only one can break your heart…

Lives who die for a little compassion, lust is not love and pleasure is not passion…

He felt the other relaxed against his body, he closed his eyes, and pretending to sleep, he could hear the clock ticking away the seconds, the body moved again and softly got of the bed, another sound invaded the room then. Jack kept his eyes closed; he knew that avoiding the situation was better than confronting it, what was the point of confronting it when he would only make the other feel worst. He kept his eyes closed knowing that even if the time was not right maybe love would be enough to make it better. Time after time, the action was repeated, and time after time Jack kept his eyes closed hoping.

Yet time can only delay what is to come, and to Jack's fears, his nightmares became truth, between awaking and deaths. hanging from a post, the remains of his clothes drench with blood, he would always try and look for Angelo's eyes, and while some crying women sees him as a miracle some men saw him as the devil, but Angelo's eyes told him the worst, horror fill his eyes instead of compassion. Horror and a hint of disgust what was what Jack saw every time and it was what really killed him over and over.

Three men stood in front of him, treating him like an object something that can be sold easily, talking about him as if he had not ears or mouth to speak his own. He closed his eyes thinking it was another nightmare, trying hard to believe that Angelo had sold him, praying he would come to his senses and help him out. The lost of blood made him faint and he welcome the darkness as a soft blanket thinking that maybe this time it was for good, that he would stop suffering.

Shaking, he opens his eyes again, afraid of what he would see, the silence welcome him, his body feels sticky, passing a hand trough his face, he stares at it in the darkness afraid that he would see blood between his fingers. After giving a sight, he finally gets up and enters the shower, there much work to be done, and many decisions have to be taken. He climbs his ladder and he's at home, or so you would say, there is a smell of fear and blood, the only sound is the humming of the computers running a scan, even the weevils are too frighten by the past events to even make a noise. None is coming today he gave them the day off, he consider for a moment and by the amount of time the cleaning would take probably they would have the next day free also. He let the office phone ring, and when they did not give up, he had to answer.

"Captain Jack Harkness…"

"Jack, is me just called to see if you were all right." –It was Gwen. –"I thought of checking on Ianto, but I don't have his phone number or address… So…"

"I'll go check on him in a few." –His voice was sterile free of feelings, and for the first time Gwen was afraid of him.

"Jack I don't think neither of you meant what you said last night, he was just afraid of losing her." –She paused and waited for some kind of answer. –"Jack, wouldn't you have done the same?"

"No."

"Jack…"

"He betrayed his team for something that was not even there anymore… He put us all in danger, Gwen."

"But Jack, I am sure he didn't…"

"I have to go Gwen. I am busy."

…

He opens the door of the flat with his own key, they are clothes on the sofa, discarded plates on top of the mantel. The Tele is still on, he looks for the remote and turns it off. He walks in to the room to find the other in bed asleep. Approaching the bed, he leans on top of the other.

"Ianto, Ianto wake up."

"What are doing here?" –Ianto made an attempt to get up his eyes still not totally focused. –"What about the meeting?"

"Happy Birthday Ian… You thought I would forget." –Was Jack answer capturing Ianto's sleepy face to post a soft lingering kiss.

"I thought you did not know, I wasn't sure…" –His brain was stop by another kiss.

"I have to go now, go back to sleep, you still have two more hours…Go back to sleep." –Placing a kiss on the other temple, he thanked God the sedative was starting to work. –"Ianto…" –A soft hum was the only answer. –"Thank you."

"Hum, for what?"

"For everything."

Ianto woke refreshed, energized enough to be able to handle whatever Owen decided to throw at him. Even the fact the Gwen was planning a surprised party for him did not seem to bother him that much. He was about to leave his flat when his mobile rang.

"Yes…"

"They say is your birthday."

"Yeah so…"

"Happy birthday."

"Did you arrive already?"

"What do you mean? I am still on the meeting. Is just that General Hatori is being a butt head so I decide to take a bathroom break…" –Ianto was about to get in his car but waited for a proper explanation.

"That is weird I could have swear I saw you."

" Am I listening right, Did Ianto Jones just said he had an erotic dream about me? This is getting interesting. Please continue…" Jack added laughing.

"I did not say it was erotic."

"Ianto lets face every dream on which I present myself is and would be erotic." –He could only laugh at the thought of the face his shy boy was making.

"You are so full of it."

"And yet you can wait for me to come back and give you your present… I'll see you when I come back, maybe we can have dinner."

"That sound good, now please go back to your meeting, the last thing we need is to have UNIT on our backs." –He hung up and got on his car unaware of the man wearing the great coat looking from a far.

Author's Note:

Confused, I am sorry. Time frame the first part is when he meets Vinny, Maria can explain. The part when he wakes up is right after cyber woman, and the last part in the middle of season two, everyone is alive.

Questions go ahead and ask.