Eventually Thomas became Newt's secretary, it was quite funny and enjoyable, and way better than his other job. When Newt announced that he was his new secretary, Gally was so pissed off that you could say he was burning, he yelled, and at the end he stormed out of The Maze, saying that this wasn't over. And even though they were in a war, during job they were professional and almost friendly with each other. Thomas would never say it out loud, but really liked this Newt. "Hey Thomas, can you prepare some coffee please?"

"On my way." It was amazing being his secretary, his job was quite easy, he accompanied Newt to the school meeting and contrary to popular belief they were quiet eventful, and when they finished early either Newt helped Thomas forget and forgive or just dismissed him.

"Thank you Thomas, you wanna talk or do you prefer to leave?" Asked Newt as Thomas gave him his mug, with freshly made filter coffee.

"I guess I'll stay, I think it's time to let go the thing I love the most, my little brother." Said Thomas with a straight face.

"What did he meant to you, Thomas? Why letting him go?" Asked Newt.

"He was everything for me, my reason to fight, to be strong, to live. And I need to let him go, cause in my brother live my darkest memories." Said Thomas, crying he tried but he couldn't hold it.

"It's fine Thomas, I'm here." Newt hugged Thomas, truth to be told he could support seeing Thomas crying.

"Thanks Newt."

"What's his name?"

"Chuck, his name is Chuck." Answered Thomas, sobbing.

"Who's Chuck? I need you to really think about who he is wand what he means, try to describe what he represents." Newt's voice seamed calm and almost lulling.

"He is life and death, happiness and sadness, hunger, nightmares, work, torture, angel, danger, sacrifice and hope." Was all that Thomas could come up with, it's just that he loved Chuck but he gave his childhood for him, he saw what a 10 year old should never see, he experienced things that a 13 year old should never experience.

"Now I want you to imagine him, to imagine that you hug him and then I want you to say out loud, Goodbye little brother I'm going to miss you but I need to let you go." Newt said, he rubbed Thomas back trying to calm him.

Thomas did as Newt said he imagined himself hugging Chuck, then he repeated what Newt said, and he felt peace, he felt as all of his fears go, he felt free. "Thanks Newt."

"Now you can leave." Said Newt" By the way I'm crashing at your house tonight, promise I won't be too loud this time."

As Thomas left Newt, wondered when would his life begin, since all he does is work himself to death, barely talk to anyone, and wander through an eternal nightmare.

What a day, first he had Newt as teacher, then he declared war to Newt and now he was at his cousin's bedroom, doing God knows what!

"Thomas, Dear." Called Aunt Ava's voice from her bedroom.

"What can I do for you aunt?" Asked Thomas.

"Could buy Aris some lube and condoms, he just texted me that he ran out of both, I know it may be awkward for you but my back is killing me." Said Aunt Ava.

"Don't worry auntie, I'll be happy to help you." Actually didn't wanted to go, but his aunt needed him, and he guessed it would be better and hearing those love birds make out.

The closest Target was 5 minutes away, it wasn't that far, on the bright side it was easy to find the condoms, on the not so bright side there was no lube, call him stupid but he really hoped that he could find lube at Target, guess he'll have to buy some kind of body oil, hoping it will do, he took the one that smelled like coconut, he loved the way that coconut smelled, maybe Aris also loved that?

"So your having a fun night, is it your first?" Asked the cashier as she saw the products Thomas was about to pay for, he blushed at her comment how could he not?

"Actually it's for my cousin and his boyfriend." Thomas said, as he scratched the back of his neck awkwardly.

"Oh sorry." Said the cashier.

"No problem, honestly if I were you I would've asked the same question." The cashier just laughed at his comment.

On the way home he thought of how he was going he would say, or what we could see, not that he minded seeing them naked, it would just be odd. He was expecting a long walk home, but instead it was a really short one, he just walked in and started moving towards Aris' room, then he knocked his door.

"That was fast, thank you Thomas." Said Aris as he grabbed the bag that Thomas held.

"I didn't found lube, so I bought body oil." Said Thomas, with a light blush.

"That will do, thanks Thomas." Said Aris. "How did you knew that Newt loved the smell of Coconut? You're the best cousin ever."

"Actually I chose it, cause I love the coconut and thought that you might like it as well"

"Aris, don't leave me waiting, you know how much I hate to wait." Newt's voice said.

"I gotta go, I don't want him to get impatient, I really want to be able to walk tomorrow." With that Aris closed the door.

A few minutes later both Newt's and Aris moans could be heard everywhere in the house, and their moans might or might not had turned on Thomas, he thought about taking a cold shower, but he knew that that wouldn't do it, he needed to find a solution. He opted to sleep, but he couldn't cause this two were so loud, that Thomas was sure even their neighbors could hear them. "Some people are trying to sleep so you know."

"Sorry." Someone screamed, still they were too loud, leaving Thomas with no other option but taking care of his little problem by his own.

"You killed me." A wicked voice said.

"Alby, I'm sorry." Said Newt.

"It's was your fault." The dark skinned guy said with poison in his voice.

"I was just afraid, I didn't wanted any of this, since that day my life, is a non stopping nightmare." Newt started crying, it was all his fault, because of him he was dead.

"I'm happy to hear that, you deserve to burn in hell Newt!" Alby screamed.

"Please forgive me Alby, can't you see how much I've been suffering since that day."

"You don't deserve, you don't deserve to live, you don't deserve a happy ending Newt, you're a villain, a monster, that's way everyone always leaves you, that's why no one truly cares about you. You're such a terrible person that even your boyfriend prefers his cousin over you." Alby started walking towards Newt.

"I know, I wish I was dead, but that had be too easy, I deserve the pain, the suffering." Said Newt as Alby hands were placed around his neck.

"Don't worry Newt, I'll help you with that, I'm taking your life as you took mine." Alby smirked as he began strangling Newt.

That's when Newt woke up, screaming, with fresh tears running all the way down his cheeks. It felt so real, Alby's words were still there, breaking his heart, reminding him who he really is, a horrible person who deserves to rot in hell, someone who has killed his best friend, someone who has hurt so many people, the monster everyone fears, a bomb ready to explode, Death and Misery incarnated in the form of a human, the fire that would burn everything and everyone he cared of.

"Newt, Are you okay?" A sleep voice asked, while rubbing his back.

"I need to go." Said Newt, without any emotion in his voice.

"Please don't push me away, Newt. I love and seeing you like this breaks me" Aris placed a chaste kiss in Newt's lips.

"Aris, I hurt everyone I love, I don't deserve any of this." Said Newt, as silent tears began falling.

"Newt, don't say that, you're an amazing person that's not true."

"Aris, my mom hates me, my dad barely talks to me, Alby died because of me, at school people only talk to me when they need help, and I still don't understand why you, Teresa and Minho stick with me." Explained Newt.

"Alby didn't dies because of you Newt, and we hang out with you cause we love you, we care about you Newt." Aris hugged him.

"Alby said that I don't deserve any of this, that I deserve to rot in hell."

"You know that Alby would never say that, that he's proud of how you've handled things, he just wanted to see you happy Newt." Aris began kissing placing soft kisses on Newt's neck.

"Aris, I need some time alone." Newt dressed up, and started walking to the door, Aris knew that he needed it he wasn't keen to the idea but there was nothing he could do.

Newt walked past Thomas room, he was about to reach the stairs, when a hand was placed in his should. "Newt where are you going?"

"I'm leaving, I need to be alone."

"Newt, you've helped me so much, you've heard me talk about my complicated past, you've helped me heal, please let me return the favor." His secretary said, with a sincere smile.

"Fine, what you're about to hear, shall be kept as a secret or you're dead man Thomas." Said Newt, knowing that the annoying brunette wouldn't rest until Newt accepted.

"I promise." Thomas was happy that the blonde accepted, maybe this could change their relationship for good.

"The lets begin, I'll warn you, that this story will be dark, sad, and bloody dark." Was all Newt said before beginning to tell the story of his life.

"Newt, where are you?" Rachel's voice rang trough the room.

"I'm here, sis" An eight year old Newt said.

"Don't you dare to run away like that again Newt, I was bloody worried." Shouted the twelve year old girl.

"I'm sorry, I got scared." A single tear drop appeared, soon followed by tons of them.

"God, you're crying, I'm sorry for snapping at you"

"You didn't made me cry, big sis, it was mom."

"What exactly happened in there Newt?" Asked his sister.

"I told her that I'm gay, and she got crazy, she started telling me that I'm sick, and many other horrible things, so I started running away." Newt answered, but she wasn't looking at her sister, actually his eyes looked blank, they looked lifeless. "Please don't hate."

"Newt you're my brother and nothing will change that, I love you and I'll always loved no matter what." A ghost of a smile formed on Newt's lips.

"Thank you Rachel."

"Let's go home Newt, you can't stay with grandpa, he may love you but he's to old to take care of you."

"But she hates me, I don't want see her." Newt said.

"I'll protect you, if she tries something then I'll let you come back."

"Fine."

Newt didn't wanted to return, his mother was a monster, she had always hated him and now she has a reason to hate him.

"You two, stop." A dark voice caller from behind.

"Let us alone." Rachel's voice demanded.

"But I want to play with the little boy." The adult said.

"You're not getting anywhere near my brother, you perv" Rachel said as she put his brother behind her so that the old man couldn't abuse his little and innocent brother.

"I just want to play." Said the pervert.

"You think I'm stupid, I know what playing means, I might be young but I'm wise."

"If you want it the bad way, I was thinking about being nice with the kiddo, but now I'm gonna make sure he suffers."

"Newt run." Said Rachel, and Newt did as said, and began running his grandpa house." He ran as fast as flash, since he was already there, he just stormed into the house and searched for his grandpa.

"Grandpa, help me, a creepy guy has Rachel, and he said he wanted to play." Grandpa Henry took Newt and guided him to the car, but by the time they arrived, it was already too late since Rachel was already knocked out, bleeding like there was no tomorrow.

"We need to call the ambulance." Was all that Grandpa said.

Two hours later they were in the hospital, waiting for the doctor, Newt was afraid, he didn't wanted lose his sister.

"It's all your fault Newt, because of you I'm losing my only child." Said Newt's mother.

"Sally, Newt's your son." Newt's Grandpa said.

"The moment he decided he wanted to be gay he stopped being my son, dad." Said Newt's mother with no remorse.

"Then I'll take care of him, and I don't want to see you anywhere near my house."

"Believe the last thing I want is to be near that thing."

"She's alive." The doctor said."But she's in comma."

"I know it's sad, but I haven't seen my mother since that day, she never cared about me." Newt didn't wanted to let Thomas see him like this, but he couldn't hold it backs anymore, he needed this more than ever.

"You deserve better Newt, honestly she was a bitch, it wasn't your fault..." Newt slapped him so hard, that Thomas saw stars.

"You've no right to talk about her, she may be the wicked witch but that doesn't give you the right to insult her Thomas."

"Yeah sorry, I got caught up on the moment." Thomas apologized and offered a warm smile. "So where do you live?"

"With my grandfather, he seems to care about me, sometimes my father comes but our relationship isn't the best, but at least he tries, I guess?" More tears started falling straight from his eyes.

"It's fine Newt, don't cry, I'm here, I know how you feel." Thomas hugged Newt, trying to help him feel better.

"You don't, you may had a harsh live, but you don't suffer depression, you don't wake up from a nightmare every night, you don't know how I feel." The blonde pushed his secretary, who's practically his second in command, away from the embrace.

"Believe or not, I didn't wake up because of your nocturnal activities, I woke up from a nightmare Newt, I may not show it but I'm as broken as you..."

"Where was I?" Was all Newt said, cutting Thomas away.

Today was the day, Newt was telling his best friend about his feelings, today he was telling Harry about his undying love towards him. Harry had brown hair, pale skin, light brown eyes, he was lean, and he was tall for a 12 year old. Newt didn't knew how or when, he just knew he was in love with the brunette and he couldn't stop thinking abut him, about his eyes, or his lips.

"Newt, how are you?" A nice voice asked from behind.

"Fine I guess, I'm still having problems dealing with my emotions, I still have nightmares about what happened four years ago, and I can't get over the fact that I may never see my sister again."

"Newt calm down, it's okay, I'm here, she'll be fine." The brown haired boy said.

"Thank you, Harry."

"Don't worry mate, I'll always be here for you." The brunet offered one smile.

"Good That" They started walking toward the park were they went after school, normally they would sit under the tree and today was no exception, also they would talk about their day or read a book, but today Newt was going to let his heart speak.

"Harry, there's something I've wanted to tell you."

"What's it Newt?." Newt decided that the best way to show Harry his feelings was by placing a chaste kiss in his lips, but it didn't went as Newt expected, instead of Harry kissing back he got pushed away.

"What was that Newt, friends don't kiss, men don't kiss each other, that's disgusting." Harry said.

"I'm sorry Harry, it's just that I fell in love with you." Tears from Newt's eyes.

"Newt I don't want to see you again, you disgust me." Newt ran away, to his new house.

"Newt, what happened?" Asked Newt's grandpa.

"I kissed Harry and he was mean." Newt couldn't stop crying, so the old man hugged him.

After a few minutes Newt stopped crying and went to his bedroom he just wanted to sleep, and to forget about what happened today. By the time he woke up, his grandparent had his things packed, Newt knew this was going to happen, he was kicking him out.

"Newt we're moving to Albuquerque, it's in America." His grandpa said calmly.

"So you're not kicking me out?" Asked Newt.

"Newt I would never do that, you're my grandson and I love you, just the way you're."

"Thank you Grandpa."

"What a douchebag." Said Thomas.

"I'm still not over him."

"Newt you deserved better than him, you have Aris and he loves you."

"I know, but the pain, the venom in his voice is still there."

"Newt he's not worth it." Thomas said.

"What if it's me the one who's not worth it Thomas, what will happen when Aris sees that?"

"Newt that's not true."

"Them explain to me why he always hooks up with whatever guy he sees." Newt arched an eyebrow at Thomas.

"Cause you're in an open relationship?"

"Only for him, cause when I try to hook up with another person, he gets mad and jealous."

"That proves my point, he's afraid of messing up and he's protective cause he doesn't want to lose you."

"May I continue?"

"Totally."

Newt was having a breakdown, everything in this school reminded him of his life in England. He was afraid of rejection, afraid of people hurting him, afraid of life.

"Hey kiddo, what are you doing?" A gentle voice asked.

"Go away!" Newt screamed.

"My name's Alby, and I just want to help you."

"No you don't, everybody hates me!" The blond said.

"That's not true I don't hate you blonde, why should I hate you?" The dark skinned kid asked.

"Because I'm gay." Newt closed his eyes, waiting for the boy to kick him or something.

"I'm still waiting for a reason."

"Wait aren't you going to kick me, cause I'm gay?"

"Nope, by the way I like you greenie." Alby said." I can tell that we're gonna be great friends, and I'm going to teach some self defense."

They started walking away, chatting, together creating an in breakable bond, but they didn't knew that a raven haired boy, with green eyes was observing them, a boy that liked to held grudges, a boy that was getting his revenge against the boy who stole his best friends.

"And that's how I met Alby."

"He sounds like a lovely person, I wish I had met him" Thomas said.

"You would have been great friends" It should have been Newt the one who died, not Alby, he deserved to live not Newt.

"Do you miss him?" Thomas asked.

"I miss him so much, if could give my bloody life in exchange of his I would do it without a second thought."

"All of this must be hard for you, isn't it?"

"Indeed it is, I try to move on but I can't." There was something no one knew, the reason why Newt couldn't forget about Alby, the reason why his best friend haunted him every night.

"You like to hold onto things, to never let them go, you hate changes, don't you?" Asked Thomas, curiosity got the best of him.

"I do, but I try not to, he used to say The darker your soul is, the harder your fall will be."

"I've never heard wisest words." Said Thomas, amazed by they fact that someone that young could be so wise.

"I used to tell him the same, I owe him so much, if it wasn't for him, I'll be dead by now Thomas, yet I let him die" Said Newt, with big puffy eyes.

"Newt, I didn't knew Alby, but I know that he would've wanted you to forgive yourself and forget about the bad times, about the accident. If I was him I would've wanted to you to remind the best of me."

"Your not him and you didn't knew him! How could you be so sure." Newt almost screamed.

Thomas didn't knew what to say or do, he decided to let his instincts take care, and started leaning until their lips met, Newt's lips where soft, the felt amazing, he felt butterflies in his stomach, he felt something magical, but before he could continue Newt pulled away.

"I hate you so much, I knew that I couldn't trust, how dumb of me, I don't know how I could be so naïve, for a moment I thought we could be friends, but I never been so wrong." That being said he stormed out of the house, he was confused, he was hurt, the worst part was that this wasn't the first time that something like this happened.