Chapter 4
Updated: Sorry, i don't know why it was so weird when i posted it last time. Thank you to ile de beaute for telling me. I learn french at school so when i read your message i was so happy i understood it :) Thank you again.
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Sorry it's a day late. School started so instead of posting once in 4 days I'm going to post once in a week. Sorry. Anyways, I don't own the mortal instruments or any songs mentioned. Hope you enjoy this chapter. See you at the bottom.
We've finished shopping so we have all got back together at Starbucks which was where we also found Jon. I bought him a coffee instead of ice cream. We found a nice place to sit next to the windows. Me, Simon and Jon sitting on one side and Izzy, Alec and Jace on the other. We drink our coffees in comfortable silence while going through our phones. I was skimming through Instagram when I get a call.
"Hey mom."
"Hello Clary, just checking in to see if everything is fine."
"Yep. We've finished here."
"Okay, I've already invited Maryse, Max and Robert tomorrow for dinner. Please inform the other lightwoods."
"Uhhh, right but mom I have music class and I've also got to train."
"No worries, re schedule your training with Jon." She tells me in a tone that tells me to not argue with her.
"Right. Okay. Umm Love you, bye mom."
I cut the call.
"Okay so you guys are invited to my house tomorrow for dinner, Maryse, Max and Robert are already aware of this. And Jon we can't train tomorrow so another day?"
He nods.
"Cool. Is Simon coming?" Izzy says.
"Oh. Simon doesn't need an invitation, my mom always keeps an extra plate for him, and he's like family." I smile at Simon and the gesture is returned.
I look at Izzy and for a second I see jealousy and sadness. But it's so fast, that I feel like I imagined it.
"Oh and it is formal so you have to dress nicely. COUGH COUGH JON COUGH COUGH." I look at him innocently.
"Oh please, it's you who needs to dress well." He says with sticking his tongue out at me.
"When am I not dressed better than you?"
This shuts him up. I smile. Everyone else on the table looks at us weirdly.
"I feel like I'm interrupting a sibling war right now but I just really need to go meet one of friends who doesn't live far away so I can walk there, I'll be back in 15. You guys will wait, right?" Alec cuts in.
"No." I say with a serious face but I can't hold it for long when I see Alec's shocked face. "Kidding, always be there for you." I say making a heart shape with my hands at him. He smiles and leaves.
Jon pushes my hand down. "No dating till 25."
"Hmm. You know you're not 25 yet you have Camille. Plus Alec's gay."
Jon looks shocked. "Alec's gay?"
"Yeah. DO you have a problem with that?" Jace responds defensively. Izzy puts a hand on him telling him to calm down and not be so defensive.
"No. No problem at all. I just… never knew. And never would have guessed…He never has a boyfriend with him."
A couple minutes of awkward silence fills the air when Simon decides to cut it.
"I never asked you guys… What subjects are you taking at college?"
"Well, I'm majoring Fashion design so most of my classes are that. And some business classes and advanced music." Izzy states
"Nice I'm taking advanced music too. How about you, Jace?" I said. It was so weird talking to Jace like nothing happened, he wouldn't talk much but when he did it was always sarcastic and rude.
"Umm, I'm taking Economics and Sports major and advanced music as a minor." Damn. I have a class with him, I was hoping this year would go smoothly, guess lord doesn't agree.
"Cool. Jon's taking Sports major too so he'll be in your class." Jace has this disgusted look on his face.
"Simon, what are you taking?" Izzy asks.
"Advanced music, maths and Computer science as a major." Simon responds.
"And I'm taking art as a major, advanced music and English." I say.
"So we all have a class together?" Izzy exclaims happily.
"Yeah. I heard there is only one advanced music teacher because very few students get in."
"Great. What do you play?"
"Umm… I sing, play the piano, the drums and the violin."
"WOW. Work it girl. I play the violin and sing. I sound so boring compared to you."
"Oh trust me, Clary sucks at the violin. She has literally broken the strings like 50 times in a week." Simon says.
"Yep, terrible. I'm still learning."
I see Alec coming so I tell everyone we should be heading back now.
"Hey guys, I'm so sorry that I made you guys wait but Jordan is now going to the field with all the guys, and he asked me and Jace to come, is it okay if we go?"
"Yep. TOTALLY." Jon responds. I punch him in the arm. "Ow Clary."
But I ignore him, "Are you talking about Jordan Kyle?"
"Yep. You know him?"
"Of course I do, another one of my body guards and one of my best friend's boyfriend. Tell the jackass that I'm mad with him. He'll know why."
Alec gives me an odd look. "Right, I'll say so."
"Thanks bye."
We drop Izzy and Simon off.
"Hey Clare?"
"Yeah?"
"I don't want to see you get hurt by him again, okay?" I knew who he was talking about.
"I thought we had this conversation Jon. I won't fall for that idiot again."
He's happy with my answer and says "I'm going to Meilorn's place, is that okay?"
"Of course it's okay. I'm probably going to go eat. Do you need me to keep a plate for you?"
"No I'll eat there, bye Clare-bare."
"Bye Jon."
But I don't actually eat that night, I meet my parents and tell them I'm really tired so go to my room and think about today. I feel the urge to draw out all of us when we sat down in Starbucks. So I do, it takes me an hour and then I realize something, Jace was so quiet at Starbucks. Why? This keeps me wondering. Normally he can talk for hours. Thinking about Jace makes we want to write a song about our situation so I go to the music room downstairs.
I start creating a song. I write exactly what I want to on the sheet of paper for hours and I create this:
{A/N I'm definitely not a musician so I copied lyrics from Beth Crowely's 'My version of you.' All credits go to her and I don't take any.}
I probably looked at you a thousand times
I never really saw you
I had a picture of you in my mind
I thought you could live up to
You drew a line between us in the sand
The tide came and washed it away
But God, it felt amazing when you held my hand
Like you heard everything I wasn't brave enough to say
I put you on a pedestal
Gave you so far to fall
I came to see that knowing you
Wasn't knowing you at all
So can we go back
To when I thought you were perfect
I want to believe
In your mystery
Because you're the dream I
Had for so much of my life
Who will I become
If I give you up
So even if it's not true
I want another moment
With my version of you
I saw you floating in a crystal sky
But you were always out of my reach
How come I never stopped to wonder why
It was okay you didn't need me
Somewhere inside of me I think I know
We're not the people that we were then
I watched you leave but I can't let you go
In spite of everything it doesn't feel like it's the end
My paper thin arguments
Don't hold weight anymore
The paths we chose will never lead
To the way things were before
But can we go back
To when I thought you were perfect?
I wanna believe in your mystery
'cause you're the dream I had for
So much of my life
Who will I become if I give you up?
So even if it's not true.
I want another moment with my version of you
You are a figment of my imagination
you are a being of my own creation
I wish you could exist
No other way than this
So can we go back
To when I thought you were perfect?
I wanna believe in your mystery
'cause you're the dream I had for
So much of my life
Who will I become if I give you up?
So even if it's not true.
I want another moment with my version of you
I'm so tired that I fall asleep on the piano.
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