A/N: hey guys! I know it's been a long time… sorry for the long wait. But it's here! Hope you could forgive me with this chapter. Enjoy!

Chapter 4: You are my life…

Previously…

They enjoyed the moment that they need, feeling safe in each other's arms. They stayed like that for a few more minutes before Robin broke the warm silence between them.

"I love you Regina."

"I love you too. So much." Regina whispered as she buried her face on his chest.

They don't know what will happen next. But they are happy to have each other.

For Regina, what matters is that Robin is here now. And she will do everything to make him see that their love was enough.

And for Robin, he loves Regina so much he will give her everything. He hopes that his love is enough to conquer every obstacle that will come their way.

That moment they felt like it was just the two of them. Neither one of them wanted to break the embrace to go back to the reality. But they both know that they need to face whatever problem they have. Especially Robin, who was still having doubts with their situation and decision he will make. He doesn't want to hurt Regina. He doesn't want to make her feel rejected like he didn't want to be with her because God knows how much he would die to have Regina in his life. But it wasn't that easy. It will never be easy. But for Regina he would do anything to protect her and make her happy.

Robin was still rubbing Regina's back to comfort her. He can still her crying softly and it broke his heart seeing her in this kind of state. He pulled back from the embrace which made Regina worried he can see the fear in her beautiful brown eyes which he quickly took away when he laid a soft kiss on her lips. Regina couldn't help the relief she felt when Robin kissed her. It was like a dream. Too good to be just a dream. A dream she didn't want to end.

Robin then kissed her forehead before looking at her eyes. He was lost with those brown eyes, he could spend the rest of his life looking at those eyes. He was broken off his thoughts when Regina spoke softly.

"Did you…did you mean what you said? That you love me?" the vulnerability in her voice when she asked him was crystal clear. And the fear in her eyes was still present.

"Of course I did. I love you so much Regina, I don't think you have any idea how much I love you." He spoke the truth. He hates himself for making her feel like his and he is determined to make her feel loved from now on.

"But… but you said that there is no us. And you keep saying that you can't be with me. Do you have any idea about how I feel when you say those things?" Regina can feel the frustration building inside her again. She's trying her best to not lash out on him, she wanted them to talk and fix things and being angry won't solve things between them.

"I know. I'm sorry if I hurt you. Bu you have to understand where I'm coming from. I just want to protect you. I'm here because I need to protect you. It is my job. It didn't include being with you. Loving you. They told me that the only rule I have when I got this job is to never fall in love with you. Because it is very dangerous. So as much as I want to-"

"No! Don't you dare say those words again! I swear Robin! If you don't want to be with me just say it! Stop making those fucking excuses!" Regina yelled angrily. She pulled away from him like she had been burned. She was crying now. The tears kept running down her cheeks and she couldn't stop it. Even if she wanted to, she can't control her emotions right now. She was feeling angry, hurt, broken and rejected by the man she loved with all her life. There too many emotions she was afraid it was going to burst out of her chest. Regina was getting overwhelmed right now, her breath started getting short. She was panicking she started hyperventilating. Regina started gasping, panting for air, she felt like she was going to faint.

Luckily, Robin caught her, he carried her to his bed. He had never seen Regina like this and it scared the shit out of him. It was clear that she was having a panic attack. Once Robin settled her on the bed, he wrapped his arms around her while he comfort her with his words.

"It's okay… Regina, you're fine… breathe with me... try to relax…" Robin said calmly. He didn't want to panic in front of her because it might make things worse.

"Robin…" Regina gasped. Her tears were still flowing as she look at him for help.

Robin hugged her tighter while running his hands on her back trying to calm her down. He didn't know what to do so he pulled away from Regina to tell her that he will get some help.

"Regina, I want you to relax. I'll call for some help. Okay?"

"No… just stay here… don't leave me…" Regina said panting.

"Regina, I don't know what to do right now. We need help. You need help."

"Please… please Robin… don't leave me…"

"Okay. I won't leave you. Just tell me what you need." Robin said wrapping his arms around her again.

Regina just wrapped her arms around his waist, burying her face in his chest trying to control her breathing while Robin ran his hand on her back, slowly she felt her breathing get back to normal.

Robin waited for Regina to calm down as he thought of how their conversation escalated into a fight again, it seems that they couldn't have a proper conversation. He didn't know what to do anymore.

He gave her a few more minutes before he kissed her forehead and asked her.

"How are you feeling?" Robin asked looking down to see her eyes are closed as her breathing even out, she looked so peaceful but he couldn't help but notice her tear streaked face, her cheeks were flushed probably from crying so hard. He almost thought she fell asleep.

"I'm okay." Regina answered softly, she pulled Robin closer.

"Are you sure? Do you need anything? Maybe we should have called for help."

Regina could see the worry on his face when she opened her eyes. She is fine now, and also she didn't want anyone to know what was happening.

"I'm fine Robin. Stop worrying."

"I can't help but worry, seeing what you just went through because of me." Robin said guiltily.

"It wasn't your fault. I don't know what happened to me too. Maybe because I got so angry. I don't really know. Because it doesn't matter now, I'm fine."

"I'm sorry."

"No need to apologize. But Robin, we still need to talk. Without getting angry or yelling at each other, because we'll never be able to solve our problem if we let our anger get the best of us."

"Regina, maybe you should just rest now. I'm not sure if we can do that, knowing you don't understand where I'm coming from. I don't like for us to fight again, I don't want to fight with you." Robin said calmly. He is worried they would just end up fighting about the same thing over again.

Regina pulled away from him, as she sat up she gave him a death glare that means he cannot say no to her now.

"No. We will talk about it now. Do you understand me?" Regina said firmly.

Robin just nodded his head knowing fully well he would never win an argument with her.

"What do you want to talk about?" Robin asked her wanting to get this conversation over now.

"Everything. I want you to tell me why you keep pushing me away. And don't use your job as an excuse. I want the truth."

"Everything I said was true. Whether you like it or not, that is the truth. And I am not pushing you away that would be the last thing I would ever do. Regina, I love you
so much. I just want to protect you, and by protecting would mean that I could never be with you then so be it because I would rather risk the chance of being with you just to make sure you're safe." Robin said taking her face in his hands making sure she understood every word he said.

Regina saw the truth in his eyes when he spoke those words. It did hurt her so much when she heard him say those things, hearing him basically tell her that it would be impossible to convince him to be with her cuts her deeply. But she is determined to change his mind, make him see senses that they can find a way to make it work.

"Robin, I understand that you want to protect me. What I don't understand is why you think being together would stand in the way of you protecting me. It's not like you will put my life in danger once you date me. I'm tired of not being with you, all those years we spent being apart was a torture and now that you are here, it feels like there is still something between us. Why can't you choose us? Why can't you choose me? Am I not enough for you? Am I that worthless? Tell me Robin. Tell me what I need to do to prove that I deserve you. Just say it, I will do everything for you." Regina begged, by now her tears were streaming down her cheeks and the pleading look on her face made Robin feel like a jerk.

How could he make her feel this way? It was the worst feeling ever, watching the woman he loves beg for his love which she should never do because she have all his love even more he thought he could give.

"You are more than enough. You are worth it Regina. And to be honest, it's me that don't deserve you. I don't think I'm enough for you. So, don't ever think that I don't love you or anything of a sort because I love you so much. You are everything to me. You are my life." Robin said passionately but it didn't seem to convince her.

He saw her look down as she continued to cry. He is a stupid fool for making her suffer, he needs to prove his love to her, he took her face in his hands while she was still looking down and he said the words that will change everything for them.

"I choose you."

A/N: sooo?! I hope this was worth the wait. Sorry to leave you hanging but it's all part of the story. Don't forget to leave a review. I love hearing from you guys! Thanks again for reading! Hope you enjoyed it