A/N: Hey, this chapter may cost a bit of confusion because I kind of wrote
in a hurry...so I'm really really REALLY sorry for that.
I still hope you will like it and reviews are more than welcome! .
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Chapter 3:
It's been almost a year now and I know he's not coming back.
Some days missing him is overwhelming.
Maybe I knew all along, maybe I just didn't want to believe it.
It's been a complete chaos after he left, Luke went crazy and his
mother...she was upset at first but when he didn't return after a week she
just went back to New York and nobody heard from her ever since.
Maybe she didn't care as much as she claimed to.
It doesn't matter anyway, he's gone and he would have left anyway.
I still cling to him but I know I really have to let him go, and I've tried
so many times.
Even though I feel you're still with I find myself alone, time after time.
It took me a really long time but I did it, I moved on, I left my thoughts
for what they were and I shut him out of my system.
I'm still with Dean and I realize that he might be the one I belong to, the
one I've always belonged to.
The thing I've had with Jess it was great and beautiful and I truly believe
that what I felt for him at the time was real, I didn't want to lose him
but I did and maybe things turned out for the better.
He's a part of me though, I gave him everything I had to offer and he took
it.
I don't hate him for it or anything, I've wanted it and I don't regret the
way things worked out.
I'm really happy now, me and Dean are doing great and I've come to the
realization that he's my one and only true love and that he will be the one
I spend the rest of my life with.
He never knew or will know about the time I've had with Jess, I don't see a
point in telling him, Jess is my past and Dean is my future.
In another city:
I don't know what it was I've felted at that time.
Maybe it was love, maybe it was just because she seemed unreachable for me
and I needed to prove that was untrue.
There has been so many times I've wanted to return but I couldn't.
Afraid to finally know what my feelings for her should be called.
One time missing her was unbearable and I called her, she wasn't there and
so I hung up the phone.
What I felt for her I don't think you can give it a name, it wasn't love
but what I felt at that time, it was something.
I guess after all these months it's time to finally face the consequences.
It's time to face Luke, my mom and maybe even Rory.
Back in Stars Hollow:
From the moment I met him I knew he would be trouble, I knew he would gonna
annoy me.
But I don't care he's gone now and Rory and I, we can live happily ever
after.
Rory, my perfect girlfriend Rory, I know they had some kind of attraction
going on, he liked her everybody could tell.
Thank God she didn't like him.
There has been a time I thought something was going on between them.
They acted so weird around each other.
---*Flashback*---
"Rory just be honest with me!, are you involved in ANY kind of way with
Jess that is more than "just" friends!"
"I can't believe you would even consider that! I mean...maybe...NO! off
course not! I'm not having some kind of secret relationship with Jess"
There she said it! Still I'm not convinced I mean she said 'maybe'
What does maybe mean? I have to find out...maybe if I'll go and talk to
Jess.
"Jess!"
"What do you want!"
"I wanna talk to you"
"I'm sorry but I'm not attracted to you"
"No but you are to my girlfriend aren't you?"
"Who gave you that impression"
"Just tell me: are you or aren't you having a relationship with her that
goes beyond friendship?"
"Wow!"
"What do you mean; Wow"
"Amazing that you don't even trust your own girlfriend and come over here
to talk to me and to have me tell you that there is nothing going on
between me and Rory"
He's right if I don't trust Rory than why the hell would I trust him?
---*End Flashback*---
So that's when I let it rest, if I didn't believe Rory why would I believe
him?
He didn't deny it but I do believe that she was speaking the truth.
Exactly one year, that's the time he is gone.
Why do I even count the days? I don't love him, he doesn't love me, I admit
we had a mutual attraction and maybe I started to feel something for him.
But I don't love him and I never did.
There he is, Dean my beloved boyfriend, the one who stood by my side and
the one I will always be with.
When he approches to me I see another familiar person get out of a bus that
just arrived.
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Feedback: justsomebodycalledme@yahoo.com
in a hurry...so I'm really really REALLY sorry for that.
I still hope you will like it and reviews are more than welcome! .
Feedback: justsomebodycalledme@yahoo.com
________________________________________________________________
Chapter 3:
It's been almost a year now and I know he's not coming back.
Some days missing him is overwhelming.
Maybe I knew all along, maybe I just didn't want to believe it.
It's been a complete chaos after he left, Luke went crazy and his
mother...she was upset at first but when he didn't return after a week she
just went back to New York and nobody heard from her ever since.
Maybe she didn't care as much as she claimed to.
It doesn't matter anyway, he's gone and he would have left anyway.
I still cling to him but I know I really have to let him go, and I've tried
so many times.
Even though I feel you're still with I find myself alone, time after time.
It took me a really long time but I did it, I moved on, I left my thoughts
for what they were and I shut him out of my system.
I'm still with Dean and I realize that he might be the one I belong to, the
one I've always belonged to.
The thing I've had with Jess it was great and beautiful and I truly believe
that what I felt for him at the time was real, I didn't want to lose him
but I did and maybe things turned out for the better.
He's a part of me though, I gave him everything I had to offer and he took
it.
I don't hate him for it or anything, I've wanted it and I don't regret the
way things worked out.
I'm really happy now, me and Dean are doing great and I've come to the
realization that he's my one and only true love and that he will be the one
I spend the rest of my life with.
He never knew or will know about the time I've had with Jess, I don't see a
point in telling him, Jess is my past and Dean is my future.
In another city:
I don't know what it was I've felted at that time.
Maybe it was love, maybe it was just because she seemed unreachable for me
and I needed to prove that was untrue.
There has been so many times I've wanted to return but I couldn't.
Afraid to finally know what my feelings for her should be called.
One time missing her was unbearable and I called her, she wasn't there and
so I hung up the phone.
What I felt for her I don't think you can give it a name, it wasn't love
but what I felt at that time, it was something.
I guess after all these months it's time to finally face the consequences.
It's time to face Luke, my mom and maybe even Rory.
Back in Stars Hollow:
From the moment I met him I knew he would be trouble, I knew he would gonna
annoy me.
But I don't care he's gone now and Rory and I, we can live happily ever
after.
Rory, my perfect girlfriend Rory, I know they had some kind of attraction
going on, he liked her everybody could tell.
Thank God she didn't like him.
There has been a time I thought something was going on between them.
They acted so weird around each other.
---*Flashback*---
"Rory just be honest with me!, are you involved in ANY kind of way with
Jess that is more than "just" friends!"
"I can't believe you would even consider that! I mean...maybe...NO! off
course not! I'm not having some kind of secret relationship with Jess"
There she said it! Still I'm not convinced I mean she said 'maybe'
What does maybe mean? I have to find out...maybe if I'll go and talk to
Jess.
"Jess!"
"What do you want!"
"I wanna talk to you"
"I'm sorry but I'm not attracted to you"
"No but you are to my girlfriend aren't you?"
"Who gave you that impression"
"Just tell me: are you or aren't you having a relationship with her that
goes beyond friendship?"
"Wow!"
"What do you mean; Wow"
"Amazing that you don't even trust your own girlfriend and come over here
to talk to me and to have me tell you that there is nothing going on
between me and Rory"
He's right if I don't trust Rory than why the hell would I trust him?
---*End Flashback*---
So that's when I let it rest, if I didn't believe Rory why would I believe
him?
He didn't deny it but I do believe that she was speaking the truth.
Exactly one year, that's the time he is gone.
Why do I even count the days? I don't love him, he doesn't love me, I admit
we had a mutual attraction and maybe I started to feel something for him.
But I don't love him and I never did.
There he is, Dean my beloved boyfriend, the one who stood by my side and
the one I will always be with.
When he approches to me I see another familiar person get out of a bus that
just arrived.
___________________________________________________________________________
Feedback: justsomebodycalledme@yahoo.com