Author's note:
Sorry for the long wait on this. I've been at a standstill, but now I have a great idea as to were this story is going. Please tell me if you like this chapter.
Chapter 4 – Believing
Unwillingly Mulder freed himself from Scully's embrace. It was only 5, but he couldn't risk getting caught by someone.
"Where you going?" Scully asked from a sleepy state.
"It's morning, Scully. I'm going back to my bed before your mom's awake", he whispered back to her.
As he was about to leave the room, Scully said:
"Mulder?" as if she suddenly remembered something.
"Yeah?" he asked, popping his head back into the room.
"I love you too", she said and smiled at him.
He smiled back. His whole body was tickling. She had heard him, and she felt the same way. This, if possible, made him love her even more. Then he went back to his own room. Or Bill's room. He was glad he hadn't had to sleep in there. Just imagining that Bill had lived in that room made him uncomfortable. He wasn't scared of him. Not like he was scared of fire. But he was always afraid of saying and doing the wrong thing. He was afraid he might break the bed, just by sleeping in it. Maybe it was because Scully didn't have a father. This made her older brother the one, who's accept he needed.
When he had heard Maggie get up and move downstairs, he waited for Scully to do the same thing. He didn't want to be alone with Maggie. He liked her, but it would feel weird and awkward after having slept next to her daughter. As more than friends. He heard Elias make his way from Charlie's old room and to Scully's. It made him feel good inside that he went into her room to say good morning. Like a proud father. He got up and was about to walk in and join them, but the conversation they were having made him stop.
"But do you like him?" Elias asked.
"Of course I like him, he's my best friend", Scully explained.
"Why can't you just marry him and he could be my new dad?" Elias asked.
"It's not that simple, Elias", Scully tried to explain. "Even if I would like to marry him, I don't think Mulder is the type of guy who wants to marry anyone. If you marry someone you're saying they're the most important thing in the world. But Mulder has his job. That's what's important to him. You see, once something bad happened to Mulder, and since then he has been determined to find answers. He needs to know the truth, more than anything, and he can't settle down before."
"Maybe he thinks you're more important! Maybe he loves you!" Elias said.
"I know he loves me, but…" Scully just realized what Mulder had said to her last night. He had said that he loved her. She thought he had meant he was in love with her, but maybe it had meant more than just that alone. Was it a way of telling her his priorities had changed? Those simple three words, which had seemed so simple, now seemed very complicated.
"Let's not talk about this, Elias. You just need to understand, that Mulder and I love each other as friends and if you want him to be your father you can just ask him if he wants to be. We don't need to be married."
"Do you think he'll say yes?" the boy wondered.
"There's only one way to find out", Scully said, but deep down she knew Mulder was already having fatherly feelings towards Elias.
"Good morning", Mulder said as he entered the room. He had heard their conversation.
"Hi!" Elias said and gave him a great big hug. Mulder held him tight, hoping the boy would ask him soon. Hoping he would have the chance of being a dad, but most of all, hoping he wouldn't fail and let the boy down.
"Run down to your grandma, Elvis! I need to talk to Scully!" Mulder smiled at the boy.
"Okay", he said and ran down the stairs.
"You heard our conversation?" Scully asked from her bed where she was sitting.
"Mmh", Mulder confirmed.
"I didn't know what to tell him Mulder! All his questions made me wonder, though."
"About what?" Mulder asked.
"About what you said last night. What you meant. If it was just a declaration of your love, or if it was more than that", she told him not looking at him.
"I do love you, Scully. And I'm madly in love with you. I can't live without you. You come before everything else now. You have done so for many years. I've just never realized it before. I've found the truth I was looking for. It was not what I had hoped. My sister is dead. I know there are still a lot I haven't solved… that we haven't solved about some things, and I know it might seem as if I put them before you, but I don't", he promised taking her hand as he spoke.
"Are you sure, Mulder?" she asked as she couldn't help wondering. She had been use to being second to his truth for so long. "Because as much as I appreciate it, I appreciate you telling me the truth even more."
"You are my number one, Scully. My touchstone, my constant. When everything else never is what it seems, I have you. You're always there for me. Now, I wanna do the same for you. I'll put you first as you have me", he said and looked into her eyes with his beautiful green ones.
She pulled him into a hug, as her eyes filled with tears. Tears of joy.
"I believe you", she told him.
When the weekend was over Mulder and Scully started working again and Elias began kindergarten again. Mulder came to pick them up in the morning; they drove Elias to kindergarten, drove to work so they were there around 8.30, worked all day, and then picked Elias up from kindergarten again 5 o'clock. At work they kept their distance to each other. It was hard sitting in the basement all day all alone, not able to be nearer the one you loved when they were sitting right in front of you. Especially since they hadn't really had anything to do in a long time at work. They had finished the Millennium-case, but after that there hadn't even been casted a paranormal shadow into their office. They helped some of the other agents. Mulder with some profiling and Scully with her medical and scientific view and opinion.
Most of all they just looked forward to the time the working day ended and they could get home. Home to Elias. He was the most amazing kid ever. He only ever argued about his bed times. He never wanted to go to bed. He wanted to be up with Mulder and Scully. But eventually they would get him tucked in, and then had some much needed alone time. It was harder being a parent that Scully had imagined. Even with an amazing kid like Elias. Just the worry that came with the job. She knew Mulder and Elias had a father-son relationship, but Elias hadn't officially asked Mulder yet. He had told her he wanted to though.
Mulder and Scully hadn't done much else than a whole lot of kissing the past month. They spent every day together. Even the weekends when they went to Maggie's for dinner. But when it started to get late Scully would tell him to leave. Whenever things between them got passionate she told him it was late. It was pure torture for him and Scully was enjoying torturing him. February 5'th was a regular Tuesday night. They had got Elias to go to sleep finally and were watching some Stephen King movie. They sat in the middle of the couch. Mulder had an arm around Scully and she rested her head in the crook of his arm with her feet tucked up under her.
"This is a weird movie, Mulder!" Scully stated midway through the movie.
"It really is", he agreed. "I like it", he then said and made Scully laugh.
"Of course you do, weirdo", she grinned.
"I'm not a weirdo", he said in a protective voice.
"You're the definition of a weirdo, Mulder! If you look the word up in a dictionary, a photo of you will be there", she teased him.
"Oh really? You know where in that dictionary your photo would be", he said sounding flirtatious.
She took her eyes off the screen and looked directly into his eyes. "Where?" she asked with a cute smile on her face.
"Hobbit", he said and began to laugh.
"Hey!" she exclaimed and hit him on his chest. "I'm not that short, Mulder, you're just that tall. And I don't have big hairy feet!" she protested.
"I bet you do. As soon as those stockings come off, you're feet swell and take their real form", he said and laughed even harder.
"They do not!" she said. "Try it!" she told him.
"What?" he asked suddenly not laughing anymore.
"Take my stockings off", she said and gave him her most sexy look.
She sat sideways in the couch and placed her right foot in his lap. Mulder was very quiet.
"What's the matter, Mulder? Cat got your tongue?" she said in a low but audible tone.
"No" he managed to let out. He rearranged himself in the couch so he was facing her. Then he looked her in the eyes while he slowly ran his hand up her leg over her knee and up her thigh. She could feel it tickle and burn where his hand ran. He got to the top of her hold-ups and pulled it down her leg in a slow sexual way.
"Told you!" she whispered as he had got it off. "Wanna check the other one too?" she asked raising her eyebrows in a manner that almost made him moan. Not trusting himself to open his mouth he just nodded and did the same thing to her other stocking.
Then he ran his hand back up her now naked leg. Her skin was soft. Then he rested her hand on top of her thigh and his lips connected with hers. They moaned into each other's mouths. Her hands found their way to his shirt and slowly began to undo the buttons from the top. Realizing what she was doing he cut the kiss off.
"It's getting late, Scully. Sure, it's not time for me to go?" he asked her smiling.
"Forget it, Mulder. I'm not letting you go tonight!" she said as she continued working on his shirt.
He kissed her on the mouth and then moved down to her jar and her neck. He found a spot that made her shoot her head backwards to gain him better access. He kept on kissing her there and sucking on that exact spot. Even though they were almost fully dressed Mulder had never been this close to someone. Neither had Scully. They kept kissing like this and roaming each other's bodies with their curious hands.
"Let's take this somewhere else, Scully", Mulder finally said, not being able to keep all of him in his pants anymore.
"You're in charge", she whispered softly in his ear.
He lifted her up by her thighs and hardly broke their kiss in the way to the bed room. He lied her down on the bed gently but hastily. Then he walked over to lock the door. Just in case Elias had a bad dream and decided to walk in or something. He walked back to the bed and placed himself between her thighs. Soon clothes were thrown to the floor and their breaths began to speed up. They made love that night for the first time. They said appreciative words to each other, held eye contact the whole time and finally cried out the other's name as they reached their climax together.
"Scully!" he panted afterwards. "We should have done that years ago."
"Then it wouldn't have been the same, Mulder. This was perfect. I'll never wanna change that", she said short of breath.
"Yeah…" he agreed. "And now I know what definition you're under in that dictionary!"
"You do?" she asked.
"Sexgoddess!" he said and looked her in the eyes.
"That's sweet", she told him and cupped his cheek.
"You did like it too, right?" he asked her suddenly afraid he might have heard her or just not been enough for her.
"Oh yeah, Mulder. The best ever!" she told him and kissed him on the mouth.
"Really?" he asked feeling proud.
"Mhm", she said as she made herself comfortable resting her arm and head on his chest.
Not soon after they fell asleep. Feeling her against him still naked almost made him think of maybe getting a 2'nd, but before he could even take the initiative he had fallen asleep. Truly worn out for the first time in his life.
"Scully? Scully! SCULLY?!" was what they woke up to the next morning. Mulder looked at Scully's alarm clock. It read 6.08. Elias was awake and wondered why his mom had locked her door.
"It's okay, Elias. I'll be right out", she told him and got up and pulled her panties from the night before on, and then pulled an oversize t-shirt over her head.
"Don't get dressed that fast, Scully, I was enjoying the view", Mulder smiled at her from the bed.
"Maybe I'll flash for you later", she smiled back at him.
"That would make work a lot more interesting", he said and raised his eyebrows.
"Get up, Mulder. You need to get dressed and ready to go", she told him.
"Is Marvin here?" they heard Elias ask excited through the door.
"Yes he is", Scully answered him.
Now Mulder got up from the bed and put on his shirt and dress pants.
"What should we tell him, Scully?" Mulder asked her as they were about to leave the bed room.
"I think we should tell him something. I just don't know what", she said.
"We'll figure something out, okay?" he asked her.
"Yeah, okay", she said and they went out the door where Elias was waiting.
"Good morning!" Mulder said and squatted so Elias could run into his arms.
"Hi", he said and hugged onto Mulder. "You had a sleep over?" he asked innocent.
"Yeah… we did. Actually there's something your mom and I would like to talk to you about", Mulder told him.
Then he rose from the floor, still holding Elias, and walked into the kitchen where he seated him by the table.
"You know how Mulder and I are friends, right, Elias?" Scully asked.
"Yup. You're best friends", he said. He seemed a bit worried about what they had to say. Had he done something wrong?
"Lately we've been… falling in love with each other", Mulder said honest.
"Are you gonna get married?" Elias asked now suddenly in high spirits.
"No!" Scully answered fast.
"But now Scully's my girlfriend", Mulder giggled and wiggled an eyebrow while he put an arm around her waist.
"Eww... You're not gonna kiss all the time, are you? 'Cause that's disgusting", he exclaimed and made a face as if he was sick.
This made Mulder and Scully laugh. "Actually, that does mean we're gonna kiss a lot more", he told Elias and smiled down at Scully and give her a quick peck on the mouth.
"Gross!" Elias exclaimed.
"Alright, Elias! So what do you want for breakfast this morning? Yogurt or cereal?" Scully asked.
"Cereal", he said and looked at her with a cute little smile. His eyes sparkled with a new glimpse. And Scully knew he was happy that his new mom and dad had finally told him the truth he already knew.
"I'm gonna take a shower. You should get something to eat as well, Mulder", Scully told them as she moved towards the bathroom.
Mulder looked after her as she left the room. Lost in another dimension. Elias looked at him weird not getting this weird grown-up behavior.
"Do you think Scully is pretty?" Elias asked.
Mulder came out of his little blackout, and focused on the boy. "Yeah, of course I do. Why?"
"Is that why you fell in love with her?" he asked, another one of his great questions, making Mulder's mind wonder.
"No. I fell in love with her because she's… Scully. One of a kind. She is smart. She raises her eyebrows at me, when she thinks I'm a complete weirdo, and she is the best friend I've ever had."
"Do you like kissing?" he then asked.
"Yeah. I like kissing Scully, that's for sure", he told the boy while he took another spoonful of cereal.
"Does Scully like it too?" he wondered through a mouthful of not chewed food.
"Don't talk with your mouth full of food", Mulder laughed at him. "And yes, Scully likes it very much."
"How do you know?" he kept going.
"She told me", Mulder answered.
Elias said deep in thought as he ate the rest of his breakfast. Mulder ate a bowl of cereal himself. When the boys were about to have a second bowl, Scully walked into the room again. Her hair was wet and she was only wearing a towel. If Elias hadn't been in the room, Mulder would have probably done something about that 2'nd he had wanted last night.
"Time is running. You better eat fast if you're going to have a shower too, Mulder", Scully told him while Mulder tried to keep his eyes off of her legs, which was showing with the little towel.
"I'm gonna shower at the office. I got an extra pair of clothes there too", he told her.
"Oh, okay", she said and took out some stuff from the fridge in order to make Elias' lunch.
"Why are you staring?" Elias asked not getting the sudden interest in his mom.
This caught Scully's attention, and she saw Mulder's gaze fly up from her legs to her eyes. Then he started to slightly blush. She had never seen him blush before. He looked cute, she thought.
"Mulder thinks I'm pretty to look at", Scully told Elias.
"You told me not to look at girls without much clothes on. Then why is it okay when he does it?" Elias asked, referring to an episode in the mal where some young girls ran around in practical nothing even though it was January. Scully had told him it wasn't proper to look at girls when they didn't have clothing on, when Elias' eyes had followed one of the young girls, which boob was about to fall right out of her t-shirt.
"She's my girlfriend. That also means I get to look at her whenever I want", Mulder tried to explain.
"Even when she hasn't got any clothes on?" Elias asked now very interested.
"Yep", Mulder answered, and even though Scully knew where this was leading she couldn't stop Elias from asking his next question.
"Have you seen each other naked?" he asked and nearly jumped up from his chair in astonishment.
"Well… ehm… no-yes, I mean, we…" Mulder started to talk nonsense.
"That's nothing you should be concerned with yet, young man", Scully told him. "Go get out of your pajamas, Elias. I've put some clothes out for you on your bed", she told him.
"Thanks", Mulder mouthed at her as she saved him.
"It's another dead end. This is not an x-file. We haven't had one single x-file since last year", Mulder complained in their small office.
"It's only February, Mulder. It's been a month, relax!" she told him from across the desk while she read over the file, not finding anything that couldn't be explained.
"At least I have you to look at, while I wait for something to do", he smiled at her.
"Mulder!" she exclaimed. "That's inappropriate. We're at work", she reminded him.
"But we got nothing to do right now. Maybe we could…" before he had a chance to finish that sentence AD Skinner walked through their door.
"Agents", he greeted them. "Am I interrupting anything?" he asked them out of pure well-manners.
"No, sir", Mulder replied as both him and Scully stood up from each side of the desk. "What do we owe the honor?"
"I've gotten hold of some information that could have a deep impact on your lives."
I know this is a bad way to end a chapter. But hope the cliffhanger will give ya'll something to think about. Reviews?