So here Chap. 4 This is the hardest I've worked on a fic before.

Kai: Not that you wrote a lot of fics in the first place…

Dei: ………..tch..

Tala: Here's the disclaimer…She doesn't own Beyblade whatsoever.

Chapter 4

(Destructive and If you seek amy?)

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Normal P.O.V

Kai sat on the couch with his clothes on and his arms crossed. He successfully got his cloths back but of course he wasn't going to get them without a fight. He got the best of that fight.

Tala sat beside him staring at the bruise that started to form on his arm. He started glaring at Kai on the side and Kai happens to catch it. He rolled his eyes and stared out the window. By this time Bryan happens to walk back in the room.

"Stop sulking Tala. I don't think that's the only bruise that's going to form."

"It would be the only bruise if Kai just answer my questions!"

"I don't have to answer your questions and I don't plain on it…", Kai stud and walk towards the front door.

"Where are you going?" Tala asked getting off the couch.

"I'm going back home."

Kai opened the door and just as he was about to walk out Tala grabbed his wrist. Kai turned his head to took up at him. His eyes got slightly wider as he stared in Tala's eyes. They had so much worry and questions in them. Kai knew that Tala was serious about the questions but he didn't want to answer them. Not now anyway. Kai dropped his glance and twisted his wrist away from Tala.

Kai left without so much as a goodbye leaving Tala standing in the open door and Bryan sitting on the couch with his eyes closed in thought.

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Kai's P.O.V

I walked slowly down the side walk staring in the rain-damp street. People were passing by like nothing was going on. Happy go-lucky. It pisses me off but they don't know what's going on with me. They have there own lives to deal with but I can't smile and they can.

I stopped short of walking and looked down the street. I caught site of my so called 'job'. As soon as I started to walk toward it again Tala's face crept in my mind. I lingered with the vision for a while then groaned. I don't think I'll ever look at that place the same again. I pulled out the folds of money in my pocket. I fanned through the money in deep thought. Tala's confused and slightly upset face lit up in a smile in my mind.

With a quick movement I threw the money on the wet side walk and walked past my job.

Soon I reached my apartment and unlocked it to go in. I closed the door and glanced around. Everything the same as I left it. I climbed in the shower and put on some comfortable cloths. I sat on the couch in front of the T.V and flipped it on. I went through several channels until I felt the lack of sleep come down on me. Just as it did I grabbed for my cell phone I left on the coffee table. I went through several contacts till I found the one I was looking for. I pressed send and waited for it to ring. It rung about 4 times before a girls voice sounded through the phone.

"Hello? How may I help you?"

I hesitated for a minute listening to my own breath threw the phone.

"Hellloooo?" she asked again. I took a deep breath and spoke.

"D-………Destructive?"

I hated called these people out of there names. It annoys the shit out of me. Destructive was the only person I knew a bit better then anyone else. She was the only one that knew how to listen.

"Phoenix baby! Why aren't you here??? Your late!"

And they refused to call me by my name.

"I won't be able to make it……."

"Aw! How come, hon? Are you sick?"

"No…..I just won't make it in time……", I spoke. 'Possibly never again'.

"Oh okay. Well I guess I understand I won't force the truth out of ya. You gave us quite a scare the other day when you just walked out on us. Are you sure there isn't anything wrong?"

"Yeah….."

"Well okay then. I'll tell boss ya couldn't make it. Later, hon."

The line went dead and I sighed, closing my phone and laying it back on the table. That's the first time I called in and said I couldn't make it. Before today I'd make it all the time. 'Where is your dignity?'.

Great now my own mind has turned against me. I stretched out on the couch staring at the T.V. I wasn't really paying attention to it let alone the people talking and whatever. I closed my eyes and laid on my stomach.

Why couldn't I face Tala today? I couldn't even look Bryan in the face. I don't know why I didn't just tell Tala what he wanted to know. Even if it was a pathetic attempt to protect the last drop of pride I had. I'm sure that's gone. Ever since Boris laid a hand on me.

My mind slipped back to when we were back at the abbey. I shuddered harshly as my mind slipped into the familiar darkness called sleep.

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Normal P.O.V

Tala ran down the wet side walk almost slipping when he skidded to a stop. He cursed in Russian in is breath and stared up at the apartment.

"Okay were here!" said the lady that was running with him. She finally caught up with him.

"Thanks…um….what's your name again?"

"Destructive."

"Uh yeah….thanks."

Destructive smiled and gave him her card.

"Tell me if phoenix is okay. He didn't come to work today."

"Right" Tala took the card and stuck it in his pocket. He watched her walk off.

'There serious about those names….' he thought. He turned and knocked softly on the apartment door. He waited for a while and got no answer. He knocked again slightly loader then the first time and still got nothing. Getting annoyed and turned the knob half expecting it not to open but it did. He stared dumbfounded at the door for a minute and continued to push it open wider. The warm air hit him as he opened it and immediately wanted to stay outside. He liked the cold better but pressed forward anyway.

He heard soft sounds from a T.V a little ways down the hallway. He continued walked despite the fact that he was tracking watery mud on the floor. He reached the carpet and kept walking. He peered at the T.V for a second until he heard a rumble. He looked down at the table in front of him and saw a black and silver phone light up then go dull after a few minutes. After a few seconds of hearing it he head a soft groan from beside him. He Turned swiftly and saw Kai shifting on the couch. 'Oh shit' he thought and dropped on the floor beside the couch. With it being dull in the room and him being half asleep Kai didn't notice the sudden plop he heard by the couch. He reached for his phone and looked at the outside screen. He had 1 new message and Destructive was under it. He sighed.

'Annoying……..'

He ploped back down and lifted the pillow over his head. After a few seconds Tala slowly peered above the couch and saw the pillow covering Kai's face. He started to get up and Kai's mahogany eyes lifted up from the pillow. Tala stopped and stared at Kai. Kai was still out of it but slowly lifted his head back up and seen familiar colors. Red, brilliant blue. He looked lower and seen white and orange. He blinked several times again and cleared his vision.

He froze. He was pale for a moment but his color slowly started to come back.

"T-……….Tala!"

"Kai……………"

"What the fuck are you doing here!?!??"

Tala straightened up.

"Well…….to look for you……"

Kai sat up on the couch and blinked several more time. He glared at him.

"How did you know I was here?"

"Well….I asked around…."

Kai shook his head. He should have known he wouldn't have a moment of peace to himself.

"Do you know a woman named Destructive?"

Kai froze again staring in Tala's face. Out of all the places to ask for him. His eyes narrowed and he looked toward the front door. His frown got deeper.

"Tala…..you tracked mud."

Tala looked behind him then to where he stud. He grinned stupidly and took off his shoes and threw it in the hallway. He sat down by Kai who was sat at the very end of the couch.

"What do you want?" Kai said bluntly.

Tala looked over at him and decided to be serious at the moment. It was the only way he could get something out of him this time. Or so he thought.

"Kai…….talk to me….please?"

Kai's face turned to look at him. He was surprised at the sudden change in Tala's voice. He peeled his eyes away to stare at the floor.

"Kai….I thought I lost you…….It's been so long and you know it. Were back and now you won't even look at me like you used to."

Kai stayed silent.

"We've been through the same things up till now Kai. I've been through the abbey with you. I've been through Boris with you. Even if its not as much as you, we experienced the same thing."

Kai did not wanted to be reminded of the abbey again. Another shudder went down him. Tala went silent waiting for Kai. Kai knew he wanted him to talk now. He took a deep breath.

"After I left Boris, grandfather was giving me money…I had a choice to stay with him or not so I left. I still get the money. As soon as I left and was on my own I let my mind and common since slip from me. Every night after that I kept getting the nightmares of the abbey and of that on face that invaded me whenever he got the damn chance. I'd wake up in the middle of the night and wouldn't go back to sleep. That's when I met 'her' and then 'her boss'. They told me everything would be okay. Maybe. If I went to join them I thought I could boost up whatever I was missing. That's when 'her boss' told me I'd get more of the job then I'd bargained for. I'd be with him. I'd be 'performing'. At first I was confused but then I obliged. The first time I did go out like that I wanted to quite. Something was telling me to stop but I couldn't. Cause I was threatened with the 'boss'. Looks were so deceiving. My mind slipped right back into Boris and I coward. I submitted into what he wanted and soon it became days, weeks, mouths, years…….." by this time Kai's eyes were glossy. He refused to let the tears go. "I couldn't even feel her anymore…." he pulled out the blade from his pocket. "Along with her slowly but surely went the pride and the dignity…….." Kai let all the words flow like water from a faucet. He feel silent and stared at the floor. He opened his mouth to say one last thing until he felt arms wrap around his chest. His head was vision was blocked out by the chest of another. He tried hard to keep in the sobs and anger he had for himself. His since of smell was smothered by the sweet smell of Tala. He didn't have to say it but it was as if the words came to him itself.

'It's gonna be alright…..'

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Tala's P.O.V

"Tala that's annoying" sounded the voice of Kai who was laying by me.

I was playing with the pony tail in Kai's hair while he was trying to sleep on the couch. To tell the truth I was just deeply bored. Bad things happen when I'm deeply bored.

"Well you won't play with me…….."

"You sound like a kid. What am I suppose to do with you? Play jacks?"

"Well fuck, if that's how you feel about me…"

"Tala, what do you want?"

Well what I had in mind I dought Kai would be up to after having been threatened and dancing and all. I stayed quite for a moment.

"Tala….," Kai turned around to face him.

I grinned and got off the couch.

"I'm gonna stay here with you," I said.

"Hell no. Go home," came Kai's harsh reply.

I pretended to look as if I was hurt.

"Aw Kai. How mean……"

"Whatever."

Tala grabbed Kai's foot and dragged him off the couch. With a yelp Kai feel to the floor.

"What was that for?"

"For being so mean."

"I asked you what did you want!"

"I want you to if you seek amy."

"What?"

"If you seek amy."

"……"

Kai stared at Tala for a long moment. He got off the floor to stand.

"Tala, your not making any since."

"I'm making perfect since you just don't understand it."

"Then enlighten me a little."

"Nope. Your gonna have to figure that one of for your self…"

"You're the most complex minded person I have ever met."

"Yes dear Kai…I know…."

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Dei: If you don't know what If you seek amy means. Try saying it a few times to yourself slowly to figure it out. And if you do know what it means awesome!

You can look it up too I'm pretty sure you'll figure it out. ^^

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