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I tried really hard not to think about it. I made my self believe it will be anything but not this. I am such a fool to think like that. All of this was his plan to get me used to things and people around me. Even his punishment of writing was for this. He is putting me in school to complete my senior year that's why he told Emmett to teach me so I can get in one of the top school in Florida.
When Emmett comes in evening with books in his hands I lost my control over my feelings. I was angry and frustrated and confused and sad. I run to bathroom and locked my self in. soon the mirrors, cosmetics and his beautiful glass decorated bathroom turned into mess. I can hear sue and Emmett right behind the door telling me to open it. I didn't. I want to break whole world down and my wishes come true when his voice came through the door.
"Open the door Bella." His voice is clam and controlled like he is holding all his emotion inside.
I just stared at door like he will come through it. May be he will.
"Bella, if you didn't open this door now, I will break it and you wont like the consequences then."
His threat worked, because even after all the freedom he has given me, my training is still inside me.
As soon as I open the door his loud sigh is expressing his relief but I don't have courage to look at his face.
"Are you done?" No I am not I can still feel anger but I know I will never be able to alter those words. "Go sit on couch" his words are harsh as his tone
I followed his order without pause. I can see Emmett is still in room.
Sue approached me with wide arms to give me hug. "Oh sweetheart, its ok don't.."
"Don't" He stopped Sue before she can hug me. "No one will talk to her till I know what happen. Please get the first aid kit and clean her hands. Everyone else please leave the room. Emmett I will talk to you in few minutes. I am really sorry about all this man."
"Hey its ok bro. I will wait outside. Can I apologies to her?"
"No you didn't do anything wrong. I will let you know what upset her but don't think like that."
My rage and adrenaline left with everyone in the room. I started shaking as Edward come close to me. I shrunk back in couch as he took seat in front of me. His hand approaches me and I flinch expecting a blow. I know he never hit me but my instincts are telling me I crossed the line this time.
"Have I ever hurt you?" I just shake my head I don't have strength to form words. This time he took my chin his hand tightly and turned my head to one side and then other.
"Look at me." I couldn't, not without breaking in tears. I am trying my best to keep them in. I know my tears will only make things worse.
"NOW" his loud order hit my body hard and like a switch my eyes followed his order. My hands turned into fist and I bit hard inside my cheek to stop my tears.
"Don't you dare cry, I am not going to tolerate this behavior no matter what your reasons are, and crying won't get you off the hook."
I closed my eyes and concentrated on my breathing wishing to find anyway to avoid my tears from spilling. But as soon as I heard Sue's voice I couldn't control them. My eyes met Sue's begging to take pity on me.
"Get out Sue."
"Sir please let me stay with her."
"No. She doesn't deserve your time Sue." I sobbed loudly at his words.
"At least let me clean her wounds."
"No I will do it. Leave the room." He took the first aid box from Sue and put it on table.
"Give me your hands." He barked order at me. I look up at Sue, she is my only hope, if she leaves room I will be in hell. "Pleasee…." Word trembled out of my mouth.
"Sir I am requesting…"
"Sit down" He said to Sue then he turned my head toward him.
"Hands. On. The. Table., I wont tell you again." I can hear the threat behind his words. I put my hands in front of him while Sue rubs my back. I dint even flinch as he started taking pieces of glass off my hands and dressing them.
"Give her some tissues and water Sue." My tears are slowed and stopped as I drink the water.
When he is done with my hands he took hold of my chin again and turned my head to tend my right cheek. He closed his eyes and then asked in his soothing voice.
"Tell me. What happened? What have you so upset?" I know he is trying hard to control his anger but I know my words will only break his control over his feelings.
His finger tip touched my cheek where glass cut in my skin.
"It will leave a scare. What is so bloody important that you don't even care about your self?" He yelled
I turned to Sue and she took me in her arms. I wish Esme was here she can save me from him.
"Sweetheart you have to tell us what happened?" Sue said and pulled me from her embrace.
"I …I don't want to go to school" I whispered softly to Sue but my words got reaction from Ma…Edward.
"Are you fucking kidding me?"
I turned to him for first time, I wanted him to understand my fears "Pleasee.." but my begging only got his tone softer.
"Bella you are women not a child in nursery who is scared of going to school."
"I don't want to..pleasee."
"Why? Tell me why?"
"I don't want…"
"STOP fucking repeating your self" With his yelling my anger comes back but for once I am grateful it's in from of tears.
"Bella sweetie there has to have a reason love." Sue tried to reason with me again.
"No it doesn't matter anymore. You will go to school even if I have to drag you to the class."
His words turned my anger into rage again and before I can think my mouth decided my fate for me.
"NO I won't."
"What was that?"
"I won't. No matter what you do. I won't go to school."
"What has gotten into you tonight, how can you even think you can defy me?"
"Defy you. You liar. You lied to me from beginning, your punishment of writing is for school, you took me out side so I get used to be around people so that you can put me in school. I hate you. You said I will have my choices and when it comes to chose you decide it for me. Why don't you just accept you are my master?"
"I told you I will decide for you till you get independent. All the choices I am making are to make you happy."
"Why don't you let me decide what makes me happy."
"Living whole your life without freedom will make you happy?"
"Having your cock inside me will make me happy; becoming your whore will make me happy."
Sue gasped loudly at my words. Ma ..Edward is in shock just like me. Whole room turned silent my rapid breathing sounded louder.
"Sue leaves the room" His voice is lowest whisper.
I am shocked to see Sue following his order without a word this time and I know deep down by hurting him, I hurt Sue too. I took her hand and put it on my head.
"Please Sue don't go I am sorry.." But she pulled her hand from me and left the room without a word.
Mas..Edward took a tap from bedside table and come to me.
"Get up and turn around." His voice is distant and cold just like the look on his face. When I followed his order he took my wrists and bound them behind my back with tap. I lost all my anger and rage in that moment.
"I am sorry please.."
"I suggest you keep your mouth shut."
He led me to the wall and orders me to stay on my toe then he bend my upper body in horizontal position so my nose is touching the wall.
"Now if you lose this position without my permission I will throw you out of the house right that second and then you can decide all you want for your self."
He left me to sit on couch and started reading school broachers. With in few seconds my back and toes started aching but soon aching turned into agonizing pain. I started to whimper and finally crying.
"Please I am sorry I promise I won't do it again."
He put the broacher down like he is just waiting for this moment.
"You just have to tell me what are you sorry for and I will end this punishment but only for right answer."
"I called you names I said bad things for you I hurt you I am sorry"
"No. I don't care what you called me. Try again" and he took broachers in his hands again.
