AN: I'm sorry, I got slightly distracted by the fact that Stana won the PCA award she so much deserved and I basically spent a whole day fangirling over that... But here's the chapter! Once again this story wasn't written by me, it was written by ButtonUpKitten! I would also like to say that if you want to ask when I will update you can ask me on twitter I'm ItsKBex :)
Surprisingly Kate's lips caught mine.
My brain takes a few seconds to react, but when it does, my body attacks hers, grabbing her waist, pressing her against the refrigerator.
Her mouth tastes like vanilla, or maybe it's my mouth, I don't know. All I know is that in the moment when my tongue searching for hers, Kate moans and I tremble, because kissing her is the most exquisite thing I've ever done. Because to feel her body next to mine is maddening, because playing with her tongue makes an erection press my pants, making me squeeze her body against mine even more.
Her hands clinging to my shirt and I in a rush, approach my hips to hers, because all that desire that suddenly Kate awakens in me wants to leave, wants to see the light, wants to to have her.
However in the very back of my mind I know this isn't right, that it shouldn't be happening. But how to stop when this girl... no, when this woman kissed me like that? When her moans, her breathing, and how her body is molded to mine makes me mad.
When her smell makes me moan.
My God, a kiss had never made me moan like this.
If I could describe it with serious words it would be like when you're testing a dish that clouds your senses, makes you go crazy for its flavor, and although you feel full, even if you feel guilty about eating more, you just can't stop.
Her small hands were tangled in my hair and my guard ends up crumbling.
-Oh, Kate ... you taste so good ... - I say while devouring her lips.-holy God. I wish ... -I whisper kissing her jaw, biting.
My desire for Kate Beckett has increased now that her kisses are simply maddening.
-Castle, I ... -her voice weak.
- Do you want me to stop? -. I ask kissing her cheek, down to her neck.
My hands caress her hips below the jersey. I can feel her skin burning and I burn with desire.
-No ... Yes.-But her hands are still clutching my shirt, crumpling it.
I stand still and feel her breath on my ear.
I can hear my heartbeat in my ears, throbbing steadily, beating for her.
I turn away and look into her eyes, I can see confusion, emotion and excitement in them.
I push my hands from her body and place them on each side of her head.
And all the burden of guilt falls on me like a bucket of cold water. I should not be doing this, I should not be taking advantage of Kate, though I try to convince me otherwise she is still a girl.
-I'm sorry -. I whisper looking at her lips, tempted to kiss her again.
-I was the one who kissed you ...- She also watches my lips and once again I approach my face close to hers, unable to help it.
-But I kissed you, Kate ... oh god ...-I return to kiss her hard and she moans again.
- Daddy?.
Alexis's voice makes me stop me and step aside from Kate, I look out and see that Alexis is at the top of the stairs, luckily, thanks to the place where we were she did not see anything.
-Pumpkin, hi, what are you doing up?.- I say trying to control my voice and my breathing.
-You didn't come to give me my goodnight kiss.
Yes I did but you were asleep ... - I halfway smile -. Come on go to your room and I'll soon be there.
She nods and turns around. I also I turn around and notice that Kate is opening the door to leave.
-Kate wait.
-It is late, Castle. -She said with the helmet and her bag on her shoulder and just goes.
I run to the door and I look out seeing as the elevator rises.
-Kate ...-I see as the elevator doors close and I curse.
Now she was gone and there was no way that I'd reach through the stairs.
I'm so stunned that I have no idea how I managed to get home. Luckily everyone is asleep and I have the chance to go and lock myself in my room.
My heart still beats fast and I feel so many emotions mixed that I don't know if I should laugh or cry. My body still burns and I can still feel Castle's lips on mine, his tongue inside my mouth, urging me, exciting me, almost making me moan almost without touching me.
It had been more than I could have ever fantasized about. It had been the most erotic experience of my life. And it had only been a fucking kiss!. It is not as if I had never kissed a boy ... but Castle was not a boy, he was a man who knew exactly how to kiss to drive me crazy.
I sit on the bed and inevitably a smile forms on my face, never, in my life, I thought this could happen, by God, Castle had always seen me as the daughter of his friend ... and yet ... that just happened and ... I had run like a fool.
Actually didn't know why I did it, Castle would certainly be thinking I was a silly girl. I drop my back on the bed while watching the ceiling and I start laughing again.
This is crazy.
The way that Castle had kissed me, and whispered all those things ... I bite my lip still smiling, was so exciting that I still feel wet.
My hands caress my belly and stroked my crotch over trousers. I am absolutely and completely aroused.
However, I'd seen some guilt in his eyes, as if he thought it was wrong, as though this could never work. And it may not work, but the fact that the kiss occurred, makes me feel like I was floating.
I close my eyes then leaving me overcome by the sensations and fatigue, without realizing it, I fall asleep.
I open my eyes when I hear a noise and see Lola picking clothes that are lying on the floor of my room. I hear her say something about the little time I have been at home and the mess that I have made.
I blink a few times and see Lola leave. I close my eyes again and then the memories of the night before hit me making my heart beat faster also making me open my eyes. I look at my phone to see what time it is and then I see I have a missed call from Castle.
I bite my lip.
He must have called me when I fell asleep. Oh man, I sit on the bed and put my face in my hands. Last night I was so happy about what had happened that I hadn't thought this whole situation would be so weird.
What was I supposed to tell you the next time we saw each other?, he probably called me to apologize and say that it had been a mistake and that he doesn't see me the same way I see him.
I groan frustrated, I never should have kissed him.
After taking a shower and putting on jeans and a black shirt with my white converse I go downstairs expecting to find Lola and the delicious breakfasts she prepared usually.
But instead, I find my mother, chatting, very entertained with none other than Richard Castle, on the kitchen table.
Shit.
I turn to leave but my mother already knows I'm there:
-Kate -. I hear my mother say and my stomach shrinks.
I try to put on my best face and turn looking at them with a smile.
-Hello, good morning.-I say approaching.
I notice Castle's gaze fixed on me and I want to run again. But instead this time I look in his eyes and I don't find regret, he smiles at me with them.
How handsome he is! Oh my! That morning he is dressed with a blue shirt and jeans.
His hair is a little tousled and the memory of my fingers sliding in those deep locks makes me swallow.
-You are still kinda asleep huh?- My mother tells me, and I kept watching Castle. -I thought you wanted to go shopping with the girls today -. She brings the coffee cup to her lips and takes curious looks look at me.
-Umm, yes, we'll still go -. distractedly I say.
- Aren't you gonna say hello to Castle?.
-Hi, Castle-I say looking at him.
-Good morning -. He said with half a smile. With that thick, erotic voice, the same voice that said how good I tasted last night- Glad you arrived home safe, last night.
-Which by the way, you got here quite late, what were you doing? - Castle and I looked for a few seconds and then he says:
-It was my fault, while it rained I kept her entertained.
-Castle thinks I can't handle a little water. -I said after thanking his intervention, because the only thing that came to mind after that question was the kiss, that damn kiss.
-Well, I think it's good that he did. I'm sure you do not want to spend the rest of the summer with the flu - My mom says smiling while stroking my hair
-No.-I say with half a smile trying not to look too much at Castle.
Out of all situations I could imagine to have to then face him after last night this was the worst. Because my mother realized everything, and I'm sure she'll able to sense if something happens between Castle and me.
- Are you hungry?.
I don't answer, but I move just to get away from the gaze of Castle and I help myself a few french toast.
dad?-I say as I also serve my coffee with a little milk, as always.
-He went out, but he said he'd be back in twenty minutes.
And his twenty minutes are never twenty minutes -. Castle says, my mother and him smile at that.
I bite of the french toast I just spread with jelly.
-I would love him to stop working least just a second in the day.
-Well You know how he is, he loves what he does. Says my mother still smiling.
Her phone rings and she apologizes leaving me all alone with Castle that won't stop looking at me that way that makes me crazy.
-Stop looking at me that way-I say as I put the toast on the plate.
- How?.
-Just as you are doing right now. My mother is going to notice.
He laughs and tilts his head.
-You left without saying goodbye. - He says in a whisper.
-It was late -. I tell containing the urge to run again.
-No, it wasn't. Kate ... - His hand takes mine over the table. -We need to talk.
-I think there's nothing to talk about.
-There is a lot to talk about.
I look at him a few seconds without saying anything, the touch of his hand speeds up my heart and makes my nipples press against my bra.
I want to avoid him, I want to avoid the time when he rejects me. I know that everything is crazy, but hear it from his mouth, to hear him say what is impossible that the situation is would be too hard.
- Why are you here?.
-Because yesterday you left without saying anything.
- What did you want me to say? That you are the man I was telling you about 's looking at me expectantly. - Didn't you notice that already?,of course it's you.
I feel like his hand squeezed my fingers.
-Oh, Kate ...
-Castle, you don't have to tell me all that crap about you do not feel the same as me ... - I start to say, but we hear my mother coming back so Castle takes away his hand from mine.
-Bad news, I have to leave for a while because there is a problem with a client.
-Mom, it's Sunday ...
-I will not be long. - I kissed his forehead -. Tell Lola where you will go if you go okay? So she says it to me when I come back.
-Okay.
-Goodbye, Castle.
-Goodbye, Johanna - He smiles amicably.
When my mother goes I grab the coffee cup and taking a sip I take a couple of steps back.
-I'll also go...
-Kate, wait - He stands but I'm no longer in the kitchen - Don't go - I feel his hand on my arm, just like the night before.
- Do I have to remind you what happened the last time you told me that? - I tell him holding a nervous smile.
- Where do you get that I've come here to tell you that I don't feel the same way about you?.
- Isn't that what you came to tell me? that this is insane, that it's impossible ...
Well ... no -. I step away and lean on the wall that is in front of the stairs.-I don't really know what I came here to tell you I just ... -He dangerously comes closer to me placing a hand next to my head . As tall and handsome as ever, his scent clouding my senses and I just think about kiss him again. Why did he do this to me?.- I just wanted to see you again.
- Why?
He looks at me intensely.
- Why? - He asks rhetorically with your body close to mine - 'Cause you make me crazy Kate Beckett, so that's why - His face approaches mine and I can feel his breath, mint and coffee, and the next thing I know is his tongue is inside my mouth and his lips are kissing me slowly, deeply, passionately
My whole body reacts again and I feel like my stomach is stirred and my crotch gets wet, while my hands cling to his hair.
Rick kisses me hard, but at the same time he's kissing me slowly as if he wanted taste me, as if he wanted to absorb my desire for him. And I can't hide it anymore, not when his body touches mine that way and when his hands cling to my waist, sliding under my shirt.
-Now you know why -. He tells me breaking the kiss with difficulty.
I can hardly breathe, but unable to contain myself I kiss him back, I feel like I need every kiss, every breath, every sound coming out of my throat and his.
- What are we doing? -. I say confused, ecstatic.
-I don't know, I don't know ... His hand caresses my cheek -. I called you last night, did you know?.
-I was asleep.
-I couldn't sleep ...
- No?.
-I was thinking about you ... in everything ...
- What?.
-In everything I want you, Kate.
-I want you, too ... - I whisper looking at his lips.
We hear the door keys and Castle immediately steps away from me.
Hey, Rick - My father says while entering the house -. What're you doing here?.
I pray that my lips are not extremely swollen and my cheeks flushed and turn away from the wall.
-Umm ... yeah, I wanted to discuss a few things ... - He says hawking and then looks away hiding a smile.
-Well, let go to my office. - My father looks at me -. Are you going out, Katie?.
-Yes, I'll go shopping with the girls.
-Well, do not be late.
-No sir.
My father walks into his office and Castle and I look.
-This cannot happen again - looking at his lips I say while he looks at mine.
-No -. His body approaches mine -You're right.
-You have to go - I say pointing to the direction in which my father left.
-Yes, just ... -His lips meet mine and I inevitably groan under his lips.-Give me five minutes and we'll go elsewhere.
- At what place?.
-At the end of the world if you want, just wait for me okay?.
-No, Castle this ...
-I know, Kate, but I can not help it and I know you can't either -. He tells me passionatelly even closer to my body.
- Rick? father's voice from the office forces him to turn away from me.
-Five minutes. - Rick says and goes to my father's office.