Author's Note: Hey guys! Sorry for the longer update! It was the first week back to school after the March break. As expected, I had homework. Anyways, thank you SO much for reviewing! Here's the next chapter! Enjoy! I don't own anything but the plot. :)
Chapter 4 "She Makes My Head Spin"
I felt like crying. Tears welled up in my eyes as I wandered in the hallway again. I stumbled upon a bathroom and walked in to fix myself up. I looked at myself in the mirror. Slut. Slut. Slut. I felt like the damn word was plastered across my forehead in bright red paint. I wiped away the tears and fixed up my make-up. I looked good as new. I didn't looked like I was crying. I took a deep breath regaining my confidence and entered the never-ending hallway trying to find my way back to the main floor. How come this house HAD to be so big? I sighed in relief once I had found the staircase.
"Mitchie, honey. Where were you? It's time to go!" asked my mother. I turned to look at her. Had I been gone for that long?
"I got lost in Denise's beautiful, big house." I laughed a little. Mom smiled at me warmly. Caitlyn was already waiting at the front foyer with Nate.
"Mitch! Where were you? One minute, you're right behind, then poof! You disappeared like the fairy godmother." exclaimed Caitlyn.
"Well, it's not my fault, you and lover boy here were too caught up in each other too realize I was missing." I commented. Her cheeks became flustered and Nate couldn't look at Caitlyn in the eyes after I said this. I gave them a small smile. They were so cute. I think Nate would definitely be the right kind of guy for Caitlyn. When my mom said five more minutes it turned into another half-hour. In that time span, we all exchanged numbers so we could hang out sometime. We figured that if our moms were going to be hanging out together more often that we should become friends too. I just hoped that whenever we saw them again, Shane wouldn't be with them. It was too awkward to talk to Shane anymore. "So, where did Shane go?" Nate asked to no one in general.
"Oh, he's in his room." I blurted out. Caitlyn eyed me suspiciously. I gulped. "While I was lost, I heard him playing his guitar." I said as if it were the most obvious thing in the world. Evidently, Caitlyn saw right through me, she knew I wasn't telling the whole truth. I was lost, I did hear him play guitar. Wasn't that truth enough?
"Playing guitar? As if. He hasn't touched his guitar in months." said Nate. Everyone stared at me looking for an answer, they clearly didn't believe me. I opened my mouth to say something, then fortunately Denise and Mom walked into the foyer and said it was time to leave. I exchanged awkward goodbyes with the Grays minus Shane and left. I had a lot of explaining to do with Caitlyn. The car ride home was silent. I was still trying to figure out what the kiss meant to me and why we were suddenly nice with each other. Caitlyn was probably busy thinking about a certain curly-haired Gray.
Later, we were finally parked in our driveway. I sighed in relief as I got out of the car. I just wanted to fall on my bed and fall asleep and forget whatever happened before. Mom was heading straight for bed. I searched throughout my bedroom to look for pajamas. I rested one of my dad's old baggy shirts and I found a pair of cotton shorts. I wiped off my make-up and tied up my hair in a loose bun. I walked over to my laptop and signed on. Almost immediately I received an instant message.
XxCaityG says: hey
Why did she IM me? She could just talk to me right now. I looked over to her bed. Lucky was curled up asleep on the foot of her bed and Caitlyn sat next to him. "Caitlyn, why don't you just talk to me since we're in the same room?" I asked. She just shrugged.
"So, are you going to tell me what's going on with you?" She asked. I looked at her expectantly. "What's going with you and Shane?" Oh boy. I don't want to tell her. I'm not ready to explain what happened.
"I'll tell you everything that happened IF you tell me what's sizzling between you and Nate." I remarked. I laughed a bit. Caity isn't really the type to go venting her feelings to just anybody. Heck, sometimes she won't even tell me. She blushed for, like, the millionth time tonight.
"Fine. I won't ask." said Caitlyn. I just shrugged and lay down on my bed. "Okay, fine. I'll tell you." blurted Caitlyn. I shot back up and smiled victoriously at her.
"Nate is uh, really sweet. And I think I kind of like him." She said. I rolled my eyes. "What?"
"Well, I think you don't JUST like him...yet. You guys were so into each other. Gosh, if a stranger walked by it would seem as if you've known each other your whole life!" I exclaimed.
"No! W-we are n-not d-d-dating. Psh! W-whoever ever said anything a-about dating?" stammered Caitlyn. I smirked.
"I didn't saying anything about dating. You did." I replied. Caitlyn let out a small squeal.
"Okay, so we aren't dating. But, I know I really, really like him. I'm going on a date with him on Friday." She explained. I smiled. I was happy for her. Then, I silently wished that I could find someone just clicked with me like Nate and Caitlyn. "So what about you? What happened?" She asked. I took a deep breath before answering then I explained what happened when I was lost to hearing Shane play his guitar and purposely excluded the kiss. I didn't want to talk about that.
"Wow. Who thought that Shane Gray actually had a soft side." Caitlyn said. "You should feel lucky. I don't think he opens up that way to anyone anymore as Nate told me." I was glad she finally stopped interrogating me. "But something still bugs me..."
"What?" I asked a little too quickly.
"Care to explain the big hickey on your neck?" Caitlyn pointed out. I gasped. A hickey? Oh shit. I leaped off my bed and headed for the vanity. I looked in the mirror. Shane had left his mark on my skin. Just perfect. How was I going to explain this to Caitlyn? I opened my mouth to reply. "Don't even think about saying you happened slam the door on your neck." I sighed in defeat.
"It happened so fast, Caitlyn..." I started explaining to her about the kiss and how I felt about it. I was confused. "It felt so good. I didn't want to stop but I knew i-it wasn't right. I don't know what the hell I was thinking." I said. Caitlyn was still a bit speechless. "The most confusing thing about this is...I don't regret doing it. I don't feel guilty about cheating on my boyfriend."
"Well, this only means two things then." Caitlyn said. "You don't love your boyfriend at all after all the crap he's put you through." It is true, I guess I never loved him after all. This whole time he's had me convinced that I was in love with him when I truly wasn't at all. In fact, I detested him. "But it also means that youlikeShane." She ended quickly.
"What?" I asked her to repeat what she had said.
"I said: You. Like. Shane." She repeated. My eyes widened at the thought. I shook my head furiously. That could NOT happen at all, could it? If you had asked if I liked Shane Gray before I kissed him, I would have scoffed, feel like puking and think the thought of liking him would be utterly revolting. But, the thought stuck around in my mind throughout the night. It haunted me. Instead of puking, I actually enjoyed the thought of me liking him. It scared me to know that one kiss would make me feel this way about Shane. I wouldn't be able to face him at all now since I apparently like him and for the fact that he probably hates me by now for leaving him hanging.
For tonight, I replayed the intimate kiss in my mind and enjoyed it. I wished to be in his arms. Hopefully, when I wake up this will all be a dream.
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Beep. Beep. Beep. Ugh. I slammed my hand on the alarm to shut it up and groaned. Mitchie. "She's really pretty." I said out loud to myself. "What am I saying? Mitchie's a bitch. A sexy bitch who's good at kissing." Great. I'm going mental. Throughout the entire night, the kiss replayed over and over again. I sighed. The kiss probably meant nothing to her, she was just using me. Fuck her. I hate her. She's very rude. I hate her. I hate her. I love her. Wait, what? I just ruined my mantra.
I got off my bed to prepare myself for another tormenting day in hell. I washed my face feeling the stubble I was growing. Maybe I should shave. Nah, I'll leave the stubble alone because Mitchie will think my stubble is sexy. I mean, I won't shave because I am lazy. Yeah, that's it. I'm lazy. After I had straightened my hair I went into my closet. My eyes laid upon an old baggy shirt. "Mitchie would look awesome in my clothes." Ugh, there I go again. Thinking of her. Why won't she just stay out of my mind? Stupid dinner. Stupid me. Stupid mind-blowing kiss.
I made my way into the kitchen to make myself some breakfast. Grabbing some eggs from the fridge, Nate lazily walked into the room. "Hey, bro. How do you want your eggs cooked?" I asked as I prepared everything. Nate gaped at me.
"Dude, are you okay?" He asked. I nodded slowly but surely. "Oh-kay there, bro. I'd like my eggs scrambled in the pan, please. I'll just go get Mom and have her see if you're feeling alright." I chuckled.
"I'm fine, man. Can't a guy cook some breakfast for his family?" I asked rhetorically. Nate sent me a strange bizarre look and headed out of the kitchen. As promised, he brought Mom into the kitchen and smiling at me. Sonny walked in as well.
"Shane! Y-you're cooking?!?!?" He exclaimed. What was with my family? What was so wrong about being nice every one in awhile. I nodded as I placed the eggs onto a tray which Nate took into the dining room. I proceeded to cook the bacon as well. I started humming a new tune that popped into my mind. That would make a great song. One I finished cooking the bacon, I grabbed a napkin and started writing down what had popped into my mind, the stuffed it in my pocket to work on later. I came into the kitchen with the bacon with a smile on my face. My brothers stared at me like I did something way out of line. I stared back at them in confusion. They went back to eating quietly. After breakfast, Mom left to run some errands.
"Shane, dude. You feeling alright?" asked Jason. I got out of my seat and collected everyone's plates to put them away in the sink, then I threw out whatever trash was left on the table.
"Yeah. Of course, why does everyone keep asking that?" I questioned. Sonny offered to do the dishes. He mumbled something about becoming bipolar if he hung around me too long. I walked straight into the living only to be assaulted by my brothers. Nate and Jason stared at me as if I were some lab rat they were experimenting with. I felt very uncomfortable as they tried to see something different about me.
"Ah-hah! what's this?" exclaimed Nate as he pulled out my notes for a new song. I snatched it back and stuffed it back into my pocket.
"Dudes, it's just some song-writing material." I replied as if it meant nothing. My brothers were really getting on my nerves but I had promised Mitchie I'd be nicer. They took a few steps away from me and started discussing something. Once they returned, they stared at me oddly again.
"Are you guys done harassing me now?" I snapped. Nate cracked a smile.
"There's the Shane we've known and grown used to the past six years. Dude, you had us scared for a awhile." Jason said. Now I was the one giving them the confused looks.
"Shane, man. I don't know what's gotten into you. But whatever it is. We like it." admitted Nate.
"Yeah man. I mean, last night you and Mitchie were all pissy and moody around each other. The today, it's like you're a whole new man!" exclaimed Jason happily. I smiled at my brothers. They were seemed happy that I had a change of heart. "I mean, for the past six years you've never been nice for more than five minutes. This morning you made us breakfast."
"And you actually asked how I wanted MY eggs done. Not just your eggs." added Nate.
"AND you also put all the dishes in the sink, plus you threw out the trash! Your behaviour is abnormal, WAY beyond normal Shane!" yelled Sonny from the kitchen. I rolled my eyes.
"The most amazing thing of all, you're writing a song!" Jason beamed.
"So? What's new about me writing a song?" I asked. Nate scoffed.
"That's what's so new, bro. You HAVEN'T written a song in years." answered Nate. That threw me off guard. Had I really lost my strong connection with music? Music was my life. How I lived without music, I don't know how. Instantly, I felt guilty for the shit I've put my family through for the past six years. Mitchie was right, I had my dreams, hopes and everything I could have asked for and I did throw it out the window. I frowned.
"Dude, you okay? Did we say something bad? Sorry, man." apologized Jason. I shook my head.
"No, it's okay. You don't need to apologize." I said. I couldn't find the courage to apologize for everything I've screwed up. Out of the blue, an idea popped into my mind. We were having one of those brotherly moments, frankly I was enjoying the fact that my brothers and I were getting along more nicely. Jason's cellphone started ringing. It was lying there on the couch. I grabbed it for him. The message was sent from Mitchie. My eyes widened. Jason had Mitchie's digits? I opened my mouth to say something, then reluctantly shut it. Mitchie. How come Jason has her number? They...they aren't dating, are they? But, they just met last night. Maybe Jason is going to take her out. Wait, Jason has a girlfriend, he has Ella. "Dude, why do you have her number? Did you forget you have a girlfriend?" I spit out.
"What? Uh, oh! Ha. Funny, Shane. I-I would never cheat on my girlfriend. But, dude, Ella and I broke up like last week. Besides, I have my eyes set on this other girl I met recently." His eyes gazed elsewhere. Probably imagining the girl he likes. Wait, a girl he likes whom he met recently? He can't mean, Mitchie, can he? Jason likes Mitchie? I kissed Mitchie and I am pretty sure she was fully kissing me back. Oh god, she's a slut! She's leading me and Jason on! But I like Mitchie. Shit, I did not just think that. Ugh. She makes my head spin. I need some aspirin.
So, what do you guys think? Like it, hate it, love it? Shane's acting all funny, maybe he's actually stickingto his promise to Mitchie! Who knows? Aren't you just itching ti find out WHO is Mitchie's boyfriend? Please review for the next chapter and you might find out!
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