Title : Something Stupid
Author: Black Rainbow
Chapter: 4/5
Status: Completed
Yaoi/Non-yaoi: yaoi
Disclaimer : Slam Dunk belongs to Takehiko Inoue. The song 'Something Stupid' was written by Frank Sinatra, and sung by Frank and Nancy Sinatra.
Comments: I hope I finish this before college, but it seems not to be so... ^_^
Summary: a songfic
Chapter Four
I practice every day to find some clever lines to say
To make the meaning come through
But then I think I'll wait until the evening gets late
and I'm alone with you.
RYONAN (park)
Sendoh walked along the small path, forming words in his head. (Guess who was missing from basketball practice today?) He was walking in a park, while thinking about how to make Maki know he loved him, while listening to a mixtape someone gave him two years ago. He always walked in the park when he wanted to think about something. He could collect his thoughts without being bothered by anyone, and more importantly, without trying to act like everything's okay.
He had been walking down that particular path a lot these days, after practice, or on days like today, while missing practice. Every day he wondered about the same thing.
What should he do? What should he say? He never really asked for anything else... except this once. He yearned - he thought that that was probably the best word at the moment - for Maki's love. He wanted Maki to accept his love. What they already have just wasn't enough anymore.
The song in his mixtape ('What Price My Love?' by Frank Sinatra) ended, and a new one began. Sendoh hummed along as he walked on, giving up on his line-search of the day.
'Haven't had a dream in a long time / seems the luck i had could make a good man bad / so for once in my life / let me let me let me let me let me get what i want / lord knows it would be the first time'*
He had to tell Maki. But he didn't want to lose him. But then again, if he didn't tell, he thought that he couldn't take that weight in his heart anymore. Nowadays he always felt like every one of his nerve-ends were tingling, literally, and his chest felt tight and his heart heavy. When he was with the older boy he would feel so happy and scared... he always wanted to laugh and cry at the same time.
KAINAN HIGH
"Sempai?"
Maki smiled at the wild-haired boy. Both of them were changing in the locker room after practice. Lately the freshman had been following him a lot, and Maki was beginning to think of him as a younger brother sort of. He can be annoying at times, but he also provides good company. Isn't that what a brother should be like? Yoshio, who wasn't so taken by Kiyota's loudness, said that Kiyota is like a puppy, following Maki around all the time.
"Yes?"
"Soichiro-san and I think that you've been acting strangely these days... and I asked that nerd friend of yours -"
"Yoshio."
"Yes - Yoshio-sempai - and he said he noticed the same thing. Is something wrong?"
Maki was quiet for a while, thinking about what to say. "Nothing is wrong, really, but..." he paused, "Akira has been acting strange lately."
"That Sendoh guy?" Kiyota wrinkled his nose with distaste. "To be honest, I don't really like him, sempai. My cousin in Ryonan said that Sendoh has quite a reputation over there.." he stopped talking as he realized he was talking about his sempai's boyfriend. "But I bet it's mostly rumors," he added quickly.
Maki smiled with wry amusement. "You don't have to do that, Nobu... I know Akira. I know what people say about him, and what he's really like."
Embarrased, Kiyota shrugged. He didn't really feel comfortable talking about personal things with his sempai. Besides, he personally didn't agree with what Maki was saying. How can you really know someone like Sendoh? "Ano, I'll wait for you outside, okay, sempai?"
Maki nodded and watched the freshman leave, pondering about Sendoh's strange behaviour. He never cared about Sendoh's reputation because he knew that the younger boy was hiding behind it. Sometimes he would catch himself wondering if he'll ever know the person behind that smiling mask. But when Sendoh said that he loved him...
He didn't want to hear it. He didn't want to be treated like Sendoh's past boyfriends and girlfriends, "loved" then discarded. He didn't want to find himself believing those words, so he told his boyfriend never to say them again. He cared for his Akira, he wanted to be Akira's "crying shoulder", but he didn't want to fall in love. He didn't want to fall in the same boat as Sendoh's ex-lovers.
His thoughts disappeared as he heard voices from outside the locker room.
})i({
Sendoh walked into the Kainan basketball court and saw Kiyota waiting outside. He smiled at the boy, and said, "hi, is Shinichi here?"
Kiyota frowned at him. "Sendoh, can I talk to you?"
"About what?" his smiled turned curious. This boy have always reminded him of Shohoku's Sakuragi Hanamichi... he wondered if this boy, too, plans to beat him in basketball one day.
"Are you cheating on Maki-sempai?"
Sendoh's smile vanished as his face registered the shock he felt. "I'd - I'd never..." he said slowly. "Of course not.."
Kiyota glowered. "Well, don't." He looked away. He felt really weird talking to Sendoh like this but he felt that someone should look after his sempai. His sempai might be the straight-A student, the basketball team captain, and the MVP, for that matter... but it was of his opinion that Maki can be a bit too soft where Sendoh was concerned.
"Well, I'm happy that you care about me, Nobu... but don't take it out on Akira, okay?" The two of them turned to see Maki coming out of the locker room. The Kainan team captain continued, "I don't know where you got the idea that he's cheating on me, anyway..."
Kiyota and Sendoh both turned red - the former of acute embarrassment, the other simply because of the extra blood caused by the rate of his heartbeat, which had just tripled. Maki looked at him expectantly, not knowing why he came.
Sendoh looked down, wanting to tell Maki how he felt, but not wanting Kiyota to hear. "I wanted to tell you something... but now that I'm here, I forgot what it was I wanted to say. Weird, huh?" He grinned. It was easy. He thought that if he didn't play basketball, he could have tried acting.
Kiyota's eyes narrowed at him but the boy didn't say anything. Maki said, "Well, Nobu and I are going to get something to eat. Want to come along?"
"Sure!" As they walked out of the court together, Sendoh thought, I'll just wait until Kiyota leaves. Then I can tell Shinichi how I feel.
-tbc-
* song: by the Smiths
Author: Black Rainbow
Chapter: 4/5
Status: Completed
Yaoi/Non-yaoi: yaoi
Disclaimer : Slam Dunk belongs to Takehiko Inoue. The song 'Something Stupid' was written by Frank Sinatra, and sung by Frank and Nancy Sinatra.
Comments: I hope I finish this before college, but it seems not to be so... ^_^
Summary: a songfic
Chapter Four
I practice every day to find some clever lines to say
To make the meaning come through
But then I think I'll wait until the evening gets late
and I'm alone with you.
RYONAN (park)
Sendoh walked along the small path, forming words in his head. (Guess who was missing from basketball practice today?) He was walking in a park, while thinking about how to make Maki know he loved him, while listening to a mixtape someone gave him two years ago. He always walked in the park when he wanted to think about something. He could collect his thoughts without being bothered by anyone, and more importantly, without trying to act like everything's okay.
He had been walking down that particular path a lot these days, after practice, or on days like today, while missing practice. Every day he wondered about the same thing.
What should he do? What should he say? He never really asked for anything else... except this once. He yearned - he thought that that was probably the best word at the moment - for Maki's love. He wanted Maki to accept his love. What they already have just wasn't enough anymore.
The song in his mixtape ('What Price My Love?' by Frank Sinatra) ended, and a new one began. Sendoh hummed along as he walked on, giving up on his line-search of the day.
'Haven't had a dream in a long time / seems the luck i had could make a good man bad / so for once in my life / let me let me let me let me let me get what i want / lord knows it would be the first time'*
He had to tell Maki. But he didn't want to lose him. But then again, if he didn't tell, he thought that he couldn't take that weight in his heart anymore. Nowadays he always felt like every one of his nerve-ends were tingling, literally, and his chest felt tight and his heart heavy. When he was with the older boy he would feel so happy and scared... he always wanted to laugh and cry at the same time.
KAINAN HIGH
"Sempai?"
Maki smiled at the wild-haired boy. Both of them were changing in the locker room after practice. Lately the freshman had been following him a lot, and Maki was beginning to think of him as a younger brother sort of. He can be annoying at times, but he also provides good company. Isn't that what a brother should be like? Yoshio, who wasn't so taken by Kiyota's loudness, said that Kiyota is like a puppy, following Maki around all the time.
"Yes?"
"Soichiro-san and I think that you've been acting strangely these days... and I asked that nerd friend of yours -"
"Yoshio."
"Yes - Yoshio-sempai - and he said he noticed the same thing. Is something wrong?"
Maki was quiet for a while, thinking about what to say. "Nothing is wrong, really, but..." he paused, "Akira has been acting strange lately."
"That Sendoh guy?" Kiyota wrinkled his nose with distaste. "To be honest, I don't really like him, sempai. My cousin in Ryonan said that Sendoh has quite a reputation over there.." he stopped talking as he realized he was talking about his sempai's boyfriend. "But I bet it's mostly rumors," he added quickly.
Maki smiled with wry amusement. "You don't have to do that, Nobu... I know Akira. I know what people say about him, and what he's really like."
Embarrased, Kiyota shrugged. He didn't really feel comfortable talking about personal things with his sempai. Besides, he personally didn't agree with what Maki was saying. How can you really know someone like Sendoh? "Ano, I'll wait for you outside, okay, sempai?"
Maki nodded and watched the freshman leave, pondering about Sendoh's strange behaviour. He never cared about Sendoh's reputation because he knew that the younger boy was hiding behind it. Sometimes he would catch himself wondering if he'll ever know the person behind that smiling mask. But when Sendoh said that he loved him...
He didn't want to hear it. He didn't want to be treated like Sendoh's past boyfriends and girlfriends, "loved" then discarded. He didn't want to find himself believing those words, so he told his boyfriend never to say them again. He cared for his Akira, he wanted to be Akira's "crying shoulder", but he didn't want to fall in love. He didn't want to fall in the same boat as Sendoh's ex-lovers.
His thoughts disappeared as he heard voices from outside the locker room.
})i({
Sendoh walked into the Kainan basketball court and saw Kiyota waiting outside. He smiled at the boy, and said, "hi, is Shinichi here?"
Kiyota frowned at him. "Sendoh, can I talk to you?"
"About what?" his smiled turned curious. This boy have always reminded him of Shohoku's Sakuragi Hanamichi... he wondered if this boy, too, plans to beat him in basketball one day.
"Are you cheating on Maki-sempai?"
Sendoh's smile vanished as his face registered the shock he felt. "I'd - I'd never..." he said slowly. "Of course not.."
Kiyota glowered. "Well, don't." He looked away. He felt really weird talking to Sendoh like this but he felt that someone should look after his sempai. His sempai might be the straight-A student, the basketball team captain, and the MVP, for that matter... but it was of his opinion that Maki can be a bit too soft where Sendoh was concerned.
"Well, I'm happy that you care about me, Nobu... but don't take it out on Akira, okay?" The two of them turned to see Maki coming out of the locker room. The Kainan team captain continued, "I don't know where you got the idea that he's cheating on me, anyway..."
Kiyota and Sendoh both turned red - the former of acute embarrassment, the other simply because of the extra blood caused by the rate of his heartbeat, which had just tripled. Maki looked at him expectantly, not knowing why he came.
Sendoh looked down, wanting to tell Maki how he felt, but not wanting Kiyota to hear. "I wanted to tell you something... but now that I'm here, I forgot what it was I wanted to say. Weird, huh?" He grinned. It was easy. He thought that if he didn't play basketball, he could have tried acting.
Kiyota's eyes narrowed at him but the boy didn't say anything. Maki said, "Well, Nobu and I are going to get something to eat. Want to come along?"
"Sure!" As they walked out of the court together, Sendoh thought, I'll just wait until Kiyota leaves. Then I can tell Shinichi how I feel.
-tbc-
* song: by the Smiths