So….
They were walking silently through the private corners of the town…
Slowly wandering round, trying to find a private space…
There was so much to say…but, sometimes, words aren't enough to explain…
-"So…"
-"So…."
-"You first!" - "You first!"…He smiled at her…
He was still attractive, she had to admit that but, still, it was different… She felt like there was something missing in him, in his smile…
But maybe there wasn't something missing, but someone
-"We should talk about…this... situation…I mean, you can't avoid going to the market forever, don't you think so?"
-"I don't…"
He looked at her raising his eyebrows, as to show her his scepticism…
-"Well it might have happened once or two…"
He kept on looking at her in an expression between laugh and worry...
-"OK! OK! I did it… sometimes…"
He was really anxious, he was planning to talk to her for ages, but he'd never been enough brave to do it…now it was up time...
-"Now I... want you to listen to me…you ... don't have to reply me in a hurry…I just want you to get my point"- She looked at him confused… but before she had the time to speak, he said:
-"…I….I know that some time passed….but, you know…I've never found the courage to come talk to you, I know I ruined everything, I don't blame you…You just weren't ready to take that step…and now… things may be awkward, but I'd like to put an end to this situation, I want you to know that I'm here…I'll always be here for you…as your friend, as well as something more…"
She looked at him with a shocked look, and he suddenly added:
- "I don' want to rush things…I'll accept your decision...whatever it will be…I just needed you to know that I still feel the same…and I hope you do either…"
Why d'you make things so complicated?
She was just gaping, utterly shocked… She'd wished him to say those words hundreds times in her mind.
But, in that very moment, she was only wishing he hadn't spoken…
She needed Lane, she needed coffee, she needed her mum, and she needed time to think about it…
Only 2 days before she would have thrown herself in his arms…-That's funny how life can change in a matter of few days - She thought…
And it was true, since the DuGrey boy bumped into her life thing just started get more and more complicated to her…
He was waiting for her to speak, but what was she supposed to say? What was she supposed to do?
Her mind was empty, except for the words of a song she'd listened earlier, at home, and that she couldn't get out of her mind…
You come over unannounced,
Dressed up like you're somethin' else
Where you are and where it's at, you see,
You're making me laugh out when you strike your pose
Take off all your preppy clothes,
You know you're not fooling anyone when you've become
Somebody else around everyone else
You're watchin' your back
Like you can't relax
You're trying to be cool… but you look like a fool to me
Tell me
Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're actin' like you're somebody else
Gets me frustrated
But life's like this…
Well, maybe it wasn't the song she couldn't get out of her mind…
A/N: The song belongs to Avril Lavinge, and it is named Complicated
Good Choices Bad Choices
Without realizing, they kept walking, and reached the famous gazebo…
She was confused… she had to choose, and she didn't have all the time of the world to make up her mind, because she knew that at any sign of hesitation she would have lost him…or both…
And it was all crazy, because it was an important issue that needed time to be analyzed properly, in the Gilmore' stile... She started looking around, trying to spot her mum…but she was nowhere to be seen…
-"Rory..." Said Dean, concerned about the way she looked …-"That's our chance! We both know we belong one another…We just have to…"
-"Dean…" She started saying, apparently seeming to have made up her mind… But she interrupted herself, since she thought she'd seen a familiar profile, not far away from where she was. The person was giving his back to her, and she couldn't figure out who he was.
As a none-sense idea crossed her mind -That's impossible...- She suddenly thought... But still she kept looking with growing interest…
He didn't seem to have seen what she had; he just thought she needed time to process his words…
-"Ror…"- Called her…but she wouldn't listen…
In the meanwhile…
-It is a small town! It's impossible I can't find her! She must be near here! - He kept on thinking since he couldn't find her…. – I should have called and arranged a rendezvous! –
He was getting frustrated…- Maybe it is a sign of Destiny…I shouldn't have come…- he thought, but it was too late to come back…
He came there to talk to her, and he would!
-"Err... Excuse-me, Madam..." –
-"Hey, young man! Are you looking for someone?? Because if you are…you've met the right person…- She winked him, and he regretted having stopped her...…
-"I'm Miss Patty, by the way, but you can call me Patty if you want. Is there something I can do for you? - She told him allusive, and he cursed himself for asking her...
-"Actually I was looking for a….hmmm…friend of mine, her name's..."
–"So you have a girl friend…who's this lucky girl??"- Ignoring her comment, he went on –"…Rory, and I was…"-
-"Oh, Rory Gilmore!"-
-"Yes, could you..."-
-"Then I must step backward…"-Trying not to loose his temper, he continued:
– "Do you know where I can find her??"-
-"Well, I haven't seen her round, but… wait…Hey! Babette!"- She shouted to a woman standing on the opposite street – "D'you know where the little Gilmore is??"
-"If you turn around you'll see her! She's at the gazebo with…- Shouted back the woman at the other side of the street, but he'd stopped listening as he was told to turn around to see her…
He'd have regretted that later…
As he turned around, he saw her…her face, her eyes, her mouth, her figure…Everything was even more beautiful than how he'd pictured in his mind… He suddenly cursed himself for his behaviour and his foolishness…He let her go…But now he was determined to catch her again…
But, he needed all the possible determination, since she wasn't alone in that very moment, but with the least person he'd expected to…
He was mad at her… But realized shortly afterwards that the only one he had to be mad at was Tristan DuGrey…
He treated her like crap…They didn't date … And she was free to hang out with whomever she liked to… Even if it hurt, he only had to blame himself, and give up, he thought, since it was clear the thing wasn't going to work out…
He didn't deserve her…he thought...
She hadn't noticed him, so he was up in time to turn and walk away…but he wanted just another sec. to throw one last glance….
He didn't know that just second could have changed the course of the events….
Have you ever thought that just one second is necessary to change your Destiny?
Well, Of Course, he hadn't…
Easier said than done...
Before facing Dean, she'd have to get that doubt out of her mind…That's why she shot one last gaze to the boy…
As she spotted the guy, however, he turned around and their eyes locked….
It seemed as if nothing had happened, as if just one glare could give explanations, express blame, guilt, relief and disbelief…
The same feelings that came out two days before broke out and ran into them with the strength of a hurricane…
They were distant, but never felt that close…
She felt the urge to go talk to him, the only thing that held her foot stick to the ground was Dean, right next to her, waiting for her to say something, anything…
-What should I do? - She thought. Who did she have to talk to first? Dean, the guy who loved her and was standing there, trying to rebuild their relationship or Tristan, the guy who annoyed, frustrated, teased, irritated, exasperated, even hurt her…? No need to say who the rational part of her went for …but, as it is commonly known:
... "Easier said than done!"…
As Dean recognized the cause of her hesitation, panic and alarm set in, since he understood how much potentially dangerous was him to their relationship, even if she hadn't realized it… yet …
.
-"Sorry, can you just…wait for a… minute or two…? there's just one ehmm… little…thing I have to solve first…please…"- She stressed pleadingly the final word, as to feel less guilty, as if she was putting on him the responsibility of her actions...
But she wasn't the type to fall for such a guy… He thought…
That's why, when she asked, he just said:
-"Ok…"-
So, she approached the blond guy who so much tormented her existence asking herself, during the way, if she was doing the right thing...
The expression on his face, as to inflame her hesitations, was pretty doubtful… However, he wasn't leaving his gaze from her... he had to, he knew that, but he simply couldn't...
She might have thought she was doing the wrong thing either, but her body didn't respond anymore...it was too late to come back...
-Is not like I already chose the one I wanna be with…- She thought, as to reassure herself, but neither of the two understood that the moment their eyes met, she'd made up her mind… and her heart...