Chapter 4 [I'm in love]

"What was that about Trin?" she asked furious.

"I don't know." I shook my head confused.

"Sure. That jerk hurt you, and here you go almost kissing him." she looked at me.

"He apologized." I said defending Ben.

"Wow, and you forgave him? Have you seen your arm Trinity? You look like you got jumped or someone burned your upper arms with an iron." she crossed her arms against her chest.

"I didn't forgive him. I told him I needed time." I explained.

"I don't think you should forgive the maniac at all." she rolled her eyes.

"Look Athena, you're my bestfriend and I can't have you against me on this. I know it's wrong to forgive him for what he did to me but.... ugh I don't know I can't help myself around him. Usually I get over guys in less than 24 hours but Ben. He's like the one I've been looking for... or something like that. I can't stop thinking about him, I can't help my smile from forming when he's near. I search for him when he's not with me. He's like breath taking to me. Like I need him and if I don't have him my day wouldn't be right." I leaned against the locker and slid to the floor. "I think I'm falling in love with him." I sighed.

Athena kneeled in front of me. "Oh my god. You are in love with him Trinity. And I'm sorry for freaking out on you like that, it's... you know how I am especially with you. Your like my sister." she hugged me. "I'm sorry hun."

"It's okay." I hugged back.

"So what are you gonna do? Are you gonna tell him." she looked at me.

I gasped. "Uh. No!!!"

Athena laughed. "Why not, maybe he'll break up with blonde bimbo."

I laughed. "I'll consider it."

Athena got up and helped me up as well. We walked with linked arms down the hall and out the school doors.

Now, I was home laying in my bed. Home alone as always. I forgot to mentioned my dad cares about his job more than his own daughter. Pretty depressing? But I'm use to it. I decided to go take a shower. To soak off all the stress I've been threw today. As I got in the shower, let the warm steamy water hit my delicate body. I moaned in relief and how good it felt against my skin. I just stood there for sometime enjoying the peace and quiet and relaxation. Soon after I washed up and got out hearing the door bell. I quickly dried and threw on shorts and a tank top. And quickly and quietly went down the stairs. Swiftly I opened the door as the guest rang it again. My heart stop.

"Ben?" I gasped.

"Hi? Um is this a bad time?" he asked.

Breathe Trinity breathe!!!!

"Um - - no." I choked out.

He looked at me confused.

"Oh, I'm sorry come in." I opened the door wider.

Ben entered my house and we stood by the door way in awkward silence. "So, what brings you here?" I asked.

"I needed to talk to you." he looked at me.

"Okay, about?" I asked.

"Today. Well I mean what happened this afternoon at your locker." he said.

"Okay. Lets go to sit down though my legs hurt."

He chuckled. "Okay."

I sat down on the couch and Ben sat next to me. I looked at him, curious on what he had to tell me.

"So, I'm sorry for you know touching you like that and almost kissing you. It was wrong." he confessed.

My chest began to hurt. Worse than the way it felt when I saw he had a girlfriend.

"Wrong?" I asked shocked.

"Yes Trinity, wrong. I'm sorry I did that. I really didn't mean to I just... got tempted by such a beautiful girl like you but I'm in a relationship and I don't wanna hurt Kate." he looked at me.

The tears threatened to come out. I seriously just wanted to cry or slap him across his face for making me want to cry. I thought he'd at least have some type of feeling for me. He's too committed. Well to Kate at least. I looked down trying to cover up the tear that managed to escape my eye. I felt a warm finger touch my chin and gently lift it up.

"Are you crying?" Ben asked.

I quickly managed to get out his touch a turn my face. "No."

"Yes, you are Trin." he said. "Why?"

"I'm not crying Ben! I just had something in my eye." I scolded.

"Oh." he stood silent.

I wiped my eye quickly. And tried pulling myself together. "Um, you should go now." I said looking over at Ben.

He was looking at me, and in a hurt look. Like if he regretted something. "Oh, okay." he got up and headed for the door.

I followed. And put my hand on the knob opening the front door slowly. Ben looked at me hurt. I looked back at him and I'm sure this time he noticed how broken I was. How torn up inside I was from what he said. Soon I broke that stare and looked down letting those tears flow down my cheeks. I couldn't help them now. There was no stopping. Suddenly I felt the door being closed and strong soft hands grab my waist. I looked up and saw Ben looking down at me with watery eyes. I was about to push him away when he wrapped his arms around me tightly. I leaned my head on his chest and sobbed. God, I was so vulnerable. He slowly began to move, pushing me up against the wall. Softly he lifted his hand keeping the other one firm at my waist and sliding this one slowly up my body. I shivered from each place his hand passed. My stomach, my arm, my neck and finally my cheek where he stopped. I looked at him. With teary eyes. He took his thumb and wiped my tears from both of my cheeks. He looked down at me I was about to read his expression but his lips touching mine interrupted it. I was to shock to kiss back. I just still. His hand that was still on my cheek moved to my hair, he intertwined his fingers in my soft curls and began slightly pushed me closer. I gave in and slightly opened my mouth, letting his sweet savoring taste enter my mouth. He kissed me passionately. Him doing this to me is teasing me. Part of me wanted to pull back to save myself from getting hurt. But the other part just couldn't resist and wanted to keep going. Suddenly he pulled away, slowly. I fluttered my eyes opening to find him already looking at me. I couldn't help but smile at him, and those ocean blue orbs of his. He smiled back leaned in again. I got on my tippy toes and met him half way. We kissed again. But better than the first kiss. I wrapped my arms around his neck. He grabbed my upper thighs and lifted me off the ground. I wrapped my legs around him. He roughly pushed me up against the wall and deepened the kiss. His hands wondered my body, his touch was so intoxicating I didn't want him to ever stop.

We stood kissing for sometime until I pulled back in needing to breathe. My heart rate was racing by now as if I had ran up and down 5 flights of stairs. Ben looked at me a smirked. I smiled back. He pecked me one more time then put me down. I fixed my shorts and shirt. Then looked up at Ben.

"So?" I smirked.

"So." he said brushing back some strands of hair.

"What does this mean?" I asked.

"That I love you." he said looking at me.

"What?" my eyes widen.

"I love you." he repeated.

I smiled, knowing my response. "I love you to."

He leaned his forehead against mine. AGAIN, my heart began racing and I was breathing heavily. He grinned and put his hand on my chest.

"Your heart is racing?" he said confused.

"Yea, you do it to me all the time." I admitted.

"Why?" he smirked.

"I don't know, it's this effect you have on me."

"I like it." he kissed me. Then.... his phone rang. He pulled away and looked at it. "Ugh, it's Kate." he groaned.

"Don't answer it." I quickly said.

"She's gonna keep calling."

"Then answer it I guess."

Ben flipped the phone open.

"Yea?.....I'm busy Kate.....No I'm not going...What the hell Kate!....Oh, wow okay. I can't do this anymore." he shut the phone closed and sighed.

I looked at him. And ran my fingers threw his shaggy straight bronze hair. "You, okay?"

He smiled softly at me. "Yea I am."

I got on my tippy toes again and pecked his lips. He smiled down at me.

"I should get going we have school tomorrow." he said.

"Okay." I said opening the door.

"I love you." he looked me in the eyes and kissed me passionately.

I pulled away. "I love you too."

Then he walked out. I shut the door and leaned against it.

`What a day!'