Hello everyone , I Finally updated this story and its a long long chapter. so please read and enjoy!

RR

Disclaimer: NoI do not Inuyasha...breaks down into tears

Chapter 4

Kagome wrapped the blanket around her tighter as she stared out at the sky. Since she couldn't sleep she decided to go outside for some fresh air. She thought it would do her some good. She sat on a bench, next to the god tree, admiring the moon slowly leaving the sky, welcoming the sun. The air was still chilly but she didn't feel it, she didn't even think about it, her thoughts were elsewhere. Maybe I'm overanalyzing everything. So many things happened; I should have the chance to be happy. Be happy with Inuyasha is all I ever wanted, all my heart ever desired. I shouldn't care why I got it and why I feel like something is wrong, I should just accept it, and be happy.

Kagome watched the beginning of a new day as the sun slowly rose in the sky. The pale dark sky warmed by a bright light, by the healings rays of the sun. Kagome heard birds singing, welcoming the new day. A smile appeared on her face as she convinced herself that today truly is a new day for her, one she swore she would enjoy. She dropped the blanket as she ran in her house, desperate for a phone. She picked it up and eyed it ready to call Inuyasha and ask him to spend the day with her. As she looked at the numbers, she wondered what his number was; she didn't really remember it. As though her fingers had a life on their own, they dialed a number. Kagome rapidly put the receiver on her ear as she heard the phone ringing.

"Hello?" a groggy voice answered, still half asleep

"Inuyasha? Its Kagome, did I wake you up?" Kagome's voice was cheerful, excited.

"… No… I was just relaxing my eyes for a few minutes my love. I am so happy you called, do you feel better?" he suddenly sounded awake and glad to hear her voice. Kagome couldn't help but smile.

"I feel perfect… I wanted to know if you wanted to spend the day together"

"When?"

"Right now… or as soon as you can get here"

"I'll get dressed and I'll be right over"

"Ok, I'll see you soon then, bye Inuyasha"

"… Bye"

Kagome hanged up the phone as she ran towards her kitchen prepared to cook Inuyasha a feast. They would have a picnic, and a beautiful time, like normal couples.

15 minutes later, Kagome heard a knock on the door and eagerly went to answer it. Kagome was thunderstruck by the sight of Inuyasha in front of her. He had his long dark hair tight up in a tight ponytail as two strand of hair caressed his beautiful face. He had nice black pants and a red shirt; half buttoned showing a black t-shirt underneath.

"Hi!" he half whispered, half purred at her, showing her one of his dazzling smiles.

".. h… hi!" Kagome said as her palms suddenly became sweaty.

"Are you ready?"

"Yup, let me just get the picnic basket" she said as she turned around, prepared to get the food for the picnic. Kagome stopped in midstep when she felt Inuyasha hold her arm back. She turned around, her eyes searching his.

"No need to my sweet, I have arranged a surprise for you!"

"A surprise?" she knew her voice betrayed her, she rarely got surprised

Inuyasha nodded his head as he offered his arm to Kagome. She looked at it seconds before she reached to it and wrapped it around her own. Inuyasha bowed his head to her as he escorted her out of the house and towards the city.

The couple walked through the busy streets of Tokyo, admiring the busy people running around through the day. Hand in hand our couple walked into the mall. Fellow students waved at them as they saw them. Kagome and Inuyasha said hello before continuing walking.

"Are you going to give me a hint for my surprise?" Kagome asked

"No.. not even one… don't worry we are almost there" Inuyasha said as he squeezed her hand

"Oh… please, a small hint… just a small one" Kagome bit her lip as she took out her secret weapon, her cute puppy look.

Inuyasha laughed when he saw her, part of him ready to tell her all, but he decided otherwise. He couldn't tell her the whole truth, he might lose her, and he refused to do that.

Kagome saw Inuyasha's eyes suddenly become cloudy, as though he was lost in thought. She wondered what he was thinking about and why he seemed so lost, so torn. She leaned down and gave him a kiss on the cheek, hoping it would make him feel better. He rapidly turned around when he felt her kiss on his cheek, his face red from the gesture. Kagome bit back a laugh as she relished in his reaction. I have power over him after all… good! Inuyasha's eyes soften as he watched her. His gaze on her made her feel beautiful, like she was the only person in his universe. He leaned his head towards her, hoping for a kiss. Kagome closed her eyes as she leaned towards him, wanting to kiss him as much as he wanted to.

"Kaaaaaaaagggggggggooooooooommmmmmmmeeeeeeeeeeeee!"

Kagome opened her eyes when she heard her name, biting a groan when she saw who was running towards her. Hojo was out of breath when he reached them, his eyes ignoring Inuyasha as he took Kagome's hand and brought it to his lips for a kiss.

"um… hi Hojo " Kagome said as she rapidly took her hand away from Hojo's eager lips.

"Are you going to see a movie?... we could go together?" Hojo said as he showed her a sparkling smile.

"I'm sorry to say Hobo, but Kagome is with me" Inuyasha finally spoke, his voice as smooth as silk

"It's Hojo… but what do you say Kagome… Me… you… a movie?"

Kagome was about to say no when she felt Inuyasha's hand tense up. "Red alert" rang in her head as her thoughts told her that Inuyasha was preparing to fight back. She heard a small voice in her head say: uh oh, he's going to blow! Kagome looked at Inuyasha waiting for a reaction, maybe see Inuyasha lose his cool and hit Hojo, not that she would have minded to see that.

Inuyasha took slow easy breathes as he wrapped his arm around Kagome's shoulder and brought her closer to him. He looked at Hojo, straight in his eyes before he spoke, his voice not as silky as before.

"I'm sorry to say... HOBO… but Kagome wouldn't want to go to the moves with you…if you were the last human on earth. So please move out of our way before I…sla… before I would do something I would regret…" Inuyasha said as he walked away from Hojo, side by side with Kagome. Like I would regret what I would want to do Inuyasha thought as he smiled at all the evil scenarios he would relish doing to Hojo if he had the chance.

Kagome held back a laugh as she saw what she saw. Maybe she was tired for not sleeping the whole night, but she wasn't dumb to say that Inuyasha seemed jealous moments ago. He was jealous of Hojo. So maybe Inuyasha was perfect after all.

Minutes later our couple arrived at their destination. They walked into a fancy restaurant, one that Kagome always wanted to go to but that was too expensive. How could Inuyasha pay for coming here, it cost too much. She looked at him, wanting to ask but the words escaped her. Enjoy yourself; stop trying to find problems where they aren't any! Her thoughts said. The couple was shown their table, next to a fountain. Inuyasha pulled out Kagome chair before sitting down. A small candle illuminated the table as romantic music was being played. It truly was one of the fanciest and romantic restaurants in Tokyo, and Kagome couldn't believe she was actually here and especially here with Inuyasha.

"Wow!" was all she could muster as she looked around her at the beautiful designs, at the beautiful people all around her.

"Do you like it then" Inuyasha said as his hand reached out to hers.

"Like it… I love it Inuyasha… I don't deserve it though…" she said as she averted his gaze.

Inuyasha squeezed her hand tighter. She looked up at him, to see his piercing gaze as he said: "You deserve this and more Kagome and more"

Kagome smiled at him, tears gathering in her eyes at his confession. His words touched her and meant the world to her.

"Monsieur, Madam, my name is Francois, and I shall be your waiter for the evening" a bald French man said as he looked down at our couple.

"Hello Francois!" they both said

"Will you like any appetizers… some sort of soup perhaps?"

"Do you have any Ramen" Inuyasha said before he realized his mistake.

"Ramen? I am sorry Monsieur, but if you want some… ramen… maybe go to the super market… we serve only the best soup, the best in the world"

"haha.. I was just joking Francois, I don't like Ramen, not at all… I would like the cream of Chicken soup… please" Inuyasha eyed the waiter, his gaze hard to describe

"and you Madame" Francois rapidly turned his head towards Kagome, as he felt goose bumps all over his body from Inuyasha's gaze.

"umm… I will have the same" Kagome said, her voice a bit hesitant

Francois bowed his head as he made his way to the kitchen.

"Kagome are you ok? You look troubled?" Inuyasha said as he caressed her hand.

"… Fine.. Just fine" Kagome said, her voice distant as thoughts overwhelmed her.

"Inuyasha?" Kagome finally said as she raised her head, her eyes on him

"Yes my love?" Inuyasha smiled at her, his voice as perfect as ever

"You don't like Ramen?"

"I … um… its ok… why do you ask?" Inuyasha smooth voice said even though all his insides started panicking.

"… no reason" Kagome said as she shook her head from her thoughts and offered Inuyasha a smile.

The waiter arrived with their soups. He placed them in front of them before he rapidly left, as though he was afraid of something, or someone. Both were quiet as they ate their soup, lost in their thoughts. I have to do something Inuyasha thought as he watched Kagome. She was lost in her thoughts and he was afraid of what she was thinking, or even remembering.

"Kagome? Would you give me the honor of having a dance with me? "Inuyasha said as he got up from his chair and offered her his hand.

Kagome offered a shy smile and placed her hand in his as they made their way towards the restaurant's small dance floor. Kagome wrapped her arms around Inuyasha's neck as he placed his arms around her waist. They danced to the slow romantic beat of the song. Everything and everyone disappeared as only the 2 of them remained. Kagome closed her eyes as she laid her head on his chest listening to his heartbeat. What a beautiful moment! She thought to herself. Suddenly Kagome had a head ache as she saw a flash back.

Flashback

"Come on Inuyasha! Please! Can you do this for me!" Kagome begged as she saw Inuyasha cringed at her request.

"No Kagome! I refuse to dance! We demons don't dance, we fight!" Inuyasha said as he crossed his hands over his chest showing how determined he was.

"Please!" Kagome said as she bit her lip and showed him her puppy face

"Grrrr…."

"Yay! You won't regret it I promised" Kagome squealed of joy as she ran to the radio in her room and played the 1st song on her Cd.

Kagome stood in front of Inuyasha as she took his arms and wrapped them around her waist. She wrapped her arms around his neck as she slowly moved around to the music's beat. Inuyasha stood as still as a statue, not knowing what to do.

"Inuyasha" Kagome said as she clicked her tongue at him

"What wench?" Inuyasha said his voice irate, knowing he did something wrong.

"You need to relax, take deep breathes and relax." Kagome said as she deeply looked in his beautiful amber eyes

"I'm relaxed, don't I look relaxed?" Inuyasha said as he gave her a determined look of his own

"Ok… try this… close your eyes" she said as she looked at him. Inuyasha huffed before he slowly closed his eyes. Kagome stood on her tip toes, her lips just close to his ears to whisper.

"It's just me and you. Listen to the music, let it fill you. And then… just let it lead you. "

Inuyasha took a deep breath, desperately hoping his face wasn't red or hot even though all his body was burning. He listened to her words and relaxed. He heard the slow song in the background, tried to let it lead him but it didn't. Before he knew what he was doing, Inuyasha started moving and felt Kagome following him. It was as though they were one, 2 people moving together in a way he couldn't express. It wasn't the sound of the music that lead them, it wasn't the powerful enough to make him move. Inuyasha followed the most beautiful melody of all, the sound of Kagome's heart.

Kagome sighed as she felt Inuyasha relax under her touch as they were dancing. They were really dancing, together. Her heart leaped out of joy, she truly felt happy. She sighed as she placed her head on his chest and left him to guide her, guide her to heaven as she was surrounded by his sweet smell. Her gruff and tough Inuyasha was so sweet, so gentle now. How she loved her tough warrior.

End of flashback

"Kagome… Kagome? Can you hear me? " Inuyasha begged as he shook her.

"hmmm … Inuyasha?" Kagome said as she slowly opened her eyes. She didn't see his beautiful amber eyes looking down at her in worry but his dark eyes. A feeling of disappointment appeared in her heart.

Inuyasha picked her up as he went back to their table and laid her on her chair. He took a glass of cold water and offered it to her. Her hand shook as she tried to take the glass but Inuyasha helped her. She took a sip of water that refreshed her. She was suddenly feeling hot, like her skin was burning.

"What?... what happened?" she asked as she looked up to meet his worried gaze.

"We were dancing when you suddenly fainted in my arms… are you ok?"

"Fine… I just feel a bit warm that's all" he said as she offered him a smile

"Maybe I should bring you back home; you need your rest…"

"No… Inuyasha, I'm ok, really I am." she said as she took his hand and brought it to her lips.

Kagome thought she imagined him growl at her answer, but it must have been her imagination as he showed her a dazzling smile and nodded.

"Would my lady like a walk in the park then, the cool air might make you feel better?" he offered his hand

"I would be delighted!" she said.

Inuyasha helped her to get on her feet as he wrapped his arm around her waist. Inuyasha left some money on the table as they walked out of the restaurant, towards the park.

Kagome sighed in pleasure as she felt the cool breeze on her face. That feels much better! She said as she smiled. The couple walked through the park as Inuyasha found a bench and walked towards it, thinking Kagome would need her rest. Kagome gaze went to Inuyasha as he gazed at the park, admiring the trees. They had more trees in the feudal era then here, I wonder if Inuyasha misses it.

"Inuyasha?" she said before she realized that she wanted to ask him

"Yes my love?" he said as his gaze left the trees and went back to her.

"When… when I fainted… I remembered something. Can you tell me if it's true?"

"Umm… sure!" he said in his smooth voice even though his eyes seemed to be saying something else

"How did you learn to dance… did I show you?"

"ummm… why are you asking me this Kagome?" he asked, avoiding to answer Kagome noticed

"Because I remembered that I showed you. We were in my room… was it just a dream or did it happen?"

Inuyasha brought her hand to his lips as he offered her a smile. He didn't know what to answer and his brain wasn't working. What lies should he tell her? Should he tell her one or just tell her the truth.

"No… you were the one that showed me to dance… I know it was bad the first time, but I improved."

"No… you weren't bad Inuyasha… our first dance was… it was beautiful" she said as she offered him a smile.

Inuyasha's heart melted at her words. Before Inuyasha could say another word he saw Kagome get up from the bench. She offered him a smile before she nicely punched his arm and said "Tag! You're it" before she broke off in a run, through the park.

Inuyasha heard her laughter as he sprinted after her trying to catch her. Was it just him or was his running slower then before. Maybe Kagome was running faster as she ran so fast he had problems reaching her. Inuyasha forced his legs as he ran faster to catch Kagome. Kagome's laughter echoed through the wind as she loved getting chased from Inuyasha. It felt wonderful that he was playful. He was never like that before and you well know it a voice in her head said that she ignored. Who cares what happened before, what mattered was what was happening in the present, in the now. Before she realized it, she felt Inuyasha leap on her to catch her. She lost her footing as both of them fell on the smooth soft grass, Inuyasha on top of Kagome.

"Tag, you're it!" he said as he touched her arms, smell drips of sweat on his face.

Kagome couldn't help but hold down her laughter as she laughed out loud. Inuyasha looked down at his angel before his smile broke into a laugh as he joined her. Both laughed so hard they thought their lungs would explode from their joy.

Their laughs slowly faded as they noticed how close they were to one another. Inuyasha suddenly realized how he was on her, as he felt all her wonderful curves under him. His laugh broke down, his face serious as he looked down at Kagome. Her eyes were sparkling, her face like one of the angels. He couldn't hold himself back as he leaned towards her and kissed her lips. Kagome closed her eyes as she felt Inuyasha's lips on her own. Inuyasha's kiss was nice, gentle and Kagome liked it. Still, she felt overpowered, having him on her. She didn't know why but she liked having him on her, it made him seem more… more like a warrior then a real human… like he was before.

Suddenly Inuyasha stopped the kiss as he rapidly got off of her and sat next to her, his breathing shallow. Kagome got up and looked at him. His eyes seemed distant. His breathing was still labored, as though he was trying to relax, to control himself, but from what she wondered.

"Inuyasha? … Are you ok?" she asked as she placed her hand on his shoulder

Inuyasha squeezed his eyes shut, trying to relax. He slowly opened his eyes as his gaze met Kagome's. He offered her a shy smile before he got up and offered her his hand.

"Its time I bring you home Kagome. It's getting dark and your mother will get worried!"

"Ohh.. Ok" she said as she felt him pick her up and lead the way back to her house.

Her heart broke at his words. Maybe the kiss wasn't as good as I thought it was she thought as she walked with Inuyasha back home. Her head looked down at the ground as she walked, feeling like she did something wrong.

Inuyasha's gaze fell on her as he watched her sad look on her face. His heart hurt at seeing her pain. He knew he said the wrong thing but he had to stop the kiss. He almost lost control. When he kissed her, he was in heaven. He almost went back to who he was. He was so close to claim her lips and kiss her passionately. He was prepared to crush his lips body against hers and claim her, claim her as his mate. If he didn't break away when he did he would have returned back to who he was before. Breaking the kiss was the hardest thing he ever did in his life but he did it. He swore he would give Kagome what she truly wanted, a human who was nice and gentle with her, and that was what he would give her, even if inside it was killing him. Flashes of images passed through his head of things he wanted to do, which he tried desperately to shake off. He needed some space, some time to relax his instincts, or else, or else he would return to who he was.

Kagome's hand slowly reached to Inuyasha's as she intertwined them, hoping he wouldn't brush off her touch. He didn't, he held her hand tight which brought a small smile on Kagome's lips. We are fine! We are fine! She chanted to herself as they walked towards her home. Maybe Inuyasha was right, it was getting dark and they did spend their time together.

Before they knew it, the couple arrived in front of her house. They stood facing each other knowing that the evening was over, yet neither moved to try and say goodbye. Kagome went towards him as she wrapped her arms around him and hugged him tight. Inuyasha rapidly placed his arms around her, his face caressing her soft hair. They hesitantly broke the hug as Kagome looked up at Inuyasha's eyes. Inuyasha leaned down to give her a kiss; she could clearly see it as she closed her eyes. She waited to feel his lips on hers, yet they never came. Inuyasha carefully kissed her 2 cheeks before he let go of their hug. He offered her a shaky smile before he said goodnight. Kagome masked her disappointment as she offered him a smile of her own and wished him goodnight as well. She stood outside her house watching him leave. Part of her wanted to call him back but she didn't. The only thoughts in her mind were that she was a bad kisser. That was the reason why Inuyasha didn't kiss her on the lips. Well then I guess I have to work on it. A slow evil smile appeared on her lips as she promised herself that the next time she would kiss Inuyasha, he would lose total control.

Inuyasha was slowly walking down the steps from Kagome's home trying to cool down his raving nerves. Control! You need to control yourself! He begged himself as he walked down the steps. Still, the only thing he wanted to do was run back up those stairs and kiss Kagome, kiss her the way he wanted to the night they were fighting, when they was so much tension between them, so much heat, he felt like he was swimming in it. Stop thinking about these things you baka! Perfect! Be perfect! Be what Kagome deserves! She doesn't want you to be like before, like an animal! His thoughts screamed back.

Inuyasha stopped walking as his head turned back to Kagome's house.

"No… I guess she wouldn't want to be with me the way I was before"

Inuyasha sighed as a sad smile appeared on his lips. He decided to go back home. He needed to take a shower and learn to control himself better before Kagome remembers everything. If ever she remembered all that happened she would hate him and that was something Inuyasha couldn't bear to let happen.

so? just so all of you know, when i describe how Inuyasha looked... my eyes were all dreamy. we see a lot of things in this chapter and i tried to show more of Inuyasha's feelings and fears in this chapter. i know all of you may be wondering why Kagome is suddenly accepting Inuyasha the way he is now. shouldnt her mind be screaming at her to remember. well it does but can you blame the girl, she's with a perfect guy, part of her doesnt want to see Inuyasha any other way so she doesnt question it.

still, unconsciously she is missing how the old Inuyasha was and I'll show more of that. dont worry, she'll remember things soon and Inuyasha beware when she does ...evil laughter

I'm not sure if i should end this fic soon and continue it on, I'll see how things go.

I m gonna stop yapping :P

see you soon all

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