For everyone who read this story before I took it down – It will be the same story only now I'm writing it before Edward and Bella got in to a fight about what happened.
It's been two days since that party. Now I was sitting there at the bench with Jake right next to me. Air was filled with awkward silence and I could feel that being here with me was the last thing he wanted. And I've deserved it. I shouldn't be with in the first place. What was I thinking getting it on with my best friend's enemy?
„Say something." I decided that I need to break the silence. We both knew what we have to do. So why make it painfully long?
„I...I don't even know where to start. I'm crazy about you Bella. But when you are with him – you are totally different person. Lying to someone? Hiding our relationships because your friend doesn't aprove? Do you even liked me?"
„Of course I do. But...No matter what I chose someone will end up hurt. „
„And that would be me." I didn't said anything. I knew who I have to choose. I knew that no matter what – it will always be Edward. He was my friend.
„I think I will go."
„I'm not letting you go. I will fight for you Bella." I swallowed my tears back.
„I don't want you to fight for me." I stood up and ran to my car, the tears spilling down my cheeks. I liked Jake, but my friendship with Edward felts o much more important that some stupid crush. I knew I can get over losing some guy, but I could never get over losing Edward. Never.
"Shush, baby Bella. It will be okay." Rosalie was holding my tightly to her chest. I think I cried for hours.
"You shoulndt have done that. Edward would get over himself. Is still don't know what the deal between them is too." I actually didn't know either, but I trusted Edward. If he felt the way he felt about Jake, there must've been some reason. I liked Jake, but at the party I knew if I stay with him I would live my life in crossroads, between my boyfriend and my best friend.
My phone went off and I pulled it out of my leather jacket.
"Hello." I said with my voice husky and cracking.
"Fuck, Bella are you crying? Are you okay?" Edward worried voice rushed through the phone. I swallowed and cleared my throat.
"Yeah I'm fine. I and Rose are just watching some chick flick. It's really sad." I lied. I heard him letting out the relieved breath.
"Oh, you scared me there. So you are at Roses?"
"Yeah, we are just hanging out."
"Oh. Okay, I thought I could stop by, but that's fine, have fun, say hi to Rosie."
"Bye Edward." I hung up and dropped my head back in Roses lap. "Edward says hi." Rose stroked my hair and chuckled.
"He freaked about you crying?"
"Yeah. Kind of."
"See. He cares about you a lot. Maybe he will let you date Jake."
"Stop it Rose. I don't want to talk about it anymore." I sat up and took of my jacket and dropped it to the ground. "I didn't see you at Emmett's party. What were you doing all night?"
"I'm…nothing. I just didn't felt like going." I could tell she was lying, but I let it go. If Rose wanted to hide something there was no way I could get it out from her.
"So what do you say we watch Note book? I kind of feel like crying my eyes out."