I've always been stupid.
I don't understand my disease.
I don't understand what is happening to my body.
I don't understand why everyone is crying.
I've never seen Coach Sylvester cry.
I've never seen Santana cry.
Santana
Did you think I was stupid?
Did you think I was brilliant?
Did you think I was your world?
You were always my world.
It's too bad I just realized I loved you.
It's too bad I can't tell you.
I'm not even sure I understand how to love.
Kurt
Do you remember our kiss?
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I tricked you into kissing me.
I'm sorry I let Coach Sylvester trick you into kissing me.
You said you don't believe in God.
What do you believe in?
My mind has gone hazy.
I can't see.
I can't speak.
I wish I was smart.
I wish I could sing.
I wish I could love.
I wish I was smart enough to stand up for myself.
I wish I could have been smart enough to stand up for you.
Rachel.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I bullied you.
I'm sorry I laughed when they threw you in the dumpster.
I'm sorry I walked away when you called for help.
I'm sorry I made fun of your animal sweaters.
I always loved animals.
I could have owned a zoo.
If I was smart.
But I'm not.
So I can't.
I could have loved Santana.
If I knew how.
If I wasn't stupid.
But I am.
So I couldn't.
And I never will.
When they announce at school that I died.
What will they say?
I wasn't smart.
I never really was that pretty.
I never really was that popular.
Did boys even see me?
I'm dying.
But there's no nurse.
So I'm going to die alone.
I can understand that.
I can understand I won't ever have dumb babies.
I can understand that everyone will miss me.
I can't understand why.
Ok guys, I know this was super bad. I didn't know how to write from a stupid perspective.