What if Charlie found out? What if he knew that Bella was just pretending?
Bella was handling things very well. She was happy. I was glad.
I went to her room to clean up. She deserved a break.
There was an open notebook lying on her bed, with a pen lying beside it. Maybe it was something important for school.
I picked it up and read its contents. As my eyes swept the page, I could imagine Bella saying these things.
November 23
I always knew that he was just a dream.
It's been more than two months now. I don't know if I can keep up the charade much longer. Trying to live, trying to act normally… It becomes even more impossible with each moment that passes.
Even though he was just a dream, I needed him. He was the air I breathed.
I was suffocating.
I turned the page. This time, it was song lyrics.
Without the mask, where will you hide?
Can't find yourself, lost in your lies.
I know who the truth now, I know who you are
And I don't love you anymore
It never was and never will be
You're not real and you can't save me
Now somehow you're everybody's fool
Bella was lying to me. She wasn't better. She was still as miserable as ever. I was such an idiot. How could I not see?
Thanks again to Evanescence!