Author's note: I do not own Fairy Tail or any of the characters! This fan fiction was made only for the fun of it. I do not charge anything from people to read or comment on my fics! They will always be free, by fans for fans!

lexie loves anime, considering how Gajeel feels about Levy, i see him very affected by it. especially after their first encounter

myzor king of war, thank you for taking the time to read and review. oh, Akumu will have her ass kicked.

Chapter 5 of this fanfic will be posted on adult fan fiction dot net. it's waaay too graphical for this site. Fear not, I will upload it under the same name.

CHAPTER 4: Surviving

A couple of months passed since Gajeel left in search of a cure. Levy was constantly followed by Pantherlily after he found her a couple of times on the cliff, looking down at the sea. He'd ask what she was doing and she'd answer she was only admiring the view. But he felt her depression. He felt she was able to end her life without thinking about the other guild members. Her heart was broken beyond repair and just by looking at him, she broke down in tears. So he decided to keep a safe distance, keep out of her sight until she calmed herself. Jet was the only one who could make her get back on her feet after talking to her. Lily never knew what Jet was telling her, but he was grateful the Speed mage had such an effect on her.

One day, Levy came by the guild, surprising everyone there. She couldn't stand being around people, feeling their pitiful stares, hearing all the whispered concerns and swearing directed to a certain Dragon Slayer. But she was hungry. She realized it's been weeks since she felt hungry, and she went to the guild, hoping Lucy would be there. The bluenette was in luck, Lucy Heartfilia was at her usual table, chatting away with Erza, Juvia and Lisanna. Elfman was laughing loudly with Evergreen in his arms, while Natsu and Gray were fighting, as always. Pantherlily hovered quietly behind Levy and went to the bar, where Mira served him the usual, Kiwi Cocktail.

"Hey,Lily. How's she holding up?" Mira asked with concern, watching Levy taking a few steps to Lucy's table.

"Not good… She's getting worse… I was hoping Speedy would change that, but…" Lily trailed off, taking a sip from his drink.

"Then news about him would only hurt her more…" Mira placed a glass for herself and poured some whiskey. The Exceed snapped his head up and looked at the white haired girl. "Master received a pigeon in the middle of the night from Master Bob. Gajeel was brought to his guild by Ichiya when he roamed in the forest with his Exceed."

"Is he…"

"Master Bob said he's pretty shaken up, and he looks like hell… Master is in Lacrima conference with him right now." Mira downed her drink and slammed her glass on the counter.

Levy was careful each step, fearing her legs would give if Lucy looked at her with pity, just like everyone else did. Lucy turned as if she heard her thoughts, and a smile spread on her face.

"Levy-chan!" She jumped from her chair and hugged her friend tightly, beaming. Levy found herself smiling, Lucy had such an effect on everyone around her. Natsu and Gray stopped from their fist game and turned simultaneously. Everyone looked with surprise at her, welcoming her warmly.

Levy took a seat next to Lucy and ordered some food. Mira served them all and grabbed a chair from a neighboring table, joining them for an early dinner. Levy found herself having fun and laughing, forgetting about the constant pain in her chest. Jet joined them a while after and started chatting happily with all of them, glancing once in a while at the bluenette. Lucy noticed quickly something was up with him and hoped Levy was over Gajeel, especially after the way he left. Jet was more than understanding and more than supporting. He was kind and loving and knew exactly what to say to Levy whenever she had one of her fits. At one point, Jet told a joke and made Levy laugh with tears. Natsu and Gray looked content as she was laughing.

"Jet, you lucky bastard, you made Levy laugh!" Natsu slapped Speedy hard on the back, choking him. "I thought I'd never see that smile again after..." Lucy slapped him hard on the back of his head, glaring menacingly. "Hey! The heck are you..."

"Shut up, flame brain!" Gray tackled Natsu seeing Levy's smile fading.

"We can't avoid talking about that dumb ass forever!" Natsu slammed Ice boy on the ground.

"Natsu!" Lucy got up from the table with a firm scowl on her face.

"You know I'd kick his sorry ass if and when he comes back, after what he did, it would be a miracle if Master would let him back..." No one noticed Levy when she got up from the table and headed for Natsu, but everyone saw when she punched him hard in the face, tumbling him on the ground.

"Levy..." Gray saw the angry look on Levy's face and had no idea how to react. Nobody had even seen the Script mage angry, let alone throw a punch. Not to mention being strong enough to throw Natsu on the ground with one punch. So everybody gaped at the bluenette. Jet came fast behind her and grabbed her arm, pulling her back from her fit.

"Levy, don't!"

"Let me go!" Levy yanked away from Jet and headed for Natsu again with a killer look in her eyes, but Jet called Droy for help, using his vines to stop the angry woman. "Get the fuck off me! I will NOT let him break my last hope of him coming back to me! LET GO!" Angry tears pooled in her eyes as she relaxed and slumped her hands. Droy released her hands, calling back his magic. The silence was too heavy for Levy and she felt every eye on her, watching her tremble. The pity in their stares rolled over her like a sickening feeling, so she turned on the spot and ran out into the cool evening.

"You just HAD to open the taboo subject, idiot!" Jet helped Natsu up and ran after Levy. As soon as Jet was out the door, the whole guild jumped on Salamander, yelling at him (and for good reason).

Jet used his magic to check Levy's home. Of course she's not here... He ran again, going to Gajeel and Levy's training spot, but still she was nowhere to be found. Jet was getting worried, thinking hard.

"She's at her favorite spot, on that hill outside Magnolia." Lily hovered over the Speed mage with his arms crossed. Jet looked up and gave the Exceed a thank you smile, disappearing behind a cloud of dust. In seconds, he reached the fig tree that was watching over Magnolia and saw Levy's couched form. It was already dark and the moon was high up in the sky. He walked calmly, catching his breath, letting her know he was walking towards her. Levy didn't move, she kept sobbing in her knees even after he took a seat on the grass next to her. He let her be and, when she jumped in his arms, he didn't say anything. He just let her cry.

TBC

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