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My simple reply was all the permission Edward needed.

I felt his lips against my neck and I sighed at his touch. He began to lick and suck below my ear and I couldn't help the porn star moan that escaped my lips.

"You like that huh?" He asked smugly before he pulled my earlobe into his mouth and sucked it gently.

"Oh shut the-" I didn't get to finish my sentence because that's when Edward decided to bite down on my lobe. "EDWARD!" I bucked my hips up and he groaned into my neck.

What was this boy doing to me? Making me scream out and writhe beneath him by fucking around with my ear? I was completely unaware that the ear led straight to the vag.

"Bella I want you so fucking bad." He groaned out into my neck. I could feel how hard he was and I wanted him just as much. But I knew I couldn't sleep with him, at least not yet. I wasn't stupid enough to think I could deny this boy for long. He reduced me to a puddle of goo with one sentence for fuck's sake!

"Touch me Edward." He pulled back and stared into my eyes. "Are you sure, Bella?" Gone was the smug boy, he was replaced by my best friend. I simply nodded and pushed on him a bit, silently telling him to get up. I sat up and removed my shirt and bra without a word.

Edward's eyes zeroed in on my breasts and the hunger in his gaze made my entire body tingle with anticipation. I laid back down and crooked a finger at him. He smiled and laid back down on top of me but not before removing his own shirt.

He was so gorgeous. I didn't know how I'd never noticed before. Had he always had this many muscles? I don't even think that could be considered a six pack. Was an eight or ten pack a real thing? I ran my hands down along his abs and he shuddered at my touch. I loved the affect I had on him. It made me feel powerful.

He began to kiss and lick all around my breasts, avoiding my nipples on purpose to tease me. "Please." I begged and jut my chest out toward him. He used the tip of his tongue to lick one nipple quickly and I arched my back and moaned at his touch. "Fuck, Edward, more please…"

He sucked my nipple into his mouth and I felt as if I was being devoured and consumed. I loved it. I grabbed one of his hands and placed it on my other breast and he began to tweak and pinch my nipple while he sucked the other. It was all too much, and I cried out.

"Fuck Bella, your tits are perfect. You're perfect. I never realized how fucking beautiful you are." His words set off a fire inside me and I grabbed his hair to pull his lips toward mine. They crashed together, our tongues exploring each others mouths with vigor.

He rocked his hips into mine and I moaned like a whore. It really couldn't be helped. He felt too fucking good, rubbing his hard dick right where I needed it most. Control yourself Bella.

"Do you want me to fuck you Isabella?" His voice was rough with desire and his emerald eyes were literally melting away my resolve. I bit my lip and nodded. Edward smiled triumphantly and kissed me quickly before laughing. "I'm not going to fuck you tonight Bella." I think I pouted. Edward laughed harder this time. Yep, definitely pouted. "I won't fuck you while your parents are downstairs." Oh shit, good point. I had completely forgotten about my parents. I felt my cheeks flame with my traitor blush. "It's okay, I forgot they were there too." He admitted and I felt marginally better. "I also won't fuck you while you're with Jacob Black." His voice was laced with anger that he was obviously trying to control.

"I'm not with Jake. We hung out once. Well twice if you count tonight."

Edward frowned at me. "I'm sure that's not how Jake sees it."

"What about Lauren?" I shot back.

"What about her?" He looked confused.

"She think she's with you." He shook his head and I sighed. "You're so blind Edward. Of course she does. She was practically glowing with her victory over snagging Edward Cullen." He was about to speak but I cut him off. "And don't even think that leaving her like you did tonight will deter her. I know girls like Lauren."

Edward cocked his head to the side and sighed heavily. "I guess you're right. I'll make it clear that I'm not with her if you do the same with Jake."

"Deal." I agreed easily. Fuck you Lauren Mallory.

"So what does that mean for us?" I asked, feeling a little embarrassed at having to ask.

"I don't know. I don't want to put a label on it. Everyone will make a big deal out of it." He shrugged and rubbed his dick against me again.

I swear my eyes crossed. It baffled me that he felt so good when we were both dressed and practically just dry humping.

I got control of myself and leveled him with a glare. "I will not be your secret Edward Cullen."

"I'm not asking you to be Bella, but you know everyone will make a big deal out of us. Do you even want there to be an us?"

Yes. "No. I don't know."

Edward shot me a disbelieving look.

"It's all too confusing Edward. That's why we should stop before we start."

"No."

"Why not?" I asked.

"Because I don't want to, and neither do you."

"I know." No sense in denying it.

"No labels. No drama. Just…go with it, okay?" He asked hopefully.

"Okay." It would have to do for now. I didn't know what was going on with us, and it was scary, but stopping before I had a chance to find out was scarier.

I'd just go with it and see where it led us. That didn't sound so bad.

-XXX-

Edward and I made out and touched a little more before we heard my parents making their way upstairs to their bedroom. Once it was safe to do so, I kicked Edward out. We were definitely not having sex and I wasn't letting him get any further than we'd gone anyway.

He pouted for a while but eventually agreed that it was the smart thing to do. I told him I'd talk to Jake at school and now that Monday was here I was regretting my promise. I'd ducked Jake for most of the morning but we had English together after lunch so I couldn't avoid him any longer.

"Bells!" He bellowed as soon as he entered the classroom. Jake looked great in his football jersey and a pair of snug jeans. I'd had a crush on Jake for practically the entire summer because I thought he was so cute. One kiss from Edward demolished all that and it kind of pissed me off. It would be so much easier to be with Jake. As mean as it was to think, I knew if things didn't work out with him I'd survive the loss of our friendship. The same couldn't be said for Edward.

"Hey Jake." I greeted as he sat down next to me.

"How was the rest of your weekend?" He asked with a smile. Jake was always so sweet and it made me feel like a guilty bitch.

"Uneventful." I lied and shrugged. "Yours?"

"Eh, the same I guess. I missed you though." He said before smiling and kissing my cheek.

God, I'm a terrible person.

I tried to smile back but I'm pretty sure it was a grimace. Jake eyed me speculatively. He may be a jock but he was far from stupid. "Everything okay Bells?" He asked, sounding concerned.

No. "Yeah."

He cocked an eyebrow. "We'll talk after class okay?" I needed the time to figure out what I'd say to him.

He looked as nervous as I felt. "Okay Bells."

-XXX-

Any other day English would have dragged on, but no, today it flew by. Before I knew it we were walking out toward the quad and snagging an empty table. We only had a five minute break before our next class so I had to make this quick.

"Jake…" I took a deep breath and reached for his hand. He supplied it without question and I gave it a squeeze. "I really like you Jake."

"Bella, are you breaking up with me?" He asked softly, emotion filling his eyes.

God. Terrible person.

"Jake…we were never really together."

Hurt crossed his features before he reined it in.

Fuck! Fix it.

"I didn't mean it like that Jake." This was hard. "I just don't want to lose our friendship okay? I'm not over Riley and I know I won't be a great girlfriend right now. If we started something and it failed because of me…I couldn't bear to be responsible for ending our friendship too. I don't want to lose you."

It wasn't a complete lie. Part of me was still hurt over what happened with Riley.

He let out a long breath. "Okay Bells."

What? That simple. "Really?" Relief washed over me.

"Yeah." He grinned. "I'll wait for you. Take all the time you need."

Fuck. Bye relief, it was fun while it lasted. Hey guilt, back already?

"No Jake. I don't want you to do that."

He looked sad again. You suck Bella. "Why?" He asked.

I didn't know what to say. Jake saw something in my expression and his eyes turned angry.

"Is there someone else?" He asked, his tone hard and accusing.

I couldn't lie to him anymore. He deserved better.

I took a deep breath and pulled on my big girl panties. Don't be a pussy.

"Yes."

A/N: For those of you who read it, RSA! will be updating in a few hours. xoxo