Chapter 4
Victory to Misery to Victory
It has been nearly a week since Adam has come back. I walked to band practice in hopes he will be there. But he never is… Nobody has heard from him since he disappeared. Monte' said he hasn't heard from him since he saw him the day me and Adam kissed. Now I don't bother going to practice… I haven't been eating much, never leave the house, and I stopped shaving, putting on make-up, and combing my hair too. I don't even think I have changed my clothes today. I would normally be drinking right now, but the alcohol cabinet is locked… I was sitting on the couch, just staring at a blank flat screen. And someone knocked on the door.
"The doors open…" I said loud enough for them to hear.
The door opened and Monte' came in worried.
"Yo Tommy, you haven't been to practice for two days. Is it because of Adam?" He asked sitting next to me.
"Yeah, he's my best friend…" I said with no emotion.
"Well Tommy, I got a text from him just a while ago. I tried calling you but your phone is dead." He said calmingly.
My eyes shot open, "What did it say?"
"He tried to text you but he didn't get any reply. So get your ass up and put it on the charger Blondie." Monte' said waving me away.
I grabbed my charger and plugged my phone into it near the couch. I turned it on and I had three texts from Adam.
Adam: Tommy, I'm sorry I have been gone for a while. But I just need to get myself together. I'll be back in a few days.
Adam: I haven't gotten a reply back, are you mad at me? Please don't be!
Adam: Tommy you're scaring me, are you okay? Please answer!
"Adam…" I whispered.
"Oh I got another text from him. Hold on, I'll read it to you. Monte' please check if Tommy is okay. He hasn't been answering my texts, is he mad or hurt? I'm scared Monte'!" He read aloud to me.
"I'll text him now." I said quickly texting Adam.
Me: Adam I'm fine. I have just been really messed up not knowing if you were okay or not. I have turned to shit since you left, just hella depressed. I miss you :'(
Then I got a call from Adam almost immediately.
"Tommy! I'm so sorry! I'm sorry for leaving you like that, I'm sorry for not telling you anything, and I'm sorry for making you worried! I miss you so much!" Adam wailed through the phone.
I almost started crying to be able to hear his voice again, "Adam I miss you too. I practically turned depressed, when are you coming home?"
"I was planning on tomorrow morning, but I want to come home now. I want to see my Baby, and give him a hug!" He said with his voice crackling.
Who the fuck was his Baby! Maybe' that's why he left… Because of his Baby… And he felt guilty for kissing me. That must be it!
"Adam, maybe' your Baby just needs someone to talk to. I could get Monte' or hell, even Cam." I said wondering who Baby was.
"Alright, you do that. I'll be home in two days. I am way out of state." He said with regret.
"What the fuck! Where are you!" I asked shocked.
"I'm in New York. I'll leave tomorrow morning and be back in two days. Try not to do anything stupid while I'm gone." He said yawning.
"Adam what time is it there? If you want to sleep, by all means, be my guest." I said worried.
"It's only like midnight Tommy. Just keep talking to… me…" He said trailing off.
"Adam, I want you to go to sleep, I'll be waiting for you here. Sweet dreams." I said softly.
"Okay, sweetest of dreams to you." He said hanging up.
I needed to figure out who the hell his Baby was, but not now. Night-time, my bed-time. I took a shower, shaved, and put on new clothes for the morning. I crawled into Adam's bed and went to sleep. Is that weird I went to sleep in his bed? It made me feel safe. His scent made me happy and comfortable. I went to sleep with my face buried deep into his pillow. I wanted Adam back… I wanted to laugh and joke around with him, have a glitter fight, and everything fun we could possibly do together… I had feelings for him, I hated it, but I knew I did.