A/N : Heres a new Chapter. Enjoy!
She felt someone was watching her. The feeling of someone eyes on her was the thing that woke her up.
When she opened her eyes she notices the room was still pitch black. And then she noticed him. He was sitting on the bed. She frowned. It looked as if he had been finishing changing and decided to sit in bed again. He only had on his pants, but the shirt was near him on the bed. Normally, Eren always leaves early before anyone can go looking for her.
Since they started this thing they have, they try to see each other whenever they can. Most of the time it is in her room very late at night, other times it has been sporadically when they know that they will be somewhere together, and very few were in his room.
What they have does not have any kind of label either. She really enjoys Eren's company, more than she already enjoyed it before. The degree of trust that she has towards him has increased in such a way that Eren already notices when she is of a certain type of humor or when she is worried. When she is stressed he is always there to cheer her up. When she feels indecisive, he is there to help her come to his senses. And when she sometimes feels lonely, he is the best company.
The first time they were together was almost one week after the orphanage confession. She arrived late one night to her room, he was already waiting for her. They start talking, then kissing and from then on things escalated very quickly into the night. They both knew what they had to do, what they want to do, and despite the ignorance that they have, the encounter was something she had never experience before. She felt somehow awake, and she knows that Eren felt the same way too.
After that first time, all the times that have followed it has been a continuous learning for both. She has discovered what he likes, what makes him sweat, what makes him feel. He also learned how to make her forget about everyone and everything, and just focus on him. Only him.
You could say that their encounters are merely sexual, but it's a lie. Because there are always silences and hours that are filled by only conversations between them. Everything that worries them, everything they want, their dreams, their fears, everything is uncovered for the other person to see it.
Last night was not an exception. When she arrived at the room, Eren was already waiting for her. Although she felt that this time he was more aggressive, more accelerated than normal, it did not seem at all too strange. There was not much conversation. All the silences were filled by the moans and whispered words between them. It seemed as though both could not be satisfied, and they were looking for that which would fill them. That thing that would keep them calm and put an end to their despair. She was so tired that she fell asleep as soon as they finished doing it for the last time that night.
Now Eren wakes her up in another way. Looking at her as if she were leaving at any moment as if he were capturing that moment of her in the bed next to him.
Something inside her made her chill. In some way, she has a bad feeling
"Eren..are you going now?"
He kept looking at her in such a particular way. She sits on the bed to be more to his level. Noticing the movement she made, Eren shook his head and stared at his hands that until now she noticed they were clutched in the sheet of the bed. She worries immediately. This does not seem normal at all. She opens her mouth to tried again to question him, but he does it first.
"Historia..I..last night .." Frustrated he runs his hand over his face, then on his hair, ruffling it very hard.
She scoops a little more to him, but then decided it was better to be face to face with him. She sits now in front of him, her legs tucked under her.
"What happen? You know you're worrying me a little bit "she tried to sound a little playful, trying to encourage him.
Eren raises his head and looks directly into her eyes. As if taking strength, he breathes deeply.
" I have to tell you something. That was my intention yesterday when I came here. But I don't know how to even begin".
She understands him. She also has something to tell him. Something she already knows for a few days now, but she had lack the guts to tell him till now. The fear always seizes her first. But she knows that she should not be afraid. Eren will always be with her during this new path that she takes. She has no idea what could be so important that he have a hard time telling her, but maybe if she tells him her news first, that would encourage him, and he would tell her was on his mind.
Smiling, she takes Eren's hands between hers, surprising him immediately, she knows that the expression she has is one of almost love. since she herself learned of her condition days ago, the attraction she felt towards him has changed into something that she was a little scared of saying it at loud or even saying her to herself.
"I have something to tell you too. And neither had I the opportunity to do it "shyly she looks away from his face and locked her gazed in their hands together.
"I-m pregnant" she ends whispering. She does not trust herself to see Eren's expression.
With a silence that expands a couple of seconds, then for a couple of minutes, she feels Eren release his hands from between hers, and he brings them to both sides of her face, making her look at him. She felt her heart racing.
When she finally looks at his face, the first thing she notices is the smile he has. Eren just looks at her smiling, his eyes shining in a way that she believes she has never seen before. She can not help but smile back at him, and while she does so, a sense of calm and relief overflows within her. Eren is as happy as she is.
He drags her face towards him, while at the same time he also brings her closer, and they both end up kissing in a slow and passionate way. He ends up staying a little more, and she makes sure that no ones come looking at her for the rest of the morning.
He never told her what he was trying to say to her. But a couple of days later, instead of Eren in her room, she finds a letter from him. Explaining the reasons why he wasn't there. Explaining that he almost left everything for her, for their baby, but in the end, he decided what is best for their people, what he believes is ultimately better for her too. Telling her that they must continue with the plan they had talked about a long time ago, in the event that she was pregnant. Assuring her that he may not be able to be there now, but that in some way he is protecting them. her and the baby.
Never in her life did she cry as much as she cried that night. She thought that the feelings of loneliness were gone, but she was so wrong. She had never been so aware of her feelings for Eren until the moment he left. She loved him, and she couldn't tell him because he was not there. She loved him and she was alone.
The first thing she recalls when she woke up, is that she was thirsty. It was a little unnatural because it felt like she spent some time without water.
She opens her eyes and she feels totally misplaced. It takes a while to recognize that she was in her room, lying on the bed. After a couple of seconds, she reaches to her belly and touches it, making sure that the baby feels fine. She leaves her hand there waiting for a kind of signal, and then she has it. Her baby is kicking. She smiles. Feeling that everything is fine, she looks up at the window, it looks like is early in the morning.
She doesn't remembers falling sleep, but it seems that she went to bed pretty early. Her mind is still a bit cloudy. She stays in that position, trying to take a little more energy and be able to get out of bed.
At that moment the door opens, revealing him.
He stays at the door. She frowned. He looked like he is shocked to see her there. But it's her room, what could possible be out of the ordinary?
"You didn't knock." Her voice feels a little hoarse as if she had not spoken for a while.
Waking from his shock, he approaches her, sitting in a chair next to the bed, that she had not seen until now.
"His-toria ... how long have you been up?"
"Not much I think. A few minutes ago. But I'm a little confused. What are you doing in my room?". She tried to sit up now, but her strength was failing.
"Do not strain yourself." Despite his reproachful tone, he helps her to sit down. When he sees that she is comfortable, he sits back in the chair. Normally she would not accept much help, but she feels very weak.
"I do not feel very well. I feel so tired"
"Do you remember that you fainted?"
That surprised her. In her head there is no memory of fainting, she may have felt a little ill, but she does not remember much beyond that.
Notice her lack of response, he decided to further informed her.
"You fainted. That was one day ago. I found you lying in the room when I went to tell you that the food was ready". When he saw that her face was starting to turn to worry, he added quickly" I went to find the doctor right away, the first thing he did was verify that the baby was okay, and said that most likely You've had a lot of stress and that's why you could have fainted. The fact that you are not eating all the meals also leads to a little trouble. Remember that you have a baby to think about. If you hadn't wake up today, we would have taken you to the city. Your condition is not the best Historia."
"I-I do not know ... and-or I do not remember"
"It's totally normal. The doctor said that when you woke up, I would let him know immediately and he would come to see you right away. I'm going to leave you some food and I'll go to get him "
With that, he starts to stand up from the chair to go to the kitchen.
"Wait!" she calls, stopping his departure.
Turning towards her, he looks at her expectantly.
"All the time that I've been unconscious. Has something happened? "
Waiting for more information, he keeps watching her.
She tries to organize her thoughts. From the moment he said that she had been unconscious for so long, she could not help feeling that something important could have happened in that time.
"Someone came looking for me? There are news of the city? "
He remains silent, but she soon notices that his silence is more of indecision than of not wanting to answer. At that moment she knew that something really did happened.
"Tell me, please! Even though I'm here, I'm still the queen. Somehow you are in your duty to tell me what is happening! "
"Something happened, but i don't know if in your condition is OK for you to know." a little redundantly he tries to persuade her.
"Tell me!" Agitated she tried again, trying at the same time not to get excited. But it is practically impossible. Something happened, something he does not want to tell her, an in the deepest of her heart she knows is something important for her.
Diverting his gaze from her, and resting his focus on anything else in the room, he takes a sigh before answering.
"When the doctor came, he brought news. I can not tell you completely what happened, because I do not have much information either, but I know that there was some explosion at the military and someone escaped from jail"
An explosion in the military? jail? why didn't anyone tell her this thing?
"was everyone alright? Who escaped? ".
At that moment he decides to stare at her again.
"Everyone was OK, but I think there was a fatality. And the one who escaped..well, they say it was Eren Yeager"
At that moment her heart can not explode because it could not. Her betting was so loud inside her, that she thought he could also hear it.
Eren had been in jail and she didn't know. Eren escaped and she has no idea what he is up to. But the most important thing is that at that moment her heartbeat is quickened because she finally received some news about him. Because at last her wait may end sooner than she thought.