You wake up to a white room, with a light that's barely bright, on above your head. This is not a place you ever remember seeing before. You hear voices through the white door; you realize they must be talking about you. You can't remember how you got here, or why you're here, but it has to be something bad, because wires are hooked up to you, monitoring you. You hear the steady beep and see lines. You note that, it's monitoring my heart beat. You hear the door creak open, revealing a man in a white coat. You suddenly realize why all the wires and the doctor is here, you cut yourself, and you remember everything all at once. You head starts spinning, you close your eyes seeing if that works, and it does a help little bit. The doctor gives you a moment before he speaks.
"Hello, Miss Misa, I'm Doctor Cartwright. I believe you remember what has happened, I'm here to check your wrists and to see if they're healed properly and if so, you'll be allowed to go home." You nod your head as he finishes speaking. He takes the bandages off of your wrists and begins writing on a clipboard, soon he is finished, and you hope that everything is clear, as you don't like being in this place. It scares you. It reminds you of death.
"Well everything seems to be progressing normally, and that means that you're free to go home. I just need you to sign yourself here." He hands you the pen and you quickly sign it, hand shaking with fear and excitement. The doctor smiles at you before leaving. You look around for some fresh clothes and see some on the back of the chair in the room. You get up and change yourself out of the horrible hospital gown.
You walk out of the room and stop dead in your tracks. There's Joe, waiting for you. You walk up to him slowly, and he looks at blankly, you can tell he's angry with you, and it scares you. He grabs your hand and pulls you out of the hospital, and you're in the car before he starts screaming at you.
"How could you do that, Mace? Why the fuck would you scare me like that?" He questions you all at once, and you can't help the tears that fall from your eyes. You never meant to hurt anyone, you just wanted all the pain to stop, for it to be gone. But it didn't work out that way.
"I'm sorry," You whisper, hoarsely, your fragile voice cracking with each word. More tears spill out of your eyes as you think about what happened to your mum and dad, and that they would have been disappointed in you. They died, in a car crash. You were there, in the car, but somehow you managed to get out before the car went up in flames, but you still have the scars on your body.
You still have the reminder of what happened every single day, because those scars are never going to go away, they always going to be there, but your parents aren't going to be here anymore. They should be here, with you. They should see their first grandchild, they should see you get married. Your dad should have been the one to give you away to the man of your dreams, but he can't, and they're not going to see those things.
You don't even realize at your at Joe's house until he gets out of the car.
"Why am I here?" You ask whilst getting out of the car. You don't want to be here, you want to be at your own home, where you can just lie in bed for ages and think about how fucked up your life is.
"Because, I'm not letting you go home, where there are knives and other sharp objects." He says, and you shrug at him, it wasn't as if you were planning to do it again.
"You can't control me, Joe." You say.
"Fucking control you, Mace? You almost fucking killed yourself... I don't know what I would of done if you'd... just, fuck, Mace!" He says, pushing you against the wall. "I can't lose you Mace." He says, and you almost don't catch it because it's so quiet.
"You won't lose me, I promise." You say, and you surprise because of how much honesty you just put into those words.
"But what if I do, huh Mace? What if one day you suddenly realize you can find someone better than me, someone who isn't a prick to you most the time. What if you leave me because you know... you know you can find someone who is better than me, and that someone can love you more than I could ever love you, and could make you happier than I can?" Tears fall down your face as he says this, because you know there is no one better than him, no could ever take his place.
Even if you wanted them to, they could never make you smile like does, never make you feel the way you do, and that scares you, almost, and it scares you even more because you completely and totally in love with him.
"You won't Joe, I'm here. And I'm here to stay, whether you want me to or not. And whether I want to or not, I can't go, you're like a drug to me, I can't live without you. Why do you think I did this? The pain was too much... I thought I'd lost you, Joe." You say, putting as much emotion into your words as you can.
"You can never lose me, Macy. I'm here too, and I'm here to stay." He whispers to you before catching your lips in the most breath-taking kiss you've ever shared.
"God Mace, I love you." He whispers to you huskily. You shut him up with another kiss to his lips, taking in the moment that was so perfect it could end any time. You feared it would soon and you deepened the kiss, making sure that he could never leave you.
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Please don't kill me for not updating in forever... I've had the worst year this year. My mum has had cancer, (which is thankfully gone now), and she has Manic depression, and I'm practically her care-taker since I'm the only one who's living with her... OK, I'm done ranting now. Haha.
I hope you enjoyed this chapter, and I'm sorry for the boringness of it.
Review please...