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Chapter 4: Leaving Again
Santana's POV
"I can't believe you let them win Britt" I say to Brittany after we just lost at ten pin bowling. Britt and I were steaming ahead to the point where no one could catch us then suddenly Brittany decided that it would be best if she and I didn't win so she deliberately screwed it up.
"It's just a game plus Tina really wanted to win" Brittany says. "It's not the winning but the taking part that counts."
"Believe me babe, it's the winning that counts" I reply. "I am an extremely competitive person Brittany Pierce, a Lopez never gives up even if they are dying or a hundred or something."
"It was a silly game, there is no need to take things so seriously" Brittany tells me. "How about I take you to get some ice cream to cheer you up?" Brittany suggests. "We could get some ice cream then go back to my house and watch a movie."
"Fine" I agree. "I have one condition though" I say holding up my finger. "In addition to the movie and ice cream, I also get to make out with you."
"Well duh, that goes without saying" Brittany says with a smile.
"Thank you" I say before giving Brittany a kiss on the lips.
"Get a room" Puck says laughing.
"Mind your own Puckerman" I retort before I face Brittany again. "Are you ready to leave now?"
"Yeah" Brittany replies.
"We're leaving now guys" I say. "I was thinking we could all meet up tomorrow night before I leave on Monday morning if you are all free."
"Sounds good" Artie replies. "Where are we meeting up?"
"We can meet at Britt's place and then take it from there and decide what to do then" I reply.
"Great, see you all tomorrow then" Rachel says smiling. "I could bring over some sheet music and we could do a little karaoke session or something."
"We will see about that Berry but in the meantime, it was good to see you all again" I say. "I missed you guys."
"We missed you too" Mercedes says.
"Anyway, enough of this talk. Let's leave all the sad talk until tomorrow" Brittany says before we all say our goodbyes.
"I don't think I have ate so much ice cream in all of my life" I say as I rub my stomach. "I am going to look so fat when I get back to California."
"Fat?" Brittany says laughing. "As if Santana, you work out more in one day than I do in a week. There is no way you could ever be fat."
"Thanks babe" I say pecking Brittany's lips. "So what do you want to do for the rest of the night?" I ask before Brittany comes over and lies down on the bed next to me. "Aside from almost bouncing me off the bed, you shouldn't make people bounce like that when they are full of ice cream. What happens if I was sick on your bed?"
"I would give you a bucket of soap and water and you would clean it" Brittany answers.
"What about the in sickness and health vow" I reply.
"That vow applies to married couple's not best friend's honey" Brittany says looking at me. "I love taking care of you but I am afraid cleaning up the contents of someone else's stomach is not high up on my 'to do' list."
"Ok so we're not married but we're more than best friends" I say. "I mean I don't know anyone else who would have sex with their best friend like we did."
"You would be surprised, it's more than you think" Brittany says. "You're right though, we are more than just best friends." I nod my head at Brittany, satisfied with her answer. "What are our plans then? It's way too early to go to sleep."
"I don't know if I want to watch another movie" I say. After Brittany and I got back from bowling and buying ice cream we sat and watched two movies while we ate our ice cream but to be honest I wasn't really watching the movie, I was too busy glancing at Brittany every chance I got.
"How about we just hang out then?" Brittany suggests. "We could just cuddle and talk about stuff."
"Ok" I respond as I pull Brittany closer to me. I know it sounds boring just lying in bed talking but to Brittany and me it isn't, ever since we became best friends we used to love to just talk about anything and everything with each other. You would think that we would run out of things to say but we don't, there is always something new that has us chatting for hours.
We ended up talking about movies and school and whatever else for the next hour or so before I decide to take a bold move and decide it is time to ask Brittany what I've wanted to ask her since we got back from bowling; 'Are we girlfriends?'.
"Babe" I say earning a hum from Brittany. "Can I ask you something?" I say as the nerves creep into my voice a little.
"You can ask me anything" Brittany replies. "Providing it doesn't involve me exerting myself too much because my arm and back are still killing me from when I tried to lift that blasted bowling ball" Brittany says. "Remind me not to go ahead with anything Puck tells me again, telling me that the heaviest ball was the lightest causing me an injury."
"Is your back still sore babe?" I ask sympathetically getting a nod from Brittany. "How about I give you a massage?" The concern I have for Brittany makes me completely forget what I was going to ask her.
"Really?" Brittany asks excitedly causing me to laugh.
"Yeah" I reply. "Lie down on the bed on your stomach and take your top off while I go grab some lotion and pain relieving gel."
"You're the best Santana" Brittany says with a sigh.
When I return back to the bedroom with the products I find Brittany on the bed on her stomach with one pillow under her head and the other pillow under her pelvis. "You comfortable?" I ask getting a muffled yes and a slight nod of the head from Brittany. "I will just start then" I say before squeezing the lotion into my hands and rubbing it between my palms to heat it up before I place both of my hands on Brittany's back to smooth the lotion evenly to cover her. I massage the lotion all around Brittany's body while gently trying to work on her back muscles to loosen any tightness before I put the pain relieving gel on. "You're just going to feel a little weight and pressure on your butt?"
"My butt?" Brittany asks as she raises her head from the pillow. "It's my back that's sore not my butt, keep your massaging skills PG please Lopez, if you must touch my butt then you can do it later."
"Very funny but I meant I am going to sit on your butt so I can get easier access to your back" I say to which Brittany hums in agreement before laying her head back on the pillow.
"Make sure you really dig deep when massaging my lower back, it's quite tight" Brittany says as I straddle the back of her thighs and butt.
"I got it" I say while carrying on my previous actions.
"Aw that feels so good… right there" Brittany sighs out. "You can unhook my bra if it is getting in the way" Brittany tells me which immediately causes my heart to race. It is such an innocent thing yet after what happened between us this morning I just can't stop my mind from running away with me. Every normal or innocent sentence I absorb as the double meaning derivative in my head. "Santana, what's up?" Brittany asks. "Why have you stopped?"
"I was daydreaming babe, sorry" I reply. Brittany immediately turns round to face me, covering herself with the blanket on her bed in the process.
"You were thinking about how you need to go home on Monday" Brittany says. "Weren't you?"
"I wasn't actually" I say as I sit next to Brittany. "But I guess it has been at the back of my mind" I admit. "You know on that plane this morning all I could think about was my crazy plan."
"What crazy plan?" Brittany asks.
"It doesn't matter, it's stupid" I say. "There was no way it could ever happen so I don't know why I got it into my head that it could."
"Nothing is stupid, tell me the plan" Brittany says as she places her hands on top of mine.
"I was going to get a job to earn some money so that I could move back here and maybe if I offered to pay rent your parents would let me live here" I say. "It is crazy and stupid, I know."
"No it isn't, I think you moving in here is an amazing idea" Brittany says. "You know more than anything that I just want you back here, I know it seems cheesy but you're like the most important person in my life."
"Ditto, you are the most important person in my life" I reply before kissing Brittany.
"Steady, you nearly pulled the blanket away from" Brittany says with a smirk. "I almost exposed myself."
"You're my girlfriend, it's not like I haven't seen your boobs before" I say before realising I just dropped the g word. Note to self, Santana, you didn't actually get around to asking Brittany if she was your girlfriend yet. Sure it would make sense that we were girlfriends if we dated for a bit and stuff but we haven't, all we did is kiss then have sex. It wasn't just sex though, it…
"I'm your girlfriend?" Brittany questions with a smirk on her face causing me to look away in embarrassment.
"Eh… maybe" I say nervously as I avoid eye contact with Brittany. Do I want Brittany to be my girlfriend? Yes. Do I want her to want to be my girlfriend? Yes also. I am just really apprehensive that she won't want to be. We haven't really done anything that constitutes as girlfriends apart from sleep together and being really close best friends.
"Is that a yes or a no?" Brittany asks.
"Do you want to be my girlfriend?" I counter with a question of my own.
"I asked you first" Brittany says smiling.
"I think it is a decision we should both make" I say. "If we both want to be girlfriends then, yes we are girlfriends but if one of us, for example you, don't want us to be classified as girlfriends then we're not." I turn to face Brittany head on and I take a deep breath. "I want to be your girlfriend regardless of any distance between us or the fact that it seems a little out of the blue."
"Ok then, we're girlfriends" Brittany tells me.
"So that means that you want to be my girlfriend?" I say but the only response I get from Brittany is a kiss. A kiss that soon leads to a heated make out session on Brittany's bed which abruptly has to stop when there is a bang at the door. "Crap, who's that?"
"I'm not sure, let me grab my 'seeing through door goggles' then we will know" Brittany replies with a cheeky grin.
"You know something Pierce, sarcasm really doesn't suit you" I say.
"Yeah, whatever. Can you just pass me my shirt please?" Brittany asks so I get up and grab Brittany's shirt from her chair before handing it to her and then I answer the door when she puts it on. "Who is…?"
"SANTANA" Is the sound I am greeted with when I open the door and see Brittany's eight year old brother Tommy.
"Hey Tom-Tom" I say as I pick the boy up. "I missed you man."
"I missed you too" Tommy says as he clings onto me. "Brittany said you were coming back today but I've been out all day so I never got to see you earlier, it isn't fair that Brittany can see you more than me."
"I know Tom, Brittany is just a really possessive and greedy person" I say playfully. "She always wants to have me all to herself."
"She does" Tommy agrees nodding his head. "I think she forgets that we friends" Tommy tells me with that cute little face. "You's are friends too but me and you are also friends."
"I know Tom, so how about you and I spend some time together tomorrow and make breakfast for everyone" I suggest.
"Like old times" Tommy asks, his eyes going wide from excitement.
"Exactly, just you and me in the kitchen with no Brittany or your parents" I say. "How does that sound?"
"Awesome" Tommy replies with a smile.
"I think it is time for your bed Tom" Brittany tells her younger brother.
"I think it is time for you to share Santana" Tommy retorts.
"Just go to bed" Brittany says annoyed.
"Just go to bed" Tommy mimics Brittany's words before Brittany screams for her mom and Susan enters the room.
"What's wrong Brittany?" Susan asks worriedly.
"Tommy is being a pain" Brittany says, sticking her tongue out at her brother.
"That's it?" Susan asks, getting a nod from her daughter. "Brittany, you screamed like something bad had happened. I thought someone was hurt sweetheart but it turns out you and your brother are having another argument" Susan says. "Both of you behave please" Susan tells her two children. "It's time for your bed though Thomas so say goodnight to the girls then make your way to the bathroom to clean your teeth then go to bed, I will tuck you in in ten minutes."
"Ok Thomas, you are on toast duty now" I say the next morning.
"Ok" Tommy says smiling. "Do you want me on washing up duty too?"
"Sure but please be very careful in case there are any knives" I say.
"Good morning" Brittany says as she walks into the kitchen. "Mm, something smells good" Brittany says as she wraps her arms around me from behind.
"I am glad you like the smell of my cooking" I say as I turn in Brittany's arms to face her.
"I wasn't talking about the cooking" Brittany says with a wink before kissing me.
"Don't kiss me, what if Tommy sees?" I say as I move away from Brittany. "If Tommy sees us then he will tell your parents and then if they find out we are girlfriends then they might not let me stay here in case they don't trust us alone."
"Of course they trust us, they always have" Brittany tells me.
"They trust us when they know we are best friends but what about when they find out we're having sex" I whisper. "I love your parents' babe but they can be strict at times especially when it comes to boyfriends."
"I know but I don't have a boyfriend, I've got a Santana instead" Brittany says. "They love you Santana so me having you as a girlfriend is different from having a boyfriend."
"Boyfriend or girlfriend it doesn't matter which, if you are having sex then they won't like it babe" I state. "Your dad nearly flipped when he found out you went to dinner with Mike and he was just a friend."
"Fine, we can keep it quiet from my parents" Brittany says.
"Thank you, now go help your brother. I am not convinced he is washing the dishes correct" I say.
Brittany's POV
"Is it ok if some of Santana and my friends come over for a bit after dinner tonight?" I ask my parents as we all sit at breakfast. "We were all going to hang out here and watch a movie or something."
"Of course sweetheart" my mom replies. "As long as they go home at a decent hour since it will be an early rise tomorrow with Santana leaving."
"It will just be a couple of hours" Santana says.
"That's fine then" my dad says this time before we all finish our breakfast and do our own thing for the rest of the day.
It was about nine o'clock tonight when everyone left after we watched two movies and ordered pizza so Santana and I say goodnight to my parents and Tommy before we head off to bed. It feels like Santana only got here five minutes ago yet she is almost leaving already. I really hate this feeling, instead of feeling this miserable I should be happy that I am lying here in Santana's arms but I just can't help being pessimistic. "What are you thinking about babe?" Santana asks me as she leisurely strokes my arm.
"You" I reply in one word. "I really wish you weren't going."
"I know babe, I wish the same but we can't change the fact that I need to leave tomorrow" Santana says. "What we can change is our outlook on things."
"What do you mean?" I ask looking up at Santana.
"Let's think positive, I am definitely coming back for thanksgiving so that isn't far away" Santana says. "Plus we can still Skype, e-mail, text, phone or whatever else. Chances are that if I hadn't of moved to California we would have both had to resort to communicating through the phone or computer anyway because our school work would have stopped us spending so much time together."
"I guess but knowing you were just in the house next door rather than miles away was better even if we didn't see one another" I say.
"I know Britt but constantly thinking negative all the time will just get us more wound up and upset" Santana says. "We are unfortunately in a situation that we don't like but it won't be forever, let's make the best of a bad situation, ok."
"Ok" I reply before kissing Santana. After chatting for a while we both end up lying in silence enjoying each other's warmth until we both get sleepy so we kiss one another goodnight and let the sleep overcome us. I must only nod off for a couple of minutes because soon enough I am awake again with the thoughts of Santana leaving whirling around in my head.
I look over at Santana and when I am satisfied that Santana is definitely sleeping I place a soft kiss on her lips before I whisper in her ear. "I am so in love with you, I just wish I wasn't so scared to tell you out loud." I don't have the courage to tell Santana how deeply I feel for her because I am so scared, I'm scared because she lives in another state and I'm still here so I am not sure if we could have a proper loving relationship being so far apart. Even the strongest and most stable couples can't survive long distance relationships at times so I don't know how teenagers like me and Santana could, I know that some long distance relationships do work out really well, I just can't help that think Santana and I wouldn't be that lucky. I really hope Santana's plan can work out, I'm already dreading tomorrow when Santana leaves so I don't think I could cope with saying goodbye every time she comes to visit.
"Rise and shine baby b" Santana whispers in my ear. "We need to get up so we get to the airport in plenty of time." The smile that appeared on my face when I saw Santana above me soon disappeared when I heard the word airport. Our awesome weekend is abruptly coming to a close now that Santana has to leave. "Get rid of the pout there baby" Santana says kissing my lips.
"I can't, I don't want you to go" I admit.
"I don't want to go just as much as you don't want me to but I have to Britt" Santana says as she straddles my hips. "I really hate this situation but the sooner I get back to my dad then the sooner I can tell him that I want to move here to be with you."
"I suppose" I say defeated.
"It's tough but I promise you Britt, I am going to do everything I can to ensure I end up back here with you" Santana says. "You're my girlfriend and you're my best friend so I am making it my mission to be back here permanently by Christmas. I am definitely coming back for thanksgiving but I doubt I will have time to arrange everything to get me back for then."
"I don't mind waiting until Christmas as long as I know I will have you back in my arms before the New Year" I say earning a smile from Santana. "Sorry if that seemed a bit sappy or cheesy."
"I am going to miss you so much Britt" Santana says and I nod, I am going to miss her too. "I really should get organised so we don't end up running late, my dad booked me on such an early flight so I could be home early enough since I have school tomorrow." Santana places a kiss on my cheek before she disappears to the bathroom for a shower.
Once it reaches ten o'clock we all depart for the airport. My parents and brother decided they would come along because once Santana leaves my dad thought since we all had the day off we could have a nice family lunch plus he thought it would be a good thing to do to take my mind off the fact that Santana was gone, again. To be honest I think I will be grateful for the distraction because saying goodbye today is probably going to feel even worse than it did the first time she left, this time Santana is my girlfriend and all we both want to do is have a normal relationship.
"I think I am going to miss you" Tommy says to Santana as we drive to the airport. "Will you miss me?"
"Of course I will Tom-Tom, who else is supposed to help me cook" Santana replies.
"Are you going to miss Brittany?" Tommy asks.
"Absolutely, I am going to miss everyone" Santana answers while squeezing my hand. "Brittany the most" Santana whispers to me so no one else hears but her voice isn't as playful as it normally would be, her tone is full of seriousness.
"As soon as it is time for us to leave Santana, then I want you to go through customs and directly to your departure gate ok?" my dad says as he looks through the rear-view mirror of the car. "I don't want you wandering about such a large airport on your own and you wind up getting lost or miss your flight. When you get on the plane make sure you text Brittany and your father so we all know you got there safely then switch your phone to aeroplane mode."
"Ok" Santana answers. "I know what I am doing."
"I know, we do trust you" my dad replies. "I was just going over the procedure, you are a sensible girl Santana so I know everything will be fine."
"Thanks" Santana says.
"We will stay with you for as long as we can before it is time for you to head off" my mom says and just as she finishes my dad turns into the airport parking lot.
To say Santana and my goodbye was emotional is an understatement. We both promised one another that we wouldn't cry but we both ended up breaking our promises, I was the first to cry so I think I set Santana off. On the bright side though Santana will definitely be back for thanksgiving so that is only just over six weeks away so if I immerse myself in plenty of school work to distract me then I am sure, or more so hope, the time will fly by.
Once Santana text me saying that she got on the plane ok then we all left the airport and headed off to get something to eat. After lunch I just went and hung out with my friends which actually helped to take my mind off of Santana but as soon as I got home and went into my bedroom and saw the note lying on my bed then I got upset again.
Brittany,
I just wanted you to know that you are the most beautiful girl in the world to me. I count myself lucky to even be called one of your friends never mind your best friend or girlfriend. I've wanted to express my feelings for you for so long but I was too scared in case it ruined our friendship but now that you are my girlfriend and we seem to be on the same page then I don't feel scared anymore. I like you Brittany, a lot and I just wanted you to know because you mean the world to me and I am going to do everything I can to make sure I get back to you as soon as possible.
p.s. I'm in love with you too so let's make a deal to tell each other that out loud next time instead of whispering it when we think the other is asleep or saying it through a piece of paper.
Love you baby b,
Santana xxx
A/N: hope the chapter was ok, let me know what you think.