Even though Spencer knew that her best friend was gay, she wouldn't, she couldn't tell her that she was gay as well. So many different things could go wrong. Ashley could hate Spencer because Spencer likes her. Ashley could get really freaked out cause they're best friends. So many different things, it's too risky to chance Spencer thought. It was better this way, Ashley never knowing that she had a little school girl crush on her. It was better if Ashley just slept around with random women and Spencer would just go out with Aiden. It's just a lot simpler that way, simple for everyone especially the blue eyed blonde.
So the two girls stayed up the entire night talking about what happened earlier in the bathroom. Spencer would ask questions, knowing that she would get jealous but she was good at hiding her feelings so it was okay. Ashley would answer her best friends' questions, knowing that it hurt her but she would never admit it to Spencer, so she hid the guilt and the pain and continued on answering the curious blondes' questions.
The two girls were really quiet for a short moment of time as they sat on Spencer's bed, "so…" Ashley looked at her best friend, a little nervous that Spencer would hate her guts now that she knew she was gay, "What's it like?" Ashley looked at her questionably, "I mean… kissing a girl…" Spencer didn't look at Ashley; she kept her focus on her comforter.
Ashley sat there for a second debating on how she should answer the question, "Um… well, I can't really explain it much, Spence." And those blue eyes that Ashley falls into every time she looks in them quickly look up at her, "I mean… it's just hard. Girls are a lot better of a kisser that's fer sure." The girls shared laughter and the blonde couldn't help but thinking of how bad she wanted to try kissing a girl. Try kissing Ashley, but she'll never tell her. "You don't care that im gay… right, Spencer?" Ashley finally asked with a shaky voice.
Spencer looked at the brunette and just smiled at her, "Not one bit." She hugged her best friend then and breathed in, "You're still my best friend." She took in the smell of the brunette and she closed her eyes. She could stay in this position forever but she knew she shouldn't so she pulled away, "Just don't go falling in love with me." Spencer said with a light, nervous laugh.
Ashley smiled but thought to herself that it would be the hardest thing not to do in her entire life, "Okay I'll try." She laughed nervously along with the blonde. She knew that she would never succeed Spencer's wishes, which disappointed her and made her sad but she couldn't let the blonde see that.
Spencer's blue eyes stared into Ashley's brown eyes and she herself was sad, because that's all she wanted Ashley to do. Was fall in love with her, change her life, make her 100 percent happy again. Make her the girl of her dreams come true. Ashley noticed the sadness in those blue eyes, but decided against the fact to ask about it. She shouldn't know Spencer that way to see what she's truly feeling on the inside through her eyes. So instead, she insisted on getting some sleep, and Spencer couldn't ever object to sleeping next to this beauty.
Years would pass and Ashley would sleep with girls, keeping them only for a two week period. If the girl was good enough, she'd keep her around for a good month or so. She never did commit fully to anyone and she never could keep to Spencer's request on not falling in love with her. It was simply impossible for the brunette to do. But Ashley knew that Spencer and she wouldn't ever have a chance and she was 19, she had her GED, and she was becoming famous quick with the gift of her voice. She dropped out shortly after her junior year started, the same year Aiden and Spencer would start going out. But they would never know the real reason to why she dropped out. She needed to find someone she could call her own and run to whenever, but whenever she thought about that, Spencer's face would race to her mind.
This was senior year for Aiden and Spencer, the happiest day for the couple and one of the worst ones for the famous trio. Ashley sat next to Arthur, Clay, Chelsea, Glen, and Madison as she waited to watch her entire class walk across the stage that she should have been walking across this very day, but she couldn't handle seeing Aiden and Spencer always kissing and being cute. They all sat there for what seemed like forever before the students would walk across the stage. And finally it was Spencer's turn to walk and Ashley watched her proudly from the stands. She finished highschool with being top in her class. She was valedictorian and she gave her speech to over 3000 people and Ashley sat there smiling knowing how long she worked on that speech. Ashley heard it over hundred times, helping Spencer write it and revise it. They stayed up late for so many nights, but neither one of them cared.
After the ceremony was done, everybody met in the quad and Ashley looked around the quad for both Aiden and Spencer and she couldn't find either of them. Her vision then went completely black and she gasped at the coldness of a pair of hands that were covering her eyes, "Guess who?!" The blonde tried desperately to disguise her voice but failed miserably.
Ashley laughed, "Umm… Santa Clause?" And she heard the blonde gasp and takes her hands away, her mouth opened in shock.
"Are you calling me fat?" And they both laughed and Ashley hugged Spencer tightly, "I wish you were up there to walk with me." Spencer quietly admitted to the brunette as they pulled away.
Ashley just smiled and nodded and gave her best friend another hug, "Im proud of you Spencey, your speech was amazing." Spencer started to blush, it meant a lot to her to hear Ashley say those things to her. But all she could do was thank her before everyone else got their hugs in before they all went to dinner to celebrate.
At dinner, everyone had an amazing time. But every time someone would bring up the topic of college, Spencer would some how find a way to change the subject quickly without anyone hardly noticing it. But Ashley realized then, that Spencer never told her or Aiden where she planned on going to college. "Spencer." Ashley said to the blonde who sat next to her, closer than she should be. Spencer turned her head and smiled brightly, she was happy. She raised her eyebrows, "Never mind. I forgot." Spencer laughed and playfully nudged Ashley and continued on listening to what Clay was saying about his first year of being the youngest successful heart surgeon.
Aiden kicked Ashley from underneath the table and she glared at the raven boy, "Come outside with me real quick." And Aiden was about to get up but Ashley told him no, "What? Come on Ash, it's important." He quickly looked over at Spencer and then back at Ashley and she knew that he wanted to talk to her about his girlfriend. He couldn't go ten minutes without mentioning her name. And she knew how that felt. So she rolled her eyes and agreed to go outside but told him that she wasn't going to stand out here for a long time, she was hungry.
Spencer watched her two best friends walk outside of the restaurant and wondered to herself why she wasn't invited to go. But her eyes weren't on her boyfriend; they were on the brunette girl who was listening to him. She couldn't help but watch her and smile every time Ashley would smile. And then Ashley looked in through the windows and caught Spencer looking at her and they both smiled and turned away with a little shade of pink on their cheeks.
Aiden pulled out a little black box out from his jacket pocket and Ashley's mouth dropped, "Aiden!" And he laughed, "You know im gay. Why waste the money on a ring for me?" And he shook his head typical of his best friend.
"Ash you're so conceited." And she smiled proudly, "This is actually for her." And Ashley's face became very serious, "I was thinking of doing it after dinner. Take her to the beach and-"
Ashley cut him off quickly, "Aiden… what the hell are you doing? You don't even know where she's going to college. You can't ask her to marry you. Plus, she's only 18." And the raven haired boy just stared at Ashley with a disappointed look.
"It's a promise ring, Ash. And you're supposed to be supporting me with this, not freaking out." He shook his head and opened the box up to a gorgeous expensive diamond ring. "Im promising her that we're going to get married some day because she's the girl I want to spend the rest of my life with. When you find that perfect person so young, you can't let that kind of love go." He smiled his famous cocky smile. And as much as Ashley hated to admit it, Aiden was right. She couldn't let Spencer go because she too could only see her with Spencer when she's old and wrinkly.
The doors to the restaurant then flew open and Spencer stopped dead in her tracks, "Why wasn't I in on this little secret that you two are getting married?" She stood with her hands on her hips and Aiden quickly tried to hide the ring but the entire box fell out of his hands and the ring fell out as well. She tried to keep her laughter to herself but it spread and Ashley started to laugh. "Can I be the braids maid, oh dearest Ashley?"
And without thinking, Ashley let it slip, "I should be asking you that question." Aiden looked at her from the ground where he searched for the ring that he bought earlier that day for Spencer.
The blonde stood there in silence, "…What?"
"Ashley!" Aiden stood up, "You always ruin everything good!"
Ashley stood there and rolled her eyes, she knew it was an accident, "Aiden… stop. She doesn't ruin everything good. She puts the good in everything." And Ashley stood next to her best friend and just smiled at Aiden. "And why do you have a ring? You know im leaving for college." Spencer crossed her arms and watched as her boyfriend cleans the ring off from all of the dirt that it fell in.
Ashley quickly looked over at Spencer, "What!?" She exclaimed and Spencer sighed and looked at Ashley with sadness in her eyes and voice.
"Im sorry Ashley… I've been meaning to tell you since March… It was the hardest decision of my life basically," She chuckled and she saw that Ashley was devastated, she felt so bad, "Im sorry… I don't have to go; I can stay and go to one of the colleges here."
"Wow you offer her that when you didn't even offer your boyfriend that?" Aiden said slightly pissed off.
"Aiden." Both Ashley and Spencer said at the same time which made them smile, "Spenceee, I wish you would have told me sooner. Where are you even going?" She fidgeted with the hem of her shirt, not wanting to know the answer.
Spencer looked down at the ground, knowing that Ashley would be even more devastated with her answer, "Back to Arkansas." And Ashley didn't say anything, she just nodded. She was clearly hurt and she didn't care if she saw that she was hurt. "You'll still have Aiden though! He's just going to UCLA to play basketball." Spencer looked over at her boy, "Wish he would major in something though for a backup." She seemed uneasy with the whole topic.
"Spence, you know im going to make it in the NBA and I'll support us and you'll never have to work." Aiden slung his arm around his girlfriend and she shook him off.
"Aiden I want to work. That's why im going back south so I can really focus on my studies and not be so damn distracted." She looked over at Ashley quickly hoping that no one would notice it.
All three friends looked at one another in complete silence when Glen opened the door, "Foods here come eat."
"Finally!" Ashley said excited because she was starving and she wanted to get away from her two best friends who were making everything awkward and she was only going to get hurt.
Spencer turned to go into the restaurant but Aiden grabbed her arm, "I was going to wait to do this after dinner, but Ashley already ruined the whole surprise." He laughed a little but he knew it wasn't funny.
"Aiden don't." Spencer looked down at the box that held the ring. "I don't want to have to give you an answer right now. Im going to school 2000 miles away. I don't want to hold you back from anything." Aiden shook his head and was about to speak but Spencer beat him, "No let me talk…" She said in a shaky voice, "I can't be in a long distance relationship, Aiden, especially with that promise. What if you go to UCLA and find the girl of your dreams, you'll regret giving me that ring." She looked at him, "I don't want you going to some away game and you getting hammered and ending up sleeping with some whore." She glared at him, remembering back in junior year when that happened.
Aiden grabbed her hands, "Honey. You are the girl of my dreams. Im not letting you get away from me." Spencer looked away and shook her head.
"You just don't get it, Aiden." She took her hands back, "I don't want to be tied down when im so young." She looked in through the windows and watched Ashley and she sighed and looked back over at Aiden, "Im sorry Aiden… but once im out of college and I know what more I want in my life, if you still want to marry me, then give me this ring." She took his hands in hers and closed the box.
"Im keeping you to that, Spencer." And she smiled and kissed him on the cheek.
"Go to college and be a man now Aiden. Sleep with the head cheerleader, do whatever, okay? Don't let me hold you back." And Aiden looked away; he couldn't help but be sad because of this. She just broke up with him, but still told him that she would marry him. He didn't really exactly know how to feel. "Now let's go have a good rest of the night, Aid. We need it. Come on, we just graduated!" She said excited and she smiled and opened the door and he nodded, hiding the pain he was feeling just then.
Spencer sat back down in her chair next to the brunette and Ashley looked down at her hand and looked back up at Spencer shocked that she didn't take the ring. Spencer looked at Ashley and just smiled, and Ashley knew that smile. It was the smile that only Ashley got. But she still couldn't ever figure out what exactly it meant. But she didn't care then, Spencer didn't take Aiden's promise and that made her selfishly happy. Because maybe, just maybe, it's her chance to get what she can't have for once.