(A/N: Here it is for those of you that have been waiting...sorry)
Disclaimer: I didn't take her i swear. I'm only borrowing her, i'll give her and the rest of them back when i'm done i promise.
Chapter 3:
Getting detention sucked. Getting detention for being late because you were protecting the upstanding citizens of Tokyo from impending doom was just down right unfair. But it's not like I could of walked up to the teacher in the morning and been like…."Sorry I was late, I had to chase off a big scary monster to keep it from destroying people." That would be detention for a whole week. Consequently, I sat in the near empty class room at a quarter until four glaring at the clock much similar to the way I glared at my wall calendar this morning willing the numbers to change. Of course this method yielded much of the same results that I received from my calendar as I watched the second hand slowly creep around the clock on its own accord, refusing my wishes that it be a later time. I glanced over at my blue haired friend a couple of seats down that shared my same fate. Ami sat patiently and quietly and read a book. I envied her that distraction.
My mind was far too occupied to accomplish something like reading a book. I recalled what Tuxedo Kamen had said just before he left this morning. I sighed and let my head hit the desk.
'Why did life have to be so complicated.' I thought to myself. Something in my gut told me that we could trust Tuxedo Kamen, but my senshi had told me otherwise. 'Why did they have to be so protective of me anyway?' I thought. 'Technically I'm the most powerful person in the world.' That thought caused a hysterical laugh to bubble its way to my throat before I could stop it. I managed to block out most of it from escaping into the silent classroom, all except for a 'hah'. I quickly glanced over to the teacher to see if she had heard my slip up, and expelled a breath of relief that she was still obliviously grading papers. I didn't need to be sent home with a letter to my parents informing them that their daughter had lost her mind.
I felt a pair of eyes on me and glanced to my left. Ami had apparently heard my slip up and was eyeing me apprehensively. 'Great' I thought. If this morning's slip up hadn't alerted her to my troubled mind, then this would. I knew I would have to answer her questions later on. They really did worry too much. I glanced at the clock, who's face read 3:46. I sighed.
'Okay Usagi….a distraction…..something to do.' I thought. My mind shifted to thoughts of the mysterious tall dark and handsome prince from my dreams and I sighed inwardly at the thought of him 'He will unquestionably be intelligent.' I contemplated. 'And he will treat me like a princess……… um….like the one I am already.' I mentally snickered at the thought. 'He will be dashing, but that will be a given.' Although I could not picture his face clearly, I had no trouble imagining what I thought he would look like. 'He would definitely be handsome…..like Mamo-chan.' My thoughts directed themselves to the upper classman before I had even registered the change. I knew what awaited me after I could escaped the clutches of the school's extended hold on me, and finally make it to the arcade. The warm hug that I always received as soon as I got there that made me feel tingly all over. The male voice that would whisper hello in my ear at the same time, causing my insides to churn…..
"USAGI-SAN!!!!!!!!!!!!" Yelled the teacher right in my ear. I fell out of cloud nine and simultaneously out of my desk, yielding the results of flame red cheeks and bruised purple buttocks. "So you finally heard me huh?" Asked the teacher. Through my embarrassment of the moment I just nodded. "You and Ami-san are free to go." She said as she walked back to her desk. I grabbed my things and my remaining dignity, and headed towards the door, acknowledging that the clock now read 4:00.
'Why is it when I daydream time seems to sky rocket forward?' I mentally made a note of this for future reference as Ami and I walked out of the school towards the Crown Arcade. I stared hard at the ground in front of me as we walked, all the while feeling Ami's eyes boring into the side of my head. She finally spoke when she grasped the idea that I was not going to initiate any conversation on my own.
"Is something bothering you Usagi-chan?" She asked as we continued on our expedition along the sidewalk toward the arcade. "Because you know you can talk to me ." She continued. I hesitantly looked up and was greeted with sincere blue eyes full of concern. My eyes began to sting and I quickly glanced back down before she could notice.
"Just a lot on my mind lately Ami-chan. I have quite a bit resting on my shoulders you know." I reminded her. She looked down as if contemplating this. Then she glanced back up and smiled.
"I guess your right, we tend to forget just how much DOES rest on your shoulders Usagi-chan." She said. "But if you need to talk or just need a shoulder to lean on……."
"I know Ami-chan." I smiled back at her and was relieved that I didn't have to reveal all the heart wrenching feelings that seemed to plague my mind to her just yet.
The arcade was brimming with people by the time we arrived. We walked over to our usual booth where are friends were already waiting on us, there school was closer to the arcade than ours, and proceeded to sit down. However, before I managed this, a dark haired gorgeous specimen of the male species walked up to me and gently pulled me into the hug that I always fantasized about. I felt my body react to the contact almost before contact was even made. My arms naturally wound around his waist as he bent down to speak.
"Good to see you Odango Atama." He murmured into my ear, causing my already frazzled insides to zing. I stared up into his gorgeous eyes unable to find my voice for a few seconds.
"It's good to see you Mamoru-san." I said to him barely above a whisper…..as I had yet to find my whole voice. He smiled down at me as he released me and sat down in the booth with the rest of our friends. I sat down as well and prayed that I was the only one who could hear my heart hammering a hole in my chest. The girls were already engaged in a heated discussion about an upcoming party that a kid from Rei's school was going to throw.
"So his parents are going out of town for a few days?" Asked Minako, her eyes bright with anticipation.
"Yup" Replied Rei.
"And EVERYONE is going?"
"Mm-hmm."
"I bet there will be a lot of cute guys there" Exclaimed Makoto. Just then the conversation broke off into a discussion about boys, which included several sighs and dreamy faces. Exactly what I didn't feel like at the moment. I stood and excused myself.
"Is something wrong Usagi-chan? Asked Minako. Everyone's face was then averted in my direction. I mentally slapped myself for causing worry to my friends while trying to think up a good excuse to leave.
"No, I'm just not feeling good today. I think I'll go home and hit the sack early." I said.
"Are you sure nothings wrong?" Asked Ami, her eyes reflecting her earlier concerns for me.
"You guys worry too much," I exaggeratedly rolled my eyes at her. "I'll be fine. I think I just have a little stomach bug or something. I'll feel better once I sleep it off." They all seemed to except this answer.
"We hope you feel better." Said Minako. Everyone said their farewells to me and went back into their conversation about boys. I glanced at Mamoru who was the only one still staring at me with a worried expression. I looked away from his gaze as I began to turn and walk towards the door., waving a goodbye to a very busy Motoki.
"Odango….." I heard from behind me. I turned around to see Mamoru walking towards me. "Hold on, I'll walk you home." He suggested.
"Oh…you really don't have to….."
"I insist" He said putting his arm casually over my shoulder and turning us back towards the door just as he leaned down and whispered in my ear, "You wouldn't leave me with them to endure the 'who has the best male body' conversation would you?" I giggled at this as we walked outside of the arcade. We walked in comfortable silence for a few minutes. It was nice outside. The air was already cooling down with a fall breeze.
"So what's really bothering you?" Asked Mamoru, abruptly ending the comfortable silence. I turned my head to glance at him. He was staring back with that worried expression again.
'Great….figures HE would know when I was lying.' I thought as I stared down at my feet like suddenly they were the most important things to look at. 'What can I tell him?' There was a moments worth of panic as I tried to figure out what to say.
"Just a lot on my mind I guess." I mumbled to him. Obviously this answer didn't persuade him to drop the subject. This of course being evident as he put his arms on my shoulders and turned me to face him. My heart rate nearly quadrupled at the contact. His eyes stared into mine like they could find answers. For a moment I thought they could. That he had somehow figured out that I had feelings for him and the talk of boys made me unbearably sad because we couldn't be together. This thought did nothing to slow down my already pounding heart. His eyes searched mine for a second more before he spoke.
"Would you like to talk about it?" He asked quietly, concern clearly visible in his sapphire eyes. I wanted to cry. My eyes pricked and my tear ducts stung with the unshed tears. I held them back with everything I had. I had to look away from his eyes before I could speak.
"There's nothing to talk about really." I lied. He must have accepted this because we turned and started walking again. I breathed a sigh of relief…..too early. He gracefully steered us towards the park. I mentally cursed. 'This is not good.' We walked in silence until the shade of the trees covered our forms. He once again broke the silence.
"You know this park is quite big." He mentioned. I looked at him from the corner of my eye. He had a small smile on his face, a bit confident and a tad smug. My mind then translated his words to….."You're going to tell me exactly what's wrong before we get through this park"
'Not good. Not good. Not good.' I mentally chimed. What could I say to him? 'Since when did he know me so well?' I couldn't lie to him….that obviously wasn't working. 'I could just stay silent through our little walk.' Suddenly, although I could not see it, the end of the park shone with an exit beacon. I kept my mouth shut as we continued our walk. Under normal circumstances I would have enjoyed our time together, but do to the large spotlight over my head, this wasn't the case. I got excited when we approached the lake. This meant we were halfway. My excitement ended quickly as we stopped in front of the water. He wasn't going to let me off that easy. I watched the setting sun dance off of the lake. His hand gently grabbed my chin and turned me towards him. My eyes locked with his, genuine concern dominant in his features. My eyes started to water again.
"Tell me what's wrong Odangos…..I can't stand to see you so sad." He pulled his hand away and ran it through his hair, battling emotions I didn't know about. I was clearly causing him some distress.
"I…." I suddenly wanted to tell him everything. He looked into my eyes once more waiting for my answer. "I have been sad lately. " I confessed. I looked away for a moment…..contemplating. "Have you ever wanted something, but knew that you would never get it?" I looked back up at him, trying to gage his response. There were no questions in his eyes, just understanding. I knew then that it was foolish to be scared to open up to him. He would always understand. Someone that could be there for me, but I could not do the same for him. For a moment the pain at that thought was almost unbearable. I turned to walk away as the first tears fell. I didn't get far. He grabbed my arm and pulled me back towards him. His face was a mask of sadness as he caught sight of my tears. He pulled me tightly into his arms. My head found its way into the curve between his head and shoulder. The fit was perfect. I instantly felt better. Maybe too much. My insides were doing that jig they were so fond of when ever he touched me.
"I guess even I can get lonely sometimes." I joked. I heard his small chuckle and I felt him relax, apparently relieved that I was no longer crying. In fact I was far from it. My heart was pounding in my throat. If I didn't break the contact soon……..I started to pull away when he suddenly grabbed my wrist. He sucked in a quick intake of air and stared at me with marvel and speculation. I knew then that he was feeling my thundering pulse through my skin. I stared wide eyed at him unable to speak. There was no other way to explain why his touch sent my body into a disarray of feelings. His eyes then held all the questions I was afraid of earlier. I tried to pull my hand away but met resistance.
"Mamo-chan I………" I slapped my hand over my mouth with my free hand. Horror shining in my eyes. 'I can't believe this is happening.' I thought. 'I can't believe I just called him that.' He stared at me….his eyes mirroring the shock in mine. Before I could react further, my hand was quickly torn from my mouth, and his mouth replaced it. Years of pent up feelings burst out of me in that moment, and I could swear I felt the earth tilt. My arms wound around his neck tightly, his around my waist as we got lost in the kiss. At that moment there was nothing but the two of us. I felt like I was floating. The kiss deepened and I barley registered the feeling of hard bark against my back. I didn't even remember moving, let alone walking backwards, but somehow he had me backed against a tree as we both continued our assailment.
His mouth swiftly broke free of mine only to attack the tender skin of my neck. His lips traveled up to my ears and my knees nearly buckled at the sensation. His lips found mine once again in a searing kiss that DID make my knees buckle. His arms were strong around my waist as he continued the wonderful assault on my senses.
The kiss gentled. His hands left my waist to cup my face. The beauty of the kiss nearly undid me and I started to tremble. He broke the kiss to stare down at me. The love I saw in his eyes snapped me back to my senses.
"Mamoru-san……I……."Tears welled up and spilled over….I had no right to kiss him back like that. He gently wiped the tears from my face. I pulled away from his touch. "I'm sorry….I can't…..I mean….we can't…….." I was close to full sobs now. I turned from him quickly and sprinted away. My heart breaking a little further with every step. I ran out of the park, the invisible exit beacon I had imagined moments before now taunting me. I ran all the way home and up to my room, thankful that the house was empty. I didn't even bother with the light, I just flung myself on my bed and let the despair swallow me whole.
(A/N: *sniff* Poor Usagi….I wonder what will happen next?…….Well actually I already know….*grins evilly* But I hope that you guys are all wondering. I'm sorry it took so long to get this chapter out. I had a bad case of writer's block that I had to overcome. I'm on a roll now so hopefully the other chapters will just flow out. Remember feedback is a writer's best friend. Thanks for those that responded before.
