Always.

Chapter 4

Author Note: I can tell that the fact I love Simon does come out in my story a little…when Teresa is describing things he does and such! :) I just love him! I hope you guys are enjoying it and I really apologize it took so long for this chapter! Also I hope you all noticed I did change the rating to M (My Beta didn't at first so I thought I would mention it) :)

He hesitates, but gets out of the car and heads inside.

Teresa sits there shocked. He loves me? Is he fucking serious?! She considers going to talk to him, but she decides to just go home.

Patrick walks to the kitchen to make tea. Then he brings it upstairs to his room in the attic. He sits down at his desk; he just sits, thinks and drinks his tea.

Teresa drives home. When she gets to her apartment she walks in and sits on her couch. She pours herself another glass of wine. He loves me? Is this one of his games or does he actually mean it?

Jane wakes up Saturday morning and he decides to call Lisbon.

"Hello?" She answers sleepily.

"Did I wake you up? I'm sorry." Jane replies.

"It's okay…I should probably be up anyways…"

"Do you want to grab some breakfast?" Jane asks hopefully.

Lisbon pauses. "Yeah…Sure."

Jane smiles. "Alright I will meet you at the Royal Diner! Bye!"

"Okay see you soon!"

Jane considers saying "I love you" but decides their relationship, if you could call it that yet, isn't ready for that. So he shuts his phone and gets dressed. He decides to wear his normal get up with his vest.

Lisbon just wears a shirt and jeans; she puts on some make up then goes to meet Jane.

. . .

"Well, that was good!" Patrick says in a smile as they walk out of the diner.

"Yeah, I'd say it was!" Teresa agrees with a giggle. She was quite giddy, since she was with Patrick. She looks into his eyes as they walk towards their cars. Her beautiful eyes, her smile, she's so gorgeous, so perfect. He doesn't know if he can hold himself back much longer. He has for years, and now that he's so close with her and she's more open, it's just…different.

The walk through the parking lot holding hands and swinging their arms together. Their only a step away from their cars, Teresa looks into Patrick's deep blue eyes, with a huge beautiful smile on her face.

At this Patrick slips, he can't hold back any longer. She's beautiful and cute and just perfect. He grabs her waist lightly and pushes her against his car, kisses her passionately.

Teresa's absolutely shocked. She pushes him off her a little. "Jane! What the Hell!?"

Patrick feels horrible now and his puppy dog eyes are apologetic, so much so that Teresa feels horrible. "I-I'm sorry Teresa…I should have known I couldn't…" He trails off.

He's still holding her waist and she's still against his car.

Shit, what am I doing? I should have known this was an absolutely horrible idea…I can't just kiss her!

Lisbon feels horrible too. What the hell am I thinking? I've dreamed of this, wanted this forever! Now I've just made him feel horrible about it. Seeing Patrick's sorry, embarrassed face, she just as horrible as him.

Patrick looks down and starts to let go of her waist. She throws her arms around his neck and kisses him back.

It startles him at first but he then rests his hands back on her waist.

"I love you Teresa, I really do." He admits holding her close to him.

"J-…Patrick…I love you too, and I'm sorry."

"For what?" He looks into her eyes trying to figure out why she's sorry. Her beautiful eyes are dilated as normal when she looks at him, but he keeps it to himself.

"For freaking out on you…I've been wanting you to kiss me for a while..." She looks down, blushing. "Also, I apologize for not telling you how I've felt ever since we got to know each other."

"You really don't have any reason to apologize Teresa. I'm the one who needs to be sorry, I have put you through so much and I've made you break the rules for me and I have hurt you so much, I'm so sorry."

She looks into his handsome blue eyes, so full of sorrow. He's just been through so much…his beautiful wife and innocent daughter murdered by RJ, his childhood, he's been in jail numerous times…He's just been through so much pain yet he still can smile his amazing smile.

"I'm okay Teresa…"

"Alright." Patrick sticks his hands in his pockets.

"Okay." She smiles slightly. "Well, we better get going."

"Wh-, uh, what are you going to be doing?"

"I'm not for sure…"

"Are you sure you're going to be alright?"

"Why wouldn't I be?"

"I don't know…you must be lonely."

He tilts his head down and smiles. He looks up at her. "I'm a big boy Teresa. I will be okay. I'm used to being alone!"

"I don't know…I'm just worried about you, that's all."

He shouldn't be alone. Ever since Lorelei told him about him meeting Red John, he hasn't put that damn book down! The stupid list of suspects! It's just not healthy.

"Don't worry so much about me! I'm alright." He assures her.

"…Okay."

He kisses her on the cheek sweetly. "Bye."

"Bye...I…" She hesitates. She lets out a breath. "I love you Patrick."

Patrick smiles. "I love you too." And with that, he leaves

So there it is! I hope you like it! I am done with chapters 5-7 just need to be checked by my beta! Hopefully I'll be posting quickly!