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"Kurt, I love you more than anything in the world. And I know it sounds unrealistic for high school, but I want to be with you forever." Kurt's heart swelled ten times its normal size at the statement. He felt the exact same way. He wanted to tell him he loved him back, but decided against it. It's Blaine's turn to talk.
"And in order for me to do that, you need to know me." Blaine saw Kurt's face become even more curious. "But before I do, I need you to do me a favor."
"Anything." Kurt said without hesitating. He would do anything and everything for Blaine. No questions asked.
"I need you to let me explain to you why I have been so touchy today without interruptions." Kurt nodded. Blaine had to get everything out, but once he started he knew he would fall apart. He needed to do it all at once. He took a deep breath and began speaking.
"When I was growing up, my parents were always over protective. They always wanted to know what I was doing at every moment and always made sure I did the right thing. My dad was always preaching bible verses to me and telling me what was right and wrong. Of course, one of the wrong things was being gay." Blaine started. He wasn't crying yet so that was good, but with every word Kurt could see his heart break. This wasn't going to be good.
"When I was twelve, I realized that I was gay. Boys just always caught my eye instead of girls. At first I thought it was just a phase, so I decided to repress it and move on. A year later, I was still interested in boys. I came to terms with who I was and decided to come out to my parents." The shorter boy continued. The worst part was coming close.
"At the time, my mom was 3 months pregnant and my dad had just gotten a promotion so I decided it was as good a time as any. I sat my parents down and told them. At first they were silent. I was expecting them to explode with anger. But my mom spoke up and said I still love you no matter what. Then she hugged me."
Kurt was confused. His mom accepted him. That's good right? Blaine took another deep breath and continued.
"She told me to go upstairs after that so she could talk to my dad. I went to my room, but listened very carefully to anything they said. All I could hear was my dad say, "I didn't raise my son to be a fag", or "My son will not be a sinner." My mom kept telling him to let it go. That I had every right to be who I wanted and that they should support me, but he didn't listen. Things were tense around the house for the next few days. My parents were always arguing and my mom was trying everything she could to get through to him, but he wouldn't hear it." Blaine spoke before taking a final deep breath and began to cry. This is it. This is the worst part.
"About a week after I came out, my mom had a doctor's appointment to check on the baby." He choked out while sobbing. "When she came home, she sat me and my dad down in the living room and-"Blaine tried to finish but couldn't find the strength.
"Courage." Kurt whispered to him. Blaine slowed down the tears and finished the story.
"She told us that she lost the baby. She had a miscarriage because of an unhealthy stress level. My dad began to flip out. He blames me for losing the baby. He said my coming out was what caused the stress. He told me I killed my sibling. That night, my mother left my father and took me with her. We moved to Westerville and bought a house."
Kurt was stunned. What do I say? Blaine thinks he is responsible for his little brother or sister's death. It was not his fault and he needed to know that.
"It's not your fault." The taller boy said softly.
"I wish I could believe that." Blaine replied. It was obvious that he has heard people tell him it wasn't his fault before.
"Do you see your dad anymore?" Kurt asked. He hoped the answer was no, but had a feeling that a lot of damage has been done to Blaine since then.
"For a few weeks every summer. He always tries form a bond with me by doing masculine things like building cars or going to sports events, but I think it's just an attempt to turn me straight. I still love him, despite all the damage he caused, but it will always be there. All the hate he exposed me to that night will always be with me."
Blaine could see the confusion in Kurt's eyes on how this related to their earlier conversation.
"I flipped out on you earlier because my father doesn't know about you. I told my mom and she was supportive, but she is always away on business trips because she has to make enough money to pay for our stuff. So, when you brought up family stuff it hit a sore spot. I haven't introduced you to my parents because I pretty much don't have any. My mom is home one week per month and my dad is only involved when I do something to please him."
For the first time ever, Kurt was speechless. What do you say to that? What can you say? He decided to play it safe and reassure Blaine that despite his problems, he still loves him.
"I love you. I always have and I always will okay?" Blaine smiled for the first time since their fight and pulled Kurt into another hug. They sat in the music room and cried together for a while longer.
Well it's out. I hope you guys aren't disappointed! I'm not sure if I'm going to continue this story so let me know what you want next! Review please!