A/N: I finally decided to update....YAY!!!!!! I won't bore you with my excuse so just...ENJOY!!!
Chapter 4: I Hate Misunderstandings
I love Sakura, in a brother-sister kind of way, but the intense pain I felt in my chest was much stronger then any kind of sibling bond could ever hold.
Naruto wanted to be with her? That hurt. No matter how much I repeated in my mind that it wasn't her fault, because she had been the one to try and set me up with him in the first place, I couldn't stop the hatred that grew inside me. In a matter of seconds though, that hatred turned to jealousy which is love's worst enemy.
"Sasuke…?" Naruto waved a hand in my face and I snatched his wrist, pulling him closer to me. "S—Sasuke!?" My eyes stung but I wasn't about to cry, there was no fucking way I was going to cry I was an Uchiha for Christ sake.
"You…you want to know if you have a chance with Sakura...?" My voice dripped with malice and I didn't bother hiding it.
Naruto nodded a hint of fear hidden in his eyes. I blinked and quickly let go of his hand, turning forward to face away from him. I ran a shaky hand through my hair trying with all I had to calm down.
"Sasuke…are you alright?" A tanned hand touched my shoulder and I had to resist the urge to shake it off angrily.
"Uh…yes. You and Sakura…?" Naruto let his hand fall off my shoulder.
"Yes. What do you think?" He hesitated but in my frustration I ignored it.
"You guys are perfect for each other…" I stood up stiffly, barely catching, what looked like, disappointment? I scoffed; I must be losing my mind, and went over to the wine cabinet by the wall. A reached for whatever my hands could grab first and fiercely popped the wooden cork off. "You want some?" I offered but really just hoped he would leave so I could drink in peace.
"Uhm, no thank you…Sasuke you sure you're alright?" I brought the bottle to my lips and laughed a little. I met his eyes and I glared.
"You should leave…now." I wasn't trying to be mean, well sort of; I just needed him to get out before I really lost my temper because a bottle plus angry Uchiha usually meant trouble.
Naruto backed up a bit, I wasn't sure if it was fear that drove him back but right now I didn't care. "Sasuke…" His face seemed sad then, "…are you sure you feel that way…I mean do you really not care if I ask her out?" Dammit! I cursed, why won't he just leave. It was like he was stomping on my heart and the pain was beginning to have a numbing affect.
"What…do you want me to stop you? Just leave already, you're getting annoying."
I threw myself on the couch bringing my feet up to rest on the coffee table in front of me. There was silence and I began to wonder if he had just gone off and left. I glanced at him only to see that he hadn't moved and he was staring at me wide-eyed.
"What?" I spat angrily. He sat down next to me and I growled quietly. My temper was rising and I clenched my hands over the wine bottle.
"You're angry…Sasuke, please tell me why." My mind blanked and I threw the bottle at the television screen that sat just a few feet away from us. The glass shattered instantly and its red liquid sprayed to the floor. Naruto jumped a little and gave a yelp in shock but he didn't move away.
"Go the fuck away!" I yelled moving as far away from him without getting off the couch. I glared at him with as much force I could muster. He didn't move.
"Dammit, I hate you! I should have never talked to you in that elevator…GO. AWAY!" He stood up slowly, his mouth was open as if to say something but I snapped my hand up to point at the door.
"Out." I looked away as I heard his soft footsteps walk away and I didn't move until he closed the door behind him.
Saying I was mad now would be an understatement. I was pissed at myself for letting my anger control me, I was pissed that I couldn't put the blame on Sakura, I was pissed that I had blamed Naruto, I was pissed because I now had to go buy a fucking new television and lastly, I was pissed because I was crying.
"Nice job Uchiha…you love someone for the first time in your life and he doesn't even like you back…."
I was glaring at the floor and they just sort of slipped out on their own. I shut my eyes and rested my head in my hands. A quiet sob escaped me and a faster wave of tears fell from my face to land on the carpet. Crying helped, which surprised me, it was as if with each tear that fell a little piece of my anger went away, the only downside to this was that I could feel depression lurking just around the corner, but for now I was okay.
I was hurting so much and now that Naruto was gone a new wave of pain washed over me. I slumped on my side and let myself fall deeper into my depression. I didn't bother moving for the remainder of the night, not even to clean up the mess I had made with the wine bottle. Night passed and my phone rang a few times but I didn't bother answering, I knew I would probably end up chucking it at a wall anyway.
When I came to it was already 2 in the afternoon. I got up and went into the kitchen to get a trash bag so that I could attempt to clean up the evidence of last night's anger. I stood over the mess and groaned, threw the bag to the floor and walked away; there was no way I was going to clean that mess up, not with the way I was still feeling. The shattered glass was too much like my own heart…shattered and bleeding.
I trudged my way to my room but before I could go in a soft knock came from the door in the living room. I contemplated on whether or not to just ignore the knocks but that was not going to happen when I heard a hard slam hit the door. I raced in the living room just in time to see Sakura kick her way in.
The door flung open violently and an equally violent looking Sakura stood at the door. She was fuming, I almost had the urge to run away but instead I stood my ground with shock plastered on my face. She stomped her way in and grabbed me by the shirt shaking me angrily as she did so. I was confused, what the hell was she so angry about?
"What the hell are you doing?" I asked coldly trying to keep cool. To my complete and utter surprise she rammed me into the nearby wall and grabbed my hair pushing my head into the wall.
"You—you are and idiot. A big fucking idiot!!!!" She yelled, fire blazed in her eyes and she huffed when I looked away and didn't say anything. "Look at me dammit!" She slammed my head into the wall and then pulled on my hair to make me look at her.
Sakura never got angry, it was a rarity really, and I had only ever seen her like this twice before. The first was in middle school, and the poor unfortunate boy that had pissed her off ended and stayed in the hospital the remainder of the school year. The second time was just last year when some guy tailgated her and so…the man was never seen again.
I didn't feel like being sent to the hospital anytime soon so I opted to look at her.
"What's with you?" I asked angrily. She glared at me before letting me go.
"I came to bother you today…but I felt like stopping by Naruto's room first."
My body tensed and I gripped tightly at my jeans.
"So you guys together now?" I asked with an empty smirk, I knew what I said was stupid but the words had just slipped out. My face met with the wall again by the force of her slap. I flinched as I felt the immediate sting on my face, knowing that there was no way that didn't leave a mark.
"He told me everything…" She continued, her voice furious, "Maybe if you weren't such a jackass and didn't let your temper get to you, you wouldn't have misunderstood!" She let me go and her eyes flickered over the broken television screen and the mess of red that now stained the carpet.
"What the hell did I misunderstand!?" I glared at her and slammed a fist into the wall. "If you know everything then you would know he wants you…not me!"
"And that's why you're an idiot! He asked you if you were okay with that and do you want to know why!?" I shook my head and angrily rested it on the wall.
"Because he likes you, you freaking dunce! He wanted to know if you felt the same, he wanted to know if you'd stop him!" My breathing slowed and I stared at her with a look of astonishment.
"What?" I breathed out.
"If you had paid better attention you might have noticed, but no…! You got angry and told him to fuck off! I went to his room just now only to find the door open and he was crying. He thought that you would feel the same but you had to go and blow it like the bastard you are!"
I nearly slapped myself as the nights events replayed in my head; I grabbed at my chest and stumbled my way out of the hallway back into the living room.
"I—I…" I slid down the side of my couch and looked up at the still fuming Sakura.
I pulled at my hair as I mentally beat the shit out of myself, "What do I do now…?" I looked down at the carpet, I couldn't believe it, a part of me was ecstatic that I had been wrong and I felt a new warmth in me as parts of my heart went back together but there was another part that told me there was no way I could fix the damage I had done. I had yelled at Naruto, told him I hated him! I probably even scared him with the way I acted, I had completely misunderstood him. Only now did I remember his hesitation and the disappointment his face expressed when I told him he'd be perfect with Sakura.
A hand caught me by the arm and pulled me up roughly. She touched our foreheads together forcing our eyes to meet again, only then did I realize I was crying again. "Why would you ever think I would take him away from you? Do you think I would have accepted him even if he had asked me!?"
"…No, of course you wouldn't…" I answered quietly, I was always controlled by my anger, even as a kid, and now that Sakura had cleared things up…I was ashamed with myself.
"You're going to fix it." Sakura still held a glare but for a moment I could see she was softening. "I told you he liked you…go, he's still in his room, I couldn't do anything to cheer him up and I didn't tell him how you really felt about him, I figured that's something only you should do."
"I wish you had…it would make this much easier for me…apologizing I mean."
"True but I think you should suffer a little bit more as you apologize for making him cry." I sighed and looked down at the broken TV and the stained carpet.
"You just go and worry about how you're going to get Naruto back and I'll take care of this little mess you made." I smiled appreciably and rubbed away the remaining wetness from my eyes.
My feet moved on their own slowly walking me out the door, how was I supposed to apologize for what happened last night? I became nervous then, what if he didn't like me anymore because of the way I treated him? No! I paused and I noticed that my hands were shaking. I looked up and realized I was already at Naruto's door. Now that I knew that he liked me too I wanted to give us a try but that would just be a fantasy if he didn't accept my apology. I clenched my fist and determination filled my every being, if I had to I would go on my knees and beg for forgiveness!
My hands still shaking I lifted one to the door and knocked with my knuckles. The wait was torturous and for a second I thought he wouldn't answer the door…but he did. He opened the door slowly, surprise evident in his eyes when they met mine.
"Ah…Naruto—" The door was slammed in my face. I totally saw that coming. I raised my hand, prepared to knock all day if I had too, as I also reached for the door handle only to find that the door hadn't been locked. I eagerly opened the door and silently went in.
"Whoa!" I ducked my head quickly as a chair whizzed past me. "You…You just threw a chair at me!? That could have killed me!"
"That's what I was aiming for!" He ducked away and I growled in frustration.
I hurriedly went down his small hallway and turned the corner.
"Naruto…?" I half yelled.
"Go away!" I jumped and twirled around just catching a glimpse of him before he disappeared through the door I had just come in by.
"N-Naruto, wait!" I ran out of his room and looked around wildly; there was no way he was getting away without me apologizing first.
Naruto had managed o run all the way down to the elevators and he was pressing the buttons frantically for the doors to open.
"Dammit, wait!" The elevator doors opened and I dashed down the hall as he jumped in.
'No, no, no. no, nooooo!' I skidded to halt and jammed my body in right when the doors began to close.
I panted and slammed my hand over the emergency stop button and I sighed when the elevator jolted to a halt. As I caught my breath I glanced up to see Naruto slid away from me and slip down to the carpeted floor.
"You have every right to be angry at me but listen to me—"
"I don't want to! You already said what you had to say last night…you don't understand…"
"No, I do understand, at least now I do...! I was an idiot…and even if you don't want to listen to me I'll still keep on talking…like the idiot I am." I leaned my head back, I was ready to put my heart and soul into what I was about to say which scared me a little considering this would be the first time I'd apologize to anyone.
"…Naruto, everyday, when I'm about to go to work, I've thought about you." I blushed at my confession but continued, "The first time you got in this elevator with me I…I just told myself…wow. You were so breathtaking, I became addicted to you; really I did. I noticed then after that we went down to work at the same time and soon I couldn't wait to go to work each morning because I knew I'd see you here. I don't know when it became an obsession to see you…but I guess I should have realized it when that one time you didn't come and…" I chuckled a bit at the memory, "I panicked the whole day thinking about you, I was so worried something had happened. I was worried that I'd never get the chance to speak with you, and yet here you were the very next day. I felt so silly worrying about you like that when you probably didn't even know or even care about my existence." I paused to glance back down at him but he remained quiet head on his knees.
"So…last night…I felt so hurt. I thought that you really wanted to be with Sakura…" I scoffed when my eyes began to water as I remembered the pain that had ripped through my heart. "…I'm sorry. I was so blinded by my own self pity I failed to notice I was hurting you…I'm so sorry. If I had just paid attention, I would have told you…I would have told you how much I liked you, screw the consequences!"
I slid down so that I was on the opposite end of the elevator to Naruto, he still hadn't said anything. I tried to get up but ended back on the floor. My eyes burned and I felt so stupid for even thinking he could forgive me.
There was a quiet shuffle from his side; I was so busy trying not to cry I didn't notice. Naruto kneeled in front of me and brushed his fingers across my cheek. I jumped in surprise and met his wide eyes, they were red from crying. He smiled in that innocent way that only he could pull off and I knew then that I was forgiven. His smile filled me with all sorts of strange and new emotions and I couldn't help but smile myself.
I latched onto his waist and pulled him closer; he easily sat in my lap and wrapped his arms around my neck. I used one hand to brush away his long bangs. Mind you, we were doing all this very slowly, both of us hesitating with each movement we made.
"Does this mean you like me too?" He whispered breathlessly against my lips. I rested my head in the crook of his neck enjoying the smell that practically radiated off him.
"No…" He pulled away and I could tell he was about to yell at me but I yanked his face down and pressed our lips together. It was short and to the point and I quickly pulled back.
"It means I love you." I pressed him closer, if possible, to my body. He grinned and I couldn't help but grin back, he just had that affect on people I guess.
I ran a hand up his back and buried it in his soft blond hair. Our eyes met and everything around us just blurred, I didn't care for anything else but the boy in front of me. I closed the small space between our lips and I smirked as he practically melted into my arms. It was a small innocent kiss but it was a kiss all the same. His lips were so soft against mine, it really was unbelievable. I pulled away deciding it would be best not to take things too far, more for Naruto's sake then mine.
"We should really get the elevator running again before we get yelled at." Naruto giggled and we both go up. I intertwined one hand with his and pulled out the stop button. The elevator jolted again before slowly easing its way back up to our floor.
"I'm glad you really didn't want to be with Sakura because she has this reputation…" I started as the doors opened.
"What?" Naruto urged.
A very smug looking Sakura, probably because she saw us holding hands, was standing right out in the hallway. I smirked and continued while I stared straight at her.
"She's horrible in bed."
Her facial expression was so hilarious that the punch in the face I got two seconds later was soooooo worth it.
A/N: I was trying to drag out the drama buuuut....I just couldn't do it! tehe!! Review plz, your feedback is always greatly appreciated!
....um it seems i've done a terrible job in explaining things in this chapter....Uh, Naruto, in the last chapter, was very nervous and he had meant to actually ask Sasuke out but as a result of the nervousness he kinda messes up and blurted out the next best thing...asking sakura out! After that little oops he expected Sasuke to stop him but Sasuke let his temper control him as you can see in this chapter....soooo uh yeah i really suck....I'm most likely going to rewrite this chapter....
