It had been over a week since that day in La push. The day I finely told Jacob I was in love with him, I felt so stupid, what was I thinking?.

I tried so many times to ring him, but i just couldn't bring myself to do it, I was a chicken threw and threw.

What if he never wanted to see me again? what if he was angry with me?, maybe I went to far telling him how I felt.

Jacob had always been something special to me, ever since I can remember he was like my brother,protector,best friend all rolled in to one.

I just wanted to talk to someone about it, get it all off my chest. But the only person I really talked to about anything was Jacob.

Friday for me was normally one of the best days of the week, but this week I was dreading it. Every Friday night I would go to La push, some of my best memorises are there.I didn't know how to explain to my family the reason for not going this week.

After school that day I came straight home, the house was empty apart from my dad he was sitting in the living room,"hey baby how was school?" he asked,"it was good, how was your day?" I replied, "also good" he said. He looked like he had something on his mind, "hey dad something you wanna tell me?" I said trying to hide my smile, being with my dad always made me smile

"Me and your mother have been talking and we've decided to go to Alaska for the summer, the whole family is going, well apart from Carlie" he smiled.

This was either a really good thing or a really bad thing.

I loved Alaska,my whole family where always happy there, but I knew if I left things with Jacob the way they were I would never be able to forgive myself, I'd told him I was in love with him and I had to see it threw to the end, no matter what the outcome may be.

"When where you planing on going?, summers already here" I muttered

"Well, as soon as it was a bit of a last minute decision,me and your mother have sorted school out".

"What do you mean?, sorted school out" I said, the more he talked about it the less I wanted to go,I just wanted my Jacob

"I mean you can change school silly" he replied, I tried my best to keep my thoughts to myself, but then I just let them out it easier then telling him I didn't want to go."We all thought you'd be so happy Nassie, you love Alaska" he said shocked and hurt at the same time.

" I'm sorry dad I'm just really settled at school at the moment, and Charlie will be lonely" I said really fast, "Can't I stay with him for the summer I'm sure he won't mind" I pleaded

" Look I'll have a word with the rest of the family and see what they say, but I'm not sure about this Ness, me and your mother don't like leaving you, I know Charlie is more then capable of looking after you, but what about when he's at work?".

" There's always Jacob and Billy Dad" I protested, " like I said sweetheart I'll have to talk to the family, and to see if Charlie is okay with having you over"

"I'm sure he Will be" I replied.

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That evening I was in my room doing boring home work, and all could think about was Jacob, this past week felt like months. I wished I could take back what I had told him, but I could-ed.

God!!!! I loved him so much I wanted him so bad, so I decided to take action so while I had the guts I rang his phone.

Surprise surprise his cell was turned off, so before my new found assertiveness deserted me I rang his home phone, only a couple of rings later and Billy answered"hello" ,"Billy, hey it's Nessie, is Jacob there by any change?","Oh I'm so glad you rang, Jacob not been himself all week he's seems very upset about something"

I didn't know what to say, my heart was going to break out of my chest, "Nessie you still there", "yeah I'm still here billy" I whispered.

Then to my shock and horror billy suddenly said "you told him you where in love with him didn't you".

When I finely found my mouth again I politely replied " Billy I think that's between me and Jacob", " I know Nessie, please forgive me it's just that I know he feels the same, he doesn't want things to change between you two"

Again I was shocked "how do you know this Billy?, he walked away from me without a word", "I know my own son nessie, he's loved you since the first moment he lay-ed eyes on you,please come over this Friday and talk to him".

"Okay Billy I'll see you Friday" I said, then he was gone.

At that point my mind was racing,I wast prepared for what Billy had said "he's loved you since the first moment he lay ed eyes on you". I knew about the whole imprinting thing, but Jacob had always said it wast like that between us, "You and me are like two peas in a pod" he once told me.

All I could do for now was wait for Friday.