Dear Gaara,
So I can honestly say I've never really written a letter before but I hope this finds you good and well. I remain optimistic that we can one day become good friends. Hopefully I haven't made you believe I'm an odd ball and I'm sure you're asking yourself why I would even bother trying to befriend you.
The truth is, I know you're a Jinchuriki. This isn't my first run in with one but unfortunately I can not go into detail about that. The first time we met, I will admit, I wanted to kill you. Destroy you in any way I could because of what you did to Satori and Kain (My teammates). When I saw you going against Lee and I saw him kicking your ass for a moment, a part of me was ecstatic at the fact you would be defeated. However, after you turned the tables on him and practically shattered his leg, I wanted to strangle you again. I know this isn't something you want to read but please hear me out.
The next time I saw you, fear had taken over me and I realized you were much more dangerous than I thought. I knew you were more than capable of killing me but I was ready to die for Lee. He's my dear friend just like Satori, Kain and Naruto. For them, I would give up everything I have to see them happy. When you explained your childhood to my friends and I, something within me wanted to help you. Do not mistake that for pity. I just wanted to give you one happy memory. I think everyone deserves that.
Your childhood has left much to be desired but none of it was your fault. I want you to know that. I know it may seem strange and weird that some random girl wants to be friends with you, especially after everything that happened however, believe me when I say I truly do want to be your friend. I honestly want to see you smile and laugh. Please give me a chance to make you happy but if I've scared you away by being too pushy or strange, than I'm happy to at least have had the chance to write to you.
I hope you write back and I'd like to visit you one day, if that's ok of course. We could hang out and talk more if you want. We could get to know each other better and maybe become best friends. Well, I guess that's it. Hope to hear from you soon.
Sincerely,
Sigyn
P.S. : I really like your eyes. They're pretty cool
"You like him." Naruto gave Sigyn a sly smirk.
"I do not like him that way Naruto!" The girl snatched her letter back from the blond and folded it up. As she slipped it into an envelope and walked over to the mailbox, she could hear the blue-eyed boy snicker.
"So why go through all the trouble of befriending him?" His arms were crossed over his chest.
"You befriended me when you didn't have to. I was a weird kid, well I still am but anyway, I wanted to give him the option of accepting or rejecting a friendship. With what he said, about people calling him a monster and isolating him, he reminded me of you. How sad and lonely you were. I never wanted to see that look on anyone's face ever again." Her eyes were cast down in embarrassment as she explained her reasons to the boy.
Suddenly she found herself wrapped in the blond's arms in a tight embrace. "Oh Sigy!" Tears were brimming in his eyes. "You're the sweetest friend anyone could ever ask for!"
"Oh cut it out drama queen!" She squirmed out of his hug but secretly enjoyed it. "And don't be telling anyone about this! I can't have people thinking I'm some sort of touchy feely person. I have to keep up my mean and cold persona."
Naruto laughed and gave her a thumbs up. He placed his arm around her shoulder and they walked down the streets of Konoha that way. "Ichiraku ramen?"
"Sure and don't worry, my treat." Sigyn inwardly smiled. She knew Naruto was usually broke and she honestly didn't mind treating him to things often. His situation was tough and Yamato gave her a pretty good allowance. Besides, if she didn't spend it on him what would she spend it on?
"Oh look at the two love birds." Sakura was walking towards them with Ino, Choji and Shikamaru not far behind her.
Naruto immediately released his hold on Sigyn and ran up to Sakura. "H-hey Sakura-chan! You look lovely today." His sweet smile was wasted on forehead face in Sigyn's opinion. Sakura merely scowled at the blond boy, ignored him and turned her attention to Sigyn. However, before the pinkette could open her mouth, the green-eyed girl started speaking.
"Heya Shika-kun, Choji-kun. Hello Ino." Sigyn knew Sakura hated being ignored and it only made the girl inwardly smirk to get under her skin.
"Hey Sigy." The trio said in unison.
"Where you guys heading?" Again Sigyn ignored Sakura though she was becoming increasingly irritated with Naruto wasting his time with her. He kept complimenting the girl only to receive insults from her.
"Well, I'm looking for Sasuke-kun. Have you seen him?" Ino replied. Sigyn shook her head 'no.'
"Choji and I are going up to my spot to cloud watch. Wanna join us?" Sigyn contemplated this for a moment but then shook her head 'no' again.
"Thanks but I promised Ichiraku to him. Afterwards I'll probably just head home." Sigyn gave an apologetic smile. "Maybe next time?" She offered. Shikamaru just shrugged. Sigyn turned back to see what Naruto was up to now and sighed heavily. "Seriously?" She muttered. Sakura had hit him upside the head for annoying her. "Naruto you're so irritating sometimes." The girl clenched her jaw in annoyance. She was trying so hard not to punch Sakura in the face for hurting Naruto.
"Keep your idiot friend away from me." Sakura stated as she started to walk away. Sigyn made a move towards her but Naruto took hold of her arm and stopped her.
"It's ok Sigy, lets go eat instead." He scratched the back of his head and awkwardly laughed.
"You're so stupid." The girl muttered and started walking away from him towards the ramen shop.
"What I do now?" The blond boy took a glance towards Shikamaru and Choji but they both shrugged. "Hold on! Sigy!" Naruto called out to her and ran to catch up to her.
-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-that night-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-
As Sigyn lay in her bed, staring at the ceiling, she grabbed a pillow and placed it over her face. 'I'm so stupid!' She says in her mind. 'Gaara's going to think I'm so fucking weird and stupid because of my idiotic letter! He'll never want to be my friend now. I probably scared him away!' She felt an indentation in her bed and a hand remove the pillow from her face. It was Yamato.
"You ok kid?" She noticed his eyes held worry for her. She sheepishly turned away from him so her back was towards the ANBU.
"I mailed the letter." She mumbled.
"And?" He coaxed.
"And... I'm regretting it. What was I thinking? Gaara's going to think I'm so weird." She was red-faced.
Yamato chuckled and stood up from her bed. "You overthink too much. If he doesn't like you, so be it. Didn't you say Sasuke doesn't like you very much? That doesn't seem to bother you. Besides, I already told you, I don't think it's a good idea to make friends with a Jinchuriki Sigyn. From what you've told me, he's very unstable and I don't want you placing yourself in unnecessary danger."
"By that logic, I shouldn't be friends with Naruto." She sat up on her bed and glared at her adoptive father.
He gave her his signature scary face but she remained firm with her glare. "He isn't unstable." Sigyn crossed her arms over her chest, turned her face away from him and replied with a 'tch.' He placed a hand atop her head and ruffled her hair. "I bought dinner, it's on the table. Don't go to bed late, I'll see you in a couple of weeks."
As he turned to leave, the girl took hold of his arm. "Another classified mission?" Her eyes found his and smiling warmly he nodded 'yes.' "Please be careful." She whispered.
"I will, if you promise to stay out of trouble." He smirked.
"I always do! By the way, who will be our sensei while you're away?"
"Ah about that." Yamato placed a hand on his chin. "Satori and Kain will be training separately from you for the next two months. And you will be with Kakashi's team untill I return." As he expected, Sigyn's jaw dropped in horror.
"But why?!" She cried out.
"Because he can properly watch over you and your condition. If your chakra overflows and you don't safely release it, you know perfectly well what damage you can cause." He raised an eyebrow at her.
"I can control it a lot better now with your training! I'm not helpless!" She fought back. "I feel like you're trying to distract me from the fact that I'll be stuck with Sakura and Sasuke for weeks untill you come back! Why aren't Kain and Satori suffering like me?!" She was whining now.
"Because they will be training with their father for those two months. I'm sure I don't have to tell you their father was pretty upset over Satori's ankle. She couldn't finish the chunin exams and it didn't sit well with him."
"Oh, right." Sigyn quietly responded.
"It won't be as horrible as you think. Remember, Naruto will be there too. Just keep your temper in check and do not kill anyone. Understand?" His scary face was back and this time she flinched. Yamato laughed. "I see you're not completely immune to the scary face."
As he made his way towards the door, Sigyn called out, "I love you dad. Please be careful."
Yamato stopped dead in his tracks and stared at her. Did she just call him dad? He had fantasized about this moment for a long time but never thought it would happen. He had practiced his reaction to this moment in his head but was so stunned at the moment that he just stood there like a deer in headlights. A blush crept up onto his face and he was momentarily speechless. After regaining his senses he replied,"you're acting like you'll never see me again." He managed a chuckle. "I love you too kid." He muttered as he exited the house.
Once Sigyn found herself alone at home again, she let out a sigh. "Thank you for the food." She whispered. "I miss you already." When she sat down to eat she spoke to herself again. "I should save some for that idiot. He's probably having instant ramen again." A smile found its way to her lips. "I hope he's not sad he's alone. Maybe I'll sleep over his place tomorrow and keep him company."
-.-.-.-.-.-Same night but with Gaara.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-
The red-head sat on the rooftop of his house, alone, as always. Staring up at the moon, he was lost in his thoughts of 'her.' Temari was right. She was a little strange. However, he'd be lying if he said he didn't appreciate her offer of friendship. He wondered for a moment if she really would write to him. If she really meant it when she said she wanted to be his friend. She seemed nervous. Perhaps she was being forced to say that. Someone bribed her or threaten her to offer her friendship to him. That seemed more plausible.
Shukaku was giddy and laughing. 'You're thinking too much about it kid.' The demon replied in his mind.
'What are you on about?' Gaara replied clearly irritated with the demon invading his thoughts.
'It's pretty evident the girl likes you. Dear I say, love at first sight?' His high pitch laugh makes the red-head wince in irritation.
'Love. Who would love a monster like me? You're obviously mistaken.' Gaara ignores Shukaku's laugh and continues to stare up at the moon.
'And you're obviously denser than I thought.' Before Gaara could reply to the annoying demon, Kankuro's voice echoed throughout the house.
"Gaara! Dinner's ready! And prepare yourself because Temari's the one who cooked!"
"I CAN HEAR YOU!" Temari yelled out.
'You sure you'd rather not just kill them?' Once again Shukaku gave his 2 cents.
'No.' Gaara replied as he made his way into the house.
-.-.-.-.-.-.-.- A few days later (With Gaara) -.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-
Gaara sat across Kankuro on the kitchen table. They were currently engrossed in a game of chess. Kankuro was a little nervous that if he won, his little brother might become irritated enough to kill him. However, the older sand sibling did notice Gaara's attempts to be nicer to him and his sister. So he decided to take this chance and play a game with him. Gaara was doing rather well, much to his surprise and the puppeteer was becoming increasingly agitated with the fact that he might lose.
While Kankuro was thinking of a strategy, Temari slammed the door to the house open and slammed it shut, disrupting his concentration. "What the hell Temari?! I'm going to lose thanks to you!" Thinking that picking a fight with his sister would distract Gaara, Kankuro tried to sneak one of his little brother's pieces off the chess board but his hand was caught by Gaara's sand."Eh heh heh..." Kankuro nervously chuckled but before Gaara could say anything, Temari chimed in.
"Bills, bills, bills, something stupid for Kankuro," The blond threw a magazine at her younger brother and it landed on his face. "Oh well look at this." Temari held a letter in her hand. Gaara's sand released his brother hand and Kankuro took the opportunity to come up behind Temari and take a peek.
"It's addressed to you." The older brother glanced over at the red-head. The youngest of the sand siblings narrowed his teal eyes up at them.
"It says it's from Sigyn. Isn't that the name of that odd girl?" Temari questioned.
"Oh yeah the cute one!" Kankuro tried to snatch the letter out of his sisters hand but she smacked him.
"It's Gaaras! Hands off nosy." She scowled at him but her brother shrugged and stood behind the red-head, hoping to read the letter along with Gaara. Temari handed her youngest brother the letter and he stood up to walk away with it.
"Aww aren't you gonna read it aloud for us to hear?" Kankuro whinnied. Gaara glared at him and he sheepishly shrunk away.
"No." He replied in annoyance.
"Leave him be Kankuro." Temari harshly whispered at him. "G-gaara." The red-head shifted his focus from the letter in his hand to his sister. "Whatever is written on it, if it upsets you, tell me, I'll make her regret it." The blond crossed her arms over her chest and narrowed her eyes. Gaara nodded and continued to make his way up to the roof.
He held the unopened letter in his hands. His stomach twisted and turned but he was unsure as to why. His breathing quickened a bit and he sighed to try and calm himself down. Gaara had never felt this way before. Unsure and uneasy about something. It was a foreign feeling and he didn't like it. Perhaps this wasn't a good idea. This girl was already making him feel things he never had before, or maybe he had but was long forgotten. Either way, he detested it. Maybe he should rip up the letter and pretend he never received it. On the other hand, what if it wasn't anything bad? What if it was more than he could ever hope for? Not wanting to get his hopes up, Gaara places the letter next to him and stares up at the moon.
'Just read it. The anticipation is killing me.' Shukaku appeared again.
'What if it's her saying she hates me? Saying it was a mistake to offer me her friendship?' The red-head replies.
'Well, there's only one way to find out. And if that's the case, we'll kill her. I see no problem here.' The demon lets out a shrill snicker.
'Must your solutions always end with death?' Gaara calmly questions.
'What's wrong with that?' Shukaku replies.
The red-head shakes his head in frustration. The demon is no help but he was right about one thing. The only way to find out is to read it. As he held the letter in his hand once more, he thought about the girl. Naruto said his life changed when he met his friend Sakura, Sasuke and Sigyn. If he said that about her, then perhaps this letter wouldn't contain something horrible. Optimism inched its way into Gaara's heart.
Delicately opening the envelope, as if it would disintegrate in his hands, he pulled out the letter and discarded its unnecessary package. Sighing one last time, he opened the piece of paper and began reading it carefully. Her writing was a little sloppy and seemed rushed but he was able to make out the words with relative ease. Arriving at the end of the letter, he didn't notice but a smirk crept its way to his lips.
'Well, you gotta admire her honesty. She didn't sugar coat the fact she wanted to murder you or that she was afraid of you.' Shukaku reappeared.
'Yes and it appears she is sincere about this friendship.' Gaara's heart did a little flip and his smirk turned into a smile. Shukaku abruptly disappeared into the back of his mind and Gaara was left alone with his thoughts. 'I should write back.' The read-head made his way back into his home and into his bedroom. All the while ignoring his siblings curious looks.
"Did he look upset to you?" Temari whispered to her younger brother.
"Dunno. He seemed ok to me." Kankuro replied. "Guess we can ask him in the morning."
In his quiet isolation, Gaara contemplated on what to write back. Should he thank her for her honesty? He truly was grateful for it. Should he invite her to visit him? The next couple of weeks he really had nothing scheduled. Other than training, his calendar was pretty open. What would they do though? Would he take her around Suna and show her the sights? Gaara released a deep sigh of frustration. This was going to be harder than he thought.
Dear Sigyn,
Thank you for writing to me. I was surprised to hear that I had mail today. I did not anticipate you actually writing to me. After much thought, I considered your offer to visit and I think I would like that. How about you decide when. That way, when you receive this letter, you can reply with the date you would like to meet on. I could show you around Suna if that sounds pleasant to you. There isn't much to see, but I could take you to our desert flower garden. I go there often at night for the solitude it provides.
You stated you were aware of me being a Jinchuriki. I suppose after my outburst on Naruto, I can't really hide that fact anymore. Perhaps when you arrive I could tell you more about it if it interests you. Though, I'm sure you'll understand when I say I can not divulge too much information on the matter, since it is classified information after all.
Thank you for your sincerity when you said you wanted to kill me and feared me. That is a strange thing to say, I know, but really, thank you. People are not honest with me out of kindness, only fear. By you being openly honest with me I think, maybe, this friendship thing won't be so bad after all.
I do not wish for you to be afraid of me. I want you to be my friend because you want to and not through obligation or as you stated, pity. If you don't think me too bold, I will admit I am curious about you as well. Though you did hesitate a bit, you offered your friendship to me and I would like to know more about why. I would also like to know about your childhood and upbringing. I think it's only fair, considering I told you about mine.
I can honestly say this is my first time writing a letter as well. It isn't as easy as it seems. Especially for someone like me, who can not properly put their emotions in words. For the longest time, I thought I could only feel hate and anger. Now that I am trying to keep my temper under control, I've come to realize I can feel more than just loathing and hostility. I will await for your reply and in the meantime, I hope you too are well and good.
Sincerely,
Gaara
P.S.: I like your eyes too. They are very earthy.
