I still hate my life, and I don't know how long it'll be before I do and go back to being happy…hoping soon….

Alright, wow, I didn't think people would actually like this…..it makes me nervous to continue, because I do not want to mess the story up…..but, thank you all for reading and reviewing!
I hope you all continue to like this!

This doesn't have a lot of Casper…..but it will come….it will….

The song, well, don't you all think it sort of goes? That winter part….anyways, I am not a Susan fan, to tell you all the truth, but she is a sister and I am a sister and I have a sister and so, she is favored because of that…and I'm a sucker for happy family moments. Anyways! Enjoy!
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Breath(4 Am)- Anna Nalick

2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,
"Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?,
I don't love him. Winter just wasn't my season"
Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize,
Hypocrites. You're all here for the very same reason

'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button, girl.
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

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Chapter 3- Breath (4 AM)

People stopped to stare as they walked by.

They felt a bit uncomfortable; after all, people usually saw them with nice garments. They were wearing their school uniforms, which were now muddy. It was not fitting for royalty, but they weren't really Kings and Queens anymore, were they?

Peter sighed, but he noticed that more and more people had stopped to stare and were following behind them. He mustered up a big smile. He noticed his siblings doing the same thing. The soldiers saluted them as they passed by; it was a bit gratifying to tell the truth. He missed that respect and adoration. It wasn't right, but it made him feel good. However, it wasn't going to last, it never did.

They walked into the castle, looking at the portraits hanging in the main hall. Lucy grabbed his hand and Susan grabbed unto his other hand. Edmund walked right next to Lucy, as close as he could. Caspian was their friend, kind of, but he was King Caspian now, and it had been a year. Things weren't the same anymore.

The doors opened and they were announced to those inside. Peter squeezed his sisters' hands and smiled encouragingly at Edmund. They hadn't said anything, because there was nothing to be said. The doors opened up wider, allowing them room to go in.

The four walked in, heads raised high, shoulders squared. They had been Kings and Queens of Narnia, and so they held themselves as such.

They stopped at the center and looked around the room, standing in awe at the beauty. It looked different then the last time they had been there. Finally, they looked at Caspian who was standing right in front of the throne, in shock.
His eyes were wide and he couldn't believe they were there……it was not possible…not probable…..

"Your Majesty." The four kneeled down, showing their respect to the new king. He had earned it.
Caspian watched them.

Susan, his dear Susan was still breath taking. Her slate eyes held the same gentleness. He couldn't believe she was there, in front of him.

Lucy, she was still innocent and full of light. Her dark green eyes sparkled with youth and faith. The world seemed brighter by just her being there.

Edmund, face completely serious but his eyes held that happy twinkle. His face still held a childishness look, yet his eyes spoke of years beyond him. He radiated with wisdom.

Peter, his baby blue eyes were clear and glossy and they held respect for him. Suddenly, the room felt smaller just by his mere presence. It seemed as if every thing would suddenly fall into its right place.

Caspian walked over, still feeling as if he were dreaming.
"Don't, I should be the one kneeling." Caspian stood right in front of them, unable to keep from grinning.

The four stood up and looked at Caspian. What did one say? The only who seemed to have been really close to him was Susan, she did kiss him.

Susan smiled and hugged him. Caspian immediately relaxed and held her close. He buried his face in her hair, taking in her scent. He never thought he would get to see her, or feel her in his arms. Susan pulled away and looked at Caspian.
She had been afraid that she would suddenly revert back to her crush, but she hadn't. She looked at Caspian and only felt friendship for him. She cared for him, but it wasn't the same.

"I thought I would never get to see you again." Caspian muttered, reaching over to place a hand on Susan's cheek. Susan smiled softly and placed her hand on Caspian's arm. She squeezed it, before pushing it away.
The others just watched them interact, curious.

Peter felt something in his heart, but he pushed it away, after all, he had the right to worry about his sister.

"Why! Your majesties!" Lucy turned around and saw her friend, Trumpkin.

"Hey! Trumpkin!" Lucy grinned and rushed over to her friend. She laughed happy.

Edmund and Peter chuckled at the Trumpkin's flushed face. Susan turned and looked at her laughing sister. She was glad that she got to see Lucy happy again. Even if this trip was really her last, at least she could spend a few days with her family, enjoying Narnia one last time, together.

Caspian looked at Susan and felt his breath catch in his throat. She was beautiful, smiling gently at her sister. He found himself falling for her once again. He then noticed what they were wearing and quickly felt awful for not being a better King.

"You four need to freshen up. I shall show you to your rooms." Caspian smiled, motioning for them to follow him. Susan walked right next to him, in silence. She noticed him sneaking glances at her, but did not say anything. She noticed the way that he looked at her, and realized that he still felt something for her. She would have to talk to him soon, but not now.

Peter, Lucy and Edmund just shared a look as they watched Caspian have eyes for only their sister. They knew their sister and they could tell that she had gotten over Caspian, now it was his turn to get over Susan. They shared another look, yes, Susan would need to have a talk with Caspian.
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Caspian looked at his reflection. He smoothed his tunic and brushed his hair back. He was going to see how Susan was doing. He was nervous, though. He had no idea what to say to her, after all this time, now that he finally had her in front of him, he had no idea what to say. How he had wished for this moment…..now, he was scared of ruining it. He walked out of his room and made his way to Susan's room.

Susan sat down, in front of the mirror and looked at herself. She smiled softly, gently running her finger over the dress' velvet skirt. She had missed this, Aslan, how she had missed the softness against her skin. It was something she would never forget, she was sure of it. She heard a knock at her door and smiled. It must be the others, they must have finished getting ready. She stood up, grinning; however, it didn't last for her eyes met those of the King's. It was Caspian. Susan sighed and stepped back, allowing for him to enter her room, but she did not close the door. That would have been improper.

She didn't really want to talk to Caspian, she didn't want to break his heart. It broke her heart to break his.
Caspian turned and smiled at her, taking in her beauty. This wasn't the first time she would have to break someone's heart.

She had done that many times before, back when she was Queen.

"You look beautiful." Caspian muttered, stepping close to Susan.
"Caspian. We need to talk." Susan said, firmly yet gently. She took a step back and looked directly at Caspian in the eyes.

Caspian froze, feeling a sudden coldness wash over him.

"I do not love you in that way, Caspian. I care for you, like a friend." Susan said, deciding to do things in one quick motion instead of going around the subject. If she was going to break his heart, she rather do it quick with no misunderstandings.

It was better to be clear and straightforward.
Caspian took a step back and looked at her, eyes shining with hurt, glistening with tears.

"I care for you, Susan." Caspian muttered. Susan sighed and stepped forward, but Caspian stepped back from her. This hurt her. Had she lost his friendship?

"I am truly sorry, but we can only be friends." Susan spoke softly, hoping Caspian would understand. She hated seeing his heart crumble, but she won't lie to him. It wasn't in her to lie. Caspian turned around and walked out.

"Caspian?!" Susan cried out.
"I need to be alone." Caspian said, before walking out of the room. Susan stumbled back unto her bed. She sat down and looked down at her hands, vision blurring as tears streamed down her cheeks.

Peter looked out the window. Lucy and Edmund had come in a few minutes ago to ask if he wanted to go down and eat. They had gone to see Susan, but they saw Caspian walking into her room, so they just left. Peter declined, saying that he wasn't that hungry. They of course had persisted, so he told them that when they were done, to bring him some food. He wasn't up to talking to anyone. Lucy had huffed but had dragged Edmund along.

Peter still chuckled at the memory of Lucy dragging Edmund around. Only Lucy.

He looked back at the door and frowned. He felt the pull again. It really needed to stop, it was annoying him. He cast one last glance out the window, before walking out of his room. He walked down halls he didn't even know existed, but the pull was still there. He just hoped the pull would help him back into his room. It must be Aslan, because he only got this feeling when he saw the lion. At least, that was the reason back in England.

Peter looked around and noticed that he was in the courtyard, heading back to the tree. He felt himself grow cold. Was it time for him to go back? Only him?

Peter stopped right in front of it, but nothing happened. He sat down on the stairs and leaned back, his hands on the ground. He looked at the darkening sky. He was back and he wasn't sure what to do. He wasn't king anymore, why was he there?

Was he there as an advisor? Is that the only reason they were there? Was it for Susan to be with Prince…no….King Caspian? Peter sighed and closed his eyes. He had so many questions, yet no answers were forthcoming. He knew that Aslan wouldn't come to him and tell him, because like always, he would want them to learn on their own. He would want them to look after themselves and figure things out. That was Aslan for them.

He was with his family. He was with them, to protect them. That was his job and would always be his job, no matter where he was. Every thing else didn't matter at the moment.

The sound of sniffing and feet shuffling caused him to open his eyes and tilt his head to the right. It was Susan, and she was crying. Peter immediately sat up.

Susan stopped and looked at Peter, tears streaming down her face, eyes red and puffy. Her lips were trembling from trying to stifle her sobs. Peter just opened his arms and Susan immediately rushed into them. She curled into him, holding tightly unto his shirt as she cried her heart out. Peter wrapped his arms around her, rocking her and just being there for her.

"Su?" Peter looked at her worriedly. She pulled back and wiped at her cheeks. Peter sighed and gently wiped her cheeks, smiling gently at her. Susan returned the smile.

"You told him?" Peter was speaking softly, afraid to break the silence that had fallen upon them. Susan nodded.

"Did he hurt you?" Peter asked, getting angry. No one hurt his sister, no one.

"No, I hurt him. I broke his heart and I hate it." Susan hissed, eyes tearing once again. Peter pulled her back into his arms, resting his chin on her head as he rubbed her back.

"I think I lost his friendship." Susan muttered, closing her eyes and just taking Peter's comfort.

"Oh, Su. It was better for him to know straight out. If he doesn't appreciate your honesty, then he doesn't deserve your friendship. You are honest, and who ever loves you, must learn to love you just like you are." Peter muttered.

"We never say anything when you tell us Edmund and I idiots when we fight." Peter added.

"No, she calls You an idiot." Edmund added. Peter looked up to see Edmund and Lucy climbing the stairs over to them. Susan sat back and rubbed her eyes, giving them a watery smile.

"Hey, sis." Lucy smiled and placed her head on Susan's shoulder. Edmund sat in the step below, looking up at them.

"Caspian is an idiot. Don't worry." Edmund shrugged, causing the other three to laugh.
"What? He is, he'll get over it." Edmund huffed, not liking when people laughed at him.

Susan laid her head on Peter's shoulder, while Lucy laid her head on Susan's shoulder and Edmund leaned into both Peter's and Susan's legs. They remained like that, looking out into the sky in silence. Susan always felt better when they were together. It reminded just how much she was loved.

"You two still need to eat, you know?" Lucy pulled back and frowned at her older siblings. Peter and Susan's stomach growled, causing the four Pevensie's to laugh.

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To Be Continued

How was that? Caspian is heart broken, Susan has stepped aside, Peter feels a bit weird and has no clue as to why, Lucy and Edmund as just so cute! Awww, aren't they? Would love to have more of them….ohhh….should have a sequel….or should I make this a really long chapter story…..egghh….sequels? no? anyways, please tell me what you all think!! Luv ya'll!