Please Dont love me...

Disclaimer: yeah... not sure why we need disclaimers really, I pretty sure everyone realizes that I dont own any of the FMA characters. Oh well... i sure wish I did though

Authors note: This chapter took forever... seriously its the longets fucking chapter I think I have ever seen, or will ever write. Its like... I had a beginning and an end... howeve the things in between? Those didnt come as fast as I would have hoped. Well anyways, this one also as a shit load of new things. I was gonna go and make something like a mini chapter about how Ed and Roy got together but I thought this would just be the best chapter to put it into.

Sweet Memories

There never seemed to be a day off for anyone in the military, especially a higher up like Roy Mustang. He yawned as he stretched in bed. Just yesterday evening he had been told that he should take the day off. Why? Well it had seemed that Riza was actually sick.

Jeez!! What were the chances of that? It was truly ironic.

Well it wasn't like Riza's being there or not would effect Roy's work but… wait… yes it would (her and her freaking gun…). Well anyways it was time he had a day off anyways and Headquarters seemed to have gotten more and more quiet. Why? Who knows, maybe people in the world were actually getting more and more kind hearted……….. Nah, as if.

Roy, with his eyes half lidded stumbled through his house, with a half filled cup of coffee. Never the less… he stumbled again and it spilt it in front of him. He frowned and cursed silently.

'Its always that damned spot!!', he thought. The one spot that he always spilt his coffee. In the middle of all the white carpet there was one dark spot… the one spot that coffee would spill.

He frowned as he walked into the kitchen while his stomach grumbled. He opened the fridge then groaned, closed it. Opened it. Closed it. He repeated it again and again hoping that every time he opened it there would be something he actually wanted to eat… and something that wasn't growing stuff off of it.

However… nothing changed. Still filled with funny smelling disgusting no good… well you get the idea; there was absolutely nothing to eat.

He sighed and slammed the door closed but flinched when something inside of it cracked open, he could hear it… even though he tried to ignore it. He even thought he heard something growling from within his refrigerator. Either his refrigerator was haunted or something in it was starting to come to life.

He sat at his kitchen table… one chair for him to sit in and no one in front of him to share his grief with. There was one of everything… it was so depressing. He stared down at his coffee… or what was left of it anyways. He sighed, "what am I supposed to do on a day like this?" He asked the emptiness that surrounded him.

He was still tired, the last few nights he couldn't seem to sleep. One excuse was Ed and his meetings, the other was… just he couldn't seem to sleep. Last night he wished that Ed was sleeping next to him, caressing his cheek or something like that.

However, he would open his eyes and see emptiness in front of him. He would look around to see emptiness, the same old white room with his same clothes, that he couldn't seem to pick up, strewn across his floor.

Roy's head hit the table in front of him and he just sat there, his face flat down on the table. He couldn't stop thinking about the night that was ruined. The night that would fill his urges for the next week or so, but, it was ruined. Stop short. Unfulfilled. So, he wanted it to come back.

He didn't entirely blame Riza or anything, he's the one who didn't make sure that everyone was gone, but still… he was a little ticked off.

He moaned, "hurry up and end…" he whispered.

'A day off… why the hell do people like days off?!' He hit his head on the coffee table.
A day off of work. He had no home life, so a day off is like… an entire day of listening to opera or something.

He sighed, 'just think about something…' He groaned.

Wait… something was coming to him… DUH!!!!

Edward!!!

'Yeah,' he thought, 'Edward is worth thinking about.' He blushed slightly at the thought of his smile and touch. Those golden eyes of his staring deeply into his own…

He remembered their first kiss. All the awkwardness after their first kiss was indeed strange yet so exciting. Then the kiss afterwards was even more enjoyable until he could remember when it felt like any other kiss from any other person. Well kinda… kissing Ed was different. It wasn't awkward anymore or anything like that. It was just more… desired. He would trade any normal kiss from any other person for Edward's any day.

It was all just an accident… yet it felt like it was supposed to happen.

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(Ok, I know that if Roy was remembering this then it would be in his POV. However… that means that I would have to right Ed's POV too later on… and I didn't want to so… I didn't. Yeah… if this was what Roy could remember then I guess he can remember things that he wasn't there for… he must read minds or something.)

Edward was talking to Al about who knows what. Something about if a cat's tongue feel more like a brick scraping against your skin or sand paper. Both of the objects felt the same so neither of them one.

A nice yet stupid man tested both of the objects out and after careful observation of the blood that was poring out of the poor mans hands… they realized they hurt just the same.

Ed had just gotten back from a lame excuse for a mission. However, like always, he had to make a lame easy mission into a hard explosive evil hating… fight for their life's kind of mission. Oh well… he was alive, as usual, and he didn't end up lighting a town on fire or killing some poor defenseless people or anything… well… maybe.

Yippers!! The lame mission needed to be reported! Can't say that Roy was happy to have to sit threw the whole 'this is what I did, this is what happened… please don't kill me' speech.

Ed always did something wrong. Roy was used to it so he really wasn't expecting what was about to happen. Just another boring, listen to the stupid report kind of visits. However, you can't expect anything that is usually normal to still be normal when Ed gets a hold of it.

Ok, so Edward walks in with a grin plastered on his face, Al is in some random place talking to some random person about random things like cats tongues.

Roy sat there staring at Ed with some look that said, 'if you shut up right now… I may just let you live'. Ed twitched, "you ok?" He asked absent-mindedly, "who me?" Roy asked sweetly, "I'm fine." he just kept that smile on his face as he stared at Ed.

Ed, who, needless to say, was inching towards the door just kept talking. Why was he talking when it was obvious that his talking was what was upsetting Roy? Who knows, he's just stupid like that.

Ed looked worried, "you want me to stop? You look like your ready to kill me"
"no. Its my job to suffer though these retarded reports… continue" Ed kept talking. Roy nodded a few times as his smile stayed on his face, only when it disappeared was Ed to make a run for it.

Ed kept talking about unimportant things, Roy half wondered if he was ever going to get to the point where he whines and says, 'it was their fault, not mine!! It was broken when I got there!!' Roy sighed as he knew it was coming soon. He couldn't stand Ed's voice, his voice was always there… screeching in his ears. Roy flinched when the voice stopped, here it comes, "and… the whole building… exploded…" The smile disappeared. (run Edward, run!!!)

The anger!! I mean, seriously, the evilness emanating from Roy could have ripped open a path in the space time continuum (I don't know what that means… but it sounds cool!!). Ed stepped backwards, "it what? You trying to tell me that the whole building… that three floored, five bathed, six roomed building… crumbled to the ground because of you?" Ed nodded slightly, a little scared… scratch that, really scared was more like it.

Roy jumped from his chair, "I'm waiting for the, 'sorry sir, just messing with you!!' part to come in!!" he was quiet for a few second. Was he actually waiting to hear it? Tsk tsk, he should have known better, it was never going to come.

Ed stepped backwards again but really started sweating when he noticed Roy walking around to the other side of the desk, facing Edward. Ed forced a small smile, big mistake. Roy looked even more angry and that's when Ed turned around to make a run for it. However Roy wasn't going to have that.

Another building, another problem for him to deal with, and it was all because if him!! It was all because of this boy!! How could someone so small make such big messes?!

A hand jerked Ed back by his shoulder, he twirled half way when his shoe got caught on… air?

He tripped and fell forwards, and not meaning to, he fell right into Roy's arms. Roy, who was surprised that Ed couldn't keep his feet on the ground, put his arms around Ed's small figure to make sure he didn't fall and kill himself. Ed's hands were placed on Roy's chest next to his face which was also pressed against Roy's chest.

It was quiet.

Disturbingly quiet.

They didn't do anything. Roy, who was way surprised, backed up against the desk, bumping into it causing pencils to clatter all over the floor. His arms were around Ed's small, frail, shoulders, holding him tightly. Ed's ear was against Roy's chest so all he could hear was Roy's heart beat which, as Ed listened more closely, was quickening with every second that ticked by.

Ed finally realized how weird it felt. Even more weird is that neither of them were doing anything about it. The anger gone. Completely gone. The tension just seemed to melt away, melt away into their own confusion. What was worse was that as they stood there, pressed together, they both secretly thought about how much they didn't want to move.

The rest of the day after that was kind of awkward. It was just a little trip, nothing that bad but when they were trying to get out of each others grasp it was weird because no matter how much they knew they should move their body didn't obey them.

They had pulled away from each other slightly and kind of looked at each other's flushed faces. They just stood there staring back at each other, Roy's hands on Ed's shoulders and Ed's hadn't moved from Roy's chest.

After their little moment they quickly stuttered out their good-bye's and Ed walked out the door… er… ran.

The next day they tried staying away from each other too. Yet both of them wondered why they were. It was just a accident for god's sake!! Just a little touch, nothing to amazing. Yet the electricity that went through them when they touched is what made it so weird. Also weird to actually see each other face to face again.

In the halls, if Ed was walking down one and Roy was somehow walking towards him they would blush and look away from each other as they walked past each other. They were acting like little kids… well Ed was a kid so e had an excuse. However Roy… was acting way too childish.

They were linked though. They were both in the military and Ed was under Roy's jurisdiction so it was only natural that they were gonna have to interact some time.

Roy had something for Ed… something that he had been meaning to give him for what seems like forever. He had some information for him… something that would probably lead Ed to leaving for a little while. However, asking someone to give it to him for him would only make what he was feeling worse. He wasn't some shy high school boy that had his first crush!

Roy stared down at the papers in front of him. One of them for Ed, 'its not that bad… just need to give it to him and tell him to leave… not that hard…' he closed his eyes, 'just don't get up… don't look at him… don't touch him…' His eyes shot open.

"What the heck?! Why would it matter?!" He quickly closed his mouth in fear that someone would think he was crazy for talking to himself. He shook his head, 'why do I care?! I didn't feel anything before that…' he blushed, 'accident…' He bit his bottom lip. Just don't… look at him.

He finally got enough courage to tell someone to get Edward for him.

Ed was with his brother sitting at a table studying some books. Then Hawkeye walked through the doors with a look on her face which wasn't any different than what she usually looked like. Ed and Al looked up, "What"

"Colonel Mustang wants to see you Edward"

"Now?" Al asked for his brother knowing that that was probably what his brother was going to ask next.

Ed didn't say anything though, "yes… I do believe he wants your brother there… now"

"Why?" Al asked his brothers questions again, "I don't know… doesn't your brother know how to speak? Why are you speaking for him?" They both turned towards Edward who… subconsciously sunk down his chair and slid off of it and down onto the ground under the table.

Al stood up and then bent down to look under the table, "brother"

"Yes Al"

"what are you doing under the table"

"sitting"

"why"

"Because I want to that's why!" he crawled out from under, stood up and then walked past Riza, "be back soon." He

walked out of the room. Leaving Riza and Al confused.

Ed stopped at the door and swallowed, his throat strangely dry. He straightened his jacket, shirt and made sure that his hair looked decent. His face was a little colored but he couldn't seem to make that change.

He was still fixing his hair when a thought dawned on him, 'Why am I trying to look nice for Mustang?' he asked himself with a horror-struck look on his face.

He quickly put the thought to the back of his mind. Whatever Mustang wanted him for shouldn't take that long so he would be done in no time. He knocked lightly and then opened the door gently. He poked his head in to see Roy staring down at his desk.

He looked up slightly but then his head went straight down again. Ed started walking towards him, already starting to sweat. He stopped in front of Roy's desk, "Taisa? Lieutenant Hawkeye said that you wanted to see me… what is it?" Roy was about to answer when he noticed that Ed was being extremely nice.

Why was he being so nice? Would his face explain things? Roy wanted to look but was slightly scared to.

He held up the folder, "Um that's for you…" Ed looked at it waiting for an explanation, "well aren't you going to tell me what it is"

"Just information…" He could already hear Ed's exclamation's, 'On the Philosophers stone?! Well its about time for some information, I mean, come one, I've been waiting forever!! You people are way to lazy-' his thoughts were cut short by a small voice, "oh ok…" Roy's eyes widened.

Ed was being… nice. Ok, he needed to look. So he did which was a mistake, he knew. When he did look he noticed that Edward was beyond nervousness.

So, he too, was feeling strange about this. His face was flushed and his eyes weren't looking at him either. They were kind of looking at the folder… the blank folder as if he could see through it to the contents that it held.

His hair looked smooth and silky, he always had a thing for Ed's hair. He secretly wondered how Ed could manage it. Why did he have long hair anyways? Roy's mouth opened a little after seeing how fidgety Ed was. He was obviously uncomfortable. The flushed cheeks were making the small boy look like a blushing school girl or something.

Roy's gaze fell to his neck which he could see was already coated in sweat. Then his gaze went down past the folder that was in his hand to his waist where it stopped a moment and then went back up.

Was he seriously just checking out Ed's body? Roy was absolutely appalled that he would even think about doing that even though, deep down, he knew that he had been doing that for years.

All day, even though he had been running from the thought, he was thinking about how Ed's hair felt. How warm his body was. How soft his cheeks were. How his lips felt up against his own.

Ed noticed the Colonels eyes leaving his and going lower and that scared the crap out of him. He seriously needed to get out of there, "uh colonel?" The man looked up at him, his face slightly flushed. Ed was getting redder and redder as the moments ticked by, "can I leave?" the man was in a trance, the thought of Ed's lips on his excited him. He couldn't understand why.

He then realized he was asked a question. What was it? Something about leaving? He didn't want Ed to leave, he wanted his body in his sights. He looked back up at Ed's face, "no…" Ed's eyes got wide as he held onto the folder tighter.

It was then that Roy understood what he said, "I- I… well… uh, um… that's not… I just… Full-" Ed stepped backwards. The man was stuttering… that was definitely bizarre.

So he had to feel the same way. Just as awkward as Ed felt. That was something to take note of. Why he was taking note of it? He really didn't know.

"yes Fullmetal you may leave…" Roy finally choked out between stuttering nonsense 'please just leave…' Ed nodded and quickly turned around and headed for the door. The thought of staying scared him. However, no matter how scared it made him he needed to say something about what was going on.

So he stopped in the middle of the room, "uh… colonel?" Roy looked up with confusion. Why was the boy still there? He stared at Ed's backside until Ed turned around slightly. He looked at Roy, "About earlier today…. I'm sorry." Roy bit his bottom lip again, "Sorry… about destroying the house" Roy let out a sigh of relief. Was that what he was talking about?

"And not being able to keep my footing…" Roy immediately tensed up. Why was he apologizing?! Ed started walking again, "sorry about what Fullmetal?" Ed stopped but didn't turn around.

Roy pressed on "it was just a small touch… what is there to be sorry about? Just a small trip and I caught you… that's all it was" Roy was trying to find a way to clear up everything but Ed suddenly turned around with an angry and scared look on his face, "No there was more to it than that!" the whole room became extremely quiet.

Ed's breath quickened when he noticed what he just said. The folder, which was wrinkled up from him clutching it so hard, fell to the floor. The papers scattering every which way in the process.

Ed quickly bend down to pick them up. Roy didn't want to get up to help him. He already broke the promise, 'don't look at him' and now he would break the 'don't get up' promise. However, he couldn't just leave the boy to pick the papers up all by himself. This may be a mistake… no, he knew it was a mistake… even so, he got up and made his way to Edward.

Ed saw his superior get up out of his chair and saw his figure slowly come towards him. He wished he would just stay in his seat and ignore the fact that Ed was even there. The man knelt down besides Ed and started picking up papers. They didn't really look at each other as they picked them up.

It was so weird. Ed seriously wished he was as far away from this man as he could get but… he couldn't. He was stuck there picking up papers with Roy on the floor. He was stuck in this weird situation… and there was no easy way out.

He finally heard a sigh escape Mustang's lips. He slightly glanced at him but tried not to make it obvious, "I'm sorry too Fullmetal." Ed twitched, "Sorry… for what?"

"For making it so awkward for you. For making you so uncomfortable." Ed nodded but still didn't look at him. Roy noticed this as he stared at the back of Ed's head.

His hair was so… golden and so perfect. He wanted to touch it, to see how it felt. Then again, he had enough self control for that… right?

"You wont even look at me." Roy said with a slight chuckle. Ed mumbled something and put some papers in the folder. Roy gave whatever papers he had to him, "I'm sorry… again"

"It wasn't your fault…" Roy really wanted to look at his face. It was obvious he was blushing uncontrollably. He could tell after looking at his neck and seeing the slightly redness on it.

"Ed… look at me." Ed shook his head and kept looking off in some random direction. It was strangely angering Roy, "Just look at me." He shook his head again and was surprised when he felt a hand on his cheek and he was suddenly forced to look at Roy.

Roy's eyes were somewhat nervous yet angered and kind of annoyed. It was a strange mixture of emotions to see on Roy's normally serious face. Ed stared at him for a few seconds as Roy stared back. The silence once again settling into awkwardness.

Roy suddenly smiled and Ed blushed more, he could feel his whole face becoming hot. Then he noticed the space in-between them slowly disappearing. Their lips were literally inches apart. He could feel the warmth of Roy's breath on his lips and it was strangely calming.

Then as if it just hit him Roy pushed him away. Ed fell backwards on his butt with a still flushed face yet now it looked kind of shocked then anything. Roy pointed towards the door, "Go… get out" Ed didn't need to be told twice.

He left faster than he ever has before, leaving Roy sitting on the floor mentally beating himself up. He was not gay, he didn't like Edward in any other way than a friend. Yet friends…. were hardly what you would call them.

He sluggishly walked towards his desk, "I looked at him... Got up… and touched him. Just kill me now…" He hit his head on the table a few times in frustration.

Edward walked back into the room where his brother was still sitting. Al looked up at his brothers blank face. Ed looked absolutely confused, scared, shocked… his mouth was wide open as he made it to the table his brother was sitting at. He sat down, not even looking at his brother. He just stared in front of him at this invisible spot on the wall.

Alphonse shifted nervously, "Is something the matter? What did the colonel want?" Ed dropped the folder on the desk and Al picked it up to look at it. He opened it but still looked at his brother's gaping look. Ed finally closed his mouth but then banged his head on the table for almost five minutes straight.

Obviously something was wrong. Ed usually didn't try to purposely knock himself out. So Al tried to talk to him, "Brother… what's that matter? Did the colonel do something?" Ed stopped but still had his face on the table. He turned towards his brother, "Everything is perfectly ok. Every thing is normal"

"riiiiiiight"

"Really it is"

"Are you sick"

"No"

"your face is all red"

"Still?"

"What happened"

"nothing… nothing at all… everything it fine." They dropped the conversation.

The next day nothing happened. As a matter of fact they didn't even see each other. It was like that for the next few days. People noticed but didn't say anything, they just gossiped between each other. They came down to a conclusion. The two just had another fight. The most obvious of outcomes.

The folder that was given to him had information about a ever so popular stone (bet you don't know what it is!!) and he decided that he should get right on that. Maybe that was what he needed. To get away from everything, to get a breather.

So he did. He went and told Roy that he was leaving, lucky enough that nothing happened when they talked to each other. Roy approved and told him to let him know when he was coming back. Also that he would have to give a report as soon as he did… get back.

'a report… just a report… please be just a report!' Ed thought while his stomach did another belly flop. Would he have to think that every time he was called to Roy's office? His stomach churned slightly at the fear in his heart. He just wasn't really looking forward to vomiting every time he was called into Roy's office.

(ok… freaking eight pages. This is pissing me off!! It wont end! My brain isn't producing an ending to this. Its in my head but it just isn't coming down onto the paper. So bare with me. This is going to be super long. Which is kinda funny because my first draft of this was one of my shortest ones.)

When Edward came back he was depressed. Just like every other supposedly 'lead' that Mustang gave him, this one turned out to be a waste of time. The report? Hey he didn't destroy anything this time!! It wasn't really a mission anyways… it was one of his side mission things that Roy sometimes let him do. Usually just to get them farther in their quest.

So the day he got back the events from before he went on the mission were strangely in the back of his mind. It didn't seem to matter to him anymore. He wasn't gay. He knew he wasn't. Well kinda knew. He can't say he ever had any kind of experience with feelings like this. Oh well, nothing to worry about.

Wait, the Colonel did try to kiss him didn't he? That was almost a kiss right? A kiss… He slightly wondered how it would be to kiss Roy. The thought of kisses Roy made his cheeks flush and he knew he couldn't go to Roy like this. So he tried to put it off until the last minute.

Roy was, needless to say, waiting patiently for Ed. After he noticed that it was getting extremely late he asked one of his subordinates who happened to walk in at that time, Havoc. He asked Havoc if he had seen Edward anywhere, "He hasn't come to see you yet sir? He said he was going to"

"Well he hasn't." Just then Riza walked in with another hand full of papers.

They both looked at her, "Hey have you seen Fullmetal anywhere? He was supposed to come and report in to me but… he hasn't seemed to do that yet"

"Yeah… he keeps saying he's gonna come but… ever time I see him again he says that he hasn't come around to it and that he will do it later. If you ask me… he's just trying to put it off." Roy nodded and then ordered the two of them to tell Edward to come and see him the next time they saw him.

Havoc told Edward when he saw Edward after he was just about to leave for home, "Your still here? Its getting late you know"

"yeah" Ed was still thinking about Ed's sudden almost kiss. Havoc shrugged, "The colonel said he wanted to see you way earlier today. He said he has been waiting for you for the whole day"

"So that means I have to go see him right"

"Sorry kid but yeah that's what it means"

"Ok…" Ed sighed and made his way towards Roy's office after telling his brother to wait for him until later.

The kiss was really started to bug him. He really wanted to kiss him, at least once, to see how it felt… just once.

He continued to think these thoughts until he reached Roy's office. He knocked and then entered to see Roy's face looking at his, "I guess… welcome back"

"Yeah like you care whether I'm back or not"

"Your right… I don't care." Ed glared at him evilly. Roy always did love to piss him off.

"so… how did it go"

"How did what go?" Ed was kind of out of it. The thought of kissing Roy still in his mind. Roy raised an eyes brow,

"what do you think"

"Oh! You mean the report… I'm supposed to be giving a report huh?" Roy sighed and rested his head in his hands.

He then nodded, "Yes… your supposed to be giving a report right now so why don't you go and give me a report." so Ed did. He told him everything. It was beyond boring. All he pretty much said is that it was another wild goose chase.

"What the hell kind of lead was that anyways"

"I heard about it so I gave it to you. You should be happy that I even gave it to you in the first place you know"

"wouldn't matter. It was a complete waste of time anyways"

"then maybe I should stop giving you all these things that I find out"

"no!! You can't do that"

"Actually… frankly… I can, and will if you don't start respecting the fact that I am." Ed just glared at him with his 'I hate you' glare.

Roy smiled, "I so do love that look on you." Ed blushed, "Yeah whatever…" he tapped his foot impatiently as he looked off in some direction with a slight flush on his cheeks. Roy chuckled, "You sure blush easily Fullmetal. Its to be expected after all… you're still a kid"

"I'm not a kid!! Don't call me little"

"I didn't call you little… I said you were still a kid"

"See you just said little!!" Roy smiled, "you even throw tantrums like a child." Ed's eye twitched, "God I hate you so much"

"Then why is it that you've been blushing every time you see me lately?" Ed stopped tapping his foot and looked back at Roy.

"its just that"

"yes?" Roy loved doing this, it was rude and terribly mean and he seemed to love to see Ed's flushed face either from anger or embarrassment. Ed then turned back to him and glared, "I'm just wondering… why the heck you almost kissed me…" It was Roy's turn to blush now and turn away.

Ed continued to glare, "You don't have a reason?" suddenly Roy stood up and sighed, "Well… sorry about the useless information I gave you… however… its late and I'm tired so if you don't mind… I'm going to go home." he grabbed some paper off the desk and put on his coat as he walked past Edward. He opened the door and flicked off the light.

Ed didn't want to be left in there so he walked out and watched Roy lock the door and then he too walked out. However, he didn't even look at Ed as he walked down the hall. Roy kept walking and it was obvious to Ed that he wasn't about to answer his question. He really wanted an answer so he ran towards Roy.

"You can't just almost kiss me and then walk away!! You realize how weird that was?!" Roy still looked a head if him with a blank expression. Yeah, sow hat if he had almost kissed him… what was he going to do about it?

Ed followed after Roy and only started yelling at him abut their problems when there wasn't anyone around to hear. Roy hurried through the halls hoping maybe he would lose the boy who was following him. He realized he wasn't going to lose him though so he figured if he ignored him and just kept walking towards home then everything would be ok.

He opened the doors to H.Q. angrily and started walking but heard little footsteps following him. The door to H.Q. closed and Ed started talking like crazy again, "So what? Are you just going to walk away? Are you going to just ignore the fact that you almost kissed me? I know you were going to, you know? I'm not just going to go and forget about it. So why did you do it? Do you feel something towards me?" Roy stopped at the top of the stairs.

Did he feel something towards him? No. He. Did. Not. He quickly turned around and stared at Ed who stepped back as if his stare was pushing him back. He then started chuckling, "What are you talking about Fullmetal? Feel something towards you"

"Yes. Don't go and tell me that you don't know why you were going to kiss me because I wont go for an excuse like that" Ed was sweaty from running after Roy even though he couldnt see it in the dark. Ed was also breathing hard and for that matter… Roy was too.

Why couldn't they just forget? Why did he almost kiss him anyways? Would he have kissed him if it weren't for the realization that hit him? He looked into Ed's eyes deeply, hoping to maybe find the answers in the boy.

Ed kept staring at him expecting an answer. Ed didn't know what came over him. All of a sudden he was fed up feeling like he didn't know anything and he was completely useless to find out. He wasn't useless and he was going to figure out why this was happening.

"Why? Why would you do that?……… Roy?" Roy suddenly gasped at the sudden name that came from the boys lips. Did he just say his name? His name suddenly sounded different coming from the boy… sweeter. Did Ed realize how much he was leading Roy on exactly?

They just stared at each other until Roy sighed once again, "Listen I'm sorry about almost kissing you… okay?" Ed swallowed and then looked even more serious, "Sorry about almost kissing me… or not kissing me?" Roy closed his eyes and actually started laughing. Ed stared, unsure of what to say.

Roy seriously thought it was a joke. Fullmetal really couldn't think that way… could he? Roy looked at Ed's face again and the smile suddenly disappeared when he realized the seriousness on his face. Ok… so the kid… wasn't joking?

"I'm sorry for… almost kissing you. Alright?" Ed let out a long breathe that he hadn't realized he was holding, "Oh thank god… your hesitating was starting to sca-" he was cut off by Roy's lips on his own. Ed stood there like an idiot. His arms at his side and his eyes wide as the man continued the kissing. It was innocent at first, as if it was just a simple kiss, but then Roy grabbed Ed by the arms and hardened the kiss.

Unsure of what to do or why Roy was kissing him he didn't really find the common sense to pull away. He just stood there letting Roy press his lips hard against his own. he stepped back but then Roy stepped forward getting even closer than before to him.

Roy wasn't sure what he was doing either. He just had a sudden urge to kiss the boy. He needed to see how it felt to kiss Ed… what his hair felt like. His hand went up to the back of Ed's head and gently stroked his hair, slightly running his hand through his hair, messing it up at the same time.

He finally got a taste of Ed. He was sweet and innocent. His lips yet to be tainted by another's. The taste was his alone. Just Edward, and it tasted so… incredibly good that Roy didn't want to let it go.

Finally the young boy protested. His hands on the mans chest trying to push him away. The man just held him tighter making the young boy yelp in his mouth. Their bodies firmly pressed against each other. Ed finally stopped trying to push away after realizing that there was absolutely nothing he could do. The mans hold on him was stronger than his will to get away.

Roy lifted off of Ed's lips and took long breathes. He could see Ed's surprised eyes and he could feel the short breathes that Ed was letting out. They were short gasps that had a hint of fear in them. However he saw… could it be… a small smile formed at Ed's lips. Roy smiled wide as he pressed his lips on Ed's again but this time Ed returned it with little hesitation.

So… the two unexpected lovers were kissing unnoticed out in front of Headquarters H.Q. one chilly night. Where they would kiss millions times afterwards in the exact same spot. They would kiss… feel… hide… again and again and again…

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Roy remembered how after their first kiss, the next day, he reiceved an angry call from the owners of the house that Ed destroyed not too long ago. However… for once… Roy was happy for one of Ed's little 'accidents'.

Roy smiled, his face down on the table. A chuckle escaped his lips. Ed was a handful. He always found a way to make things worse. Roy sighed, remembering all the occurrences in the past where he would have loved to take Ed's head off and mount it up on his wall.

He smiled though. He hated Ed, the damn screw up. Something turned in Roy, he hated him, so how come he wanting Ed there with him? Why did he want Ed in bed with him last night? Why did he want to go back to their secret meetings? Why did Roy love to hear Ed's voice whispering in his ears when, not too long ago, he wanted to cut out Ed's voice box?

He closed his eyes and fantasized about Ed and him. Maybe his fantasies would come true. Maybe they would come true sooner than he thought. Maybe they would do more than just kiss… and feel… and hide.

Ending Note: Well. Was that too long for your taste? It was too long to write thats for sure... well Review... please.

I"M STILL BEGGING!!! (damn it I'm so pathetic)